That Wasn’t Meant to Happen

That wasn't meant to happen.

My name is Tom, I'm forty two, pretty much average in all departments that I'm aware of and single, I work for myself qualified as an electrician but can do most things in and around a house, I had done my apprenticeship with a firm and had met Dave there, he is now fifty one, I know that because I went to his big birthday last year, he's married to Dawn, they have a daughter, Lilly, who is just coming up to... shit, is it nineteen or twenty? Never mind, it doesn't matter as I'll get her a big present anyway.

I'm her godfather, not that it means much these days to most people. On first meeting Dave we became friends, best friends for some reason, he was just getting married to Dawn at the time and so I became a close friend of the family, by close I don't mean that Dawn and I did anything together, Dave was my mate, but I will admit that we sometimes went around to their house for breakfast on the way to a job, shouldn't have but we did.

Dave would go upstairs when we got there, I knew what the noise was, as newlyweds they couldn't keep their hands off of each other, Dawn was still in bed when we got there and Dave probably was having his second breakfast in bed, they would come downstairs, Dawn blushing the first couple of times, but I never said anything to either of them.

I've been around their house most weeks for a meal or just to watch something on the TV, he and Dawn helped me through the time I nearly, nearly got married, she, I won't name the cow, dumped me for another so called friend at the alter, it took a long time to get my head back on straight after that weekend I can tell you.

I have my own place, I bought it as a shell, it had had a fire in it and been left to rot when I eventually spotted it, it's where I spent most of my free time, it took a lot of money and hard work to get it where it is today.

I've always been Uncle Tom to Lilly, Dave and Dawn's daughter, I've spoilt her, but we have a good relationship, the age difference between us doesn't seem to matter, I've watched her start dating, how upset she was when boyfriends dumped her or when she dumped them, me and Dave often laughed about how hard it was for the youngsters these days, makes us sound so old saying that.

I'd never heard that between the three of them to have had a serious argument, not a real blow up one, so I was surprised when Lilly was knocking on my door crying her eyes out at eleven thirty that night, I got her inside and for the first hour, all I could get out of her was that in her words.

"I've fucked everything up Uncle Tom, Dad is mad as hell, Mum won't talk to me anymore and I've had to leave home," it's not a lot of words written down, but they came out singly, and at first not in the right order.

It took another hour for her to let me ring Dave, find out just what had happened, I mean he is my best friend, and I can't see him or Dawn not talking to Lilly or throwing her out, not in a million years.

He had and she did. I didn't know that Dave was so straight laced, I had never thought that he would react like this, and Dawn's response, I still find it hard to believe that she stopped talking to her daughter, but she had.

Lilly was pregnant, she was only nearly twenty, okay she had made a mistake, she kept dating a boy who Dave didn't like for some reason I haven't been able to work out, but he had warned Lilly about going out with the boy, I don't know much about kids, but I have learned that just saying don't, is a sure way of them doing it, just to show they are grown up, have a mind of their own so to speak.

Lilly had continued to see the boy and then slept with him because he said he loved her, yeah, he was like lots of boys, saying whatever it took to get into the girl's panties, and this boy was no different.

Lilly eventually, weeks later told me that they would go out most nights they met each other, have sex in the back of his van, have a drink and have sex on the way home, listening to her he was a piece of work, he used her, he taught her, made her more like it, if he came in her mouth, she had to swallow or get a slap, he took her like a sex doll and left her like one, wet sticky and unfulfilled, she thought she had a climax once, but wasn't sure, to cap it off, when Lilly told him she thought she was pregnant he did two things, he threatened her not to say anything, and while she was waiting for him to do the right thing, which he said he would, he made plans to go abroad to work.

So this was the night that Lilly finally realised he wanted nothing to do with her or the baby, he had picked her up as he usually did, fucked her silly in the car park of the pub and when she got out he wound the window down and told her he was going abroad, she'd been a fun shag but he had better things going on than to be tied down with her, he didn't even say goodbye.

I'd waited for morning to call Dave a second time, I had put Lilly in my spare bedroom, not that she or I got any sleep, all I could hear was her crying.

I won't go into details of that call, let's say Lilly was correct in every aspect, Dave and Dawn washed the hands of Lilly, I really couldn't believe their attitude, their daughter needed them, but they weren't going to lift a finger to help her, the only thing I got from them was permission to go over and pick up all Lilly's things, they had already boxed and bagged everything and it was in the garage.

I couldn't believe them, it was their daughter, she made a mistake, we all made mistakes at her age, okay, maybe not many get pregnant making our mistakes, but heck, Lilly was their daughter, I bet they couldn't put their hands on their hearts and say they never made a mistake at her age, and after all was said, Lilly being their daughter, didn't she deserve support?

On the way home I had to think things through, I kept asking myself what to do? Wash my hands of her, take her somewhere, that question asked where? I mean, I had known her for, well her whole life, I couldn't understand what and how her parents could be so cold, what the hell were my options, I pulled into a car park, just to think without getting into an accident,

1, I could do nothing, not really an option was it.

2, take her somewhere, but where, home wasn't an option as it should have been, I'd just witnessed that for a fact.

3, take her somewhere she would be kept safe, where? I couldn't think of anywhere that was safe, or would take her.

4, do nothing, let her sort herself out, in my wildest dreams that wasn't going to happen, Lilly wasn't in any state to look after herself at the moment, in a while things would calm down, maybe she just needed a little time to get her head back on straight.

I could just do nothing but see what happened, but that wasn't fair on her as her mind was in turmoil, so it had to be,

5, take her in and give her a bed and as much support as necessary, be there for her, be strong for her.

So Lilly moved in, I will be quick to point out it was to the spare bedroom, NOT mine, give me a break, I've known her all her life, her parents were, note the past tense, my best friends.

I had changed her nappy.

I took a couple of days off to keep her company and make sure that she was safe, had her mind in a safer place, after her so called boyfriend and then her parents dumping her like she was a bag of trash, she was in a very fragile place, I was there for her, I wasn't trying to change her mind, make her do anything, it had all happened so suddenly her mind needed time to work things through, all I could do was give her a safe space to think things through at her own pace.

I mean my head had gone on a spinning loop as well, I never thought that Dave and Dawn would do anything like this, I could understand her so called boyfriend, he was young and probably just as worried that his life was going to go to hell, it's no excuse, but when you're young you don't make the best of the choices that get thrown at you do you, but I will admit that if I got a hold of him then he would have had changed his mind in how he acted.

The first day was tough on both of us, Lilly was fragile to say the least, she had been let down by everyone it must have felt like, all I could do was be there for her.

I think she got through at least a box of tissues that day, and who could blame her for that, her life had gone from one of relative peace and comfort to being thrown out by all the people who were supposed to look after her.

It was on the second day that I got much sense out of her, I did get her to eat a bowl of soup and drink plenty of the only thing I could think she might drink, fruit juice, the third day I went back to work, but I did make it a short day, I stopped on the way home and did a big shop, I didn't have much of an idea what she liked or disliked, just made a guess and hoped for the best, I did stock up on tissues.

She looked terrible, she didn't look as if she had had any sleep, with bags under her red rimed eyes and a red nose from the constant rubbing of the tissues, I made something simple for her to eat, strange choice, but who doesn't eat beans on toast? It was hot, filling and she couldn't tell me what she wanted, she said she wasn't hungry, but it disappeared when I put it in front of her with more fruit juice, while I did the dishes I put her on the sofa and put the handset for the TV in her hand, I heard something in the background and let a breath out I didn't know I was holding, we sat watching whatever she wanted when I finished the dishes, Lilly knew she could just sit there or we could talk, or not, it must have been an hour that went by before she said anything.

"Why are you doing this for me?" I was a little taken aback by that question, but I gave it serious thought before responding.

"I might be an old foggy, but we all make mistakes, I'm not innocent in all I've done in my life, you on the other hand have been dealt a shitty hand in this, you, and your parents have looked at it as only your own fault, but you were under that magical power, love, it might have been true, it could have ended up being the best thing since sliced bread, you and knobhead, but,... but he turned out to be like someone else who I knew once, untrustworthy, all you need right now is a friend, somewhere to be safe, I can give you the safe place and would like to be that friend, but it's up to you, stay or go, I won't force you to do anything you don't want to, I will put options in front of you, sometimes we can't see the wood from the trees, I'm good at that, so I will say things to you that you don't want to hear, but I won't force you to do anything, but I will put the options I see you have out there, it will be up to you to make your own decisions," I took a deep breath and ploughed on.

"You have to make choices, but not right now, I'll help you as much or as little as you want, you have a safe place here with me if you want, I won't ask many questions, but there will have to be some, you can tell me to mind my own business if you want, but I will only help you as much or little as you will let me, I have two questions for you right now, are you still hungry?" Lilly shook her head no.

"And is there anything else you want to tell me or that I should know?" Again she shook her head no. "Have you seen a doctor, you know, make sure you're... " For the first time I saw a bit of a smile.

"That's three questions," but she said it in a good way.

"No, I know, I've done the pee tests, lots of them hoping that there was a mistake,"

We sat in silence for a while, I told her we should go see a doctor, make sure everything was going on as it should, it was only then that I thought to ask her if she was sure that she wanted to keep the baby, I had to tell her quite forceful that it was her decision but I needed to know what she wanted, I couldn't and would do my best not to second guess her, she had to tell me in plain English, I made a joke by saying I was only a man, a single one at that so all this was probably newer to me than it was to her, which for the first time made her give me a titter, it wasn't a full laugh, but it was a start.

We went to bed shortly after that, I had work in the morning.

I'm not sure if I was surprised that Lilly was in the kitchen when I got down for breakfast, she looked brighter, as I left for work I asked if she would think about seeing her doctor, just to get things right, if she was going to keep the baby she had to start to think about looking after it.

Getting home that evening Lilly had made shepherd's pie for us, it seemed she was coming around in herself, getting her head in some sort of shape to go on, when I was clearing up she asked if we could talk.

