She Wears the Pants Ch. 01

Author's Note: This has a long exposition - I like writing long expositions (world building girly) to set up certain actions later in the story, even if that pay off isn't worth it. There is a reason I'm not a professional writer lol. This story is based on my life, with basically anything beyond a certain point what I had wished I had done differently and what I wish could have happened. This first part of the story is fairly vanilla, but it'll get more dirty later on as i get further and further from the real part of the story.

This is my first attempt at a story like this, so please leave some feedback and enjoy!

--CHP 1 START--

As a 6 '2', skinny but fit, and moderately attractive face guy, you might think I would be easily able to get a girlfriend, but I really never thought I would. Even as a college senior, I still had never even kissed a girl. I had grown up Mormon, so by the time in high school I was allowed to start dating I was much too focused on school, running track, and general nerdy activities to care about dating. - Oh I'm Jonny by the way.

But my disinterest in dating was only part of the truth. I grew up with an inner draw to feminine things - clothing, make up, and just being a girl in general. This was a source of embarrassment and shame in myself. I was being taught to value being a future father and husband, but I did not like being a guy at all. I tried to repress that throughout my life.

These repressed desires expressed themselves through becoming drawn to the sissy and trans world. The idea of being made a girl scratched an itch that nothing else could satisfy. It dominated my thoughts. However, that allure of the feminine clashed with the societal expected manliness in relationships, leading to my taste in dating developing into a completely submissive role. Even when my shame at my desires to be a sissy or woman waned at times, I wouldn't stray into dating, since I could only ever see myself in a relationship as, for lack of better words, the bitch in the relationship. With traditional gender roles I figured it was too hard to try and find a girlfriend that followed that idea. And although I knew I was attracted to some degree to men, no guys I ever met in my small circles were ever gay or attractive to me.

This didn't stop me from being friendly though. Even though I never dated, both throughout my high school and college years I was fairly popular. Like I said, I was a tall and smart athlete. I got along well with the nerdy group, as an avid gamer and reader. I got along with the athletes, as I genuinely love working out and sports. I got along well with the weird religious kids, due to my Mormon upbringing. And I tried to get along with everyone else too, well because why shouldn't I be nice and friends with everyone.

In my later years in college though, my friend group narrowed down to people in my small major (anthropology by the way). There was my best friend, Cooper, we bonded over gaming and the fact we were one of the few guys in the major - I often overcompensated for my sissy side by trying to fit the role of a guy's guy. Cooper was a fairly smart guy, obsessed with Japan, and already married in a happy and healthy relationship. Then there was London, she was honestly intimidating and we honestly didn't have much in common, but for some reason just vibed really well.

Most importantly there was Vivien, the girl I've had a crush on for over 2 years. She was brilliant - while I might have had a little better school smarts than her, she had the discipline and self confidence to be much smarter than anyone else in our little friend group. She was hilarious; almost always the funniest person in any room. She was beautiful and sexy. Vivien was not your average model, she was on the shorter side and very curvy- but in the way that made her look strong and alluring. She was confidently bisexual. Her confidence in herself and her identity was admirable and honestly quite rare to see. Vivien was perfect, and I was smitten from the very beginning.

Having crushes on someone in your friend group is common, and had happened to me before. But those few years of being close friends with her, and having these feelings for her were torture. I still couldn't do anything, even with the constant skips of heartbeats whenever she laughed, the butterflies in my stomach when she flipped her hair. The clammy palms whenever she sat down next to me. Why would Viven want someone like me? Some loser who has a weird fetish, who sometimes (almost all the time) wishes he was a girl. While she was the de facto leader in our little group, she was probably looking for a standard relationship dynamic. London, an intimidating and powerful woman, often talked to us about her hookups and dates with her tinder meetups, in which she was always taking the societal standard women's role.

Vivien too often talked about her attempts on dating apps - usually fails from guys way under her league being weird, homophobic, or otherwise poor. She occasionally talked about makeout sessions with other women. All of which further cemented my mind in fencing her as not a potential partner for my fucked up self. Plus why would she be so comfortable telling me about her dating life if I was nothing more than her close friend?

I was working on being content with that. I would get home from school, or hang outs, and go to my little collection of girl clothing, align with a small buttplug and dildo I had bought, and try to put it all behind me. But inevitably as I would be masturbating, I would imagine it was Vivien who was there, not sucking my cock, but railing me with a strap on, slapping my ass, and calling me degrading names. Of course this would lead me to instant orgasm, which then led to guilt about the whole thing, which then caused the whole cycle to repeat again and again. You know the story.

Now that you know all of that extremely vital and important backstory, we can get to the actually interesting part, the middle of the first semester of our Senior year. We were all working on our undergraduate thesis at this time...

"Look man. I cannot focus like this" Cooper laughed as he leaned back on the couch of the computer lab the research assistants for professors had access to. "We are going to get nothing done!"

"We got one more match. We can't end in a loss!" I smiled. "But after this we lock in..."

"Mmm you got me there. We should probably just make a study sesh with the girls for tonight"

"Sounds good to me. I'll text Viv and see what's up."

I quickly sent a chat to Vivien. My heart always fluttered a bit when I pulled up her name on my phone. Her profile picture being a goofing smiling face I took when our little gang took a weekend camping trip. Her face was a little dirty, and her hair unkempt, yet the way the wind blew her face in that moment, combined with her perfect smile made it a treasure of mine.

'Hey- Wanna get the gang together for a dedicated study night? Coop and I get nothing done alone XD'

I sent, making sure I sent the message with the right tone as to not sound too needy or too aloof, masking my hopefulness for spending time with her. After a few minutes she responded.

"Yeah sounds good! I'm free after 7. I think London get's off work at 7:30 - so lets shoot for around then."

I smiled as I saw her message, still excited whenever she agreed to hang out - which I often had to remind myself that as just her friend I needed to chill out about - and sent the message to our group chat, receiving 3 thumbs up reactions.

"Ok, now that we have dedicated time... back to the real grind"

...

I grabbed my bike from my apartment room at 7:15. I knew it took exactly 10 minutes from my door to get to Viviens house, so I had a few minutes to burn to make sure I arrived a minute or two late - just enough to not be rude and be nonchalant (or so I thought). I walked to the bathroom mirror to make sure my hair looked good. It was just long enough to touch my shoulders. I had told everyone I liked my hair long - which was true - but I mostly kept it this long so I could easily style in feminine when I had time to participate in my shameful hobby. I also checked my breath, brushing my teeth to make sure my mouth didn't have any onion smell from the pasta I had made for dinner.

Once the slow minutes passed to my predetermined exit time, I quickly rushed out of my apartment and rode to Vivens house. Even with my meticulous planning, I still ended up being the first person there, even after locking up my bike.

