Cleaning My New Mother

If you have read any of my other stories, you will have guessed that I am a very messy person. This is my natural state--my default is dirty laundry left on the floor and old coffee cups by my bed. My room is messy, but I feel comfortable in it. That saying about your bedroom being a reflection of your head is probably very true, at least for me; both in the sense that I can be very chaotic and erratic, and also that I have quite a few dirty thoughts running about very often.

I find overly clean homes very uncomfortable. I don't want to feel as if I'm living in a hotel or hospital. Humans aren't very clean, and wiping down your table with disinfectant spray won't change that. If there aren't any germs in your bed then you are a dishonest person or not a real person at all.

Both my parents and a few ex-boyfriends have attempted to change my cleaning and hygiene habits, but I won't relent. I have honestly tried to be tidy, but it doesn't work. In fact, I'm more inclined to make my future boyfriends dirtier. I have lots of things and stuff--various items I've collected over the years--that litter my room. One time, I cried my eyes out in [censored] park, funnily enough, for a reason I can't remember (it was probably a silly reason anyway), but whatever it was, I obviously felt strongly enough to pick up a rock to mark the occasion, which I still have today. I have quite a few such rocks: one pebble from the garden of Sylvia Plath's grave, an igneous rock from the Taurus Mountain range and a dumb rock from a random Russian village. I have too many to remember where they were all from. Maybe this is too unsexy to speak of, and maybe better for my silly blog, but you get the picture that I like to keep things. Now imagine my room with so many silly objects scattered about, punctuated with dirty dishes, discarded panties and maybe a pizza box here or there--that's where I write to you from.

Having read that, you will find it funny to know that once I was hired as an au pair for a French family one summer. It wasn't strictly a cleaning job, but my duties involved a lot of tidying. I wasn't an enthusiastic maid, but I wasn't going to turn down a Free holiday.

I dislike my home so much that, in the summer heat, I endured a long journey to Toulouse, which involved a plane ride and two buses; the latter, believe it or not, was the more traumatic leg.

The house was very old, built however many hundreds of years ago in the countryside. I love country homes outside of the city. I really, really, really dislike cities. It was managed, and I use the word 'managed' very intentionally, by a mother all too strict and tyrannical to be caring. She made it clear, even when I was exhausted and sticky from my travels, that I was very much still a child to her, despite being an adult.

At our first meeting, she tested my poor French by speaking sternly and quickly, giving me my first orders to unpack in my new bedroom. She towered over me at six feet and waved her commands with her long arms, which only made me think she had a horrible slap in her long fingers.

I was given the guest room, which appeared to have been used as a walk-in wardrobe when unoccupied. The walls were railed with long dresses and coats, and all the cupboards were layered with blouses and shirts. I was told not to mind the clothes and to find whatever space I could. Of course, this was all ok with me, and she quickly left me to settle in.

I rumaged through the various drawers to find an empty one, and incidentally, I promise I wasn't looking for it, found her drawer of underwear and lingerie. It was beautiful, lacy and sexy. They were all so soft and perfumed with wonderful floral scents. I wanted badly to try all of it on myself, but my new mother had much larger assets than I. By comparison, I was petite, with a smaller bum and smaller breasts. I had to force the thought out of my head.

Before this, I had fooled around with a friend. You can hardly call it sex-- we fingered one another a few times, and once she let me drunkenly lick her pussy. We were the same age, and it was always with the spirit of fun, but romance was never involved. It stopped when she got a boyfriend, and I think she's a bit embarrassed about what we did now. I don't regret it myself, but I never felt fully satisfied. Although I had always enjoyed sex with men, I still fantasised a lot about women.

And in particular, older women. I remember my English teacher in secondary school was so incredibly kind to me. I was always a quiet girl, with every report card pushed through the letterbox reading, "Great student, but needs to talk more in class." Every card except the one this English teacher gave me. I remember her coming up to me one lesson, and she knew I always did the work with good grades, telling me not to worry about putting my hand up, because she was confident I understood what was being taught. I still went to her after class as often as I could and formed a sort of crush on her. She was very kind to me, but she could be very shouty when she needed to, and I loved that. I think it's funny to think of her reading this now. The French lady, called Charlotte, reminded me a lot of my old teacher.