We sat in the lounge with mugs of tea, I might have had a beer on my own, but I didn't want Lilly to want one with me, I knew she drank, but alcohol wouldn't help now, and if she was going to keep the baby, it was not on her menu from now on.

"Tom, would you... would you help me?" I nodded.

"Will you come with me,... I've made an appointment to see the doctor, you were right, I need to grow up if I'm going to be a mum, and it had better be soon,... but I'm scared,... I've messed everything up so far," she burst into tears, I wasn't sure if hugging her was the right thing to do just then, but what other choice did I have? It didn't seem right to just sit there watching her cry her eyes out feeling all alone.

I moved to her and hugged her, held her till the tears stopped, then I moved away.

We sat in the waiting room for the doctors, Lilly had been nervous all morning, I'd taken the day off to go with her, couldn't expect her to do this on her own, it should have been her mum.

I thought I would wait in the waiting room when she was called in, but she made me go with her, which I wasn't comfortable with I can tell you.

The doctor, a woman, looked at me like she had stepped in some dog poo or something unpleasant like that when we walked in.

Lilly saw the look and told the doctor that I was a friend who she was living with at the moment, I could see on the doctor's face she was thinking that I was some sort of sick person, the age gap, the fact that the appointment was to see if she was pregnant, and an older man, it all spelt sleaze didn't it.

I put my foot down, I didn't want to be called a pervert or anything.

"Look doctor, Lilly is my goddaughter, she's living in my home, NOT MY BED, her parents have washed their hands of her so she's living under my roof, IN HER own bedroom," the doctor blushed and muttered an apology. I didn't want to stay in the room for the examination, but Lilly insisted, I sat blushing looking at the door, not at the couch where Lilly was lying, wishing that the floor would swallow me up.

I mean it was a foregone conclusion that Lilly was pregnant, but the doctor had all the tests run, made appointments for Lilly, it all seemed so normal, I suppose it is normal, for couples, but it was embarrassing for me. Lilly seemed a different person on the way home, she had cheered up, it was as if a large load had been lifted off of her.

Life went on, I tried to talk with Dave and Dawn, they wouldn't have anything to do with Lilly and by association with me, their loss I thought, but it did affect Lilly, I saw the hurt in her eyes.

She had continued to go to college, I wasn't sure of what she was doing, it had never been brought up, she did ask if she could bring some friends over one night, it was fine by me, it would make her feel more at home than camping somewhere.

It was arranged for a Saturday, I had gone shopping and for a drink at lunchtime, I got home to find eight girls having a good time, Lilly came into the kitchen as I was putting the shopping away.

"Is it alright if we order pizza, and can we have some of your beers? I'll pay you back somehow, please," I laughed and said why not.

I'm a soft touch, it wasn't the first time I had been told that, they ordered, I paid.

From what I saw of them, them as a group, they were like any other group of girls their age, fun, loud and full of life, the music they were playing wasn't my thing at all, I had to go to the shed in the garden to get away from the house, I'm a man, they were young woman, I didn't want to be thought of as a dirty old man, they had bodies that were just coming into their prime, I could go into how pert they were, and you would know the parts that I'm referring to, they had legs that seemed to go up to their necks, and it seemed to me that they were going out of their way to flirt with me, or was that wistful thinking.

I thanked god they weren't dressed to go clubbing, I'd seen some of those get ups, I wasn't sure if I could take them dressed up to go out on the pull, things haven't changed that much, it wasn't much different in my days.

I spent most of the afternoon in the shed, sharpening my saws, cleaning out some rubbish that I had been meaning to for the last two years, anything to not to see them flaunting themselves in front of me, yer, in my dreams you say, but three of them came down to see what I was doing, one, Victoria, hopped up on the bench waving her legs around asking silly questions, making it clear that she was keen, keen to see what a man my age was like, she was on offer, if I wanted her, she even wrote her phone number on the wall of the shed.

They surprised me, they made a salad from the stuff I had in the fridge, it was all set out nicely, dressed and looking great when I came back in, I couldn't stand being in the shed any longer, this was all new to me, as a parent you grow with them, know what is acceptable and what they should and shouldn't get up to, me? I'm learning late in life, and they are grown women, who just need guidance in some ways, not that I wanted to guide them, well maybe in my dreams, but I was aware that things could get ugly very quickly if I made a silly mistake.

I wasn't aware of anything being said, but they had changed after my visit to the shed, it was as if they saw me in a different light, I wasn't the joke I had been earlier, I couldn't put my finger on any one thing, but they had sobered up, the joking had quietened down, the conversation had turned serious, I started to enjoy them, as adults, not girls, they still made me laugh, but things, as I said had changed. After they left later that evening, they had cleaned up everything, made coffee for me before leaving, each of them kissed my cheek on the way out, except of course Vicky, as I now called her, she made a show of kissing my lips.

"He deserved a proper kiss, he's had to put up with us all today," she told the laughing group as she pulled away from me.

Lilly asked if everything was alright, were they too noisy or did they make a mess of anything, I thought that was a nice gesture.

Things moved on as they always do, it was a month, a bit more when I found Lilly looking like she had been crying, I did what I do, I asked her outright, what's wrong?

It took a bit of patience and pushing to get her to tell me that she had run out of money.

FUCK FUCK FUCK, I hadn't given that a thought, now I sat there wondering how had I been so stupid, here was a girl, going to college, how was she expected to pay for anything, it just hadn't crossed my mind, money was the root of all evil.

I sat her down and we worked out what she was short of, in the way of clothes and essentials, and I insisted that she told me her outgoings, I had to explain that as a single man, I wasn't rich, but I was more than will to help her, she insisted that it would be a loan, not a gift, I accepted, but it was in the back of my mind that that would be later, much later, we would argue about it then, not now, if she was younger it would have been classified as pocket money, but now it was called an allowance.

I didn't want her getting into trouble by being in debt, in debt anywhere or to anybody.

I looked at her bank account statements, not that she wanted me to, but I added up what she had paid out while living with me so far, I put the same amount back in her account, why do women cry at any little thing?

Lilly was six months on, she was showing, she said, I couldn't see any difference, but I wasn't looking that hard, I was her acting Dad now, Dads don't look at their daughters like that, it didn't stop me looking at her friends like that though, I tried not to make it obvious, sorry, I'm a man, a bachelor, seeing young woman close up, wearing... little on a lot of occasions, I couldn't help but look, and Vicky made no bones about liking me looking, nor did Trudy, I'm sure that they competed with each other to get me to watch them, that's the impression I got anyway, I looked.

Lilly gave me a bottle of Scotch for my birthday, it was from the group of girls she said, it was a lovely present, I had to be kissed by each of the nine girls that were at my birthday party, it was only a silly evening, but I thought it great that they went to the trouble.

This was where my first and only problem happened, Vicky, she of the short skirts, long legs, large bust and the most forward of them all came on to me, she was what? Nineteen, twenty, she was fit, if I was twenty years younger, I wouldn't have stood a chance, but for some reason I was her target, for my birthday party they had all dressed up more than they usually did, Vicky had her man catching things on, compared with the others she was dressed to the nines, she had a dress, more a sheath, it hugged her like a glove, it highlighted her, her nipples in particular were more than prominent, you couldn't not see that she was nude under some sort of rubber that it was made from, she had on high heels, they were stilettos, pencil thin heels that had to be five inches tall, it did things to her leg muscles that did things to a certain part of me that wasn't comfortable in my trousers, I didn't think the others were okay with what she was doing, but she got away with it.

I had noticed that one or other of the girls were always with me if Vicky was near me, I knew that she was making a play for me, I so wanted to let her, I hadn't been with anybody, anybody in that way, and I'd had a couple of drinks, drinks that they had poured, they had no idea what a measure was, I was feeling slightly, just slightly that I had had enough for the night, I went to the bathroom, did my business, washed my hands and opened the door, Vicky pushed me back inside.

"It's your birthday, I'm your present," she had my hand in hers and feed it up the skirt part of that dress, she wiggled to help the tight rubber rise with our hands, she was kissing me and for a while I was kissing her back, I came to my senses as I found her shaven pussy, she was wet, wetter than any I had had the pleasure of stroking or doing more with, our fingers were pushing inside, like her tongue in my mouth was doing, I was hurting from the tension in my cock that was trying to fight its way out of my fly.

I pulled my hand away. " We can't Vicky, much as I want to, it's wrong, I thank you for thinking of me, for wanting me, but you know it's wrong on so many levels, I like you, more than I should probably, but we can't be together, not like this, in the morning you would feel used and cheap, you're nothing like that, you deserve more than an old man like me, I thank you from the bottom of my heart to ever think of me like that, I will hold this moment with love in my mind, but it can't be for real, it has to be a dream of mine, so thank you," I kissed her a long deep lovers kiss and left her in the bathroom.

I went back downstairs to find Lilly, I asked her to go and make sure that Vicky was alright, told her to be very kind, it was my fault I said, I didn't want her to think of one of her friends as a slut, Vicky wasn't really like that.

I danced with each girl, they had played my type of music as it was my birthday, it must have been half an hour before Lilly and Vicky came back to join the rest of us, I'm sure that they all knew what was supposed to happen, but nobody said anything unkind.

I made sure to dance with Vicky as well as the others, it just so happened to be a slow number when we had a third dance, I could see the doubt in her eyes, would I hold her, could she dance closely to me, would I let her.

I not only let her, I held her close, closer than was appropriate to be honest, Vicky, like several of the others were a ten on the looks scale, I'd had another of their measures to drink, I was feeling happy, more than happy, so I did something that I regret, I hugged her, rubbed my hard cock on her as we danced, pulled her in close and whispered in her ear, that if I was only twenty years younger she wouldn't be able to walk tomorrow, told her I would have filled her up with so much cum that she would drown in it, told her she was the best looking woman, I didn't use the put down word of girl on her, I used the word woman and meant it, I held her as she sobbed, I told her whoever she married would be the luckiest man in the world, I was too old for her, past my sell by date, but I was so glad she was here for me, but to save herself for someone who warranted her, I wasn't good enough for her, as the song was ending I pulled her head into mine and kissed her like there wouldn't be another, a long lovers kiss, she had pulled my hips into her to feel my hardness rub her in her most special place, we ended the kiss and whatever you wanted to call what our dance had become, I thanked everyone for making my day, my year so special, but I had to go to bed, they had worn me out, I said it as a joke, but there was an undercurrent in the room, looking back, everyone had watched me do that to Vicky, but I'd not seen or thought of that at the time, hindsight is a wonderful thing.

