Black Cock Addiction Pt. 03

*Disclaimer. This story and the topic discussed in it is addictive. It can lead to irreversible changes in your body, life and perception. You are continuing at your own risk. The Author doesn't take responsibility for making you addicted to Black Cock or Men, or any changes this story can cause. You were warned.*

*Disclaimer 2. This story and other possibly added by this Author are fully made up by the Author, therefore they are fictional and shouldnt be used in the reference to the real world.*

This story is a continuation of the previous 2 chapters. It can still serve as a guide, but not exactly a step-by-step guide which will tell you precisely what to do, but more like a sketch, that will show you all the stages that I walked through, stages you will probably reach in your journey as well. The amount of time you will spend on every stage depends only on you.

This path is long and rough, but once you enter it, there is almost no way back or out. As the saying goes- All roads lead to Rome- but in this case- All roads lead to Black Cock. Your body and mind will probably put up a fight against getting addicted to Big Black Cock and it's OK. It's even advisable, as things that take time to form, tend to be longer lasting and even permanent, compared to the things that come easy.

Slowly but surely your resistance will break and eventually you will surrender to Black Cock and won't be able to resist it. And you will know that even that you tried your best to fight and resist- you lost and became a sissy for Blacks, dreaming of servicing their superior Cocks and drooling from only thinking about Big Black Cock.

After you finally admit to yourself how big the role that Big Black Cock plays in your life is, how important Black Cocks are for you, how hard you get while watching them and how you can't or just don't want to imagine your life without them- some things will change irrevocably. Very slowly, but surely, you will cross river after river, breaking your boundaries and pushing the limits further.

After you normalize licking and eating your precum, it will slowly be too little for you. You will get curious of what a real load of cum tastes. You repeatedly watch girls deepthroating Big Black Cocks, taking cumshots on their tits, faces, hair, into their mouths, eating plates of cum during bukkakes, savouring it, blowing cum bubbles, so they visibly seem to love it. That's why the first big step into taking your Black Cock Addiction to the next level is tasting cum.

What you need to acknowledge is that you shouldn't drink cum because I told you to. The desire of trying cum should start in your own mind and body, your own self. You should feel the need to do it. Don't worry if you don't have it yet, keep watching BBC porn, sissy hypnos and Black Cock worship. The thirst will come to you. You have to grow your own lust for cum. No one will know better than you whether you are ready or not.

When you will be ready- the easiest way to do it is- of course- to try your own cum. You beat your meat almost every day anyway, so why would that one load- eaten instead of being flushed down the toilet or dumped into the trashcan even matter, right? You must have seen plenty of CEI (cum eating instructions) videos, usually led by dominant women, if you are here. I did. I watched lots of it...

I slowly built my courage, then got aroused, jerked off to a good quality BBC sissy hypno, came into the palm of my hand- and... I couldn't do it. I couldn't force myself to do it. My whole courage and mood left me the second I orgasmed and even the thought of eating cum started to seem disgusting. I wiped out the cum and promised myself to never try such gay stuff anymore.

But after some time, maybe few days, maybe a week, the thought of eating cum came back. Came back stronger. And the story repeated. And again and again. I also tried cumming on a plate instead of a hand. I tried everything I could imagine many, many times all over again and couldn't break myself. I felt helpless...

Finally, one day, I decided that I've had enough and I can't be such a coward. I saw sissies cumming straight into their own mouths many times, and decided to do the same- reducing the time between orgasming and eating the cum, so I don't have time to lose my readiness, and also cutting the time the cum is out of penis to a minimum- drinking it straight from the source.

After masturbating to my favourite BBC sissy porn- getting myself close to the cumshot, I lied back on the bathroom floor, lifted my legs up and back behind my head, which wasn't easy because I wasn't very stretched at that time. My hard dick was hanging over my face, maybe 8 inches from my nose. I saw some precum leaking from the tip. It dripped on the middle of my chest- I wiped it with my index finger and sucked the finger clean.

„I AM going to do it this time, no escaping!" I told myself.

After a moment of jerking off in that position, I felt the orgasm coming and cum flowing through my dick. I tried to bring my face closer to my dick, opened my mouth wide and put my tongue out, still jerking off.

