Jan Comes Alive - Eventually

Jan Is reborn - eventually.

Jan is 50 years old she lives in a small market town within reach of London. She is married to Edgar who has a very good job but one which takes him away from home on frequent occasions and for long periods of time. She has two children, Jennifer, who is married with a lovely son Robbie and lives about 100 miles from her, she doesn't see them as often as she would like to. Her other child is John a good looking boy dedicated to his rugby and his computer games he is at university in London which is near enough for him to get home on a regular basis at weekends and sometimes in the evening, they are basically a happy family but she's feeling that there is something missing in her life.

Her love life with Edgar is almost nonexistent sex is over in a couple of minutes and like most men he then rolls off and goes to sleep snoring. When she was young at uni her and her best friend Margo, who lives nearby and has a wonderful sex life, were ultra promiscuous and enjoyed all kinds of sexual pursuits. She had tried most things while she was at uni throwing herself into experiencing everything she could, though some of them she would rather not remember perhaps, and she and Margo used to laugh that they were female sexual predators going out finding men using them at their pleasure. At least we never had to pay for our drinks or meals Margo used to laugh they were falling over themselves to do it for us.

But such things come to an end Jan left uni continued on the same track but met Edgar. It was a whirlwind romance she thought he was the one for her and they settled down. Two kids came along, and Jan became a mother and her sexual urges slowly began to fade into the background as motherhood progressed. Margo got married too, quickly divorced and since then has continued playing the field making Jan rather jealous. I can do what I want do who I want whenever I want, Margo tells her laughingly I have fun. Margo is still her best friend they talk every day about all manner of things. Margo knows how frustrated Jan's becoming even though she tries to deny it.

Jan works in a small office she is a manager. She enjoys ordering people around always looks smart and proper and the business is flourishing because she is good at what she does and for a long while it took up most of her time and her thoughts but nowadays as things at work settle down into a routine she begins to feel but she needs something more from life.

Let me describe Jen she is 50 but looks good she knows that men look at her and wonder. She has large breasts 40 double D though she often jokes but that depends on what kind of bra she is wearing but men appreciate the size and the shape. She's big but as Margo says big means beautiful and I doubt there aren't many men in this world who wouldn't like to get their hands on your arse. She has no fat on her body. She trains at the gym every now and again but not seriously so and it keeps her fit. Her stomach is flat, but she is a big girl in today's parlance you would probably describe her as thick but as Margo says to her you are very attractive men would be flocking to you if you wanted them to. But I can't just play the field like you Jan has often told her it's a small town I could get a reputation picking men up in bars and clubs and I don't really want to be going up to London searching for men. If I was going to do something I'd want it to be something special secret between me and one other person but how do I find that? Margo has suggested dating sites to her, but she can't bring herself to flaunt herself. I am not a cattle market woman! I would probably meet some lecher who was only into big tits and arses. It is a rising dilemma for her she feels the need of something or somebody but really, she can't see a way it could happen without her putting her marriage and her family at risk and that she would never do.

Lunchtime meetings with Margo always return to the same thing Margo is having fun with lots of different men Jan is stuck in a rut having to content herself with a man who loves her provides for her but cannot satisfy her anymore. You'll explode Jen Margo tells her probably at the wrong time and you'll end up in the back of a car or down an alley with a hand up your skirt after you've had a couple to drink and some guy presses the right buttons and you don't want to do that. Jan nods in agreement her needs are now greater every day, but the frustration grows and she sees no way out of it. Just get a bigger vibrator Margo laughs not in an uncaring way. Jan raises her eyes looks to the ceiling and says you I'll no help at all Margo.

Then something happens which raises up some interesting possibilities but at the same time totally dangerous and taboo ones.