I went to bed, I wasn't that tired, but it wasn't fair to any of us for me to stay.

I heard the music stop, people going home, and the house going quiet.

"Are you awake?" Lilly asked from the doorway. I said yes.

I was expecting a telling off, but Lilly sat by my side and thanked me.

"You did a really good thing down there, Vicky was distraught earlier, but you seem to have made her a new woman, I don't know what you said to her during that last dance, but she's been in tears of joy after you come up here, she won't tell any of us what you said, we could all see you grinding on her pussy, we all get that from boys all the time, but you didn't do it for yourself did you, you did it for Vicky didn't you, so thank you," Lilly gave me a quick peck on the cheek and left.

I lay awake thinking, thinking of what I could have done with Vicky, knowing that I did the right thing, but I couldn't get the sight of her in that dress and how she felt under it out of my mind, then my bedroom door opened and closed.

"Don't say anything, just let me," Lilly said as she slipped into my bed, nude, I felt she was nude as she climbed on me, held my head a kissed me, I went to say something, but she put a finger on my lips.

"I said don't say anything, let me thank you for everything you have done for me, and tonight for Vicky,"

Lilly had told me a little about her boyfriend, how he had treated her, how he had made her do certain things, she now showed me she had learned well, it had been a long time for me, to be with a woman who wanted to do things with me, not do them because I was paying her, but Lilly sucked and licked, bobbed up and down, I didn't think I could have been any harder just thinking about Vicky earlier, but Lilly had me in pain from the tension in my body, and when she sank down and took me fully in her pussy we both knew it wouldn't be long until I flooded her insides with my cum, it wasn't, four or five full plunges of her so tight pussy on my aching cock and I held her still as I thrust up at her, it seemed to go on forever in my mind, on and on and on I came in her, and then stopped thrusting. Lilly lay on me gently rubbing my head, kissing my lips and just rocking her hips.

I hadn't been with a woman in a long time, I didn't want to think of how long it had been. I was brought out of the peaceful place I was in by Lilly laughing.

"If I wasn't pregnant before, you would have made me after that load, do you always cum that much?"

We laughed together, her laughter had moved her hips, which had moved on my still hard cock, she noticed.

"Shall we?" Lilly moved her hips upward and slowly pushed down again, I wasn't thinking, not with my big head, and they say that a man's little head has no conscience, I certainly didn't have one at that moment, we flipped over, we didn't uncouple, her legs locked around me as I put her on her back and proceeded to pound her into the mattress, having just cum I lasted a long time, I'm surprised that I had risen for her a second time, but that was only a thought much later, we kissed, I nipped her nipples, she held them up for me, and I pounded her, on and on, in and out, in and out, at some point I was aware of her crying out in passion and her grip of my cock getting tight, but it didn't stop me from driving to my goal, as I fired off inside her Lilly linked her legs behind my back making sure I didn't pull out of her.

As I lay on her, much too tired out to move, I was sort of locked on my elbows and knees, she wasn't taking my weight, I must have unconsciously thought about her condition and didn't want to hurt her in any way, I rolled off of her and onto my back breathing hard, I felt her move, I was expecting her to roll onto her side, something like that but she moaned as she moved, she was as tired as I was sure, but she went onto her knees and sucked me back into her mouth, I pulled her up to look into her eyes.

"What are you doing?"

"He always made me do this, clean him up after, after he came, he said it was what everyman expected," I hugged her to me softly laughing.

"He was a prat, you only do what you want to do, no man who you give your favour to can expect anything from you that you don't want to give him, understand? He was a bigger prat than you told me," I said.

"Then let me, I want to do it, for you," Lilly said as she went back to sucking me. I'd never had any woman do this, most didn't like to let me cum in their mouths, not that I have to use a second hands fingers to count how many have sucked me before, three if you need to keep account, Lilly was the third, there you go, met Mr man of the world, fuck I'm useless as a lover it seems.

I wasn't sure what was making Lilly giggle.

"When was the last time you emptied those balls, I think I'm drowning, from the insides, have you a box of tissues in reach, you'll have to buy a new mattress if it all runs out," she was brighter than she had been after moving in with me, I passed her a handful of tissues, she mopped up what had leaked out so far and hobbled to the bathroom to clean up, I lay there wondering what I, we had done, I should have said no, I was the grown up of the two of us, but I so enjoyed it, was it the fact that we should have stopped before it started?

Was it because it was wrong that I was feeling so good?

I was lying there in blissful dreams, unaware of what was going on around me.

I was shocked when Lilly hugged me, I hadn't heard her come back in the room, I stiffened, my body not just that little part of me that made me a man.

"Are you mad at me?" Lilly asked in a most unsure voice.

"No, more at myself than you, you know we shouldn't have done any of that aren't you?" I went from feeling top of the world to like the sludge at the bottom of a bag of muck.

"Well I'm feeling great, I've been trying to work out how to thank you, am I that bad on my back? Look on the bright side, you can fuck me all you want for the next couple of months, you can't get me anymore pregnant than I am, she sat up and leaned over me, I defy you to tell me you didn't like that, go on say you loathed it, tell me you didn't love fucking a real woman instead of cumming in a wad of tissues using your hand, go on tell me I wasn't better than you wanking off just thinking about doing it, go on," I couldn't could I, it was a hundred times better, a thousand times better.

Lilly smiled at me. "See, you just have to think clearly, I don't know how to thank you, I don't know a better person in the whole world, look at what you did for Vicky, you could have had her any way you wanted, she'd have let you you know, but she changed after that dance I don't know what you said or did to her but she's left here tonight a different person, she has hated herself for a while now, but whatever you did to her she's changed, so it's time someone did something for you.

As I owe you a lot, as I'm here with you and you can't get me pregnant, I'll be here for you, I'll be your little sex doll, you can teach me things, do things with me, do things that you have never been allowed to do, but you have to promise me not to hurt me,... there I've said it, now are you up for more?" I lay there looking at her, I shook my head, I hadn't heard her correctly had I? I had.

I wasn't up for it as she so politely said, not that the mind wasn't, it was the body that failed to respond to Lilly's, what's turned out to be a willing, and talented mouth, what she was doing to me was amazing, but I was finished for the night.

I woke thinking what a strange dream to have had, only it wasn't a dream was it, Lilly was lying there looking at me smiling.

"Good morning, you have several choices this morning, I can make you what you want to eat, we can eat here in bed or go to the kitchen, or... we can stay here and eat each other, I've never been eaten before, but the girls say it can be better than anything else I'm likely to feel, oh, I could just suck you off if you would prefer," she said it in so matter of fact way, smiling all the time, she knew what she was doing.

I had to take a very big breath, I was hard already and it was sooooo tempting, and Lilly's hand just touching my stomach nearly clinched it, but only nearly.

"No, Lilly, we have to eat and we can talk, this has got to stop," I said, but did I mean it?

We went downstairs, Lilly had put on a short robe, I'm not sure what it was supposed to hide, I saw for the first time that her little belly had a lump in it, it was only going to get bigger week by week and day by day from here on in, fuckkkkk.

I tried to explain that we couldn't do it again, it wasn't right, it was dangerous, to the baby, and what if we got found out by someone, I was making up things to say to stop it from happening again, my brain was shouting at me from each ear, my left was telling me to stop this madness, the right was silky smooth in its view of how much fun, and how much I deserved to sample as much of Lilly as she was willing to let me have, and it seemed that she was willing to let me have anything that I wanted.

We went back upstairs to get dressed for the day, I had watched Lilly nodding her head in agreement with me that it should stop, I had started to breathe more steadily, that was until I went into my bedroom, Lilly followed me in and took her robe off.

"No Lilly, we just agreed that it had to stop," I must have sounded as if I was begging, I was.

"Don't worry Tom, everything is going to be fine, just let me take care of you for a while now, you'll have to look after me when the baby comes,"

It felt like I was trying to hold the tide back, she rolled over any and all my reservations about us doing anything more.

She was young, she had been naive when she let her boyfriend lead her on, but now she seemed to know just what she was doing.

Like a lamb to the slaughter, I let her lead me on this time, it was a cross between making love and just straight fucking, to start with she lead me, it ended with me taking her like her feelings didn't exist, which in the moment they didn't.

I was exhausted, breathing hard but still thinking that this was a mistake that was going to make me regret ever letting Lilly into my bed, Lilly was bright, she was seemingly enjoying herself, she had changed from yesterday morning it appeared to me, she had no regrets, she told me it was the best sex she had ever had, that wasn't as great as it sounds, I was only the second man she had had sex with.

The rest of the day went by as most every other day had, we had lunch and then dinner, I did some work in the garden, Lilly did something indoors, of course it was bedtime I had to accept the fact that she was a very strong willed woman, very strong willed.

We, note the plural here, we went to bed together, in the same bed, I was trying to be the gentleman, I fought her off, if you believe that you're mad.

I wanted to please her, I caressed her, neck, back, down to her stomach, onto her mons, and played with her lips as we kissed.

I don't think she was putting it on in how she was reacting, but she wasn't that experienced and I was by no way a lot more experienced than she was, if I thought about it she had only had two men, me included, but her boyfriend had used her, in her words, fucked her a lot. Me, on the other hand had had little sex, with more women, but seldom.

I treated her to my mouth teasing and licking her to her first climax by mouth stimulation she told me later, I couldn't wait any longer, I entered her in one slow thrust, Lilly's legs locked around me making sure I didn't pull out completely, I'm not sure you can call it making love, but we pleasured each other, taking our time with each other, I was enjoying the feelings that she was giving me and hoped Lilly was getting as much out of us as I was.