It was the strongest orgasm in my life! I was shooting heavy streams of thick cum, not stopping after few pumps like usually, I felt like it lasted about half a minute. I mostly missed my mouth though. First strong shot was aimed precisely and it hit my mouth, the feeling of a hot salty cum on my tongue and in my mouth probably scared me and I lost my aim. I cummed on my cheeks, under my nose, on my forehead, chin and on my chest with the last smaller pumps.

I was speechless, shocked with what just happened. I put my legs back to my normal position, and just lied on the floor in disbelief. I was also very tired because of the uncomfortable position and the strong orgasm.

Then, a feeling of a great shame struck me. What I just did was horrible, gay. I took a cumshot on my face like a whore. I stood up and looked in a big mirror on the bathroom wall- I was standing there- naked, with my face glazed in cum- it frightened me. The cum started running down my face, slowly- because it was very thick. It started to form a droplet on my chin.„It will drip and make a mess on the floor!" screamed the scared voice in my head. I panicked and caught it on my fingers, which still had cum from my dick on. Because of the precum licking habit I licked the cum from my fingers, then placed them in my mouth and sucked clean.

I looked in the mirror again- still having my face covered in my own cum. I was shaking.

„What the fuck am I doing?! It can never happen again!" I told myself with a broken voice.

I wiped the cum out and thoroughly cleaned my face, which also wasn't easy because the cum was so thick and sticky. I walked out of the bathroom like nothing happened, thankfully I was alone at home but I kept coming back to the bathroom checking over and over if I hadn't left any traces, marks or stains on the floor or if my face doesn't look strange or suspicious. I was convincing myself that nothing happened. But the boundary was broken...

Breaking yourself to eat cum once doesn't mean that suddenly it will become easy to eat it on a regular basis. After my first success I still kept having a problem with it, but slowly I managed to find braveness more often. Firstly, just touching the cum with the tip of my tounge from time to time, then one small lick, then a bigger one, finally, after a long time- licking my hand clean. (If you can't force yourself to eat cum from your palm you can try doing it during shower- your hands will be wet already- a little more of liquid on it won't make as big difference as on the dry hands. Also you will be able to wash your hand right after eating cum- as this sticky feeling is not easy to get used to.)

Repetition is the key of getting better at everything- not only studying or skiing, but also at eating cum. Although, problems exist and happen to everyone, happened to me, will most likely happen to you, but don't give up. Personally, I was swinging forth and back, wanting to eat cum, and claiming that it's gross and it's the last thing I wanna do. Being addicted to Big Black Cock and stating that it means nothing to me. It's pretty normal, nobody likes admitting that they have lost. And surrendering to Big Black Cock and giving up your whole life to becoming a sissy to worship Black Cocks is usually considered as a defeat- when it shouldn't be. It's just a life choice that gives the opportunity of servicing Superior Cocks. It should be considered a privilege, which you should be proud of, not ashamed of.

Simultaneously, or maybe after some shorter or longer period of time, after eating cum or cumming on your own face, the other seed will start to slowly grow in your mind. You may probably guess what comes next. The idea of being penetrated, impaled on a Big Black Cock. It's the natural consequence of watching BBC sissy hypno porn. But take is easy. It may take a lot of time to accept this fact and submit to it. But I bet you've already watched enough sissy porn to know that orgasm and cumshot can be reached without even touching your dick.

It was a surprise for me at the beginning, but I searched out the internet and found out that males can orgasm without masturbating- just from stimulating their P-spot, and when it happens- such orgasm is stronger and longer lasting (being similar to the orgasm that women can feel) than a regular orgasm from a jerk-off. It seemed very interesting but I didn't want to do it, as I thought that doing any sexual-ish actions around my butt is not what straight males do.

I hesitated for a long time, maybe few months. But finally the perfect opportunity came. I knew for a fact that nobody will interrupt me for a long long time, I prepared myself, took a shower and started to look for a „dildo-like material". Obviously I didn't own a real dildo back then, and I don't recommend you buying one too early on your path, because you will easily throw it away in a wave of shame after you cum to Big Black Cock porn, either while riding it or not, promising yourself that you will be only 100% alpha male from now on (happened to me few times, I wasted some money, don't make my mistakes).

