A Distant Longing

A Distant Longing

A Distant Longing

By Nick Axel

(Eros, son of Aphrodite, her lust he did fire, a deep and penetrating need for carnal desires. She heeded his call and searched for her Adonis and when she found him, she climbed his mountain. Once there, she made him hers and hers alone.)

Melody stood in the middle of the Ridgeway Mall concourse nervously shifting her weight from one foot to the other. She still questioned her desire to be with this man. She nervously ran her fingers through her long auburn hair as she thought back on how she came to be there on that Saturday morning.

Memories of a distant past filled the shelves of her mind as she leisurely strolled through the halls of her memories. Back to a time when most of the kids in her high school worked at the local amusement park, Cosmos Crossing. That's where she first met Elijah.

Eli was one of the popular kids that everybody wanted to hang with. He was muscular from working on his daddy's farm. His chiseled features tanned from his time in the sun. He stood tall among his classmates, always noticeable in a crowd. All the girls back then wanted Eli and rumors said more than one did. She had just never found a way to draw his attention to her.

She wasn't one of the popular girls. She had never grasped the concept of makeup that made her breakout the few times she did wear it. Her body had developed early and her mother made her wear baggy clothes so that 'nasty boys', in her mothers words, would overlook her

"Beware of the sins of the body child! Boys only want one thing! They're nasty vile creatures, stay away from them lest they defile you!" She could still hear her mothers voice. She never told her mother that her young body yearned to be defiled. More than once she lay in her bed at night, dreaming that all boys wanted her as she let her hands wander across her aching flesh.

A few weeks earlier, Melody had run across a group website dedicated to the people who used to work at Cosmos Crossing. She was flipping through the pictures that other people had posted when his face suddenly appeared. Seeing that picture, reignited the lust she had for him as a teenager. Now though, at this point in her life, she felt confident enough to express her desire to be with him. She decided to set out on a quest, to have this man in a bed, even if it was just for one time.

She just needed to get his attention first. She started her quest by simply liking some of his posts. Whenever one of his posts were sexual in nature, she would make veiled innuendos.

It surprised her when one night, he responded to one of her veiled comments with an evil grin emoji. Perhaps he was starting to get the message. In one of his posts, about guys not being able to give a girl an orgasm, she decided to comment 'I'll bet you can' He posted the evil grin in his response yet again.

But just like the distant years of the past, sixty miles separated them today. Eli lived south of her in the big city. Not like she could just pop in on him any time she wanted. The city scared her with its traffic and noise. She had embraced the small town life after moving here with her first husband, someone she'd just as soon forget.

One night, in a post he shared of a beautiful wooden four poster bed in an expansive bedroom, she felt her lust for him rising again. So, with alcohol for confidence, she decided to message him just how much he turned her on and what she wanted him to do to her in that big, beautiful bed.

She opened the app and sent him a message; "Crazy dream I had last night. I thought you'd like this. As I bend over the edge of that beautiful bed with my long legs, you were standing behind me, fucking me hard. You smack my ass hard and I came multiple times with you. I really wish that it hadn't been a dream."

She mulled over the use of the word fuck and thought about changing it. Her hand hovered over the screen as she contemplated another word or phrase when her little finger brushed the send key. A swoosh sound seemed to echo through the room. "Oh well" she thought to herself, too late to change it now.

She stared at the blinking cursor for a long time. Had he seen her message? Had she scared him away? Had she turned him on? Suddenly she found herself right back in her teen years, scared of boys, scared of rejection, scared of... everything.

An hour passed and then another and still he didn't respond. She nervously paced through the rooms of her small apartment. A heavy sigh escaped her lips and she finally decided to just go to bed. Like a weighted blanket, her fear of rejection pinned her to her bed. Her foolish message haunted her. Her eyelids grew heavy as the Sandman worked his spell on her.

II

The jangling bells of the alarm woke her the next morning. For a moment, Melody thought perhaps the whole thing had been a dream but she knew it wasn't so. She cautiously turned her phone over to look at the screen. Eli still hadn't responded. Groaning in fear, she raised herself from her bed to begin her day.

