Trailer Trash - How it Began

I recently moved back to my home town after 35 years of living in major cities around the US. Now retired, I wanted to return to the slower life in a small town that goes from a winter population to a summer population of over 25,000!

It is a beautiful, peaceful town but because it is so small, the locals know everything about everyone in town. And because of this, having a bi side, that craves cock, is a secret that needs to be kept, making it difficult to find a cock for my craving.

I'm divorced, still date, and love women. I truly enjoy taking control of a beautiful, thin woman. I have always been successful in finding confident yet submissive women and have used my fair share of them.

Men don't turn me on. I never look at a man and wonder what is behind his zipper. The only reason I enjoy sucking cock goes back many years to when I was younger and a neighborhood bully forced me to suck his cock.

I was walking home from work and he caught me off guard in a wooded area. He was older and twice my size and told me he would beat me up if I didn't suck his cock.

He pushed me down to my knees. The knees of my jeans were getting wet from the damp dirt I was kneeling on. I had no choice and did as I was told. He grabbed his cock and slowly pushed it into my mouth. As scared as I was I also curious about sucking cock. Although soft at first, his cock grew to a rock hard 8 inches, and I sucked him for about ten minutes wondering how long this was going to take or what his game was. Suddenly his body went stiff and he grabbed my head and pulled my head in closer as he grunted and unloaded down my throat.

I tried to pull away but he grabbed my head and pulled it in closer until he was finished. His cock was in my throat and I knew he was cumming but there was no taste.

"Never, ever tell anyone about this or I'll kill you," he told me as he zipped up and walked away. And I never told anyone about that afternoon, until now.

Surprising to me, that afternoon didn't bother me and I started thinking about sucking his cock, and trying to suck cock again. I knew the owner of one of two of our fast-food restaurants in town was gay but he kept to himself. I tried on a number of occasions to see if he was interested in meeting some time but he never gave me the impression he would be interested.

Years later I found out he wanted to but we were twenty years apart and he didn't want any trouble if anyone in our small town found out.

During this time in my life I was very successful with both local girls and our summer visitors and by the time I moved away at age 22 years old I had slept with over 30 girls. What I learned from the bully incident was that I really only needed to use women for my personal pleasure and nothing else. Some lasted two or three dates, others were a little longer.

I always made these women suck my cock and when I came, I always held their heads in place to make sure they swallowed, just like the bully did to me. Surprisingly, most of the girls I was with were not bothered by this. When we did have sex I never wore a condom. Fortunately, I never had any problems because of that.

I needed a change in perspective and life it seal so I moved to a college town in Florida, where I continued dating women and using them for my pleasure. I worked in a mall and went out every night after work with a group of people for drinks and to party. One of the girls I was dating told me to be careful of "Bob," a local store owner because he was gay.

After a year in Florida, I had an opportunity to move west for a better job. The night before I moved I ended up going home with Bob he used me exactly like the bully had, unloading in my mouth and then walking away. I loved being treated like that.

Back to today, I've slept with many more women, and have had one-night stands with over thirty men. Always being the submissive one with men, always swallowing a man's cum. I've learned to love sucking cock, a man's balls, and I always swallow and lick a man clean when I am done.

If you met me at work (a local fudge store) or a bar, you would never guess that I love cock. I call myself straight, but I know better. I love women but prefer cock.

So meeting men here in Northern Lower Michigan is nearly impossible. There are a few online sites for men for men, but the only success I have had in the past two years is meeting one man 45 miles away from me, and only one time.

I have chatted online with several men, with little luck. During the summer months the available men online explodes with summer visitors, staying at local hotels, renting summer homes, or visiting by boat.

Unfortunately, in the off-season that number dwindles to about a dozen available men.

This past fall (off-season) I started chatting with three different men, all 50 miles away or further. My lust for cock pushed me into discussions I would never have had with anyone I had the possibility of meeting. These men being 50 miles away (100 miles round trip) were people I would not likely ever meet.