I slept well that night, and we both woke with a smile, it might be hard to believe it but I refused her in the morning, it was Sunday, so I wanted to put a bit of space between us, let us both have time to digest the implications of what we had started, I was still of the opinion that we shouldn't be sleeping together, what Lilly was thinking only time would tell. Going out mid morning, I told her I just need some time on my own.

I came back just after five in the afternoon, I was greeted by five women chatting as if they hadn't seen each other for weeks, not hours.

"She's a bitch," Vicky said to me as a greeting, "I'm sure you would have enjoyed me just as much, if you get bored with her let me know," the cheeky cow leaned in and kissed me, on the lips, with tongue, but they were all laughing.

"You don't mind that I told them do you? I had to tell someone I would have burst keeping it to myself," Lilly said quietly to me.

It was too late now.

I couldn't, wouldn't, didn't fight it, we slept together every night from then on, it wasn't sex every night, but if I touched her leg or breast she was more than willing to either lay back and let me, or she on lots of occasions took the lead in how we coupled, I still won't say made love, I was coming to the conclusion that I didn't know what that felt like, I felt good, sex makes the endorphins that give pleasure spike, I wasn't sure what being in love felt like anymore, I had reservations that this wasn't that, it was great, but love? Maybe not.

I sound like a prick, saying that I was happy to have as much sex as Lilly was willing to give me, but I'm no different than most other men, I had tried to put Lilly off, but it proved that I was just a weak willed man didn't it.

Life went on and Lilly got bigger, slowly but surely it was now impossible to miss she was pregnant, having a baby.

We slept together each night, we had sex when the fancy took either of us, no order to who was in need, no order to what we did or didn't do with and to the other, it had turned into enjoyable sex, sports sex if you like, Lilly admitted that she was enjoying it all, the keeping home, she had taken on the role of house mother it seemed to me, she had just morphed into the role of being in more control in general in the house, and I loved when she did it in the bedroom.

One day Lilly asked if I wanted to be her partner in the baby classes, the ones where we would form a couple, getting ready for the birth, she forgot to explain that bit, the bit where it became clear in the first class that I was being readied to help, being in the room while Lilly gave birth, I didn't expect to be at the sharp end, well I hoped not, but to be there, hold her hand, act like the Daddy, Fuckkkkk.

I have to tell you something here, I've never wanted kids, well it's not that I don't want any, call me nuts, call me anything you want, but I can't stand the thought of putting the one I love, if I met someone that is, I couldn't bear to think I could hurt them, and from everything I had seen, read or heard childbirth is painful, I'd never got that far with anyone but the bitch that dumped me at the alter, oh, was that the real reason she went with someone else?

I made excuses, I nearly, oh so nearly begged not to, but I gave in.

My life changed with that decision, in a way I never thought possible.

We went to the first class, there were twelve pregnant women and ten men and a woman who were the partners, one poor girl didn't have any support. I think everyone felt for her, the instructor made it as easy as she could, she was a no nonsense midwife, all ordered and no holding back. Some of the things she said and showed us were very factual, but scared me.

A couple of the other couples were here for more than the first time, it was all old hat for them, I don't understand how it happened, but Lilly got me involved with the single girl, Sandy, she had me swapping helping between the two of them, it made everyone else happy that I was helping her and not them. At the end of the first class the students, the pregnant ones were all talking together, they left their other halves, like me to nod at them and wait like good boys, two of them were women, but you know what I mean.

One of the women was nearer my age, a mother? She smiled and came to talk to me.

"I'm Yvonne, you can call me Vonny if you want, how far along is your partner,... are you going to get married soon?"

I was a bit shocked, I had thought about how it would look, me being that much older than Lilly, but it being said to my face? I wasn't expecting that, it must have shown on my face as she immediately said sorry, she didn't mean to upset me.

Lilly had come up behind me.

"Oh he's just my life saver, he's wonderful I'll give you his number, he's free to date, he'll treat you like a queen, never married but so well housetrained, he can clean, do the dishes, he can even iron a shirt, he's very caring and a sweetheart, you won't find another like him," Lilly smiled at Vonny as she said that, it was embarrassing to say the least, but Vonny laughed with Lilly, not at me it felt.

"Are you selling him off?" Vonny looked at Lilly and then up and down at me. Lilly giggled.

"As it happens I am in the market for a housetrained man, are you sure you're telling me the truth?"

Then, and only then I heard the laughing behind me, Liz and Wendy, the girl that Vonny was accompanying, were standing there looking at us.

"We'd like to go for a coffee, please," Lilly laughed winking at Wendy.

We went for coffee, Lilly and Wendy talked baby talk, leaving Vonny and me to talk, I couldn't believe how quickly Lilly and Wendy had set us up, because it was a set up, they were trying to get us together it seemed.

Before we left Wendy and Lilly had swapped phone numbers and addresses, and they had made a date, but it was for Vonny and me.

They wouldn't take a no from us, they even chose the venue it was for later that night.

It went well, so well we had a second date at the weekend, met at the next class and the girls picked the mats next to each other so we were close as well, Lilly invited them to dinner Friday night, without talking to me first, I wasn't sure if I was irritated, mad or happy about that but I knew when I was beaten.

I knocked off early Friday afternoon, so I could help Lilly get ready for company was my idea, I knew she was eager to see and show off the things that we had for the baby when it arrived, and I won't deny that I was looking forward to seeing Vonny again.

The house was spotless, not that it was ever dirty, but you could see the vacuum cleaner tracks in the carpet.

"What are you doing here so early?" I was just opening my mouth to reply when Wendy stepped out of the kitchen smiling.

"Oh he just wants to get ready to see mum, he needs a long soak in the bath, shave twice, during and after he gets out, trim any long hairs that might get in the way," Lilly giggled at what Wendy was saying. "Do you want me to give you a trim, I am a hairdresser, I do men," Lilly laughed again and said.

"Yeah, everyone can see that, you should have kept it to cutting his hair," They both were in stitches laughing at that. "Stop it, I'll pee myself if you don't stop making me laugh," Wendy got out between gasps of breath and laughter.

I asked if there was anything I could do to help, Lilly just told me that the bath and everything that I heard just now was a good idea, I went off to wash the day off.

I did shave while the bath was filling, I'd just got into the hot water and was relaxing and the door opened, I hadn't thought of locking it.

"We've put what we think you should wear tonight on the bed, I don't want any arguments, just follow my lead, please just enjoy the evening, it's about time you had a rest, had fun, not that I don't want you to stop having fun with me until the baby is born, but think of this as a new you, you having friends, women friends not just workmates, promise me,"

I promised and Lilly kissed me, she waddled out of the bathroom, she had got really big it appeared in the last weeks, our fucking had slowed, I didn't want to hurt her or the baby, but Lilly being Lilly found a comfortable position over the back of the sofa and had me take her doggie style, that or she would lay on her side and use her mouth on me as I played gently with her pussy.

I sat or lay in the water thinking about what was happening, wondering what was happening after the baby was born, I gave up as the possibilities were endless, but it had been puzzling me for a while now.

I'd got out and dried myself, I went into my bedroom with the towel around my waist, looking at the clothes on the bed.

"Let's have a look at that hair," I nearly jumped out of my skin, I hadn't heard Wendy come upstairs.

"Come on turn around, let me look," she had a comb and scissors in her hand, I did a turn. "I'll just trim the ends, make the back straight, sit in the chair," she pulled the chair into the room and cut the back.

"Stand up and do another twirl," I did as told feeling stupid, that'll do, just the last bit," she pulled the towel off me and looked down, but I had the towel in my hands and had it covering the important bits. I would have moved away, but Wendy had a pair of scissors in her hand and they were poised by my cock, then she smiled, licked her lips and struggled to get on her knees, her belly was as big as Lilly's, everything was getting to be a struggle.

"Just trim his hair Wendy, just trim it, no need to wet it first, he's saved for someone else tonight," Lilly had come into the doorway unnoticed.

"Stop playing with him, you've done a good job, let him get dressed now, your mum is due soon, don't want her thinking that she's having seconds do we," Lilly the voice of reason tonight commanded.

If, if I hadn't thought this was a set up for me and Vonny, that confirmed it, they left and I got dressed, I wasn't sure about the silk boxer shorts, they were new to me, but they felt different when I put them on, in a nice way.

Yvonne arrived, the girls insisted that they do everything, it was our night, as a thank you for all we had done and were hoping we would do after the babies were born.

Somewhere between the sweet and coffee course Vonny leaned to me so they wouldn't hear her.

"You know it's a set up don't you," I nodded smiling. " Have you been told what to wear? I can't believe how small it is that I've put on underneath, you should see it," she stopped, realising what she had just said.

I was looking at her face, she was looking at me, and I raised an eyebrow at her. Vonny had gone a bit red in the face and had looked down, I'd looked down a bit as well, now she'd said it, her bust did look... more pronounced, more up and out, the blouse was a low V, it showed a very nice looking valley between two luscious looking hills of flesh, I felt myself straining to rip the silk that I was now confined in, my brain only had one word that it could muster, Fuckkkk, is that in the dictionary?

You have to understand that my brain was in a bit of turmoil, much as it had been that first night with Lilly, other things must have happened, other conventions had, but I didn't remember them, my next real recollection was of Wendy saying she needed to lay down, she wasn't feeling well, she just needed a bit of a lie down, Lilly took her upstairs to her room, we called it that with anyone else, I heard them moving around and talking, Vonny said it would be fine, Wendy had started to do this last week, they had talked to the doctor and they said just let her rest and it would be fine, so that's what we did, let the two girls rest, maybe they were both resting on the bed I told myself.

The next thing, Vonny and I had talked and talked and the time had passed unnoticed, then Lilly was in the doorway saying that Wendy was staying the night, she was much too tired to go home, Lilly let her have her bed, good girl I thought, thinking of someone else as usual.