The bathroom mirror and bright morning light made her regret the weight she had gained over the years. Her stomach was no longer taut and she had a noticeable muffin top. Her legs had grown thick and her hips were wider. Her breasts had sagged slightly under their own weight. Still, she thought, I fit into the MILF category.

Standing under the warm water of the shower brought the blood of desire to the surface of her skin, awakening all of her senses. Her soapy hands were stimulating as she passed them over her rigged nipples. She felt a desire for him growing in her again. Just when she decided to fantasize about making love to him, a pop-ding came from her phone, making her jump.

She hurriedly rinsed and grabbed a towel, quickly running it over her trembling body just enough to not drip on the floor as she excitedly reached for her phone and turned it over.

"Dammit!" The word escaped her lips.

It was from her boss. They were expecting a big day and he was asking her to come in early if she could. Another frustrated sigh escaped her lips and since she hadn't heard from Eli she responded, 'Ok but you're going to owe me one someday'

As she started out the door, her phone made the pop-ding sound again.

"Prolly just my boss" she muttered to a cat laying on the sidewalk. The cat stared back and flicked his tail. She opened the door of her car and sat down in the driver's seat.

Fumbling through her purse she found her phone and turned it on. It was from Eli! Her heart stopped and jumped to her throat. Fear rushed adrenaline through her arteries as her mind spun a thousand different thoughts. Her shaking hand touched the screen to read his reply; "Wow" was all it said.

The dancing ellipsis told her he was still typing. She held her breath longer than she wanted too. It seemed an eternity before his words flashed onto the screen; 'That's an exciting thought. Let's talk tonight after work.' Her hands were shaking so bad that she could barely get 'Ok' typed out.

His dark eyes floated in front of her, constantly distracting her as she drove to work. Once there, she kept trying to push him from her mind to concentrate on her task but the thoughts kept returning to her, his ghostly lips exploring her sensitive skin. His hands running down her back.

At lunch Melody resisted the urge to text him again. "Try to act like a normal person instead of a horny teenager" she chided herself. Still her mind roamed again to his arms around her, his lips kissing hers. It was making her wet.

Her panties began to feel cold where her juices had seeped out, making it uncomfortable to just sit there. Something had to change before it began to stain the chair. Nervously glancing around to see if anybody was looking at her, she slipped into the bathroom, locking the door behind her. She pulled her wet underwear off, hanging them on the stall handle.

She let her fingers explore that wetness as her desire built. The sound of slick-slick-slick as she rubbed circles around her clit filled the room. She drove her fingers deep into her wet depths, holding her breath to keep from moaning as she rapidly finger fucked herself. The slapping and sucking sounds filled the room. Her orgasm made her cry out a little and she prayed that no one had heard the sounds emanating from the bathroom. She gathered herself together, pulled her panties from the stall handle and stuffed them her into her purse.

She peaked out the door to see if anybody had noticed and then quietly made her way back to her desk, where she managed to gain some control over herself. The workload helped push the lustful thoughts from her mind.

Looking up at the clock, she found that the afternoon had passed quickly. She was done with her work and it was time to go. She quickly said her goodbyes and almost skipped to her car in anticipation of talking to him.

When she arrived home she quickly changed into shorts and a t-shirt and plopped down on the couch. Taking a deep breath she opened the app. "I'll just see if he's online yet" she thought to herself. She typed hello, but there wasn't an immediate reply.

As she waited, she checked her social media apps and responded to her mothers email, flipping back to see if he had answered yet. She was watching a cat video when a banner appeared at the top of the screen;

Eli: Hello

Her hands started to shake a little bit as she closed the open apps.

Melody: "Hi, How are you tonight?"

Eli: "I'm good, yourself?"

Melody: "Good"

Eli: "That message was exciting."

"I shouldn't have sent that"

"I'm glad you did."

"Does it bother you that I think like that?"

"No, not at all. I found it exciting."

"Good, I've thought about you over the years."