Each of the men I chatted with were unaware of the others I was communicating with. My lust for cock pushed me to a point that I would say anything to suck a man's cock. So I shared my thoughts from mild to kinky fetish ideas I wanted to explore.

My discussions start out by me letting a man know I literally melt when I see cock.

Now if it's a woman, to get my interest she has to be beautiful, thin, and younger than me and she can't smoke. I also love a woman with a hairy pussy.

With a man, it's all about his cock and balls. What gets my attention first is 7 inches or bigger and I love a hairy cock and hairy balls. But in my chats I let the men know that size doesn't matter. He can be 350 pounds or 150 bounds. He can be 4 inches or anything larger. He can be any race, I don't care. He can be 25 years old or 80 years old. And as much as I don't like being around smokers, it didn't matter when it came to hooking up with a man who smokes.

I also let them know I will suck anything they want me to. Cock and balls are a given. I will suck a man's nipples, lick his neck, back, and anything else a man wants. Anything that pleases him.

I've been asked to lick a man's feet. Yes. Armpits? Yes. Will I kiss? Open to the idea. Why only open to the idea? My first time shocked the hell out of me. The two other times were the opposite. The third and last time I kissed a man, I would have easily given up my anal virginity if we had some lube. My standing rule is oral sex of any kind on the first hookup. After that, if he wants my ass it's his, but never on the first hookup.

I also tell a man that if he wants to take my virginity I want it to be very special for the both of us. Special in that he has the choice of using a condom or taking me raw. I have always wanted to know what it feels like to feel a man unload inside of me. Having a man's cum running down my legs as I walk home or drive home would feel disgusting but so very sensual to me.

The following are questions and answers from chats I've had with these three men, and I cover these questions they ask individually with each of them:

What type of men are you attracted to? "I'm not attracted to men. I've hooked up with younger men, and much older men. I am attracted to cock and so far I've never said no to any cock I've had the opportunity to suck. I do prefer men who can get hard, with a hairy cock and balls rather than shaved. Body size is not an issue. I used to weight 310 pounds but today I am down to 210 lbs and still losing weight. I do prefer men who are married."

Have you ever been with a gay man? "Yes at least once. I didn't know it at the time but found out when I visited his house. His partner was working the late shift at the mall. I prefer married me because they have a hunger and a need for a willing mouth."

What was your experience with the gay man? "He was the third man to kiss me. It caught me off guard but it really turned me on. I enjoyed being with him and knew if we met again I would no longer be a virgin, but he had a guilt complex after cheating on his partner and didn't hook up after that."

Do you swallow? "Yes, I will swallow anything your cock can deliver."

Do you like to be called names? "Yes. Being called a cock sucker, bitch, or faggot turns me on. I live in a mobile home, so being called trailer trash also turns me on. No name is off limits."

Give me an example or two of what a man has called you please. "I was called a slut by a man who stopped by to feed me his cock. He looked down on me and said, 'You slut. I've been here for less than five minutes and you already have my balls in your mouth.' Another man, 76 years old and about 300 pounds was feeding me his 11 inch cock. I truly his cock. This was about the third time I was submitting to him, on my knees, and he said, 'Ok faggot, I'm just about ready to cum. Make sure you swallow every single drop of it.'" Being called a faggot turned me on more and didn't bother me at all.

Would you "date" a black man? "Yes, I just haven't had the opportunity to yet. Any race, yes. I actually want to hook up with a black man, a Mexican, and an Asian man."

Do you ever use a safe word that lets a man know you want to stop? "I have a rule. No means no. However, if I say, 'Please don't make me,' that's a phrase that means yes, I will do that for you."

Will you wear women's clothes? "Yes, if it turns you on."

Will you dress as a women for me? "It's possible, yes. There is no way I would pass as a woman."

Have you ever dressed as a woman for a man? "I've worn panties, nylon stockings, and lipstick. (He wanted to see my lip prints on his cock). I wore a dark red color and reapplied it several times that afternoon."

How did that make you feel? "He made me wear the lipstick and women's panties on my drive to his house. That scared me thinking if anything happened and I needed to stop, whoever saw me would laugh at me. I drove 35 miles one way and some people who passed by me noticed. Very embarrassing."