"Looks as if you're going to have to stay as well Vonny," Lilly said with a grin. Quick as a flash I said she could have my bed, I'd sleep on the sofa, you two can share my bed if that's alright Vonny.

That got me out of a sticky situation, not.

"No Daddy, I'm having the sofa, I thrash around in the night, I need my space," Lilly came back at me straight away.

Vonny put a stop to it. "It's okay, we can sort something out, have you anything I can wear please Lilly?" Lilly said she'd sort something out for her, this was the beginning of the end, we cleared up, Lilly went through the bathroom, quicker than she had ever done I might add, then it was my turn and then Vonny's.

We could do this, we, Vonny and I were adults, Lilly would give Vonny one of her tee shirts, everything would be fine I told myself.

I heard conversation outside the bedroom door, not what was being said but I could tell it was slightly... weird the way things were going back and forth between the two voices.

The door opened and Vonny came in, I had left a side light on so she could see her way around the room, I tried not to stare, really I did, but Vonny was in that little robe thing that Lilly had worn all those days ago, the one that was short, see through, it didn't meet in the middle on Lilly, it had no chance in hell on Vonny, Vonny was at least a cup size larger than Lilly today, and Lilly had grown in size getting ready to feed her baby, one of Vonny's hands was trying to hold the top together, failing miserably? Deliciously for me, and the other covering her lower underwear, I couldn't see anything apart from the thin elastic that held it in place around her hips, she had said it was small, but by my estimation it was minuscule.

"You shouldn't be looking, I'm going to kill Wendy in the morning," she was sort of laughing as she said that, but ever the gentleman I try to be I offered her one of my tees, she graciously accepted the offer, I got out of bed and went to the drawers that I keep them in, it was empty, I opened another, empty as well, I opened the closet door, I'd give her a shirt, nope, all gone, this was a joke now, I knew it, Vonny knew it and we both laughed at the stupidity of the situation, she moved her hands to cover her mouth and then thought of what she had done, I stared, the gentleman in me had left the room, his blood was all gathering in one spot in my body and there wasn't a thing I could, or wanted to do about it.

"I suppose it's that time, I show you mine and you show me yours," Vonny said laughing even more, it set the mountains of flesh that the bra was trying to hold moving, oh how they moved, it was like watching the sea lapping the shore, it didn't stop, it was so sensual, I wanted to watch that for the rest of my life, by the look on Vonny's face I must have said that out loud, then my eyes dropped, I know she said it was small but it was... it didn't hide anything, if, if she had a hair there, you know just where I mean, if she had a hair you would have been able to see it, it was that small, and it looked like her lips were trying to eat it, and doing a good job of it as well, that one word dictionary came to help me again. Fuckkkkk.

"Shall we just get into bed and sleep," I laughed at her suggestion.

"Sleep, with you next to me, in that, what do you think I am, built of stone? You're beautiful," I was drooling, she laughed.

"No, not stone, steel maybe, what do you say, shall we put your steel in my furnace and see if we can soften it, you know the girls have planned this all out don't you, shall we just go along with their plans and see if we like where they lead us? I must say I like a steel bar in silk, very sexy, I have never thought of doing that before, can I touch it, I don't want it spitting at me yet, there's a fire that needs quenching before we get to that stage,"

I honestly didn't know if it was going to spit at her touch, I hoped not, I always wanted to be a fireman, and I wanted nothing more than to help put her fire out, if it took all night I'd do my best, I told her that, I repeated myself several times.

Vonny touched me, stroked through the silk, drew her fingernails over the silk and drove me wild, she knelt and pulled the silky boxers down, I stepped out of them, and pulled her up, if she had put her mouth anywhere near me I was sure I would have painted her face instantly, I still had a fire to put out.

We came together in a kiss, a quick kiss that turned into a deep long lasting kiss, much as I liked how that bra made her look, I wanted to see and get a grip on the full mountain of flesh, unencumbered, I unclipped it behind her back as we kissed again.

"Do you mind if I," was as far as I got as Vonny pulled my face to her right boob.

I'm a man, bobs are made for us to play with, worship and love, I did everything in my repertoire. " Swap," was all she said that was an actual word, as she moved me to her left boob, they were full and heavy, while I made love to each my hands moved down her back and found the elastic string that held that scrap of material in place, I slowly pulled it down, the elastic came easily, the material was stuck in between her lower lips, it wasn't going to move, the elastic was a waste of time, I leaned back and watched as I pulled it slowly out from her lips grasp, she gasped, I gasped as it came out with a pop, I used a finger to wipe the wetness from those lips and saw more taking its place.

"Don't tease, you've sucked and played with the girls, you've found out how wet I am, now put it in me, I'm dying inside, you have to put that fire out now," her voice didn't sound the same, it had gone up several pitches, as she said that.

As I said before, I'm a gentleman, I have always tried to please a woman, give her my seat on a bus, help her with the heavy bags she was carrying, and giving her what she wanted in bed, the back of her knees hit the mattress and I let her down gently, her legs opened and I lifted them and got between them, she guided me, there was no need for any lubricant, Vonny was making more than we needed, I slipped in, and gently out, back deeper and out, I hit bottom on the fourth thrust, it wasn't slow or anything, I didn't rush at her, well not until the end, she was urging me on at that point telling me to put the fire out.

I did my best, it felt as if I was flooding her, but as I found out shortly after getting my breath back to a point where I could roll off of her, that she was still on fire, I only found that out when I went to soothe her, gently rub her mons, the top of her pubic area, and very shortly she showed me how strong her neck muscles were, she raised her body upwards, balanced on her head and ankles, nothing else touched the mattress, only me playing with her button that had come out to play for me, I took her to two more rounds of ecstasy before she stopped me.

The morning dawned, I was worried about how Vonny was going to react, it was now the cold light of day, things could, probably would, go wrong for me, I'm a man, easy to please, I have always found that it's much easier to upset a woman than please her, or is that just me?

I lay there waiting, worrying, then Vonny moved.

"Are you awake," she said in a sleepy voice, I said that I was, there was a pause and then she spoke again, against my shoulder.

"Are you going to honour what you said last night?" I said a lot of things last night, what thing was she referring to?

"You said we could go out again, see if we have anything else we might like to do together, we do seem to fit together well in bed,"

Her hand had moved to my now quickly swelling member.

"There's still quite a big fire going on, do you think we can squeeze a bit more of your juice to put it out," I might be stupid when it comes to women, but I'm far from being silly.

There was a lot of pumping this morning, pumping to get the right pressure to get through the hose I was using to put her fire out, we had to change positions three times before the release valve went off, it wasn't as powerful as last night, either time, but Vonny was moaning and biting my shoulder as we came together, another first I said to myself. I could get used to this I repeated, I got a punch to the shoulder.

"I was going to say that," I'd said it out loud it seemed, but it wasn't being refuted was it, things were looking up.

We were having breakfast, the four of us, Vonny and me were getting a lot of stick, especially Vonny, I hadn't noticed last night, or this morning, but the girls had, Vonny is a screamer, in her throws of passion, evidently she, we, had woken both girls up during the night, they said three times, I disputed that, I could only remember her coming hard twice, but I couldn't argue could I, this morning I was much more likely to believe them, I had noticed that Vonny had been moaning rather loudly towards the end, I wasn't sure if I should be proud of this or not, Von, as I had now started to call her in our quieter moments together, she was blushing red and kept saying that it must have been something outside that they heard, but we all knew different.

Then things changed, suddenly, Wendy didn't feel right, and the fun atmosphere changed to one of concerns so Von drove her to see the doctor, which left me talking to Lilly, I tried to tell her off about setting us up last night, but she laughed it off.

"A change is as good as a rest, that's an old saying, isn't it? You deserved a change,"

No news was good news, that's what I've always been told, we didn't hear anything from Von or Wendy, and then late into the evening a text said that Wendy was in labour, and then nothing, we slept together out of having company more than anything else.

In the morning it was clear that Lilly was getting near, she was uncomfortable, offhand at me one minute and all over me the next.

"They told us at one of the classes that a good hard fuck gets the little bugger on its way, come on big boy give it its marching orders," Lilly dropped the night clothes she had on on the floor and leaned over the sofa arm, I was weak I should have said no, I should had walked away, but I did neither of those things, I dropped my trousers and got behind her, Lilly's cry's of harder, faster were met by me as much as I could, it was wrong, I knew it but it didn't stop me, I'd sort of made a habit of keeping her happy, if sex was what was going to make her happy then sex is what we had, it was stupid, from the very first time Lilly had her way with me, I knew it was wrong, knew that we, or more so I, should have stopped that first night, but the little head has always overshadowed the big head when it comes to sex, so here we were, Lilly nude, bent over the sofa arm and me going at her like a jackhammer from behind, her language was filthy, fowl, demeaning, but it was the driving force behind my actions, I was close to losing it, sooo close.

The back door opened and Von walked in, she saw us from the side, me humping into Lilly like a madman and Lilly screaming obscenities at me. I saw the movement of Von walking towards us.

I froze as Lilly continued to scream at me to fill her up and get this bloody baby out of her, I knew she didn't mean it, knew that she was... it didn't matter what she was did it, it was wrong, wrong in so many ways, wrong because Von had come into my life and I felt something for her, not just the need for sex, I can't explain it, I've never felt anything like it before, but it was there, it was something that I had wanted, hoped to follow up on, see where it was going.

I saw in Von's eyes where it had gone, out the window, off with the dogs, there's all sorts of sayings that mean the same, it had all gone down the drain, I wilted in that look, stopped moving and felt like hell.

When Lilly stood up with her waters breaking it stopped the confrontation that was about to happen, I pulled my trousers up and helped Lilly find her things, went and put the go bag in the car and found Vonny leading her to my car, she helped her in, nothing was said, Vonny must have followed us to the hospital, I parked, more like abandoned it to get Lilly inside, as I was telling the nurse that I couldn't do it, go in with her, my spirit had been broken by the look that Vonny had given me, I was having trouble not throwing up, but like a guardian angel Vonny appeared to go in and hold Lilly's hand, I went home a defeated man, I hated myself.