"What's up Jonny, come on in!" Viven smiled warmly at me as she opened the door and I walked into her apartment. I beelined for my usual space on the couch and started getting my computer out of my backpack.

"I'm doing alright. Just swamped with this dumb thesis. Why in the world did we choose a major where writing a 40 page thesis is a graduation requirement?" I said, trying to elicit a laugh, which I was quickly rewarded with.

"I know! Kind of stupid. Although I think it's a more than fair price to pay for not having to take a class like o-chem!" Viven giggled, cleaning up her kitchen from the dinner she had just made. As she quietly cleaned and I pulled up my budding thesis, a small uncomfortable silence fell. It wasn't completely awkward, like you might expect with two middle schoolers their first time alone together, but it also didn't have the same comfortability you would expect from close friends.

Thankfully we were saved from the silence by London blasting through the door.

"Girl!!! I have some mother fucking beef with some of these hoes!" London huffed as she dropped her bag near the front door and walked to the bathroom to change from her restaurant uniform into her everyday clothes, all without stopping a second to yell about her problems with coworkers and customers during her shift. She came out in a crop top and sweater, still going on her rant, only stopping to receive "thats fucked up" or "loser!" remarks from Vivien and me. Halfway through Cooper came in, and the whole thing had to be restarted again.

"Ok, ok. We were supposed to focus up and get some work done!" Vivien interjected after about 20 minutes of chatting.

"Yeah, but that's boring!" Cooper laughed, he was the most social of our group and always a chatter and distractor.

"Well unlike you guys, I can multitask. I've been working the whole time" London smirked confidently, shaming us into quiet concentration as we played catchup.

After 2 hours of work, with small chatting breaks in between, Cooper had to leave.

"The wife is beckoning me home!" He joked as he left.

Soon after, London too had to leave as she had another shift early in the morning, leaving just Vivien and I. We were sitting on opposite sides of the couch, both typing away for about 20 minutes. The buildup of my nervousness and the few hours of heavy concentration wearried my head.

"Alright, I don't think I have it in me to work anymore. Plus it's Friday night, I have the whole weekend to finish this section." I sighed, closing my laptop shut dramatically.

Viven smiled and giggled a bit. "Agreed!" She followed my lead and dramatically shur her computer. "You wanna watch a movie?" She asked.

I gulped nervously as my head spinned. 'She had asked me to hang out! Sweet! But we were friends. This is a very normal friend thing to do. Why would that be odd or indicative of anything'

"Yeah sounds good to me! What do you wanna watch?"

"Mmmm. I saw some cool documentary on this Korean meal that could be fun!" She grabbed the remote and turned on Netflix. "It's interesting enough, and not too high stakes so we can chat while we watch."

"Perfect!" I smiled. It was good to spend time with a close friend, even with my feelings for her. I nestled into my side of the couch, completely opposite to her, wrapping up in a little blanket that was draped off the side of the couch. Vivien started up the documentary, I couldn't help but notice her well manicured fingernails, adorned in shiny black nail polish.

As the documentary started we chatted about school and the few classes were not in together. I was still finishing off some of the GEs I had put off freshman year, while she was finishing the last major requirements classes. But the small talk ended fairly quickly. After a few minutes of silently watching the film Viven hits me with a piercing question out of the blue.

"Hey Jonny, are you gay?" She asks. Her tone is fairly neutral.

"wh-What?" I cough, choking on my own spit at the sudden question. She didn't elaborate and just looked at me with her eyebrows raised. I started sweating a bit at her glare and the stress of her question. I was weighing how honest I should be. Even though she and London had been very honest with their dating lives, no one had ever inquired too heavily about my dating and sex life.

"Well.. maybe? I think im bi, but i'm more into girls than I am into guys... i think" I blushed as I stammered it out, not able to keep eye contact with her. However at my response her face tightened a bit and she rolled her eyes.

"Then why the hell are you sitting so far away from me, like I'm a disease?" She huffed and stood up, walked over to me, picked up the edge of my blanket and snuggled up next to me. My heart was racing and I didn't know how to act, and just kind sat there as she got close to me. I could feel her breath. Her long hair tickled my arm. I couldn't help but get a little erect, my average 5 inch cock getting rock hard.

I could barely hear the TV in the background over my own heart pounding so heavily. After a few minutes I relaxed a bit and slowly eased my body closer and closer to hers. Her perfume rising into my nostrils. I was in a bit of heaven.

I didn't let my elation last too long though and quickly reminded myself that Vivien was a touchy person. It was normal for her to be physically intimate with her friends, so this was normal for her. Plus I couldn't let myself be in a relationship with my feminine secrets. As I was lost in my self doubt I was brought out of it as Viven looked up at me, smirking.

"I guess I really am gonna have to do all the work here."

She grabbed my face with her soft hands, bringin it down gently towards hers. Her hot breath just inches from my own mouth, her small soft hands having complete control over me.

"Jonny, I like you" She whispered seductively then pulled my face in for a kiss. Fireworks went off in my brain as our lips touched. She gently kissed me, and after half a second of shock I kissed back. While I had no experience in this department, it wasn't too hard to figure out. I just had to follow her lead. My brain had too much going on in it to think anyway. After a few seconds of kissing she pulled away and moved to straddle my body. I had a giant goofy grin across my face the whole time

"Well I'll take that reaction as you like me too?" She smirked and draped her hands around my neck, nestling her curvy ass under my straining cock.

"Uhh. Yeah. A lot..." I blushed and she just giggled. I couldn't think of anything clever or sexy to say in the moment.

"God you're so goofy" She smirked before diving back into my mouth. This time she took it further, starting with biting my bottom lip and chewing it lightly. Her tongue then darted into my mouth as she let go of my lip. I twirled my tongue with hers and we deeply kissed for a few minutes. Breaking off every once in a while as she would grab a fist full of my hair with her fist and pull off for a breath before diving back in. I wasn't sure what to do with my own hands besides enjoying the making out, but that was quickly solved as she grabbed my hands with her's and put them on her back. Once they were there she reached down and grabbed my ass, groping it firmly as I moaned into her mouth.

"Oh you like that? Good." She whispered into my ear. Taking a break from the kiss to take off her sweatshirt to reveal her bare chest. Her breasts were perfect. Not too large, not small either. I stared with my mouth open and she smirked again. Taking that as an invitation she grabbed the back of my head and guided it gently into her chest.

"Suck them baby"

She commanded, and I eagerly obliged. I started sucking gently on her right tit. Swirling around her nipple gently with my tongue. The slight bit of sweat that had been developing over our makeout session added to my flavor. She moaned gently as I sucked, stoking the back of my head with her nails.

"MMM good boy. Keep that up." She cooed. I smiled and felt my head get lighter at the phrase. My cock straining in my sweatpants. After a minute of this she gently pulled my head to her left breast and I started the process again. Worshipping her breasts and nipple as best as I could.