Would you wear make up, perfume, and nail polish for a man? "Yes, if asked to, but not in public, at least at this time."

How long is your hair? "It falls about 6 inches below my shoulders. I wear it long but pulled back because of my business dealings. I don't wear it to be feminine. I am very masculine."

Would you wear it down in public for a man? "Yes."

If I wanted you to wear your hair down for me, and then I grab it and pull you in closer to my cock when I get ready to cum, and I tell you to swallow every single drop, can I do that? "Yes. That would remind me of what happened with the bully on my first time. I like to be used."

Did you feel scared by what the bully did to you, forcing you to suck his cock and swallow his cum? "At first, yes, but on reflection no, not at all. I am grateful for what he did to me. I have craved cock ever since that day. If he was still alive today I would search him out and service him as much as he wanted me to."

Will you eat a man's ass? "That's one of two sexual acts that I find degrading and humiliating. That said, yes, if I am told to (not asked to but told to), and the man is clean. I would answer it like this, Please don't make me."

So you don't mind being humiliated and degraded? "No I don't mind it. I view my place with a man as being there to be used by him for his pleasure, like the bully who forced me to give my first blow job."

You said eating ass is one of two sexual acts that you consider humiliating and degrading. What is the other act? "Watersports."

You mean, like being pissed on? "Yes"

So, have you ever explored watersports? "No. Well yes, I have pissed on a few women but I have never been pissed on."

And how did it feel to piss on the women you used? "It was wonderful. I make them get on their knees in the shower with a bowl to catch any piss that they missed. I like to piss on their face and hair. I piss on them and make them swallow as much as they can. I know they will remember the taste forever, so it's better than just pissing on them. Any piss that flows into the bowl must be swallowed by the woman I am using. But I do both"

And you have never tasted piss before? "Yes, I have, but only my own. I experimented some time ago both tasting my own cum, and my piss."

How did that make you feel? "Cheap. My piss tasted disgusting. My cum wasn't bad at all. I did this about 6 times. Each time I felt as if I had degraded myself as best I could. I always swallowed all of my piss, including catching some in a bowl. I discovered my piss first thing in the morning was the most bitter. I have also swallowed all of my cum. Many more times than swallowing my piss."

But you have never tasted another man's piss? "No, never. Most men I talk to about it aren't interested."

Do you want to? "You're asking me if I want a man or men to piss on me?"

A man or a woman, yes. Would you like that? "No, not a woman. Yes, I would want a man to piss on me and make me swallow as much as I can and wear the rest."

Why do you think you want to drink a man's piss? "I grew up in the era of porn on video tapes and worked in a video rental store. I saw it all. My favorite two male porn stars are Max Hardcore and Shane Diesel. Max was relentless with the women he used. I didn't like it when they threw up, but I did enjoy watching him force them to suck his cock (hard face fucking) and his ass, as well as watching them swallow his piss."

When was the last time you swallowed your own piss? You said it was some time ago. "Actually I've swallowed my own piss three times in the past three months, and several times over the past thirty years."

What made you do that? "Most recently as I was chatting with men online and they individually challenged me to prove I would do it by swallowing my piss."

So you just told them you had swallowed it? "No, I had to take pictures of me pissing into a glass, and swallow it. One man made me take a video of me swallowing it."

Did you do anything special before you swallowed your piss? "I always take a vitamin B packet every morning. When I piss the color is a very bright yellow. I can drink a couple of bottles of water and 30 minutes later piss, so that's all I needed to do."

How did you feel about being told to do this? "Like a cheap whore. But I loved it."

If you could map out how you want a man to piss on you for the first time, how would it go? "I had it all planned out before but have amended it a bit after talking with a pervert in Lansing. He suggested that I piss into a bowl first, then he would make me get on my hands and knees and he would force my head into the bowl and make me lap out every drop of my piss before he pissed on me."