I didn't hear anything the rest of the day, or the next, I was just about to phone when my phone rang.

"It's a little girl, everything's fine, a bit hard on me, I just need to sleep, please come in and see us, I didn't mean to mess things up," I heard her sob and the phone went dead, she had hung up.

I went in the next morning, I was directed to a bed in a ward of six beds, each bed had a curtain around it shielding it from the one next door, Lilly's was the last in the line on the right, she was propped up looking at a cot beside the bed, I peeped in to see a small wrinkled face sleeping, Lilly sat up and wanted me to hug her, which I couldn't say no to, she sobbed and sobbed, she kept saying how sorry she was, it was all her fault, it shouldn't have happened, on and on, she thought she had lost me, where was she going if I let her down, it was the end of the world for her. I realised she had friends her age, but nobody else to call on, my heart went out to her, all I could do then was to promise her that it was all going to be okay, she and the baby were welcome to stay with me, we would work it out. Now all she had to do was get fit enough to come home.

I wasn't convinced it would be alright myself, but I couldn't tell her that, I was the grown up, I knew what and how to make it right, I'd made it right so far, until it wasn't.

Because it was a big hard birth and Lilly was so young, they kept her in for four days, it gave me time to make sure everything was in order for her homecoming, I had phoned Dave and then Dawn, and on both occasions they washed their hands of her again, I didn't get as far as telling them which hospital she and the baby were in before they cut me off, it was the only really puzzling thing, why had they reacted as they had, up until Lilly got pregnant they were great parents, I gave up.

I visited each evening, I saw Wendy on the first evening, just to say hi to and wish her and her boy good luck, I never saw Vonny again.

We settled into life with a baby, I did as much as I could to help, I was amazed how competent Lilly was, nothing seemed to faze her or put her off, it did bring back memories of me changing Lilly's nappy, I embarrassed her with that snippet.

Her group of friends came to make silly faces and noises at her and the baby, Vicky, ever the sexual predator was dressed to pull, mini skirt, low top, long legs in high heels that looked impossible to walk in but did things to her legs that did things to most men who saw her walking in them, yes, including me, but I resisted her blatant advances.

A month on and things settled down, the baby now had a name, Jemma, everyone told us how lucky we were that she slept through most nights, only wanting one change, the doctor and nurse asked several times if that was right, it was more common that they wanted to feed every three hours at first, Jem hadn't got that memo it seemed.

I watched as Jem was breastfed, watched, I did nappy changing that was, the dirtier end of things, I was still quite good at it.

One night as she was feeding on the nipple Lilly looked at me and smiled. "Are you thinking about when you were doing this, to me, not when you were little silly. Do you want to see what flavour it is tonight? I've plenty of milk to spare,"

It's probably one thing most men have thought about, breastfeeding, drinking milk straight from the nipple, if they have had kids then they have probably tried it, if not it's something that crosses their minds when they see it happening, in a film, out in the park, women's tits and men are an irresistible force of nature, bees to the honey pot, butter side down, it was a fact of life, I couldn't refuse.

There was a slight nack to getting milk, but once you got it it was easy if the tit was loaded. Lilly was more than loaded that night, but I went to bed thinking, I shouldn't have done it, it was the start of my downfall if I did it again.

I'm not sure how it came about, but Lilly proved to be a super milk producer, I brought a pump system, she would sit or lay there watching TV or reading with this thing on her tits, it was a regular suck squeeze pump noise, you could see the milk running into the reservoir, she bottled it and froze it, it went to the hospital for women who couldn't produce milk on their own.

Watching Jem on the nipple was a highlight of my day, watching the pump do its thing not so much, Lilly always, without fail offered me a nipple when Jem had her fill, on some nights I so badly wanted to, on some I had to leave the room before I knew it was going to be offered, it was killing me not to throw her onto the bed and have my way with her, but I knew there would be no love in the act, I'd buggered my life up by taking up her offer, or command that day, I knew we could never be a couple, she was much too young for us to work as a couple.

At some point she would meet a man who would love her as she needed to be loved, it might happen next week or next year, but it would happen and I wasn't going to be in her way in any form if I had my say in the matter.

Three months? Maybe it was only one, time doesn't mean much when you're busy, working, keeping a baby happy etc.

I came home from work to find Wendy and her baby Hope there,

It was just a tad uncomfortable for me, for a start she was breastfeeding Hope, and she didn't cover up as lots of women do, she was free and easy, both nipples exposed, moved Hope nipple to nipple as mothers do leaving the other out there dripping, I couldn't help it but I did have to look three times to make sure it was what I was seeing, the other thing was the memory of Yvonne's face as she walked in on me and Lilly rutting like sex starved animals, on the very sofa she was sat on now.

I said hello and went to shower, it had been a dusty and dirty job that day. It was a nice long hot shower that I stood in thinking of what might have been, I got out, dried off and went to dress for the evening in my bedroom.

Wendy was sitting on my bed, fully dressed I was grateful to see.

"Look I'm sorry, I should have thought about you, it's your house, not mine, can I ask you a question, a personal question?" I nodded as I pulled a pair of joggers up and put a top on, thankfully I had come out of the bathroom in some underwear.

"Do you think about mum?" I nodded again, I'm good at nodding.

"Look Lilly's told me what happened and the fact that you won't let her even sleep in the same bed as you anymore, mum's not happy either, I know I shouldn't tell you but she's missing you, I think that you should go and see her, that's it, it's been nice seeing you and Lilly and of course Jem, she's a darling, I wish Hope would sleep more, but maybe that's why he's named Hope," she smiled, kissed my cheek and went downstairs.

When she had gone and Lilly and I were eating Lilly asked me what Wendy had wanted to say in private to me, it was a quick decision not to tell her, I think she still feels badly about that adventure, I know I did.

I thought Lilly needed cheering up, I suggested that she have a small party, let's just call it Jem's four month celebration.

She brightened up and started to make plans, it always surprises me what can be achieved in a week, I've no idea how many were asked, or how many couldn't make it, but it was a full house on Sunday afternoon, I only asked for one thing, no Alcohol, Lilly was okay with that, and it seemed that nobody brought any, there was music, silly games, and lots and lots of laughter, I had stayed around making sure that everyone was comfortable and as it all seemed to be going well I retreated to my bedroom, I put a football game on the Laptop and sat on my bed watching, I was interrupted by Lilly "Just checking your okay," twice, Wendy brought Hope in to show him off, as she made the excuse of bringing me a plate of nibbles and a coffee, she checked if I was "Doing alright," I smiled and put a good show of being happy, but I wasn't, not inside.

I put it down to the warm room, me half laying on the bed, the good feelings in the house and being short of sleep, doing all the things that a new baby in the house involves, I had a hard job at work, so I wasn't totally surprised that I was nodding off to sleep, the football forgotten.

I was in that state of floating, nothing was going through my mind, everything was at peace for a change, I was semiconscious of the door opening and closing, and a body getting on the bed next to me, the floating sensation was diminishing, I was starting to come back to the here and now.

"Oh please tell me you didn't eat all six of those cakes, you were only supposed to eat two at the most, you won't be fit to stand let alone make love to me," This drunken voice said to me, a voice I knew, Vicky.

I opened my eyes, she looked at me and this huge smile appeared on her face, she was a pretty girl, thirty years ago I'd have been all over her, I couldn't make out why such a girl wasn't snapped up already, yes she was blunt in her views, mostly on sex, but behind that shell was a smart, fun, loving woman, when she met the right man he would never have any doubt in his mind that she was his.

But for now she couldn't get it into her head that she only had to act her true self, not the sexual vixen, not the desperate one that everyone else saw.

"I only want a man of my own, a good man like you, a fertile man, I want babies like Lilly and Wendy have, I want to give my man as many as he wants," she giggled, it was clear that she had taken something, sneaked in some drink? Or more likely in this generation taken something, and by her comment about me eating those cakes....

I'd taken a bite out of one, it didn't taste right, like the sugar was missing, I didn't want to upset whoever had gone to the trouble to make them so I had put the rest in a bag in one of my drawers, throw them out later was my idea, lucky idea it seems.

Vicky was dressed up as she always was, dressed for a party like most of the others were, but, there's always a but when it comes to Vicky, but her dress was too short, again, it showed off too much boob, I thought again about how gorgeous she was, absolutely stunning if she just toned it down that little bit, but my dad mind was now on full operational duties, Lilly, Jem and Wendy and Hope to some extent, so looking after Vicky wasn't a problem, not now.

"Vicky, what were you after? You know it's not right if I sleep with you,"

She smiled that silly smile that a drunk or drugged person has.

"I don't want to sleep with you, I just want to be like the others, to have your baby, I know, I KNOW, Lilly's and Wendy's kids are yours, and now you've gone and knocked up Wendy's mum, and you refuse to even see her,.... I just want a baby, you seem to be good at baby making, I want you, I'm good in bed, better than good," Vicky opened her legs and stroked her lady lips, I didn't wear any for you, make it easy for you to fuck me silly but I'll do anything wear anything,... you can tie me up if you want, but you won't really have to, I'm easy, lots of people tell me that," She had such a dirty smile with those red lipsticked lips, I hadn't failed to notice that she was naked down there, the dress was that short she wasn't sitting on it at all.

"Will you give me one," laughter as she said it. "Give me one lots and lots of times, whenever you want... to give me one, but will you give me a baby so I can be like the others, like Lilly, like Wendy, like Vonny will be soon, I just want to be made a mummy,"

She smiled, hiccuped and fell backwards off the bed, legs in the air laughing like mad.

"I've never had it in this position before," her legs fell back on the bed, I think before I had stood up and got to her she was asleep, passed out anyway, I didn't think that she had hurt herself, it's a thick carpet and the bed isn't that high.

I struggled to pick her up, she was like a rag doll, her dress slid up higher and higher as I had to move her body to get her onto the bed, she wasn't going anywhere, she just needed sleep and probably painkillers when she woke up.