John her handsome well built young son is home one day from college as Edgar it is away on business as usual. There is nobody else around just the two of them. Now John would never come into his parent's bedroom it is unheard of but one day after showering and getting ready to go down to cook dinner for her son something happens. Jan has put her best panties and bra on and looks in the mirror thinking yes you are still desirable you are lovely but as she admires her volumous curves in front of her mirror she manages to knocks over a large box of books that Edgar had left in the bedroom for some unknown reason. They fall to the floor with an almighty crash which brings John running upstairs and bursting into her bedroom thinking that something is wrong. Transfixed she stands there in all her glory before her son and only those undoubtedly pretty panties and bra between herself and nakedness. She let's out one shriek more in shock than anything else and one arm goes to cover her large breasts the other between her legs - afterwards Jenny thinks why do people actually do that what they've got can still be seen. What are you doing she shrieks at him. I'm sorry mother he says I thought there was something wrong, while he at the same time is obviously taking in the view of her from top to bottom. A view that she can see he is enjoying far too much. She starts to blush realising that he is looking at her not in the way a son should. You know mother he says with a smile you are a beautiful woman very desirable indeed what a pity that dad doesn't realise that. What do you mean she questions still trying to cover her modesty. Well John goes on Jenny told me that you seldom have sex nowadays and really dad must be mad for leaving you alone like that. Jan is beside herself I told Jenny that in confidence and now it seems my children are talking about my sex life behind my back. That is too much for her to take even though it is totally true and she screams loudly get out get out. But before he does he says in a quiet voice but I am only telling the truth mother whether you believe it or not you are a beautiful desirable woman and dad is a fool. He turns on his heels and goes downstairs.

Jan collapses on the bed somewhat bewildered hardly believing just what happened. My son was talking to me as if I was one of his girlfriends who he was trying to pull. She can't believe it, that is wrong that is taboo that is not going to happen.

But she is mortified and shouting at her lovely son like that makes her feel bad. She immediately wants to make it better between them and she hurriedly dresses and rushes downstairs to where John is sitting watching television. He seems totally unfazed by what has happened as she sits down by him and starts to apologise for shouting so loudly. You just surprised me when you came into the bedroom she tells him. Mum that's no problem I realise what was happening it was a big surprise so forget it but mom I am going to continue telling you how beautiful you are. He looks deep into her eyes and though neither of them say it this taboo subject is left in the air for the future. Unfortunately or perhaps fortunately John has been developing a fantasy about older larger women of late! She phones Margot we must meet for lunch tomorrow you have got to help me

Lunch comes my own son was looking at me in a sexual manner and telling me that I was beautiful she tells Margo whose eyes open wide. You know really that could be the answer to your problems she laughs keep it in the home keep it in the family and keep it in you. Oh really Margo, Jan exclaims, that would be great having an incestuous relationship with my own son behind my husband's back. I came here for help as to how I should deal with it and let John down slowly and without pain and all you can think is of me having sex with my son. Margo isn't abashed by this though, well I can assure you Jan if John came on to me he'd be in my bed without a second thought I would love for that young stud to jump me. I don't think you should pass up the opportunity without thinking about it seriously as a possibility, you shouldn't pass this up really. Jen goes home and mind ablaze with the opportunities and the danger of this. It is not going to happen she tells herself and the world around for so many reasons this would be wrong.

That evening Jan goes to bed. She has on a pretty pink silk overshirt and just a pair of panties underneath. These are her favorite panties as they have hardly anything to them just a small narrow thong that goes between her legs and often slips into her pussy she likes that because she can feel the thong rubbing against her lips and it turns her on. Suddenly there is a knock on the door and John's head appears round it I think we have an unfinished conversation mum he shyly tells her. No John we finished it yesterday and it isn't going to go any further go and find yourself a girlfriend of your own age I'm sure the girls at uni are flocking round you. Yeah mum he replies but they're all so skinny they're not like you and they're also boring. She can hardly believe what she is hearing he is basically praising her body and by the light in his eyes he obviously wants to see more of it. No John that isn't going to happen go find a porn magazine if you are into bigger ladies. it's wrong on so many levels I love you but in a way a mother loves her son not in the way you love a lover. Respect your father and your home and me.