At dinner, I was chastised, along with the children, for not eating all my vegetables. On my first night, she made quiche with no thought for presentation, yet I found myself obeying her orders as if she were my own mother. I felt her looking down at me, watching every fork pass into my mouth. And again, the watchful eye followed me as I excused myself to the bathroom.

That night, I returned to my room and felt my thoughts wander a little. I found myself returning to the messy drawers. I was so curious about this woman. I wanted to unpeel every part of her and know her so intensely, even though we had only met earlier that day.

I feel a bit of shame about this now, but I held the panties in my hand and felt the thin gusset with my fingers. I held it up to my nose, hoping to smell her sex, but only got the flowery laundry detergent. Still the thought that this little piece of fabric had touched her vagina-- her chatte-- was so arousing to me. Her secretions had once been soaked into this material, which was enough to make me soil my own.

I took my own panties off and put hers on. The same material that had hugged her private parts was touching my own. With my fingers, I pressed the fabric deeper, soaking myself and my scent into her underwear. My vagina leaked where hers did, and feeling between my butt, I pushed the material that would have rubbed her asshole into my own. I wanted to feel as close to her as I could.

Quickly, my shame overtook my arousal, and I took the panties off and returned them, stained, to where I found them. That night I went to sleep horny and sticky, and the panties laid there smelling of my crime.

What turned my curiosity into obsession was what happened the next morning: seeing as I was sleeping in her wardrobe, I was woken up by Charlotte, dressed in a gown, picking her outfit for the day. She selected a long black dress, stockings and the black lacy panties I had found the night before.

I was disappointed that she didn't change in front of me, but I was also exhilarated and anxious that she would wear the underwear I had put on. All I could think about that day was the fact that our juices and scents would mix in that fabric.

Weeks passed like this without incident, but my obsession only grew. I'd finish my work and retire to my bedroom to masturbate. I thought about her every time: fantasising about the way her pussy would smell, how it would taste and whether she had hair. She pushed me to thoughts that, as a generally sexually healthy girl, I felt guilty about. I caught myself staring at her feet as she sunbathed, and as she stood up to adjust her bikini, I wondered about the other hole between her cheeks. I wanted to see every inch of her.

She did start to open up to me a little more. I have my female friends, but I've always felt more comfortable with older women. I think because I don't see them as a part of my clique, or any clique, I need to be worried about. We began talking about boys, and I'd told her about my messy breakup, and she confided in me about a lacklustre husband who was away for work. It didn't seem to go much further than that, but I did notice her spend a little more time loitering around my room, picking her clothes.

She began opening up physically as well, giving me short hugs and small kisses on my cheek to greet me. Her gown loosened, and in between her steps, she showed me that she didn't shave. Contrary to the greying black on her head, her pubic hair was dark, black and thick. More colour was added to my fantasy as I pictured myself pushing my nose into her wild curls and inhaling. At that point, I began growing out my own bush.

She began using the bathroom with the door open, unshamed if I saw. A few times while I was cleaning myself in the shower, she'd walk in, only separated by a thin shower curtain, and begin using the toilet. I heard her urine splash, and I listened to the toilet paper wipe the residue off her coarse hair. I was ashamed that I wanted her to forget toilet paper and use my mouth to clean herself.

I wanted to walk in when she was showering. I wanted her to hear me piss and I wanted her to know my pussy was hairy like hers.

In truth, I hated it when Charlotte showered. The summer heat made her skin damp and shiny. Her sweat made her body hair blossom with scent, and the sweet smell would follow and linger about her everywhere she went. She would only shower twice a week, and each time, my heart would break as the water washed away her natural odour.