"Very good... But you could do a little better. Let me show you" She pulled my head off her breasts and grabbed the bottom of my shirt and sweatshirt, and without waiting for a response pulled them up and off my body. She pushed my head back with her index finger. She looked into my eyes deviously as her sharp nails started flicking and pulling at my nipples. I whimpered lightly as the feeling sent waves of pleasure to my brain and cock. This only encouraged her and she dove into my left nipple. She started sucking gently as her other hand played with my nipple. Then quickly she started biting it, not too hard at first, but suddenly biting it hard and twisting my right nipple simultaneously. I moaned loudly as she played with me, switching off between sucking and twisting my nipples for a few minutes. Every time I whimpered and moaned causing her to smile and a twinkle to pop up in her eyes.

"You like that?" She asked as she rose up for a breath. I nodded and swallowed.

"Yes.. I love it all. Th-thank you Viv... thanks for making the first move and all of this" I smiled.

"Are you?" She asked as she stood up off me. "Then I want you to really prove it" And then she pulled down her shorts, and soon after her teal panties, revealing her wet pussy. For a few seconds I could only stare at her beauty and magnificence. It was not perfectly shaven, having a bit of hair around the area, but it looked perfect that way. Each fold and curve shining in my mind, my brian trying to take a picture to savor it forever. A fake cough from her shook me out of my stupor and I quickly jumped off the couch and got on my knees and started crawling towards her.

"Ohh I like this angle." She grinned as she shuffled in a circle back to the couch with me following like a dog. "Show me your gratitude" She finally opened up her legs as she sat down on the couch and led my head towards her sopping wet pussy. I was very happy at the sight, not for the obvious reasons of getting to eat out my crush's pussy, but also because the wetness seemed to indicate she was enjoying this just as much as I was.

I started off with a gentle lick, cleaning the outer edges. I didn't have a good plan, but was moving based on what I felt would show her how devoted I was. It then turned to lapping like a dog as I moved closer and closer to the center.

"You're so good, baby." She encouraged me, and I received her compliment with eagerness and hastened my pace. I started liking like a mad man. I licked wherever I could, trying to figure out which spots and actions felt the best based on her moans and body movements. All the while she kept up with little comments like "Ohhh good boy" "Keep it up" "MMM don't stop!" Eventually I started making out with the pussy, trying to emulate what Vivien did to my mouth with her perfect pussy. As my tongue darted in and out, deeper and deeper into her this seems to do the best. But the response was her clamping down on my head, her thick thighs covering my ears and head. I just about came myself at the feeling, and with renewed effort kept licking and licking. My tongue going in and out and in and out. Coming out to flick and lick the clitoris. Even though my mouth and tongue were getting sore, my head was getting light, and to be honest the taste wasn't perfect, I kept going. All i could hear from my trapped head was

"Oh God! That's perfect! Fuck im gonna come!!!"

And suddenly a new wave of liquid splashed my face as I continued to lick and lick. Viven shrieked as I did, an orgasmic call as her thighs squeezed even tighter around my head and I basically drowned in her body. After a few seconds of this she let go and gently pushed my head back with her finger. She was panting like she had just finished a hard workout.

"Oh. my. GOD! Where in the world did you learn to eat pussy like that?" She called between gasps of air.

"Uhh.. I don't know. I was just trying my best..." I smirked, her compliment inflating my ego. I just sat beneath her on my knees looking up at her beautiful naked body. She smiled and grabbed my chin pulling me up to cozy up with her on the couch.

"As much as I do like you down there, you should be coming up here with me." She laughed as I sat down next to her and we nuzzled together. "So... what did you think of it all?"

I blushed. "It was.. All amazing. I'll be honest. This doesn't feel real right now. I've really liked you for a while so this was... a crazy surprise"

"Well I for one am pissed! I've been flirting with you for two years now, and you've been giving me nothing! I would've made the move about 100 years ago, you dummy." She said with a playful furrowed brow before laughing. I played idly with her hair as she did to mine. I was both so happy and starting to have the excitement wear off. I still had my secret side, and I didn't feel worthy of this whole thing. I honestly wasn't sure what to do and felt a little guilty.

"Well I'm tired... You gonna come to bed with me?" She winked as she stood up, showing off her beautiful curvy body.

"W-W-with you?" I swallowed nervously.

"God, for someone so smart, you're so dense sometimes! Bro you just ate my pussy. What's wrong with coming to my bed? Just shut up and follow me" She sighed as I jumped up and followed her to her room, smiling like a clown. Obviously we didn't get to sleep very quickly after that, and ended up making out for most of the night, only falling asleep after I had licked her to a second orgasm. We fell asleep cuddling, with me as the little spoon, feeling perfect and happy.

...

I woke up the next morning to the smiling face of Vivien looking at me. We had shifted in the night so that we were no longer spooning but face to face in her small bed.

"Good morning." She said as she gently kissed my forehead.

"Good morning!" I giggled and hugged her close, both to hide my embarrassment but also to just feel her and prove to myself this was real.

"I'm surprised. Most guys would have died before letting the night end without them getting a handjob at the least. And you gave me two orgasms at that!" She laughed as she scratched the back of my head. I blushed, unsure if it was a compliment or teasing.

"Well I guess I'm not like other guys?" I said with a laugh. She also giggled a bit. "It's a little bit embarrassing, but honestly I almost came during your first orgasm. More so I feel very... fulfilled from getting you off"

She smiled wickedly at my comment, stroking my hair. "God you're perfect." She cooed. " I think our personalities are perfect for each other. Don't you agree?"

I nodded, not quite sure what she meant, but the devilish look in her eye was both frightening and assuring. Maybe my perverted dream of being in a relationship where someone else was in control was coming true. But I really didn't think I could be that lucky, and that also didn't solve my other worry.

What I wasn; t expecting was to open my phone to about 50 messages from London and Cooper in our group chat with crazy reactions to a picture Vivien had taken in the night if my head curled up in her chest.

"OH MY GOD?" "IT FINALLY HAPPENED" "WTFFFFF" "I WAS SO FUCKING TIRED OF HEARING VIVENE TALK ABOUT JONNY??" "HE'S NOT GAY?" "you can't send that pic and not say anything guys!"

Viviene giggled as she saw my mouth open.

"I figured you wouldn't mind the gang all knowing. I'm not very good at keeping these things secret anyway" She said and dragged me out of bed with her to her bathroom. My eyes widened again as I knew what was coming.

"God you're like a teenager." She giggled as she turned on the shower. "Look, we are gonna do this a lot now, so you better get used to it! Stop acting like a dumbass and hop in!"

"Sorry sorry. I just still can't believe this is real." I stepped in the shower as the room started steaming up. The steam causing dew to accumulate over Vivene's perfect body.