John looks crestfallen OK mum he says but you can't help stop me having feelings for you, you are a beautiful woman he says with feeling. Stop saying that Jan imploys him and put it out of your mind. OK mum I'll do that but will you do one thing for me can I get into the bed and can we cuddle like we used to do when I was a child. Jan rolls her eyes looks at him will that be enough for you will you stop these silly games if I do let you cuddle with me. A voice inside tells her she should say no and be firm and make him realise that these feelings of his are going nowhere but she loves her son and does not want to hurt him. Sincerely he says of course mum. She pulls back the bedclothes back and invites him in. As she turns her back on him he moves closer so they are in a spooning position and puts his arm round her. He kisses her on the neck and she feels a slight tremor run through her body. Now go to sleep Jan tells him hoping against hope he isn't going to do anything silly. As the night goes on John seems to be asleep and Jan starts to feel turned on by the thong which seems to be pressing against her pussy lips even more so than usual and by John's presence. Her sexual need is almost unbearable. She reaches her hand down tentatively and starts to rub her clitoris. I shouldn't be doing this with him asleep by me she thinks but I feel so Horny and need it. She lets herself go and the feeling overwhelms her and she is lost. She doesn't know how it happened can't remember as she loses herself in her pleasure but suddenly she realises that John is awake and his hand is pulling hers away from her clit. Let me do that for you he whispers and before she can say no he slips his hand into her panties and very gently starts playing with her clit. She's so aroused so hot she can't stop him as his hand works her with increasing urgency bringing her state of arousal to uncontrollable boiling point. He rolls her over onto her back still working on her pussy lips he seems to have fingers like an octopus she dimly thinks and he kisses her hard and passionately on her mouth. By now she has lost all control of her body and is writhing about her hips pushing upwards in a beautiful arch. She is totally on fire it doesn't take too long until she cums and long racking breaths and moans escapes her lips. Completely spent she turns over with her back to John again just whispers weakly stop it john and they both go to sleep.

When she wakes up in the morning John has left and she's so relieved as she really wouldn't know what to say to him or how to react and doesn't want to talk about what happened last night even though it was quite amazing for her. It is late in the evening when he returns from wherever he had been and she is in bed already. Yes I am hiding from the situation she has to admit as the door opens without a preceeding knock and John comes confidently into the bedroom. Hi Jan. She tries to give him a withering look. I am your mum not Jan she says sternly. Well after last night he says with a smile on his handsome face I think you are more of a Jan than a mum to me. She looked sternly at him once more. That was a mistake that should never have happened, you caught me In a very weak moment that will never happen again. You took advantage of me young man shame on you. I am your mother not your lover and I'm not going to take part in any incestuous sexual activities with you believe me. He smiles, ok Jan not seeming to have got the point about the name. I promise if you let me cuddle you again tonight I won't take advantage of you. He smiles making the common sign with his hands a word in quotation marks suggesting that actually he did not take advantage of her. For some reason she says OK you can cuddle again, not really knowing why she's agreed to this but something in the back of her mind is saying to her do it do it find out what his intentions are and more importantly what mine are! She still can't believe she's thinking like this and says to herself no that is not going to happen but she allows him into her bed to cuddle in exactly the same spooning position as the previous night. Nothing happens and John is true to his word. He just cuddles her kisses her neck a couple of times and says Jan you are a beautiful woman and so warm to cuddle up to. But that is all. During the night she wakes drowsily and realises she can feel his erect penises pressing against her. He is fast asleep though but to her horror she realises she hadn't put any panties on and if he pushes forward he could easily enter her wet pussy. What was I thinking why did I not put panties on you she wonders I never sleep without them ever. A voice in her head says because you wanted him to go further don't deny it you have the hots for your own son. She is more than mortified this can't be happening to her. Luckily John is fast asleep and the dread penetration never occurs.

The following morning he has gone again before she gets up. Her mind is in a whirl. Thank God he didn't take advantage of my bare pussy last night she mutters to herself this has to stop. So when he comes in later she tells him you are not to come to my bedroom ever again this has to stop you have to find your own woman not somebody else's and that isn't going to be me. John smiles lovingly I don't think you mean that really mum I think you need love affection arousal and sex and just think how good it would be with me and not outside the home. I'm not a home wrecker like other guys might be it would be our little secret Jan.

Stop calling me Jan! Little secret big secret mega bloody secret it is not going to happen and not with my own son especially. For Christ's sake that is incest and if you are not religious I am now stop it and don't come to my room again.

She goes to bed but she is sure he's going to try it again so she moves a large dressing table with some effort in front of the door. Now that will stop you young man she says with wicked smile on her face. Yeah the bad voice in her head tells her make him work for it!

Later she hears the door being pushed the handle turning. Come on Jan John pleads please open the door let us cuddle. Go away John she shouts through the door it isn't happening again ever.