I stopped being embarrassed by the heat and allowed myself to be covered in sweat and stink, like she did. I wanted her to notice.

One hot day, she called me into her bedroom, a place I was usually forbidden to enter. Where she kept her clean clothes in my room, here the floor was strewn with dirty panties, shirts, and dresses. It smelled so vividly of her body that I struggled to keep my concentration when she spoke to me.

She was perched on her bed, legs crossed, wearing the familiar black gown. In her deep French accent, she told me plainly, "I think you are very attractive," and after a short pause, continued, "I would like us to have sex, if that is something you are interested in."

I was stunned at how open and forward she had been. Instantly, upon hearing the word "sex," I was aroused, but I could find no words to reply.

Her eyes stared at me intently. She uncrossed her legs and, keeping them tight, placed her knees right next to each other. With the opening, she untied her robe and slipped it off her shoulders, revealing her large breasts, low but firm with age. Her thick pubic hair sprouted from between the tight V between her legs.

"I know you want to," she said, not hesitating even now that she was naked, "but before you undress, you should know that I have complete control over how this happens. You will do as I say, and say 'yes, maman' when you do. Ok?"

I could only manage a shy "yes, maman" to her proposition.

"Excellent. Now undress for me, shy little girl."

"Yes, maman."

I peeled my jeans off, along with my damp socks. Then, I unbuttoned my white cardi and removed my white tank top. I was now standing before her in only my underwear. Despite the new skin being revealed, her eyes did not leave my face. She kept her stare the whole time.

I met her eyes, and she gestured with a flutter of her lids for me to continue.

I hooked my thumbs under my panties and, bending over, I pulled them down past my sticky feet smushed into the carpet. She could see my bush now, and if she looked, she would have seen my lips poking out of the black hair now.

I have always been slightly uncomfortable with feet. I almost always wear socks, and I never wear open-toed shoes. I think my toes are as pretty as toes can be, and I take care of them the best I can, but it still doesn't stop me from feeling slightly embarrassed when I have to take my socks off to swim. An ex-boyfriend helped me overcome this somewhat by licking my feet, and even when he'd cum prematurely from sniffing my foot, I'd still be in two minds whether I was ok with it.

Charlotte had very pretty feet; they were small, dainty and elegant. I admired them from afar, but in my guilty moments, late at night, I toyed with the idea of perhaps sucking her toes. Afterwards, I would put the thought out of my mind and try to forget, but every step Charlotte took without socks brought it all back. I started neglecting socks myself.

Charlotte must have read my mind, because once undressed, she ordered me to my knees and gave me instructions to clean her feet. She told me she had been running around all day, so that they had become sore and dirty.

I honestly don't have a foot fetish, and I don't normally get aroused by these things. I've never gone out of my way to play with someone's feet, but being commanded by Charlotte to put her feet in my mouth turned me on so much. It's turning me on now, remembering it.

Her sweat smelled sweet, and the scent only got stronger as I leaned to take her first big toe in my mouth. My lips closed off at the joint, and I swirled my tongue with spit under the bottom and over the nail and even under the nail where it met with flesh. I sucked as if I had a small cock in my mouth.

I moved onto the others, taking a breath in between to smell the crevice where her toes sweated and bent. She smelled like skin and salt, and I loved it so much. I wanted her to step on me with her bare feet.

I gladly moved onto her other foot, sucking each toe, and licking down to her heel replacing her sweat with my saliva.

She pulled away from me and opened her legs.

"Nettoyez mon chatte."

I looked up to see her wonderful, dark lips, shining and wet, buried in her pubic hair. Her discharge had created a web of cum in the bristles of her bush, framing the little pink centre desperate to leak more.

She violently grabbed the back of my head and held me between her thighs. I had seen her thick hair and even worn her panties, but now I was face to face with her pussy. I could see each strand of hair and where it curled. I could see the little button at the top of her pussy and the purple lips curving downward.

The air between her legs was full of her scent. Her pussy smelled strong and musky and sweet. I could smell her uring and cum mixed with her hair. She was so unashamedly dirty, and I wanted more than anything to lick her clean.