"I was only partially kidding last night. You missing all my hints pissed me off. You're gonna have to pay for that." She smirked and turned around, twisting my nipple harshly, causing me to fall to the ground with a yelp.

"Having a tall boy like you at my feet really does feel good... Scrub my feet for me while you're down there please."

"Yes please!" I smiled and grabbed her loofa, putting a bit of lavender scented soap on as she placed her foot on my knee. God even her feet were perfect! Her nails were immaculate, colored in the same dark tone as her fingernails. Her feet were soft and I scrubbed them well, getting in every nook and cranny until she was satisfied and moved to her other foot. As I scrubbed she gave a satisfied sigh and then dropped a dollop of shampoo in my hair and started scrubbing. I was already turned on, but the feeling of ehr nails scraping my scalp and running through my hair just about made me cum. Again. I shivered as the satisfying feeling rippled through my body and couldn't help but let out a moan.

I clasped my hand over my mouth. "Sorry" I blushed. Looking down embarrassed.

"Hey I didn't say to stop scrubbing my feet!" Viviene scolded, causing me to pick back up her foot and start gently scrubbing again. "And Jonny. I'll be honest. You reacting so much to my little moves on you only makes me more attracted to you. When you told me this morning you almost came when eating me out I got very hot and bothered. Having you so receptive to me is alluring. So don't apologize." She smiled warmly, picking my chin up with her finger. I looked up at her like a mortal staring at a Goddess. Her words making me feel so warm inside my whole body might have been blushing.

"Fuck, you looking at me like that is too damn much. Stand up and scrub my back before I lose my mind!" She giggled. I happily obliged and hummed happily as I finished scrubbing her body. She let me scrub all of her, and I couldn't be happier as I did. We took occasional breaks to kiss for a few seconds, before she would push me on to finish my work. As I finished, she then took the scrubber and washed me down. The sensation of being cleaned by another person was like nothing I'd ever experienced before. She was taking careful precautions to not touch my raging boner, and if she did I might have burst immediately.

"Woah there tiger. Little Jonny seems to really like this! By the way, you are gonna take me on our first date tonight - and you better not cum before then." She wagged her finger as she handed me nack the loofa to scrub my cock myself. I nodded my head in agreement as I worked.

"Of course Viv. Is there anywhere you want to go or do you want me to decide?" I asked, planning dates was not my specialty, so I was hoping she would decide something.

"Mmmmm... nope! I did all the forward thinking this far. It's time to take some initiative yourself." She smiled as she shut off the water, stepping out gracefully as the water dripped from her luscious curves. Every second of seeing her body made me grateful and I was doing my best to make a perfect mental image of it all. Every move she did seemed to turn me on. Just drying her legs and hair were all sexy to me. Once she was dry she stepped off the towel mat and handed me a clean towel to dry off with.

"I'll figure something good out. Does 6 sound good?" I smiled, faking confidence.

"Let's do 6:15. We'll take my car obviously, as I don't think your bike can safely fit us both." We both laughed. "I'll pick you up."

"Okay!" I smiled as we walked back to her room. I quickly threw on my clothes from yesterday so that I could watch Vivien get dressed with perfect attention. She smiled as she felt my gaze on her back and gave me a tantalizing show. She picked a pair of black panties from her drawer and drew them up over her curvy ass slowly, snapping them in place at the end. A matching black bra was also put on, letting me see a full view of her beautiful breasts being pushed up even further. She slipped on a pair of tan slacks and a white shirt that showed her unique fashion style. God she was perfect.

"Okay, that's enough of the show. You gotta go, because I gotta go into work this morning for Professor Johnson, and we are just slowing each other down."

I laughed and got up, my head spinning so fast all I could do was just follow her words exactly and make a bee line for my stuff at the door. As I exited her room she rolled her eyes.

"Uhh dude. That's not how this works anymore!" She shook her head as I turned around confused. She had walked up behind me and as I stood there unsure of my mistake, she grabbed my collar, pulled me down to her height, and kissed me for a few seconds. It had a bit of tongue and she assertively grabbed my hair as she did it, but after she released it, she spun me around, slapped my ass, and shut her door to finish getting ready.

"See you at 6:15!" I smiled, my brian empty at this point. I skipped out of her house, almost forgetting my bike, before rushing home. I could hardly breathe as I entered my house, my roommate sitting in the kitchen looked at me weird as I entered, probably noticing my goofy ass smile plastered wide across my face.

"Damn bro? Didn't think I'd ever see the day you come home in the morning! Nice going"

We both laughed as I walked into my room. I collapsed on my bed and after a few seconds of resting screamed for joy into my pillow! I couldn't believe it. It was real. I really never thought I'd date, and after a long time I had begun to accept my relationship with Vivien would never be anything more than good friends. As I turned my head I looked into my closet and my small suitcase of feminine clothing and toys seemed to jump out of me. My jovial mood immediately plummeted and I felt sick to my stomach. How could I let my hopes rise like that. I forgot how much of a sick pervert I was. Viv seemed to be pretty dominant in our interactions, but that only fit one piece of my fucked up mind. Maybe I could get rid of my stuff again - I had done a purge before, but the desire always inevitably came back. Plus I would have to be lying to her. I couldn't do that!

I didn't get anything done for the rest of the day. The mix of anxiety from trying to plan a date to the worries about losing this impossible gift I'd been given from my own unnatural tendencies. I eventually decided on trying to go at it slowly - telling her about my lack of manliness and such piece by piece in hopes it would go over smoother that way. I also decided on a small date plan - ther was a nice Korean place down the road, a food type we both liked, and would be serving the dish that the documentary we 'watched' last night was about.

The next problem was trying to find an outfit. I really didn; t have a good fashion sense. I could never get into the nuance of guy clothing, and basically wore sweatshirts and sweatpants every day. I had a few nicer outfits, all thrifted for me by my sister, and settled on a gray button up shirt with a blue sweater vets - alongside a pair of tan slacks and brown oxfords. I would almost certainly be underdressed compared to Vivien. She never wore dresses or standard feminine clothes, but her style seemed to flaunt her sexiness all the same with the added bonus of showing her personality.

6:15 couldn't come any slower. I was so nervous I was sick to my stomach and didn't end up eating breakfast or lunch. I did get my homework for my GE's done, but what would usually take me maybe an hour of work took the whole day, and at a lower quality too. My bag of sissy attire seemed to be hanging over my head the whole day. I was conflicted, thinking about if I could make some type of promise to myself to never even think about that stuff again. But my early conversation to myself about being honest - piece by piece - with Viv made me keep it. Well... and some degree of attachment to it as well.

Finally the expected time came and a phone call from Vivien buzzed from my desk. I jumped over and picked it up.

"Hey Viv!"

"Hi Jonny. I'm here, in the usual spot under the parking garage"

"Ok. Be there in a second!"

