My Submissive Story Pt. 01

I was curious one evening and found myself exploring bondage porn which quickly turned into BDSM. I found myself fascinated and captivated immediately by it. I always wanted to be the one tied up, whipped and tortured. I wanted that feeling of helplessness and to lose all control.

In the coming days I found myself exploring BDSM more and more. I researched it every spare moment I had. I quickly discovered what got me wet, what I didn't think I'd like and what I wasn't too sure about. I learnt about safe words and soft/hard limits. I learnt how the dominant should respect the submissive's limits and if they safe word depending on what was agreed everything stops. I learnt I wanted to submit to someone and have them control me in ways I couldn't imagine.

The more I researched the more I wanted. I couldn't get enough, I was addicted. Then I found other people like me, obsessed with BDSM. I found clubs local to me, online dating sites and forums. It was like I had discovered a whole new world.

After two months of researching the world of BDSM I decided to use a website to see if I could find a dominant.

It was Friday 2pm my working week had finally finished, and I was vibrating with excitement to get home and begin my search for a Domme. I had an idea in my mind of what I wanted, someone firm but fair. Someone who was equally cruel as they were kind. I just wanted someone to guide me through this journey of self-discovery and teach me.

I raced home and got cosy in my pyjamas, poured myself a glass of red wine and set myself up on the computer. I found a BDSM website immediately and signed up to it confidently. I set up my profile quickly with the title "Inexperienced sub looking for an experienced Domme". Once my profile was set up, I decided to look through the different dominant's profiles. One caught my eye immediately. Her title was "Domme looking for sub fems". I read through her profile, and she stated that submission was a gift not to be taken for granted. She had over 10 years' experience being a dominant. She was a couple of years older than I was and she was perfect. My hands were shaking uncontrollably as I continued to read through her profile.

As I read on, I found myself getting turned up by this mysterious woman. I was about to send her a message when suddenly, the exact same woman popped up at the bottom of my screen on the chat feature.

MD: Hello sub, would you like to get to know me?

My hands shook like crazy. My whole body was ignited, I was terrified, yet excited. I took a minute to compose myself. This was what I wanted and yet I was so scared to take the leap. I took a deep controlled breath and replied.

Me: I would like that yes

MD: Excellent, here's my contact details. Contact me when you're ready and we can get to know each other better at your pace.

It was like she could feel how nervous I was through the screen. Her message immediately relaxed me and put me at ease.

Me: Thank you

MD: I look forward to hearing from you :-)

I wrote down her contact details on a piece of paper at my desk. My hands had stopped shaking and I felt a calmness wash over me.

A few days had passed by, I decided to be patient and not immediately message the mysterious woman. I wanted to be sure this was what I wanted before I dove in headfirst. All I could think about was her profile and what it said. She consumed my every thought immediately. I gave in after two days.

I logged into the BDSM website again and I had a message in my inbox. My stomach fluttered with excitement when I saw it was off her.

MD: I'm a patient woman, but I do not like to be kept waiting for too long. If you are interested, I suggest you email me. I am in the market for a new sub, and you tick all my boxes. I can see in your profile, a virgin sub. Let me mould you into the most perfect sub. You are like a blank canvas right now. I look forward to hearing from you.

I audibly gulped; my mouth was dry. How did she have such an effect on me with just her words. A blank canvas? A virgin sub? She oozes confidence and authority.

I decided a few days was enough and I emailed her.

Me: Hello, it is me from the BDSM website. Sorry it has taken me a few days to email you I've been really busy with work (I lied). I am not really sure how this all works you're the first Domme I've spoken to. I hope this email finds you well and speak soon.

I quickly closed my computer down not waiting for a response and headed to the gym. I need to work off some of this excitement.