After letting me take her odour, with another violent jerk, she forced my head forward so I could now taste it. Her hair prickled my face, and now, so close, her smell made my nose wrinkle and inhale even more. Before even thinking of Charlotte's pleasure, I just wanted to taste her all over. I licked and sucked her pussy, taking in her thick cum into my mouth and tasting her salty, metallic juices. I rubbed my face, getting my chin, cheeks and nose covered in her sex. I took her lips into my mouth and sucked them clean of their sticky mess.

Before she allowed herself an orgasm, Charlotte hoisted me up and kissed my dirty lips. She held me in a grip, under my jaw, and stared again into my eyes. She told me I was a stinky girl, and that she had smelled my pussy on her panties. I felt her hand brush my soiled vagina, collecting my sticky mess. She brought her hand up to her nose and sniffed. Then, allowing me to smell her hand next.

I love my own scent. When I masturbate, it's before my shower and not after. The smell on Charlotte's fingers was unclean and sweaty, and while I adored it, my face burned with embarrassment and desire knowing she had smelled it too-- my most intimate region. My worries were cleared when after making me smell my own pussy, she sucked her fingers clean.

Leaving me standing, this time, Charlotte dropped to her knees. Looking down, I could see her greying roots contrasted with my black pubic hair. Her face was buried in my pussy, smelling me, licking me and tasting me. I felt my orgasm build as she sucked on my clit and I felt myself growing wetter and wetter with thick, sticky cum.

Both her hands were rested on my ass cheeks, massaging, squeezing and pulling them apart as she ate my pussy. She stopped the motions for a second, and still with her face between my legs, I felt a wet finger touch my hole. She only circled for a little, rubbing her spit around, feeling the wrinkles on my anus and following their downward slope to the centre. She felt the hair on my asshole, and the sweat and cum that had gathered too.

I have done anal with a few guys, as well as masturbating, but I was always prepped and shaved. I felt alarmed at the sudden prospect of being penetrated in my asshole.

Charlotte didn't seem to mind because she pushed her index finger into my asshole and began moving back and forth while she licked me. I felt overwhelmed with stimulation and could no longer track the sensations-- I just knew whatever I was feeling was pleasure.

A warmth filled my loins, and a tingling pleasure erupted in my fingertips and toes as I came. I was so fucking wet and my dirty juices were all over Charlottes face.

Charlotte reappeared face to face with me, her hair matted to her forehead with sweat and my pussy juice all over her face. The humid room stank of our sex and sweat. I felt my asshole push her out, and I watched her, instead of reentering, put the wet finger that had been deep inside me into her mouth and suck.

"You taste good," she said to my startled face. "I want you to taste mine now."

She got onto the bed on all fours and looked back at me and exposed her hair covered anus with a mischievous smile. Her beautifully matured face, elegant and wise, I now saw right next to her dirty hole. It was incredibly arousing seeing a woman, usually so unapproachable and cold, naked and horny. When at once I felt lucky to be noticed by her, I was now about to push my tongue into her asshole.

I put my lips entirely on her anus and kissed. She smelled earthy and sweaty and tasted similarly. I licked up and down and pushed as deep as I could, wanting to taste all of her. Charlotte played with her pussy while I rimmed her.

Soon, I had enough spit to penetrate, so copying her movements, I put pressure on her hole and entered. Charlotte came like that, with her clit being rubbed and my finger deep in her asshole.

Charlotte got up, grabbing my wrist and removing me from inside her, she brought my fingers up to my face and told me to suck, to taste her asshole of my finger. Half embarrassed but too horny to care, I sucked it and tasted her ass. I would have done it without her telling me.

We were both drenched in sweat, but Charlotte wanted me like that. She said I was to put the same dirty clothes back on and stay unshowered because she wanted to fuck me again later that night.

"Will you wash, maman?" I asked guiltily.

"Do you want me to?"

"No, maman."