Because of my lack of experience I found it really difficult to find a good tool. I didn't want to start with things like carrots or cucumbers or any vegetables as it seemed too hardcore for me. I also didn't want to pick something that could get dirty easily or be difficult to clean, or anything important, because the disappearance of the often used tool would be too easy to notice (because although I was adult at that time, I was still living in my family house). Finally, I chose the biggest marker (one of these used for whiteboards) that I could find. It wasn't very long, however it was only a little thinner than my own wiener.

I washed it thoroughly, feeling a very strange tingling sensation in my stomach and abdomen which I had never had before (now I know it's the feeling of excitement caused by knowing that I am going to be penetrated soon), placed it on the floor (had to hold it with my hand so it doesn't fall) and tried to put it in my ass by sitting on it. Although it wasn't too thick, I had a big trouble trying to press it in. My hole was tight, anus muscles clenched and I couldn't get through. I kept pushing, and suddenly- it let go- my „dildo" slid in.

I moaned loudly, because I was both surprised and experiencing the feeling that I had never had before. I started moving my ass up and down, trying to bounce on my dildo. I was gradually lowering myself, putting the dildo deeper and deeper in my ass. Finally I reached my sissy G-spot and moaned again. They weren't lying on the internet- it really affects your body. My dick twitched and released a bit of precum which dropped on the floor. Obviously I wiped it and sucked from my index finger- all this while still riding my little friend. I tried to imagine myself riding a Big Black Cock and taking it balls deep in my ass.

As I started getting tired, I switched position- got on all fours (or threes to be specific, as I had to stuff my ass using one hand), arched my back and fucked myself doggystyle. My marker was rubbing against and pounding my G-spot. I was stopping once in a while to jerk my dick, which was rock hard and leaking precum all the time.

Next position I tried was lying on the left side, with my right leg elevated and leaned against the wall, penetrating myself with my right hand. It felt so good I started to forget who I was. My upper thighs and pelvis shook few times, but my dick didn't want to orgasm and cum even though it was rock hard.

After a while I switched back to riding the dildo. I felt I was close to cumming but couldn't fully relax and focus on stimulating my ass, because my position wasn't very comfortable. I felt sore and was losing pace on jerking my dick almost constantly. I started putting the dildo as deep as I could and moving up and down as fast as I could. I tilted my head and back backwards, to rub the dildo harder against my G-spot. I was basically sitting on my shins, moving only my pelvis, one hand holding the dildo, the other one jerking my dick. I felt the orgasm coming and lost it completely.

I started cumming uncontrollably, still moving my ass up and down. I had never shot so much cum before. It was everywhere in front of me. I think I shot further that a meter in length. My ass was twitching as well during the orgasm, and when it ended, the dildo fell out of my butt and hit the floor, as I lost control of it. I just lied on the floor, right next to my cum, breathing heavily...

Shortly after that- same story as usually- guilt, promises that it will never happen again, cleaning the floor, dildo, myself, closing all the porn I just viewed, claiming that I am an alpha straight male- nothing new. It's funny how far can a sissy fall into a Black Cock Addiction and still claim that there is absolutely no problem.

Months were passing, I was still jerking off to Black Cock porn (started to watch a lot of censored porn- not allowing you see vaginas or breasts, because they are blurred out, so you can focus on Black Cocks better), sometimes trying to eat some cum- with various effects- sometimes I chickened out, sometimes succeeded (more and more often, but I don't like to boast and blow my own trumpet :3 ). I got some more anal experience, progressed to a bigger dildo made up from the handle of the clothes roller, but the acts themselves looked very similar to what I already described, so we can skip it. I still couldn't reach a hands-free sissygasm as well, which was starting to make me dissatisfied. It was my next big target and I wanted to achieve it.

I also moved out from my family house and home town because I started an uni in a bigger city. It was a favorable circumstance, because my flatmate was an absolutely random person from the other uni and city, and he was out of the flat for the most of time. I could do whatever I wanted. I think it may be the right moment to stop for a while and describe the thoughts I had in my head and the view on my life while leaving my hometown:

1. Black Cock is superior. For that reason- white dicks must be inferior, so me and my dick are also inferior. (My dick was about 5,5-6 inches at that time)

2. I can't live without Big Black Cock, most probably I am in love with it, and I don't imagine my life without masturbating to it. Although I am still straight. (Right? Men are disgusting, only Big Black Cocks are hot, but the rest of the man this Cock is attached to means nothing to me.)