How did that make you feel? "I thought he was crazy at first, but he continued telling me each time we chatted about how wonderful it would be and I would love it. The idea grew on me and I would absolutely like to try that. I would be wearing a white long-sleeved T-Shirt, and after I drank my piss I would crawl into his shower and let him piss on me. All over my face and head, and swallow as much as he could. I would use the bowl to catch anything I missed and drink that up. He constantly reinforced the idea that his piss tasted delicious and I would love it."

Why the white T-shirt? "He wanted me to walk around his condo complex at dusk, with the wet shirt stained in yellow piss to humiliate me. If that didn't work out he wanted me to drive back home 35 minutes away, wearing the wet T-shirt"

What did you say to him when he told you this? "After the idea settled in my head I said my magic words ... Please don't make me do that."

So, in other words, yes, please piss on me? "Yes."

You mentioned Shane Diesel as your second favorite male porn star. Why Shane? "He is black and has an amazing-looking huge cock and big balls. Plus, although he didn't treat women like Max Hardcore did, he almost always made his women suck his balls, and swallow his load or give them a creampie."

So if it was possible, would you like to have been used by Max and or Shane? "Maybe Max. I don't think he would have held back so maybe not. If it was just a blow job, being pissed on and receiving anal, then yes. With Shane, yes, anything he wanted me to do."

Would you have rimmed either of these men? "Please don't make me... both."

Do you have any favorite female porn stars? "Yes, Ginger Lynn from the 80's and Riley Reid. Ginger was beautiful with an amazing body. She seemed to love to suck cock and balls, and swallow cum. While watching her videos I always wished I was in her place servicing the men she was with. She did a few black guys in the early days when it was not a common practice. And I remember one scene with a white guy who pulled out of her and came all over her hairy pussy. She rubbed his cum all over her pussy and it just glistened. I so wanted to go down on her. Riley Reid because of all of the black cock she handled. She did an interview once and said she would never eat a black man's ass. Since then I have seen her rim three different black men. She is such a perfect slut. Her actions have encouraged me to rim a man, but I need to be told to do it, not asked."

What else do you like to do? "I like to hand my phone to the man I am submitting to and let him take photos of me servicing him. I also want to be video tape when I eat his ass, and when I get pissed on, and also when I give up my anal virginity."

Would you share the photos and video? "I prefer to keep them private but I would share them with the man who has used me. I use some photos I have now on one of my online adult profiles. I have also considered being used online by a man in a live video, but I don't think I could do it."

Do you ask the men what turns them on the most before you meet them? "In my chats I can tell what they want. Surprisingly many men haven't had their balls worshiped. Others ask me if I swallow. I find it hard to believe a man sucking another man's cock wouldn't swallow. One thing I always ask the men I am chatting with what the one thing they would like me to do as soon as I walk in their front door. I tell them to make it memorable."

What are the answers you get? "They are very vanilla. Usually the just want me to suck their cock first, but they already know I am going to do that anyway. I would much rather have a man tell me to kiss his ass, or lick his feet, or nipples. Or what ever he wants to know I can be a perfect slut for him."

What else is on your bucket list to try sexually? "There is so much. I still want to eat a creampie out of a woman's pussy. I want to have two men at once, one in my mouth and one in my ass. I want to be pissed on by a group of men. I want to try a true glory hole for a night. I would like to be used as a whore for at least a night. One man or several different men. To be a whore I would have to charge so I am thinking, maybe a dollar to make it official. I don't want the money. I just want to be used as a whore and be called a whore. I would like to service a group of men playing cards, under their table too. There are probably other things that I can't discuss. But what I won't do is anything with under aged people Never ever. In fact, I think I prefer men be at least 30 years old or older."

Would you allow a man to take your ass then feed you his cock to clean off afterwards? "I don't know if I could do that. Please don't make me do that."

You called the man in Lansing you talked with a pervert. I think listening to your answers you are the pervert. But I mean that in the nicest way. "Thank you."

The above discussions occurred with each of the three men over a few weeks. They all encouraged me to get out there and explore some of these desires.

What happened next caught me off guard, and it will be in my next chapter.