"Really?"

"Yes really"

"TBH, I thought about fucking you back then"

"I didn't think you even noticed me."

"I did, I was just with someone else so I couldn't really tell you."

"I'm aware. What was her name? Jeri? Randi? something?"

"Jeri, turns out she was a lesbian."

"Really???"

"Really, everyone seemed to think we were doing the deed but the truth was, I never did get her off. Not once."

"Wow"

"I'll say. Turns out my cousin Heather could get her off."

"Holy shit!"

"It was a blow to my ego for sure. But that's not important now. I want to remember the day I came across you sitting on one of the park benches, wearing a pair of denim shorts and a red halter top. You looked so delicious I wanted you right there on the park bench. But I was still trying to make Jeri happy. I always felt it was a missed opportunity."

"I don't look that way anymore, you understand that right?"

"And neither do I, I just don't want to miss a second chance at you even now. Tell you what, I'll send you a pic if you send me yours...."

Melody sat back on her couch, "in for a penny in for a pound" she thought to herself. She tried to remember pictures other girls took of themselves but she wasn't sure if it was her. She decided to roll her t-shirt up exposing her midriff and the bottoms of her breast, stopping just below her nipples.

She lay back on the couch and tried to put a seductive look on her face as she snapped the pic. She looked awkward. She quickly deleted it and tried again. It was a little better but she had wasted enough time. She selected it and sent it to him.

'Niceeee....' He typed back. His picture appeared on the screen. She hadn't seen a current photo of him and was a little taken back seeing him much older than she remembered. His hair was more silver than black. The lines on his face told partial stories of his life. His eyes were still dark and penetrating, she felt a sliver of excitement dance through her.

"Look at you, you're still handsome."

"Aw shucks ma'am" she could hear his southern drawl.

"Seriously, you're turning me on."

"Good, you're doing the same thing to me."

"Mmmmm... Too bad you're so far away."

A silence fell over them, each staring at their glowing screens, unsure how to proceed. Minutes passed.

"Melody, do you want to plan a day together with me?"

"I think I would like that Eli."

"Cool, so when are you available?"

"How about next Saturday? We can meet at Ridgeway Mall. It's about halfway between us."

"Okay, I can be there around 11 if that's good for you."

"Perfect! I'm so looking forward to this. I hope I'm not a disappointment."

"No baby, you're not gonna disappoint me. I still find you highly desirable."

A warm flush flowed through Melody's body as the thought of holding him in her arms.

"Till next Saturday my sweet man. I'll be thinking about you..."

"And I'll be thinking about you.... Goodnight Melody."

"Goodnight Eli"

She closed her screen and lay back, letting out a long sigh. She knew she'd dream about him again before sleep overtook her. Sixty miles south, Eli was having the same thoughts.

III

That's how Melody came to find herself standing in the Ridgeway Mall concourse that Saturday morning at eleven AM.

Staring down at her feet, she wished she had worn different shoes. When she looked up again, Eli was coming towards her. Gliding across the floor, his back straight, his confidence shining through. Her knees buckled slightly and she felt a little faint but resolved herself to see it through.

His dark, enigmatic, eyes met hers and she felt him dive deep into her soul. She felt a tingling between her legs that had been absent from her life for too long. Melody felt his strong arms envelope her, the warmth of his chest pressing into her mounds, her nipples responding by growing hard against the heat of his body.

Eli lifted her chin and lowered his lips to hers, she parted them and his hungry tongue drove deep into her mouth twisting around hers. She could feel the hardness growing, pressing against her. She almost forgot where they were as she thought of dropping to her knees.

"Why don't we get something to eat? There's a good Mexican restaurant next door." His words broke her thoughts.

She wanted to go at his pace even though she was ready to jump on top of him right there. "Ok, tacos and tequila sounds good."

"Welcome to Tazas y Cocina, table for two?" asked the girl standing at the desk. "Would you like to sit inside or out on the patio?"