My casual words were not indicative of my racing heart. The conflict of my fear and excitement rampaged like a typhoon in my body, but the excitement of finally going on a date with Viv was stronger. I practically sprinted down the stairs of my apartment building and hopped into Viv's small white car - I was never a car guy, so I couldn; t tell you what the model was.

As I climbed in I was greeted by Vivien's smiling face. She had put on makeup for our date, and was dressed in a more casual looking tan pantsuit. Her hair was lightly curled and she smelled like lavender. As usual I was awestruck and just stared like a kid as I sat down.

"You look amazing Viv..." I squeaked out, trying not to be too awkward as I tore my eyes away from her body - trying not to be creepy.

"Thank you." She giggled. "I'm glad you're not wearing sweatpants" She took the lead as usual and turned my face to hers and kissed me gently on the cheek.

"Okay so what's the plan?" Vivien smiled as turned back to the windshield and pulled us out of the parking garage.

"Oh... yeah... Uhh" I stumbled, my plan being knocked out of my head. "I was hoping getting some jajangmyeon at the Korean place on 500 and uni would be fun. Since that was the topic of that documentary we watched last night"

Viven laughed softly. "Ohh you're so cute! I'll be honest, I don't remember anything from that show. Even in those first few minutes. Sounds great!" She turned right and started the quick drive over to the restaurant. We chatted briefly about our days, and as she drove, she placed her right hand gently on my upper thigh. I bit my lip as she did- God everything she did to me was like magic.

The small restaurant was fairly empty- thankfully, as making a reservation wouldn't have crossed my mind. We ordered very quickly since we both knew what we were getting - the jajangmyeon. While this was our first date, there wasn't anything too crazy to talk about. We had been close friends for so long that we already knew quite a lot about each other. It was basically like getting dinner with a friend, but with a strange mood hanging in the air. Occasionally she would reach over and grab my hand, eliciting a smile and giggle from both of us. So for most of the night, our breaks in food eating were filled with talks about the latest drama in our lives or from the lives of Cooper and London. As the meal started to wind down I felt the pressure to talk to her about what had been hanging over me all day.

"Hey.. uh Viv... I need to talk to you about something." I said nervously, trying to keep eye contact but looking down at the table more than her eyes.

"Yeah. What's up?" Vivien smiled and gave me a supportive pat on my hands.

"I uhh... I'm not quite sure how to say it correctly. So i'll just try to say it, don't judge the delivery too much"

"Just say it. Don't worry, I won't"

"It's just, I really like you, and I want to make sure everything is clear from the start... But I'm not really the most manly guy. Like not at all, and especially in a relationship. I uhh, don't know how well I could play the societal normative guy in a relationship..." I stumbled through my words, not having the guts to look at her in the eyes as I spoke. My adrenaline only spiked as a few moments after I trailed off the silence was broken by the loud laughing of Vivien. She laughed for a solid 10 seconds, garnering the attention of the people around us.

"Oh my god. I'm sorry for laughing as you were opening up. But Jonny. C'mon. We have been close friends for 2 years now. You don't think I know? Not to mention, what you did last night was not exactly the standard 'societal normative guy' role" She patted my hand as I breathed out a sigh of relief, part of my stress being released away. While I still had a lot of concerns over other parts of my personality, at latest this first hurdle was cleared.

"Ok that's good..." I smiled and relaxed in my chair a bit.

"That's also why I'm into you" She gave me a sly grin. "I like my boys to be a little submissive." She said a little too loudly for my liking. I blushed and looked down as I saw the table next to us give us an odd look. She only giggled at my embarrassment, showing the truth behind her previous statement. "Now let's get out of here and I can tell you more about that... and reward you for starting this date off so well." She winked.

I jumped up at her remarks and ran over to the register and paid for our meal. My enthusiasm only elicited another giggle from Vivien as she stood up and walked with me back to her car. We walked hand in hand, and I felt on top of the world, not ready for our date to end. My worries were not warranted, as Viv drove to my apartment she did not go to where she usually drops me off, but instead to the street parking nearby.

"You planned for me to come by after, correct?" She winked as we both got out of the car.

"Y-yeah! Of course" I lied - which she knew of course. Never before had I been so glad that both my roommate and I were kind of neat freaks and that our apartment was clean.

The second we got inside she dragged me to my room, pushing me down and straddling my hips. Our lips entwined immediately as we made out. Her tongue quickly found the inside of my mouth as she took control of our love making. This time I knew more of what to do and used my hands to rub her back as we made out. As usual she would grab my long hair as we made out and move my head as she wanted. Eventually she pulled off my mouth and moved my head harshly to the side as she started biting and licking my ear. This elicited an involuntary moan as he basically ate my ear out. It was one of the most sensitive and erogenous parts of my body - and I had no idea until that point.

"You like that baby?" Vivien whispered seductively in my ear as she switched sides.

"Mhm" I moaned. My cock was straining in my pants at this point.

After she ate my ears out I was then tasked with worshiping her perfect breasts. I practiced a bit more rough sucking, which elicited many "Good boy"s from her. After a few minutes she pulled me off and just cuddled my head in her stomach - not that there was room for anything else since I just had a twin size bed. She gently ran her fingers through my hair. The feeling of being cared for and touched was amazing. I hugged her body closely as she did. I don't think I'd ever felt so loved before. We stayed there for a few minutes before Viv broke the silence.

"Can you grab me some water please?" She asked, her throat audibly a little raspy. I jumped up at her request.

"Of course. I'll be right back!" I smiled and grabbed a sweatshirt to pull on for my quick run to the kitchen. I took a minute to get a breather, and then filled her glass with nice cool water. I got myself some as well and walked back into the room.

"Here you go Viv-" I started to say smiling. Then as I glanced up my heart dropped. I felt my stomach lurch and my head spin. My hands went weak and I dropped the glasses of water onto my carpet. There in front of me was Vivien holding my dildo from my sissy bag. The whole thing sitting right next to her. My biggest secret that I was going to slowly tell her over time was revealed far ahead of schedule. I had just gone from the high of feeling so loved and desired, to now the lowest and most embarrassed I'd ever been. I knew this was far too shameful to get over, even if she was into submissive guys like I had appeared.

"Care to explain? Vivien asked with a raised eyebrow. Her facial expression was neutral, but I couldn't see it. My eyes started to tear up and I fell to my knees.

"I - i was gonna tell you, I just didn't kn-know how..." I started to say as I started to cry. Hiccuping as I did like a little child. The whole thing was embarrassing on all levels. My hope was stolen away - embarrassing. The fact I was crying about it - embarrassing. The fact I was crying like a toddler - embarrassing. I couldn't get out any more words and felt my whole world spiraling.

From the midst of my spiral a light appeared. I felt Viv grab my head and hug it to her stomach. Her calming voice salming me down.