He goes away and she takes to her bed. She has remembered her panties this time but as she lays back and her hand goes down to them and it slips inside she starts playing with her pussy and as her orgasm arrives it is John's face that is in her mind. She cums so good and then as she lays back she whispers again this cannot happen even though I want it to.

John tries for the next couple of nights to get into her bedroom, and my panties Jan says to herself and then he gives up. Edgar returns home in a good mood. He attempts to make love to her but it really is pretty boring hardly lasts any time and she is unfulfilled as usual. All she can think during the sex is of John and what he did to her pussy, time and again. Perhaps she's disappointed that he gave up and as Margo says to her you've blown it girl you could have had it all with him but you're too much of a prude to take the chance and let your son have you. It can't happen Margo it's wrong she tells her teasing friend though does admit to her what happened that night when John brought her off with his hand. Wow wow Margo leans back in her chair really you let him play with your pussy bring you off kiss you like a lover and then you backed off you're getting to be a bit of a prick tease Jan she says. Did you enjoy it well of course I did Jan replies but just because you enjoy something doesn't mean you're going to keep on doing it and I've told him that. Tsk tsk Margo looks at her it's a bloody gift horse for you and you looked it in the arse rather than in the mouth. Don't you remember what we were like at uni has that Jan completely disappeared. Yes Jan replies I'm a wife a mother a businesswoman and being a sexual predator is are not for me any longer. Margot looks at her disbelievingly and Jan walks away thinking I'm lying to myself but it cannot go any further.

She gets home Edgar is waiting for her a smile on his face. He has cooked her a meal, he's a very good cook and he likes to cook but he doesn't have that much time nowadays. So it is special for him. He sits her down opens a bottle of wine and tells her he has some good news for her and some bad news. She looks at him slightly pensively. Well the good news is that for your 50th birthday and for our wedding anniversary I had bought us a Caribbean cruise 14 nights sailing round the islands in the sun having a good time. She looks at him really pleased it will give her a chance to get away from John and his desires but wonders what the bad news is. Well he says our firm have won this major new contract in the Far East it's worth millions upon millions of pounds but it starts the day before our cruise and I can't get out of it. I am the lead man for this project and the company won't let me back out even though I explained about our cruise and how special it is. They have also just given me a big bonus and so I have to go.

Oh that is such a pity Jan replies and she means it. It would have been nice to have left her troubles behind and to be with Edgar on holiday, perhaps he could have rekindled the ardour of the first few years of their marriage. Can you not get the money back she asks? No he says it's all paid for and there are no refunds as I got it at Special offer price, but, his face brightens up I have a solution as I have asked John whether he'll go on the cruise with you and look after you and give you a good time. Perfect solution as you get on so well. Oh no Jan says to herself there's well and there's too well, this can't happen. But Edgar John won't want to spend his time with an old lady like me he has his studies he has his friends he's rugby, all the time hoping against hope that Edgar will take that on board. Not a problem Edgar says I've already talked to John and he's cleared his itinerary for those two weeks so you can go together and have a good time and at least you don't lose out.

Edgar gets up and goes to wash the dishes while Jan sits at the table her whole mind ablaze with horrendous thoughts, this can't happen this can't happen she says to herself I can't spend fortnight in a cabin with a horny son who wants to fuck me morning day and night. He'll press his claims and take me and I won't be able to fend him off. Another voice growing in strength though whispers, you know you want it to happen why not give in and enjoy it. She is totally aghast this is going to be a nightmare. Perhaps I can set some boundaries with John before the holiday she hopes but a part of her mind knows that isn't going to happen. He wants her he's going to pressure her and I'm probably going to give in, and I'll probably enjoy it. At least as Margot said it keeps it in the family in the home, and she giggles to herself and in me.

A little later John arrives, I've just told mum the news about the cruise Edgar tells his son, you'll have a whale of a time, I'm sure. Yes, dad I'll look after mum, and he looks straight at her, it will be fun won't it as he looks at her, but all she can see is that his eyes are staring at that delicious vee between her legs which is already coming alive under the heat of his gaze. Save me she whispers to herself and smiles weakly back at her son, I hope it will be fun!

When she meets Margo for lunch her friend almost falls off her chair laughing. Good she says now you have to make a decision, and I hope the decision is to let your hulky son between your legs and enjoy life. As Jan often says to Margo, Margo you are of no help. This cannot happen.