"On the patio." they both said at the same time. "Jinx, you owe me a Coke." Melody laughed

He took her hand in his and silently followed the waitress outside through the sliding doors. He pulled her chair out for her and sat opposite. A figure appeared at the side of the table. "Hi, I'm Julie." She placed menus in front of them. "Can I start you off with a frozen margarita today?"

Melody's eyes quickly searched Eli's before she responded, "Yes please" 'I'll go get the drink ordered started while you look at the menu'" Julie scurried away. Melody knew that what she wanted wasn't on the menu. What she wanted was sitting across from her.

His dark eyes held hers in his gaze. The world around them faded away. They were an island in and of themselves. His hand slid across the table and he ran a finger up and down her open palm.

She shivered in the pleasure of his touch. Her tongue lightly wet her lips, his eye's intently watching her desire build. She could see the flames of desire in his soul.

"Okay folks here we go." Julie had suddenly appeared again, this time with a tray full of chips, salsa and margaritas. "Now have y'all decided on something from the menu?" Eli glanced up at her, "Just a plate of nachos for now." 'Got ya'" Julie replied. "Enjoy those drinks and I'll be back in just awhile with your nachos" She faded away and they were alone again.

Melody seductively suck at the straw of her drink as she reached her foot out and touched his leg, making him jump a little. She couldn't stop a little giggle from escaping her lips.

"Oh so that's how it is huh" Eli extended his leg and placed it on top of her thighs. She untied his shoe and pulled it off. Spreading her legs a little so he had full access to her crotch. She pulled her chair a little closer so his heel was pressed against her smoldering mound. She let a silent moan come from her parted lips as she closed her eyes. When she opened them, she was greeted with his wicked grin.

"So you're an exhibitionest I see." Eli was enjoying the fact that anybody could have seen what was going on. He glanced around at the other tables but none of them were looking back.

"Not really, I just want you that bad. Why don't you just lay me across the table and fuck me right here?" His cock jumped with excitement as he thought about the show they could put on for their fellow diners. "I'm pretty sure we could get arrested for that. It does give me an idea though. Have you ever done it outside? In a kinda public place?"

Clanking and rattling broke the spell as Julie appeared again with their nachos, setting the plate in the middle of the table and placing smaller plates in front of them. "There you go folks. Can I get you anything else?"

Julie suddenly became aware of the palpable sexual tension flowing between them and quietly said in her mind, a place to fuck perhaps. You can borrow the manager's office. I've done it there before. "If you think of anything, just give me the look and I'll be right over." She turned before a wicked grin played across her face. "I'd watch that." she said to herself.

Eli pulled his foot back and wiggled it into his shoe. She took a bite of chips and a long string of cheese fell down her chin. He watched her tongue erotically lick the errant cheese. The excitement was almost magical.

She picked up a jalapeño and sticking out her tongue, she gently placed it in the middle and slowly pulled her tongue back in. He could hear the crunch as she bit down. "Now I need something hard in my mouth." She smiled that wicked smile. She could almost taste him in her mouth. "I've got something hard for you if you care to crawl under the table."

She laughed lightly, "We don't want to get arrested, remember?" There was hunger in her eyes. "I kinda like the idea of doing it outdoors. How about you?"

Eli wasn't hesitant, "I think that would be a great idea. I know a little secluded camping area out at the lake where we could go. We probably won't be caught."

"Probably? Or maybe?" She shot back. "Either way sounds exciting to me." Eli couldn't contain his excitement any longer. "Let's go then because I can't take anymore. I want you. I want you now!"

He waved at Julie and mouthed, check please. She didn't even ask if they wanted dessert. She knew what they were having. "Too bad I can't follow them and watch," she said to herself. A sigh escaped her as a crash and the wails of a child filled the dining room inside.

Eli laid some cash on top of the bill and took her hand leading her out the restaurant.

IV

He opened the passenger door of his car and she slipped into the seat. Sliding behind the wheel, he drove to the lake and the secluded spot he told her of. Parking under some trees. He opened her door and offered his hand, helping her out. He led her to the nearby picnic table.