"Shh, it's ok." She cooed, patting my head. "I'm not mad- well I am a little but not for the reason you think." She laughed softly to herself. "Jonny. I've been your friend before anything else. You are not being shamed or weird"

I looked up at her, wiping the tears from my eyes and taking a deep breath. She pulled me up from the ground and onto the bed. She pushed my head down into her lap and let me sit there for a minute.

And so I told her everything. My worry about not being accepted. My history of confusion and worries about gender. My only way I masturbated for the last few years was with something shoved up my ass. The conflict between being a tall and conventionally attractive guy, with having sissy desires, with maybe questions for gender. To how that all made me sexually interested in being submissive. The whole experience was both cathartic and nerve wracking. I didn't know how she was going to react, but she did listen well, just nodding and continually petting my hair.

As I finished, with the tears from my face dried off, she looked down and gave me a kiss on the forehead.

"Thank you for telling me Jonny. I support you no matter what. And this doesn't make me less attracted to you. As long as you'll let me go through this with you, I'd love to." She smiled down at me. My heart was full once again. I started crying again, this time not from fear but from something else. I thanked her through those tears and she just hugged me quietly.

...

That whole ordeal did ruin the mood we had set previously, and Viv still needed water, but after we had snuggled for a while in my bed and calmed down a bit she got her drink and came back to my room. Now that the terror had left me she started inquiring a bit more.

"Now that the worst is over, I do have a few comments. First of all - I understand how this is a big thing for you, but I hope you know you could have told me, or Cooper, or London, about this before and we would have had the same reaction"

"I know..." I looked at the ground embarrassed.

"You do remember I'm BI right? So absolutely none of this is any type of problem for me." She laughed. I gave her a smile in return.

"I'd support you no matter what, no matter how our friendship would have been or is now..."

She moved closer, taking my hand in hers and moving her mouth to my ear. "But with how we are now, I really want to help you really discover how you feel about all this. Especially those parts about how you use that ass" She whispered in my ear, giving me goosebumps and causing my hair to stand on its end. Just like that I was turned on again. But Viv just stood up again and gave me a wink.

"That's enough for tonight I think. Thank you for the lovely date. Thank you for doing a shit job at hiding your dirty little secret so that I could find it." She giggled for a second. "And thank you for being so open with me" Viv smiled and gave me a gentle kiss.

"Thank you Viv... I-I've been torn a long time over this. And your response has made me so happy. You make me happy" I said looking into her eyes. God, I loved her.

"You're welcome" She smiled back at me and I walked with her to her car, our hands clasped together again.

"See you tomorrow?" I asked nervously.

"Uh yeah?" She shook her head. "Don't go thinking you can ignore me now! You better come over in the morning!" I nodded in agreement before she left again. I strolled back into my apartment quietly, brushed my teeth, and instantly passed out in my bed, my body weary and tired from the long and emotional day.

...

I woke up late Sunday morning feeling amazing. It was as if the whole weight of stress I had for my life had been eased off my shoulders. I felt like I could fly. I quickly grabbed my phone and sent Viv a good morning text with a heart emoji. A few seconds later I saw her three little dots appear, showing she was texting me back.

"Someone slept in late. What time are you coming by?"

"Probably like 30 minutes? I just need to shower and eat and I can bike over"

"Ok. Sounds good - make sure you wear a pair of those panties I know you have ;)"

I blushed as I typed back "... OK" I guess this meant she really was okay with my problems. I swallowed nervously as I brought out all my panties and tried to think which pair I should wear for Viv. I ended up choosing a light blue pair with white ruffles on the top. I placed them on my bed as I poured myself a small bowl of cereal that I devoured as quickly as I could. I hopped in the shower, also rushing through my usual long routine.

Entering my room I swallowed nervously as I pulled the panties up my ass, enjoying how they hugged my ass curves tightly. I was pretty skinny, so my ass didn; t have the most to fill out, but it still made it look good. After admiring it for a few seconds, I quickly threw one of my sweatpants and a sweatshirt and went out the door. Sending Viv an "OMW" text.

I biked to Viv's house even faster than normal. Once I locked up my bike, I checked my phone and saw a message from Viv.

"Don't knock. Come in, strip to your panties, kneel in front of the couch, and close your eyes - no opening until I say to and no talking!"

I took a sharp breath as I read. God this was so exciting. I really was so lucky to find Viv... I entered the house as directed, walked to the couch, carefully took off and folded all my clothes except for my panties, and kneeled down. I closed my eyes and sat there in nervous silence for a few minutes. I could hear her rustling around in her room but couldn't make anything of it. I didn't dare move or open my eyes.

After a few more minutes of painful waiting I heard Viv's bedroom door open. I held my breath in anticipation. As she moved from the carpeted area of her room to the tile floors of the main area I could hear a sexy click as she strode confidently forward in some type of heels. The sound quieted as she got on the carpet near the couch once again, and I was blessed with her lavender scent. She wordlessly circled me a few times, lightly flicking my hair as she did.

"You follow instructions so well. Very good." She purred. I shivered at her sound. It was taking all my willpower to not open my eyes to feast upon her gorgeous form.

"You opened up to me about something very important and personal last night, and I am grateful and supportive. Now it is my turn. To be frank, everything you told me about yourself falls in line with what I want out of a relationship. The submissive role you've dreamed about is perfect for what I want in a partner. But that's not all" She continued to walk around me as she spoke, occasionally leaning in to whisper or nibble the top of my ear.

"I want to do deranged things with you. Things you might have never thought about. Things that you ARE going to be uncomfortable with. Things that will embarrass you and even occasionally cause you pain. But it'll hurt so good. You'll be pleasuring me with every act. And I promise you I will take such good care of you." She lightly licked my ear with her last words eliciting a moan. My cock was getting hard in my pantied with every word, and was pointing up and out.

"I will own you. You will have to do whatever I tell you to do, whenever I say it. You will face punishments when you don't. That includes in public too. It won't be the same as in private - but everyone will know who wears the pants in this relationship, and there won't be any confusion about it."

"I like you Jonny. A lot. And every second we spend together makes me like you more. However, liking you in this way makes me want to do such depraved things to you. So there are two options in front of you. We end things here - no more of what we experienced over the last two days. We are still good friends, I will still support you with whatever you do and things go back to what they were."

She had stopped right in front of me. I could feel heat radiating from her body, my mind was swimming as she stopped briefly for dramatic effect.

"Or you become mine. Not just as boyfriend and girlfriend, - or girlfriend and girlfriend- but really you would be mine. I would be your Goddess. Your whole world. You would give me everything about you. I would take it all, but give you back so much love."

"So choose. Right now. If you want things to end, keep your eyes closed. Or you can open them, and really show me this is the new life you want."

