My Imaginary Diary

This story may resemble actual events but that is only coincidental. All characters are over 18.

Sometime around the year 2010, I realized that I was craving sex with men more than with women.

By then, my wife had pretty much given up all interest in sex. I got tired of trying with her. I love her but not in a sexual way anymore.

I realized that men were available and easy. Every man with a hard cock is looking for something.

Some men will stay active with a wife, some will seek affairs, some will look for short term man on man sex.

To be honest, I've done it all. I've had multiple affairs with women and as mentioned before sex with men too.

My adventures with men started when I discovered AOL internet chat rooms that attracted horny men. I started meeting guys and letting them suck my cock. Then when I traveled for my job, I'd invite men to my hotel room for sex. I tended to shoot for married men if possible. My thinking was that they would be clean and discrete. And that's proven to be true so far. Having a safe hotel room attracted lots of married guys who wanted to try bi sex. Of course many had gone beyond trying it to liking it and craving it. Like me!

One of my first exploits was with a younger divorced man named David. He invited me to his home in Virginia. He wasted no time in taking my cock and sucking me dry. As I was preparing to leave, he asked me if I'd suck him too. I was a bit hesitant but figured I could do him that favor. I was not an accomplished fellator but I managed to bring him to climax in just a few minutes. He warned me of his impending explosion and I'd planned to pull off but in the heat of the moment, I stayed on his cock even as I knew he was going to bust in my mouth. He filled my mouth with his sweet tasting load that I mostly swallowed. I was proud of myself for doing this. And David was pleased too. I think this was a turning point for me in that I realized I loved giving head as much as receiving it.

I found a couple of gay bottoms who asked me to fuck them. I told both I would but only using a rubber. The first guy, Brian, bent naked over his bed facing a large floor to ceiling mirror. I fucked him hard as he watched in the mirror. It was the first time I'd cum inside a man. Inside the condom of course. I loved seeing his face as I pounded him from behind. Before I was done, he was begging me to keep going.

The second guy was a big man. You'd look at him and think he was a burly top. But it turned out he was something of a chubby sissy once I had my cock in him. He moaned and whimpered like a girl and I came big inside him too.

After a few adventures fucking bottoms, I began to get more interested in sucking cock and had a growing desire to be fucked.

I found a local school teacher named Ezra. We would meet early before school and play in the front seat of his Volvo parked in a dark corner of his school parking lot. One time we went inside his classroom coat closet. He groaned so loud as he came that a janitor came in to check. I think the janitor knew what was going on but he said nothing. Or possibly he and Ezra had been suck buddies before I came along.

Ezra was a respectable Jewish man with a very nice cock. I'd suck him fairly regularly. On one occasion, I let his cock slip out of my mouth and he came on my jacket. I didn't realize this until later when I got to work and in the light saw his cum still on my nice leather Members Only coat. I was lucky none of my co workers saw this. I know I would have been outed.

Once on a business trip to New Orleans, I was determined to find a top on Craigslist. The guy I found was named Brad and he was a married preacher in the Methodist Church. I started drinking wine about an hour before he came to my room. I knew the wine would loosen me up and I'd be more inclined to let him fuck me. Brad was a 40 something average fella. He was married too. It turned out that he was a very experienced top who knew what buttons to push. He kissed me, sucked my neck and nipples, and stroked my cock. Next thing I knew he was inside me fucking me so so good.

I was on my back and he had my legs up over his shoulders. All I had to do was lie there and let him fuck me. And that's what I did. In the span of an hour, he fucked me twice more in different positions. When he fucked me from behind, I was loving it so much that I begged him to fuck me deeper and harder. I knew after he was done that I'd been changed. I would be a bottom after that.

Brad and I played one more time a month later. Then he dropped out of sight. Maybe he decided to stop the sinful man fucking. Or maybe his wife found out. Who knows. Men tend to fuck and forget. And that's not a bad thing.

Then I met a college administrator. Ron had been a coach but had gone on to earn his PhD. Ron was black and rather beefy. He was a total top and I had him over knowing that a blow job would not be enough for him.

Sure enough, he wanted to make out and fuck. I was in the mood to get fucked and so it happened. He was the first of several black men to drive their big black cocks into me. Ron fucked me twice more before getting a job as a college president in Nebraska. I see pictures of him and his family online. They are a nice good looking family. They have no clue that this respectable black man has fucked kissed me, fucked me and cum inside me many times. Wonder how that would look on his resume.

Once on a business trip to DC, I was able to arrange an orgy of sorts involving me and three guys. The youngest was a twenty something sissy bottom. The rest of us were versatile. We took turns fucking that sissy. I'd never seen a bottom who craved cock as much as he did. It was fun to fuck him and see his reactions as each of us loaded him up. He was limping when he left. Raw but happy. I think he was truly built for sex.

Then there is my life long friend Gary. He and I fooled around in school before we got married. But he moved to Nashville. I moved away too. We kept in touch via email really ignoring the fact that we had been intimate in our youth. Gary loves to suck cock. I love to suck Gary. So about a month or so ago, I visited him in Nashville. For old times sake we sucked each other. I rolled onto my stomach and he got on top of me rubbing his cock on my ass cheeks. He only lasted a few minutes before splashing his load between my cheeks. God that was wonderful. He laid on top of me as I felt his cum warm against my ass. I know we will do it again.

In the meantime, I check in on Double List from time to time. I can usually find a man there. But it's hit or miss. Lots of guys talk big but then don't show up. I've waited in public parking places for men who never showed up.

But sometimes it works out. I met an old farmer recently at a public park where guys often meet. He had me follow him to his farm house in the country. He said he was 70 years old. And frankly he looked it.

Instead of going into his house he led me into his wood working shop behind the house. He bent me over his workbench and fucked me as good as anyone. Henry had a very big hard 70 year old cock! He talked nasty the whole time. No telling how many men he has bent over that workbench over the years. I swear there were hand prints from many men who had gripped that bench as he pounded them from behind.

After Henry was done fucking me, he invited me to stay for dinner. I thought that was odd, but I stayed anyway. His wife had prepared a big meal of chicken and rice. It was delightful.

Henry told her I was a tractor repairman and that I'd finally fixed the gear problem on his John Deere.

I smiled at his wife as her husband's cum was staining my insides! That's the only time I've ever been fucked and then fed a meal by the same guy. I call that real southern hospitality.

I'll be sharing other remembrances from my secret diary. Stay hard and stay tuned.