Fetish Clinic Recollection Number 1

Welcome to the first in my series of recollections from my sessions at the fetish clinic.

I first visited the doctor at the fetish clinic two years ago. I won't reveal too many specifics in order to remain anonymous. The clinic itself is in the city and on the 3rd floor of a 4 story Victorian building overlooking some of the city. In the middle of the room there is a steel hospital bed with metal stirrups and restraints. Beside this, a typical moving medical light. On the walls there are diagrams of medical instruments and genitalia.

There is a hydraulic pump system to the left of the room and to the right there is some apparatus for electrical stimulation. In the main room there is a sink and a station with latex gloves, masks etc. There are various sized probes and speculums on display and storage for metal instruments is on wheels alongside Doctor's chair. In the small adjoining room, there is a wet-room shower system with a chair with restraints attached.

The first session began with a discussion about my treatment plan and what I wanted from the clinic. We agreed the main aim was frequent pain training, with a particular focus on my clitoris. I was open to almost all of doctors suggestions, including but not limited to: use of metal clamps; use of Wartenberg wheels (pinwheels); electric stimulation and shocks; clitoral pumping; clitoral binding; impact play on my vulva (spanking, beating); use of sensitivity-increasing gels and substances; extreme vibration; water torture; overstimulation; and orgasm denial. As I was a beginner to the fetish I also stated my wishes to undergo some procedures recommended by doctor that I possibly wouldn't have otherwise. These included suturing, needle play, vaginal stretching and anal play. I had to sign two forms: one giving my consent and one waiver, in case of anything going wrong.

After the initial consultation, I was told to undress for my physical assessment and examination. I was nervous but the thought of the sensations I'd experience as part of my treatment turned nerves to excitement. I was asked to stand still, arms up and to part my legs (essentially standing in an "X" shape). Doctor put latex gloves on and began by listening to my back with a cold stethoscope, this was moved to my chest and then on both nipples. Doctor then explained the next step was a sensitivity check.

This began with the sensation of doctor's gloved fingers on the sides of my raised arms. Then down both of my sides, down the sides of my legs and then onto the inside of my calves. This continued upwards to my inner thighs, until they reached my vagina which gave me a shock. It was cupped for around 20 seconds and squeezed gradually tighter. When this was done, doctor moved to my breasts, which were examined in a similar fashion before my nipples were assessed. Doctor flicked my nipples and then put them between two fingers and squeezed them until the pain was quite extreme which caused me to moan. Even after moaning, Doctor continued to grip my nipples at this pressure for another 20 or so seconds and explained this was part of the pain training. Doctor then pulled my nipples away from my body painfully and slowly, maintaining the pressure until they were free. This was very sore but incredibly pleasurable. Doctor then marked something down on a clipboard.

Next I was told I could lower my arms and was ordered to lie on the bed with my feet in the stirrups. I remember feeling quite embarrassed as this would have been the first time being this exposed. The stirrups were also quite far apart for someone of my height, so I had to stretch my legs further apart than I expected to. I was told to take a deep breath and that a sensitivity check on my genitals was necessary.

Doctor moved the light from above the bed and positioned it so that it shone onto my vagina and moved the chair closer. I was still quite embarrassed so I didn't look directly at the examination, but I could feel my outer lips being pulled even further apart. Doctor then spread my inner vaginal lips and looked inside. I felt a tug as my clitoral hood was then retracted as far back as it could go and doctor observed my clitoris but didn't touch it directly.

Doctor explained that I would feel some pinching and I had to tell on a scale from 1 to 5 how much it hurt. The pinching started on my outer vaginal lips. It wasn't bad at first so i said "one", the pressure then increased gradually but didn't surpass a two. Doctor then continued this assessment on my inner vaginal lips, working from the bottom (nearest my anus) to the top (nearest my clitoris). The first pinch was a "two" with it increasing to a "three" and the closer it got to my clitoris, I was almost at a four.

Doctor wrote something down on the chart and then returned to my vulva.

It was explained that the pinching would continue and this would be the most painful part of today's examination.

The pinching started at the top of my clitoris (nearest my belly button). The first pinches were just on the clitoral hood, which started at a two and the closer the pinches got to the tip of my clitoris, became a four.

The next pinches were the most painful and started again at the top of my clitoris, however this time the pinches were deeper so that my clitoris itself was grabbed. This started at a three at the very top of the clitoris (nearest the bellybutton), Doctor moved down my clitoris slightly and the pressure stayed at a three, then the pressure increased in this spot and became a four which made me moan. The next pinch was a few millimetres further down and closer to the tip, the pinch was maintained at an increased pressure, a four. I had never pinched or clamped my clitoris before, at least not this hard, so this was a unique feeling. The pressure was increased again in this spot and the pain became a very high four, verging on five.

For the next pinch, my clitoral hood was retracted fully. I remember starting to panic slightly. Even just feeling touch directly on my clitoris was about a 3 but just light pinching would have taken it to a 4 immediately. I remember surmising that the dry, powdery latex gloves that doctor was wearing would have increased the traction and made it easier to grip the clitoris which itself had increased in size due to the stimulation and progression of the treatment, also making it easier.

My clitoral hood was pulled back tight by Doctor's left thumb and my exposed clitoris head was quickly stimulated with a gloved finger before being squeezed in the same fashion as per the rest of the treatment, between doctor's right thumb and forefinger. The pain started at a four and the pressure quickly build to a five as my clitoris was crushed which caused me to cry out. Doctor maintained this pressure for around 15 seconds which was incredibly painful and then started pulsating the pressure, squeezing my clitoris head at a medium pressure, then very hard, which if using the scale would have been 4/5/4/5/4/5 repeatedly. This was painful but pleasurable. Doctor then began to pull my clitoris away from my body as much as possible. This was agonising and scary, especially when it slipped out from the firm grip. I cried out multiple times. This treatment stopped after around 20/30 seconds but my clitoral hood was still retracted.

The doctor explained that my reflexes would be checked and to do this my exposed clitoris had to be hurt sharply 5 times.

Doctor flicked me hard on the right side of my clitoris and counted one. This was a sharp pain rather than a gradual build up of pain like the other treatment and I made a noise. The second time, the left side of my clitoris was flicked. The feeling of hard nail hitting my exposed clitoris at speed and force was painful and very shocking, I felt a bit panicked but also excited and I knew this treatment was necessary. The third time, my exposed clitoris was flicked directly in the centre which felt different, like I could feel pain all over my body and I of course moaned in pain and jumped. The fourth time, it was my right side again and the last time the clitoris was flicked the hardest, directly in the centre again and I yelped in pain. I was relieved this treatment was over.

Doctor made more notes in the chart and said I had become quite wet which was a good response to treatment but this had to be cleaned before I could leave. My exposed vagina was sprayed with a solution which stung a little and Doctor used a tissue to wipe my vaginal opening and then roughly wiped my clitoris for around 10 seconds. Doctor said that I did really well but that this was only just the start of my pain treatment which would become more extreme.

I was told to get up, dress and make an appointment for my next treatment.