There wasn't even a second of doubt in my mind. I opened my eyes and was instantly rewarded. In front of me stood my Goddess. She was wearing black knee high heeled boots. A pair of black stockings rose above them and were attached by a garter belt to the sexiest pair of lingerie I had ever seen. Black lacy panties that outlined her body perfectly, magnifying every curve and keeping her beautiful pussy lightly veiled in the most tantalizing way. On top of it all she wore a black leather cropped corset that pushed up her magnificent breasts even further. She still had her black nails which matched the outfit perfectly, as well as her black lipstick and black eyeshadow she was wearing. She looked like what any boy would dream a dominatrix would be. Vivien really was a Goddess.

I just sat there looking, my mouth agape and my cock straining in my panties.

"I said to show me I'm your Goddess. Not just look." She said sternly, although a little smirk had appeared in her face.

I racked my brain for a second, thinking what to do, before realizing thinking was not going to help - I just needed to act on my crazy feelings I was having and show her I could worship her like the goddess she was. So I bent my head down and started kissing her boot. She shifted her weight, putting the shoe I was kissing slightly forward, a small acknowledgement that I was doing something correctly, I kissed every inch of that boot. From toe to knee, keeping my eyes down and focused on my mission. Once I had finished that foot, Viv shifted her weight again and I started on the next boot. After I had finished that boot she lifted it up and put it gently on the back of my head, pushing it down til it was on the floor.

"That was a good start. Close your eyes again and keep your head right there..." She said and lifted her foot off of my head, not waiting for a response. I obliged and heard her move towards the couch. She stopped for a second and I could hear the sound of her garter belt being undone, and fabric being dropped off her body. Then the couch squeaked as she sat down.

"Now come over here, show me the service a Goddess deserves" I eagerly opened my eyes to see her sitting down, her panties sitting on the ground next to her spread open legs. Her beautiful wet pussy glistened before me. I crawled over, my mouth watering and my cock straining in my panties. I started by enthusiastically kissing her inner thighs, moving slowly closer to her pussy eventually landing a wet sloppy kiss on her clitoris. This was received with a gentle and encouraging moan.

I took that as my cue to stop stalling with circumstantial worship and pleasure my Goddess. I followed the same routine as I did a few nights ago. I licked gently at her clit and then would switch quickly to penetrating as far as I could with my tongue. I was instantly rewarded with another sexy moan from Viv, and I pushed on. I would lick tirelessly, only stopping for breaths occasionally. I was in tune with every sound and movement from Vivien. Each lap received a different sound and response. She asked to be worshiped, so I did not just try to finish it quickly, but to stimulate her in every way and leave her with the best possible experience. Eventually my worship must have gotten too long, as her hands reached behind head and pushed me deep into her crotch, followed by a leg lock to keep my head down and worship her magnificence.

I was held so tightly there was no air to breathe. All I could do was lick and lick and lick, as her legs got tighter and tighter and tighter. I could feel her breath accelerating and my own lungs begged for air. Just as I thought I might pass out, a sensual scream erupted from Viviens mouth. Her legs tightened and waves of liquid poured all over my face for over 10 seconds as she climaxed. Finally she released her thigh grip on me and I fell to the ground gasping for breath. My face was soaked with her vaginal discharge, and each breath brought some into my mouth and nose. But it was glorious. Her scent was basically being tied with my very access to oxygen.

We both laid there gasping for breath for another minute before a wicked smirk appeared on Vivien's face.

"Now that was a great job - but is only one time what a Goddess deserves?" She lifted my head up with one of her boots and I obediently moved my head towards her crotch again. As my mouth arrived at her pussy, her legs instantly clasped around my head again.

"I can't tell you how much it turns me on to have you suffocate on my pussy. To choke on my wetness. To let me have control over your breath" She cooed, her voice sopping with lust as I started licking again. She kept me trapped in her legs, with my only option to service her, so I did. She would keep me locked down there for 30- 40 seconds at a time, only letting go for enough time for me to get a few breaths in before she clamped down. The oxygen deprivation was both so terrifying and alluring. All I could think about was servicing my Goddess. Each breath cemented the connection of the smell and taste of her pussy with the oxygen giving me life. The second orgasm was taking even longer than the first to reach as well. All throughout it I could hear Viven moan and approve of my work. After what felt like an eternity, my goddess' second climax hit, and I was again blessed with a facefull of liquid running down my cheeks and into my nose.

"Such a good boy" She cooed as she let me catch my breath again. She also took a minute to come down from the high of her back to back orgasms fueled by her alluring dominance over me. Once she was recovered she pulled me up next to her on the couch and we cuddled, with her stroking my hair.

"Very good job baby. I'll accept that answer. I'm your loving girlfriend and Goddess now" She cooed. I smiled wide, my head still numb from the lack of oxygen.

"Thank you Vivien. Thank you for everything. I- I love you..." I said quickly. Blushing as I spoke. I couldn't help myself. I knew saying 'I love you' was supposed to be a big milestone further into a relationship, but I guess in my excitement and delirium I didn't think about the consequences. To be fair we had already known each other for 2 years and loved each other as friends.

Vivien just laughed, moving closer to my ear and whispering, "Very good. You should" and biting it gently. She had identified how sensitive my ears were at this point and how much of a response her licking them elicited out of me. "And I love you too"

Vivien then pushed me down, laying her full weight on top of me as she kissed me. Her tongue, as usual, darted deep into my mouth. And, as usual, I accepted every part. Our tongues twirled together. Our spit mixed. She would bite and tug at my lips, just to dive back in. It was magical. After a long time of making out Vivien finally sat up on my waist and smiled.

"I think it's time I finally rewarded your cute little cock for all your obedience." She smirked as she backed slowly up, pulling my legs up so she could kneel under me.

"Have I told you how cute you look in your panties yet?" She giggled and I blushed, shaking my head. "Well you do. It's a shame I need to pull them down for a bit." She pulled my pantied down my legs, just a little so that my cock sprang out - and the hardest it's ever been. Without another word Vivien leaned down and kissed the top, swirling her tongue briefly and mixing her salvia with my ample amounts of precum. The feeling was incredible. Her warm mouth slowly enclosed my cock and I moaned in pleasure as she teased the head with her tongue. She bobbed up and down for a few seconds before coming off.

"Make sure you tell me when you're close." She commanded.

"Yes Viv." I whimpered as she immediately dove back onto my cock sending waves of pleasure rippling through my body. She was very good at this. She was able to take my cock all the way down to the base, stick out her tongue to tease my balls, and hold it for a few seconds. All while she kept eye contact with me. Each little jolt made me feel like I was on the edge.

But that was the problem. Viv was certainly an expert at this. And I was clearly enjoying it. Yet I was never able to cross the edge. After 10 minutes of tiring work Vivien stopped and sat up, out of breath.

"Wow, I didn't know you had stamina like this! Are you sure you didn't cum before this?" She asked, raising an eyebrow. I blushed and shook my head, worried she would think I didn't listen to her.