I made the decision, I took the dress off completely, it would have been harder to get it in some sort of order on her than getting it off, and then her under the covers of my bed, I put it over the chair back, made sure there was a bin at the side of the bed, she was breathing smoothly and put my shoes on.

When I found Lilly I pulled her aside. "Two things, one, look in on Vicky, long story but she's in my bed, two, where is Wendy?"

Wendy was upstairs feeding Hope, I went in, no knocking or apologies about that.

"Is it true? Is it true?" Wendy had jumped when I opened the door, looked at my face and rocked Hope as he fed, a look of defeat on her face. "Well is it?" She nodded, slowly but clearly.

"Mum doesn't want you to know, how did you find out?" I didn't answer her, I was on my way out.

I drove to Vonny's, I probably broke lots of laws on the way, but I had no accidents, luckily.

I knocked on the door, later she told me I just kept knocking until she opened it. I stood there looking at her looking at me.

"Is it true, why haven't you told me, I'll do anything to make it work," I think I was rambling on when she pulled me inside.

"I don't want next door having more to talk about, Wendy has given them quite enough as it is, if I think you're asking about it, it's none of your business, anything else?"

"What do you mean, none of my business, it's going to be as much mine as it is yours," I could be hard as well, not really.

"What do you think you know?" She spat back.

"You're pregnant with my baby, and there is no way on earth that I'm not going to be a part of it, him or her,... what are you hoping for I just want a healthy mum and baby," I took a big breath, looked her critically up and down. "Are you alright, not too sick need anything what can I do to help out, can I make you anything, now?" My mouth was going much faster than my brain.

Vonny laughed. "You, you can cook, I've heard you are very good with a nappy, but cook?" I took umbrage at that, even if it was right.

"I'll have you know my tinned soup and burnt toast is fast getting edible, Lilly says she only has to throw out two thirds of it now, I keep telling her charcoal is good for the body, I'm not sure what part, but I'm sure I read it somewhere," I said it as a teacher would at the front of the class, with authority, as if I knew what I was on about.

She laughed, her face smiled, I breathed a sigh of relief.

"Look you better sit down, mustn't get overtired, can I get you a drink?"

"Oh stop it, I'm supposed to be angry at you, stop making me laugh, I'm upset, mad at you and Lilly, mad at myself, I've never told anybody else, this is the second time I've been in this position, I've a daughter who's just had her son and I get pregnant on what seems to have been our first time together, in bed, it wasn't what I wanted, expected," I saw her thinking.

"I thought, we... had something, and then what did I see," I butted in.

"I got it wrong, you saw me, excuse the French, saw me fucking Lilly, it might sound silly, no it does, I didn't want to, I really didn't want to... cheat on you, but, but Lilly begged, ask her if you don't believe me.

Look I'll tell you everything.

I've been having sex with Lilly she was in such a bad place and I was weak, it was just a way of getting her settled down, me doing her a good turn, she's told me that it was her way of thanking me for looking after her, I was too wrapped up in life, it was all going wrong for her, and I was the only one looking out for her, when she made her move it was my fault, it was and still is my fault, I WASN'T strong enough, I let her have her way, it felt good, more than good, it had been years, and the way she acted, responded, we'd stopped, I had said no more, and then there was that day and she begged really begged me it was just to make her start labour," my head had dropped telling her that, I did feel so bad, my childhood friend used to say he felt as low as a rattlesnakes belly in a wagon wheel rut, I now knew how that felt, none of us could understand why he had taken his own life then, but I did here, today.

"I'll do anything to help you, I don't expect you to forgive me, but please let me be in our baby's life, you can whip me with nettles if it makes you feel better, anything," I had no more that I could say, my head had found the floor it was the only thing I needed to see.

I heard her move saw her feet go away and then pass me again.

"Stay there, don't move," she was forceful in her tone.

I waited and waited, then she was back.

"In the kitchen," I followed her feet to the kitchen.

"Take your top off," I did and then looked at her swallowing hard.

She was there, rubber washing up gloves on her hands holding a big bunch of nettles, I turned my back and gripped the sink, waiting for the pain.

"What if I want to do your front?" I turned to face her, I couldn't read her face.

"You'd let me wouldn't you, why?"

It took longer than it should have, I was scared to voice what I was thinking.

"Because I love you," there I said it, it was out there, relief flooded me, it was the first time I had admitted it to myself, as well as to her or any other woman in so many years.

"Oh my god," she flew into my arms, I screamed, she hadn't let go of the nettles.

There was a lot of scrambling around, the nettles seemed to be everywhere, but we got them in the bin and the floor cleaned up, my top stayed off as my back stung like hell.

I sat on a kitchen stool, that had no back, Vonny was perched on my lap, we were face to face, her hands were holding my head, my neck was a no go area, as was my back.

"You would have let me, you know I didn't mean to still be holding the nettles, did... did you... mean what you said?" I nodded, my best move it was turning out to be.

"You know this is not going to be easy, I mean we both have children who have just had children, you do know Lilly thinks of you as her dad don't you, Wendy thinks you're pretty wonderful as well, but, and this is a cast iron rule, you will never, never have sex with anyone else, not to make them happy, not for any reason, you may, on special occasions kiss a woman, but only lips, no tongue, that and my pussy are yours, you come to me if you need kissing or just for sex, have I told you I like sex, last time I was pregnant I was horny all the time, and I mean all the time. Come with me, we have the house to ourselves, you're going to have to do a lot of repenting, and as you can't lay on your back, it looks as if that's going to be my position today,"

The next two hours went by so quickly, I licked, sucked, fingered, fucked and made love to her, she sensually whispered to me. "You can't get me pregnant now can you," and laughed at my expression, Lilly had told me those words months ago.

"Lilly has told me everything, I was just coming over to join the party when you knocked, you can't believe how relieved I was when you told me everything that she had, is there anything else you need to tell me, Lilly has been so apologetic it was her that told me you loved me, you might have to find a new way to thank her from now on,"

I knew she was only partly joking, but she had no fears of me cheating on her, if I could only get her to believe me, and then the picture of me taking Vicky's dress off came into my head. Oh fuck.

"There's just one more thing to tell you, earlier, in my bedroom, Vicky,"

"VICKY! Her of the legs and wonton behaviour, just so willing to do anything, just anything to get you into bed, her that wanted to do everything with you?" Von grasped my manhood and squeezed. "This is My toy, her that wants it in her? What about her?"

I explained about falling asleep in my bed, about the cakes, about Vicky's rant, about her falling off the bed, it took a long time to finally tell her about the dress, there were a lot of pauses, non words and single words and then I bleated it out.

"I took her dress off, she was nude and I put her in bed, I didn't touch her, well only to take her dress off I had to touch her I couldn't help it she was like a rag doll and I couldn't help it I held her boobs and my hand was between her legs at one point so she would stay in one place and I had to keep holding on to something to stop her from falling off the bed again and," Von kissed me to stop my going on with more jumbled explanations.

"Did you kiss her?" I shook my head no, a new movement.

"Did you touch her inappropriately on purpose?' A shake of the head again.

"Did you think about having sex with her?" A shake.

"Did you treat her with as much respect as you could?" Nod, back to my favourite.

"Are you telling me everything, everything?" Nod Nod Nod.

"Then good boy, you will get your reward soon, right now we better get cleaned up and dressed to party,"

We walked into my home to music, laughing and then a silence you could cut the air with for ten seconds and then screaming, screaming that woke the children who had been happily sleeping, Lilly and then Wendy were hugging and kissing both of us and asking all sorts of questions, questions that I wasn't going to answer in front of everyone else, Vonny didn't answer the questions directly, she just announced that I was now off the market.

Well, that told me.

We, Von instead that we went to check up on Vicky, we went to my bedroom, Vicky was staring at the ceiling, her look of surprise turned into horror as Von walked in behind me.

"Sit up Vicky," Von said in a soft voice. Vicky sat up against the headboard, the covers pulled up to her chin.

"I'm not going to tell you off Vicky, but I do want you to learn from today," Von said.

"You know you can't be like this don't you," Oh, Vicky copied my best move, and nodded.

"This is the last time you can do this, this is going to be the only punishment that we will give you, if, if you sort yourself out, we will help you as much as we can, now... stand up, no leave the covers there,"

I didn't know where this was going. I wasn't sure if I should be looking, let alone in the room.

Vicky stood on the mattress, she had to spread her legs to balance.

She stood there open legged as bare as the day she was born.

"You do know that you're a beautiful woman Vicky, if I was a man I'd be on you like a rash, you deserve a man like Tom, but Tom is a man, a good man, you tried to drug him to get impregnated, you flashed this pretty pussy, you didn't want to take his NO did you, do you know how good a man he is? He helped you, in your hour of need, not by fucking you, but by helping you, I'm going to give you a picture for days that are hard for you, there will be many, but we will be here for you, but not in a sexual way.

Tom picked you up off the floor, well her tried to, he had your pussy in his hand as you flopped around, his face was on a nipple, he probably gave it a quick suck to help hold you in place as he unzipped your dress, but you moved and his face ended up with his nose in between your oh so sexy lips, think of it as you having sex in the sixty nine position, and then in the missionary position standing up and then with him laying on top of you as you folded up on the bed, I bet you wish you could feel him between those long legs, then, can you believe it, he did what you wanted, he put you in bed, his bed, he moved you onto your side, touched your legs moved your legs, opened that pussy, giving access to that place that is at this minute starting to feel ready to receive a hard pounding from behind, and do you know what? He kissed your cheek covered you up put a bin by the bed just in case, made sure you were okay, safe and left you to your dreams.

And you knew nothing of it did you, and do you know why? I'll tell you, because you my lovely girl, because you told him I had his baby on board, and he loved me. This one action, even though it was in a drunken or drugged state saved you from me killing you, believe me, if you ever sit by my man showing off this," Von flicked Vicky's clit that had started showing itself during Von's talk. "If you show him that again I'll cut it off with my teeth if I have to, IS THAT CLEAR? " Vicky outdid me on the nodding front then.