The reality of being in such an open place made her ask nervously. "What if somebody comes along?"

"That's what makes it exciting. You'd be surprised how many times I did this at the park back in the day."

She felt a tingle of excitement that maybe someone would see. A flush ran across her face. "Kiss me then because I can't stand it any longer. Fuck me Eli, fuck me here and now"

Her words drove deep into his core and his cock grew harder at her words. Eli lifted her to the top of the table and spreading her legs, he began kissing her full lips. He let his hand slide up the side of her body, gently cupping her breast. Melody moaned in his mouth as her desire began to build, his hardness pressing against her.

His hands moved to her creamy thighs and spread her legs even further. She loved the feel of his hard cock pressing against her through their cloths. She pushed him back, "I want to taste you." She grabbed his belt, pulling at the buckle until it released. Eli took a deep breath and his pants fell to the ground.

His manhood sprang forth and dropping to her knees, she took his throbbing member into her hands, running her fingers up and down his thick shaft. Melody took his swollen gland into her mouth. Her tongue swirled around his helmet making his shaft twitch. Eli marveled as she took his length deep in her mouth and unable to contain himself he began to rhythmically fuck her mouth.

She only gagged once and then she relaxed letting his full length drive in and out of her willing mouth. Eli suddenly reached down and pulled her up to him, he was eager to taste his manhood on her tongue. He quickly stripped her pants off taking her thong with them. He dropped to his knees and buried his head into her hot wetness as she lifted her leg and rested it on the bench. His tongue swirled against her sweet, swollen clit as his fingers began to push their way into her hot depths.

Her pussy tasted sweet and her hips bucked against his mouth. He sucked her clit deep into his mouth as he shoved a third finger into her creamy hole. She pushed him back and turned around to offer him a view of her bountiful ass. She spread her legs and placing her hands on the table, bent over. He rubbed the tip of his shaft up and down her wet lips and located her tight hole, he thrust deep into her. Melody cried out in pleasure as he began to furiously plow her sweet cunt. She cried out with every deep thrust as his balls pounded against her clit.

Eli pushed her shirt up and clasped her breast with his large hands and pinched her large nipples as he continued his onslaught into her creamy hole. She felt her body tensing as she neared an orgasm.

"Oh my god Eli! I love the way your fucking ME! But there's something I want you to do. ' What baby, what can I do?' I want you to fist me, have you fisted a woman before?" Eli slowed his thrusting.

"I haven't. The most I've ever gotten was three fingers and they was just a few minutes ago." Melody purred at his words. "I want all of your hand in me, just tuck your thumb against your fingers and work them in. I have some lube in my purse, would you get it?"

Eli glanced around to make sure they were still alone and trotted to the car to grab her purse. He handed it to her and she produced the bottle of lube. Taking his hand she squeezed a good amount into his palm and began rubbing it all over his fingers and hand. Her hand rubbing up and down against his sent waves of pleasure through him.

Melody laid down on top of the table and spread her legs wide. Staring deep into her eyes he began working his fingers into her creamy pussy, first two, then three, four fingers filling her deep hole. Eli tucked his thumb against his palm and watched in amazement as his hand disappeared into her cunt that moments before felt so tight around his cock.

He pushed his hand deep inside of her and she began to orgasm as his knuckles made contact with her g-spot. He continued to move his large hand in and out of her throbbing wet cunt, making her cum again and again. Her cries and moans of pleasure filled the woods around them. Melody cried out for him to stop because the pleasure had become too intense.

He paused for a moment to let her catch her breath. He slowly pulled his hand out, making her cum yet again. She lay there for a moment breathing heavily. "I loved that but now I want you to cum too. I want you to cum in my ass. Would you like that baby? You wanna cum in my ass? 'On my god yes baby, I want that, I want that bad.'" Melody smiled at his eagerness.

She threw her arms around him and kissed him hard. She bent over and took his twitching shaft into her mouth and bobbed her head. "I wanted to taste it one more time before, you know."