3. I desire to cum from anal only (only once and then I will never do it, right?) and feel how it is to have a hands-free orgasm.

4. I am planning to buy a Big Black Cock dildo- already searched for a nice one with a suction cup in a good price.

5. I am a virgin and I wouldn't be able to satisfy a woman, also why would I even waste her time if she can fuck a superior Black Cock instead.

6. While seeing a hot girl, with a nice ass or a set of big titties on the street, I no longer think „She is so hot!" but „She would look great on a Big Black Cock!" While watching porn I look almost entirely at Black Cock, I am almost jealous of the girl, and would rather be her, servicing a majestic BBC.

7. No one can ever know about my hidden fantasies.

After moving out from my parents' house, I had pretty much the same lifestyle than before- I tried to do all my duties to go back to my room ASAP and rest in peace and quiet- in other words- to watch more sissy BBC hypno porn, jerk off, sometimes eat cum or stimulate my ass. I bought a black dildo with balls and a suction cup (it was bigger than I expected but my ass adapted fast), rode it few times- then abruptly threw it away in a wave of guilt after the orgasm and cumming to a Big Black Cock while riding a dildo (still couldn't cum from anal only and masturbated my dick simultaneously. However- every time the orgasm was stronger than the ones from only jerking off).

After few months the story repeated, then few months later repeated again, but that time I owned not only a Big Black dildo, but also a chastity cage, buttplug, lacy panties, bra and stockings. Threw out everything anyway. I was almost desperate. I knew that I needed help. I wasn't only sure how I wanted this help to look.

On the one hand I was still trying to persuade to myself that my situation could still be reversed- maybe I could be cured from Big Black Cock Addiction and saved from the future of becoming a sissy whore. On the other hand though, I was already noticing how deep into the BBC Addiction I was.

One of the things that I still couldn't understand though, is how it is possible, that you just can't catch the exact moment when your boundaries change and you fall deeper. At the start of my porn journey anything else than sex including male and female was too much for me. Not a long time later I was pumping cum to gangbangs. Then all the story with Big Black Cocks- but no trans. Gradually, trannies worshiping Big Black Cock became acceptable, and then more and more arousing. Same thing with pissing and rimming. For many years it seemed gross to me- but slowly my approach changed, and now I find anything connected with Big Black Cocks extremely arousing, my mouth waters and salivates for only thinking of a Big Black Cock.

With the passing time, having watched hundreds, or more like thousands of interracial scenes, cum compilations, sissy stuff, hypnos, BBC worships, trans stuff, brainwashing videos and having pumped jars of cum to it, I still tried to pretend that everything was just fine like it has used to be, to defend myself from the thought that I was an „intermidiate material" -on a path between being someone considered a „regular straight male" and a completely devoted sissy slut for BBC. Main thing I had my eyes focused on while masturbating and cumming was Big Black Cock, yet I still tried to see myself as 100% straight. I was lying to myself. Despite the fact that my physical appearance has not changed (yet), on the inside I was no longer the person I had used to be.

Every day, week after week, step by step with every spurt, I was moving forward this path and refused to understand that at the end of this path there was Big Black Cock waiting for me. This path branches, takes plenty of time to get through, months or even many years but you can't leave it, there is no exit, only strays in the process, but after some time you get back on it right where you were before, if not further.

People who watch interracial porn, Black Cocks, sissy stuff of hypnos do not realize how dangerous it is, because of the significant length of this path. First stages of Black Cock Addiction are insidious and people don't even realize that they are being brainwashed, then tend to deny that it could affect them, thinking it's only a bit of weird type of porn they masturbate to. But before you even realize, Big Black Cock will have grown in your mind too deep to be stopped, and all the time, dedication and cum you give to Big Black Cock only strengthens the bond with BBC.

I now love Big Black Cock and there is no way to stop it. Black Cock will never leave my mind and life. With all these thoughts in mind I felt like I was standing on the edge of the cliff, swinging forth and back, trying to catch some balance. All I needed to fall- with no way back- was a little push...

Did I make it on my own? Or maybe I found someone to help me finally jump off the cliff and dive into the ocean of being a sissy for Big Black Cock? You'll get to know it all about how my life changed gradually in the next chapter of this story. Thank you for reading. Love.