"Now get dressed, see what a gentleman he is, he even folded your dress to stop it from getting dirty, have you a tee that poor Vicky can borrow? A long one, Vicky looks like she needs to sit down, and she knows what's in store if she shows her pussy to you again," Von had said it so steadily, if you weren't in Vicky's position you wouldn't think of it as a threat, but it was if you could see her face or were Vicky or me, it was as much a warning to me as well as to Vicky, I passed a long tee to Vicky, it came to her knees, it looked odd but I'm sure it made Vicky feel safer, we went to go out but Von hadn't finished it seemed.

"Vicky, I like you, like you a lot, we will be there for you, we will help you find love if we can, but my first suggestion is to think about buying some trousers, not skin tight ones, we don't want to see that cameltoe you're famous for, there is a time and place for that, looking for a good man isn't it, when you have the love of your life it's fine, but it is not, repeat not the way to get that man, it will only get you fucked, and not in a good way, there's a good way and a bad way, one last picture for you, later I'm going to be fucked, not in a good way, Tom is going to fuck me in a great way, or he's on the market again," She said that last bit looking at me, patting my crutch.

We went down, the three of us, nobody took much notice, we joined in eating and talking with the guests, Von had a talk with Wendy that I saw, a lot of nodding was going on, from Wendy and smiles from Von.

"Come on," Von called to me. "Time to take me home," Lilly and Wendy appeared out of nowhere and walked us to the car.

As I was going to pull out Lilly called to me, I put the window down to hear what she said.

"See you tomorrow Daddy, and don't forget, you can't get mummy pregnant now," the last six words were said by Lilly and Wendy at the same time, they had been practising, I looked at Von.

"Tomorrow?" She smiled. "You don't think a quickie will do, do you? You sir have a lot of grovelling to do, you won't be fit to drive tonight,"

On the way I asked what the Mummy and Daddy thing was about, Von just said that Wendy had longed for someone to call Dad, and as Lilly seemed to be my daughter now... she left it at that.

Life changed for all of us, lots of things had to be thought through and sorted out, not least our living arrangements, I didn't feel comfortable with leaving the girls in one house and us in the other as they put forward, it took a year to agree that we moved into one house, a new house for all of us.

We sold both houses and found something we could buy, it was a five bedroom house, small rooms, but it would work in the short time, we would have to see what happens in the long term.

We, Von and I had the main bedroom, both girls had a bedroom each and we set one out for the babies, they would share for years yet, one free for anyone who stayed over.

It needed a lot of work, but nothing I couldn't sort out in the long term.

I hadn't noticed, but after about six months of living and doing things in the house Von said something to me.

We had just had a bout of hot hard sex, it wasn't that usual, we usually had longer lasting loving, but on some occasions one or other of us would take the lead and it developed into just fucking for the sake of fucking, when it happened we always ended up hugging out of breath and telling each other how much we loved each other completely sated and sweaty.

"Tom, have you noticed that the girls sleep in the same bedroom? I only noticed when I went to change the sheets, I didn't want to say anything to them, just wasn't sure if you had seen anything," I hadn't, but it was fine with me, if that's what they wanted, great.

A week later, when I got home something felt off, it wasn't a smell or anything out of place, there was just something, that something built as Von took me to bed early, by early I mean eight o'clock, early.

She had me shave her, it was normally my decision that it needed attention but tonight it was hers.

"Do you trust me?" Of course I did, with my life I told Von, with my life.

She had me on my back on the bed, took each hand and fixed it to the headboard, the clips were easy to get out of, if you needed to, then each ankle was pulled open and fixed in place, and then a blindfold was put in place, we played these games on occasions, it was Von tied up more times than me, but I didn't keep count, tonight it was my turn it seemed, the feather came out, the teasing started, I had to accept the nipple clams if she had to was established early on in our games, as was the teasing vibrator, I was in heaven, well maybe with my thoughts not quite there, but I was sooooo enjoying this unexpected games night.

Then things changed. "Have you ever thought of watching two girls together?" Now that was out there, what man hadn't had that thought, if only in passing and never thinking of it again, or I did know a workmate that couldn't stop talking about it.

I think my twitching cock gave the game away. "Oh, naughty boy," she laughed sexually.

A... rubber clad hand stroked me three times, or was it PVC?

"Have you ever... thought of being the object of a voyeur, let someone see you excited... like this, the hand returned and this time it squeezed my balls, not hard, but firmly, it made me throb.

"Oh, I know you like that, what about this, the hand stroked me fast and hard, but only for about ten strokes, and then something was stroking my balls again, this was hard, it wasn't a hand, I couldn't work out what it was and then it was moved to my chest, it flicked a nipple, it made the clamp bite in harder, it suddenly came to me, a riding crop, that was new, she must have brought it recently, then it flicked the other nipple, quite hard it hurt but the pain was taken away by the hand on my shaft again, stroking fast, then it flicked the end which stopped the enjoyment, as intended I assumed.

"Not yet darling, we want a big load tonight, I want to show you off, show what a lot of sticky cum you provide me on a regular basis, but not yet, only when I want you to," I wasn't sure that was going to be her choice if she continued to tease me like this.

But when that crop struck my balls hard I knew she was right, she was in control.

It changed and changed, the torture, enjoyable torture, went on and on,

I was sucked, licked and played with, exquisite torture.

"Are you ready? Do you think you can show off as I want you to, are you going to make me proud of you, can our audience enjoy your show, it's your show, its now," the hand stroked me hard and fast I'd been near so many times I wasn't sure that it was true and so was expecting it being brought to a halt once again, but the joy of finally, finally being able to spit my load was unbelievable, some of it hit my forehead, and shot after shot went up my body, the strokes kept on, keeping me coming, I slowed my output as I was drained but the stroking continued, it slowed a bit but it kept on. Then her mouth engulfed the entire length of me in one plunge, it sucked as it rose up the shaft, fuckkkk we had never gone this far, never.

I heard her moving around, each nipple clamp was removed and the pain ran through me as the blood flowed back, and then my ankles being released one at a time, her hand now out of the gloves, then my wrists one at a time and then the blindfold, the kiss that attacked my lips as the light was blinding me was of love.

"Thank you baby, you gave a great show, our audience was impressed with how strongly you performed for them tonight, I'll bet we could sell tickets to them again," Von kissed me again, I'll get you a cloth too clean up before we clean our teeth.

We went to bed and held each other, sleep came quietly.

The morning only brought questions, were we on our own? Was this really a show or was it just play time, we had done something similar, but not like this. I asked the question, Von just laughed or kissed me and turned away not answering.

Later that day when I got home from work both girls kissed my cheeks and smiled at me, which set off my questions again, were we alone, did I perform for... the girls, no that couldn't be, could it?

Lilly had more than a good idea what I could do, but on the other hand Wendy... Wendy, as far as I know, Wendy was an innocent, one boy who had no idea of what he was doing and she had been drunk, Russian Roulette, one chance in so many and she ended up pregnant, no fun, only regret, but here we all were living together as a family, Von and I happily getting it on as we wanted, making no secret of how hot we were in the bedroom, Lilly still joked with me how loud Von was on some nights.

I never asked again, it never happened again, oh we played tie up games but never like that, I have my thoughts, it was Wendy playing with me, having been coached by Lilly and probably Vonny, if it helped her, great, if it was just Von and me, also great, the girls shared a room and thus a bed for two years, I never said anything about it, it was none of my business, as long as they were happy I was happy, I certainly didn't hear any arguments about anything not involving the babies.

I don't know which one found a boy first, but I only knew that they were sleeping in separate rooms before the boy was brought home from dinner.

He, Kyle seemed a nice enough boy, but he was now dating my daughter, I didn't like the thought of him, him touching my girl.

Lilly deserved better, it wouldn't matter who it was, he would never be good enough for me. Von laughed at my reaction, kissed me and told me she was a big girl now, she wouldn't make the same mistakes again.

Wendy brought home Billy, I didn't like him on sight, he didn't last two weeks, then it was Jack, and then Jon and Jonny, oh the list went on and on, between the two of them they went through a phone book of boys, more young men, on occasions it appeared that they swapped boyfriends, god I didn't want to know.

Von was my safe place, my sanity, how had I, a single man, a bachelor, how have I become the keeper of two babies and three women, I'd slept with two of them, put a baby in one of them, and just maybe been played with by the other, could life get more complicated?

Thankfully they didn't, it got better, each of my daughters, they called me dad and I thought of them as mine, they each found a nice young man, one I could trust to look after my girls, this didn't happen overnight, it took time but life has changed for the better, Von and I are as happy as we could be, she would never accept my weekly invitation to get married, she wouldn't tell me why, but who needs a bit of paper to tell you that your a couple in every way.

There was an unexpected visitor one day, Von had let them in as I watched the snooker on the TV, a body sat on my lap, arms went around my neck and a voice I remember asked. " May I?" I was drawn into a kiss, one that was full of love, and if from Von the promise of sex and lots of it, we kissed, more her than me, her tongue was busy in my mouth more than the other way round, she let up and leaned back, her legs still looked great, the skirt was longer but still short, she pulled it up to show me her panties,

"See, proper pretty ones, and you can't see them when I sit down anymore, I'd like you to meet my boyfriend, he doesn't know it but he has to,... pass you two's test of if he's suitable, he's been a good boy and respected my limits, yes I have limits now, no pussy if I say no, and I say no an awful lot," Vicky giggled. "I haven't said yes after my lesson in being treated like I was cared for," She made a stage whisper.

"If that woman doesn't treat you right call me, you'll always be my number one, I'll kill anyone who tries to stop me from making it up to you, she knows that I am watching her every move on you," She kissed me again and laughed as she got up and I saw her kiss Von, not like she kissed me though.

It was good to see her again, what a change she had made of herself, I was proud and happy for her, we talked and I met her boyfriend, he seemed okay, not that it was really of any my business.

I'm hoping the future doesn't throw any more curved balls at me and my extended family, I think we have had our share of problems.