She opened the bottle of lube and coated his throbbing shaft generously. She bent over the park bench again and reaching behind her, she spread her ass cheeks apart. A loud moan escaped her lips as he touched the end of his swollen cock against her butthole and drove it in deep. He fucked her tight ass rapidly, her moans and cries of pleasure filling his ears. It was so fucking tight.

Unable to hold off any longer, he cried out as he drove his cock deep and erupted in her, blasting his hot seed repeatedly into her depths. He stood on shaky legs as his shrinking member slipped from her tight ass and they collapsed on the bench, breathing heavily for several minutes.

"Oh my god Eli, that was everything I thought it would be. You made me cum soo many times. Thank you." She kissed him again, warm in his embrace. They sat in comfortable silence with the afternoon sun warming them. Melody felt her eyelids grow heavy and she roused herself. "That was soo good baby But we should probably get dressed now."

She stooped to pick up their pants and began shaking them vigorously. "Hopefully nothing crawled in there." Eli's boisterous laugh filled the small area. "I'd hate to have a scorpion sting me in my delicates!" Melody was unable to control her laughter. "That would be painful but you know what I'd do? I'd suck that poison right out of your delicates."

Giggles and laughter filled them as they quickly dressed. "Now I am starving since we didn't really eat earlier." Eli's stomach made a grumbling sound to emphasize his words. Melody felt a complaint from her stomach as well but having gotten what she came for, she knew it was time to leave.

"I'm sorry Eli, I'd love to have dinner with you. I just can't right now. I had already promised my son that I'd have dinner with him tonight so I really must go now."

Eli was a little taken aback by her mention of a son. "I didn't know you had a son." He held the door open for her.

"Yes, from my first marriage and I have a daughter from my second marriage. I'm sorry it didn't come up previously but we both seemed to be interested in one thing. What about you? Do you have children?"

The question brought a pang of loneliness to Eli's heart. "No, no I don't. I wanted a family but it just never worked out. Truth is I've never been married."

They traveled in silence back to the mall and stopped by her car. She turned to face him, staring into his dark, somewhat sad eyes. She took her hand and smoothed his tousled gray hair. She smiled at him with a softness in her eyes. "Do not be sad Eli. I had a great time with you, I did. Someday we'll have to do this again. But for now you've given me what I needed."

She leaned over and kissed him one last time. "Till we meet again, love."

With that she slipped out of his car and into hers. He watched wistfully as she drove away. "Well shit" he said to himself. "She turned out to be just another girl that wanted to fuck me and nothing more. No wonder you've never been married."

Epiloque

He stopped at a convenience store and did something he hadn't done in twenty years, he bought a pack of cigarettes. He leaned against his car and lit one. He knew that the tingling rushing through his body from the nicotine, would only be felt once. Just like fleeting love.

Julie pulled to the pumps and got out to fill her tank. Idly looking about she noticed a man standing by a car smoking a cigarette. He looked familiar in the fading light. She looked at him closely as she walked to the window to pay the clerk. As she turned back she recognized his silver hair from the restaurant. "Wonder what happened to his date?" she asked herself.

He seemed so sad and lonely standing there. Her curiosity got the better of her and Julie decided to approach him and ask what happened. "Hi there, weren't you in Tazas y Cocina earlier today?"

"Yeah" Eli replied, "you were our waitress right?"

Yeah, I'm Julie. So what happened with your girlfriend? Y'all could barely keep your hands off each other. 'Strangest thing happened. We had a really good time, if you know what I mean, but once we were finished, she was eager to leave. I think I was just a boytoy she wanted. It was just asomething of a distant longing for her."

Julie stared at him for a minute,"Well that's something new. I never heard of a fuck 'em and leve 'em woman before. Guess there's a first time for everything. 'There was definitely a first time thing for me anyway.'"

Julie was intrigued, "Well let me buy you a drink at the Lobo and you can tell me all about it. Follow me." Eli watched her walk back to his car and then climbed into his. "Well how about that?" He thought, fucked and left by one, picked up by another, all in the same day. How fuckin lucky am I?"