"No I didn't, I promise! I- I might just be nervous?" I offered a potential answer, very embarrassed. "This is the first time anyone besides myself has touched my cock..." This elicited a laugh out of Vivien and I blushed even harder and broke eye contact.

"Haha. I'm sorry. I'm not making fun of you. You're just so cute!" She winked and leaned down to give my cock a quick kiss, seemingly as proof of her sincerity. "I did want to see you cum though... disappointing" she trailed off, seeming to give up on the endeavor.

I racked my brain for a few seconds, trying to both calm down and think of how I could solve this problem. Suddenly it struck me. I blushed again as the real problem hit my head.

"I- uhh. I think I know what's really the problem..." I stuttered. Viv looked at my embarrassed face and smiled wickedly.

"Oh and what's that?"

"I.. I uh haven't uh. M-masturbated for a long time without..." I trailed off, not really wanting to finish the sentence.

"Without what Jonny?" Viv looked at me smiling even wider. The look she had in her eye made me think she had made the connection already based on my response, but desperately wanted me to embarrass myself and say it.

"Without something up my ass." Viv smiled with delight at my statement. I couldn't look her in the face, and tried to turn my head away, but she lightly pushed it back to make eye contact again.

"So you're telling me you couldn't cum from a blowjob from your beautiful and sexy Goddess of a girlfriend, because you didn't have something up your ass?" Her grin was as wide as mine was on the first night I had found out Viv liked me back.

"Y-yes"

"Oh my God. You really are so perfect!!!" Viv giggled and suddenly dove back down on my still hard cock. The embarrassment of the situation had kept it erect. I shivered as my nerves sent waves of pleasure up to my brian from the assault of her mouth. When she came up for a breath again, she stopped to stick her right hand middle finger in her mouth. She sucked on it alluringly while standing up off the couch and walking a step to my chest. She mounted my body again, this time with her ass pointing to my face and her heels straddling my head. With her ass high above my head she took her hand out of her mouth and slowly moved it down to my ass. She gently rubbed the outside of my anus and I whimpered.

"Now just stay relaxed..." She said before gently inserting her spit lubed middle finger into my ass. Since I did have a dildo I frequently used, her finger was able to enter without much resistance. Her finger curled, not too far in, and hit a spot I had never really felt before. As her finger rubbed it I cried out loudly with pleasure.

"Mmm what a good girly spot you have!" Vivien taunted, before then sticking her mouth back onto my cock. The combination of the anal penetration and her mouth quickly pushed me past my threshold. I almost forgot to give her a warning before my orgasm.

My warning did not stop her, and she continued to prod and suck until I erupted. And I really mean erupted. This was by far the most cum I had ever produced. A combination of not having cum in a few days - i coincidentally hadn't masturbated in a few days before this whole thing - and the extreme level of horniess I had been on for basically two days straight, led to me shooting ropes in stark contrast to the small pooling dribbles i was used to. Vivien had moved her face at the last second, leading to several shots of my cum shooting high into the air and landing on my stomach.

"Oh my god! Everything with your dick is a surprise. I don't think I'd ever seen someone cum that much." Vivien said shocked as she removed her finger from my anus and got off me. I took that as permission to sit up, but as I tried to, she turned and pushed my head back down.

"Not so fast, tiger. I gotta clean you up!" She smirked at me. She took up her original position between my legs and with her index finger scooped up a bit of the cum that was starting to trail down the side of my stomach. She brought it to her mouth and winked.

"Mmm tasty!" I shivered at her taunt, but was even more surprised as she brought her head down and began to lick up the cum off my stomach. She cleaned up about half before she moved her head over mine and planted a kiss on me. She opened my mouth with her tongue and suddenly a mouthful of cum fell from her mouth to the back of my throat. It would be a lie to say I hadn't tasted my cum before, but I never was a fan of the taste. However, in this instance, with the delivery method, and with my Goddess' salvia mixed with it, it tasted good. She made out with me as my cum swished between our mouths until she finally broke the kiss and smiled a few inches above my face.

"Swallow," She commanded. I obediently swallowed, the large clump visibly moving down my throat into my stomach. Vivien returned to my stomach getting most of the remaining cum into her mouth again. The other parts she scooped up with her finger, which she brought to my mouth. I didn't have to be told what to do here and obediently opened my mouth. She stuck her finger in, and I sucked it like a popsicle for a few seconds until she was satisfied and brought it out with a pop.

Then, she gently put her hand on my chin and pulled, having me hold my mouth open wide. She moved her mouth about a foot above mine, and like a bird, spit the rest into my open mouth. Some of it landed on my face, which was quickly scooped into my mouth by Viv.

"Don't swallow yet - I want you to stay right there, mouth open for a second." She ordered as she hopped off me and walked slowly to her room. She came back a few seconds late with her phone. She swiped around for a bit until she then pointed the camera at me.

"For posterity" She giggled. I blushed, my mouth still open with cum as the flash went off and a picture was taken. Then, with the camera still pointed at me she made her next commands.

"Good job. Now I don't want you to swallow yet. Close your mouth. Swish it around for, let's say, 20 seconds. Open it again to show me. Then you can swallow!" She commanded, clearly videoing. I hadn't realized yet how much she was going to embarrass me, but I had agreed to this. I had wanted this. So I did as I was ordered, with Viv grinning wickedly the whole time. When I was finally done and swallowed, she opened my mouth again to show the camera I had swallowed it all, before finally putting her phone down on the couch and sitting next to me.

"You being so obedient makes me soooo wet" She told me. She saw me steal a few looks at her phone, clearly worried about the images. "Oh, those will -maybe- just be seen by us... Plus don't you wanna be able to look back and remember this?"

"O-okay. Yeah I guess that's right" I agreed. She kissed my cheek.

"And me giving you a blowjob is going to be a very rare occurrence. It's reserved for very special occasions" She winked before standing up again.

"You did a very good job, and that was a lot of fun" I nodded in agreement, smiling at her compliment. "But we still are students, and not every second of our lives is going to be a purely hierarchical thing. So let's get cleaned up, put on our clothes, and we can snuggle and get our homework done."

"Ok. Sounds good Viv!" I smiled and stood up next to her, pulling my panties up from my legs.

"That reminds me. I have my first real rule for you: From now on, when we are alone, you will only refer to me as Goddess, or Mistress, or Ma'am. You can call me by my name in public if you want, but in private you will treat me with the correct respect." Vivien said sternly while possessively grabbing my ass and leading us to the bathroom.

"Yes. My Goddess." I responded. Referring to her in this way honestly felt more natural than anything else before.

Life was pure bliss. That guy who thought he would never get a girlfriend now was the happy partner of a Goddess of a woman. One that accepted me for all my quirks and perversions. And little did I know things would only get better, harder, and more exciting...

--CHP 1 END--