Rye's Encounters Pt. 06

The following series of encounters are 100% non-fiction, best of my ability accounts of my real-life encounters with horny men. Names, locations, and revealing details were altered to protect identities.

PREFACE:

Hi. My name is Rye. I am a cute, 5'9", blonde, big booty, white boy... with a hunger. I have a fairly symmetrical face, big wide eyes, and a fit figure. Also, I have been told I have a nice smile with fairly straight teeth.

This is the story not another soul knows.

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I was finally claimed one week prior to this next encounter. My top dom guide showed me the way of raw play, forced intoxication, and breeding. I was hooked and needed more. The following encounter cemented my future as a sissy... for life.

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CH.1

"The Aching"

A week had passed since my first creampie. I could still feel how tickly and perfect the moment was. It made me ache with desire and perpetually horny, which made me jack off constantly. If I wasn't busy with my college classwork, I was gooning to hypnoporn.

Alex communicated that he wanted to know what I was thinking and feeling when I was horny and to text him these things while they were happening. Frequently, he received painfully vivid texts from me, describing some physical sensation I remembered from that last hookup, or a porn video that captured my interest. I also told him everytime I jacked off, per another follow up request.

During the passing week, I sent him over 20 texts regarding horniness or masturbation. He told me that I "touched that part of myself too much" and asked me for my address for a present delivery. I felt really uncomfortable giving out my personal address, and did not relent. Alex wasn't pleased that I was refusing him, and sent the following message:

"A good sissy listens to her Daddy. No more jacking off till I say you can cum. Drive to Paradise Park at 10p tonight for your present. Do not disappoint me. Be ready."

Reading his text made me feel so small and weak. I was typing my reply, when another message from him came through before I could send mine:

"You better wear your new thong and plug I got you too. I'll be checking."

I felt a shiver run across my chest and back and replied:

"Yes, daddy. I won't disappoint you. I'll be ready ;)"

The aching began again. My balls hadn't been emptied since the night before, but already, my sexual depravity had caught up with me carrying a full horny load. I'd been cumming at least three times a day for well over two weeks now, especially since Alex gifted me my new plug.

I was consuming so much porn that I was starting to feel numb from the effects it had on me. So, it felt nice to be told that I couldn't masturbate.

10PM was still several hours away, so I went back to my school work and tried not to think too much about my meetup. I took comfort in my abstinent obedience to Alex... and the plug that was still inside me reminded me of the fun still to come.

I ached for the rest of the day.

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CH.2

"Unbridled Paradise... Park"

10PM struck as I sat in my car in the dark parking lot of an empty park. I casually scrolled through porn accounts on Reddit as I waited.

The aching only increased in its intensity and my drive for sexual gratification was at a week long high. Anticipation drives me crazy.

Another car casually pulled into the parking lot and parked several spaces down from me. I couldnt help but stare, hoping it was Alex. A dark figure departed their vehicle, holding a small black bag, and went to go sit on a bench near a wooded area. I watched intently. They were dimly lit by moonlight alone, since this park was technically closed.

They sat down, placed the bag on the ground in front of them, and casually looked directly in my direction. They patted the empty side of the bench next to them. I took the cue, knowing this was Alex.

I hopped out of my car, and briskly walked over to the bench.

It was almost summer, so I was wearing some high cut running shorts and a tight fitting tshirt. It was cool outside, perfect summer evening weather.

I appraoched the bench and stood infront of Alex, awaiting judgment. He was smiling, looking me up and down.

"Please sit, babe." he spoke in a very pleasant, deep tone.

I smiled and eagerly sat down next to him--Too eagerly, the flat end of my plug that stuck out of my hole smacked the wood of the bench with a loud "WHACK".

The sudden noise stunned me, and Alex laughed at my reaction.

"Sounds like you have your plug in. Good girl." he said then pet my face.

I tried to laugh it off, but I was nervous and jittery with excitement and lust.

Alex lifted the bag off the ground and gave it to me to inspect. His eyebrows went up as he watched me unveil this present.

Inside was a black box, not much bigger than a large ring box. I pulled the top off to reveal a familiar metal contraption.

It was a small, sterling silver chastity cage. The moonlight glinted off of the reflective chrome and dazzled my brain with its potential.

I gasped when I opened the box, and almost immediately, the aching returned.

Alex inquired, "Do you like it, sissy?"

"I-I-I love it...," I said almost breathlessly.

I removed the cage from the box to inspect it further. It was heavy and cold. Also, there really wasnt enough room for my cock to fit inside of it, since the cage was nearly flat except for a small dome shape with a hole in the center. Clearly this was meant for someone with a much smaller cock.

"I don't think this will fit me, daddy" I said reluctantly.

Alex grinned, grabbed the cage from my hands, and replied, "Trust me, this is perfect. Take your shorts off."

Feeling desperately horny and curious, I dropped trow and revealed my panties and hairless thighs. He manhandled my clitty for a moment, then positioned me so i was laying my back down on the bench, with my feet toward him. He then scooted my ass closer to him, so I was forced to hold my legs up to fit in the space he was giving me.

He removed a bottle of poppers from his jacket pocket and made me take several inhaltions. Poppers, being a vasodilator, tend to make my cock shrink into flacidity, if I'm not actively stimulating it. As they took effect, the shrinkage occurred as expected.

The rush started to roll on and I felt the desperate edge start to take over. Alex watched the darkness engulf my brain and then began his work.

He moved my panties to the side and revealed my shrinking cock and heavy balls to the outside world. He then quickly disassembled the cage into 4 pieces, then reassembled them in the following order:

First, the ring was placed under my balls and around the sides of my cock--very similar to a cock ring... but for opposite purposes.

Second, he installed the top section of the ring, which contained some sort of interlocking mechanism that seemed to fit like puzzle pieces to the rest of the cage. This piece fully connected the ring around my parts.

Third, he took the chrome dome piece and gently lined it up with the head of my clitty. He then compressed me down so more than half of my flaccid, limp, member was now technically inside me--some part compressed clitty, another part concave clitty. This action also seperated my clitty from my aching balls, so that my balls were now the only part of my anatomy sticking out and bare to the world around us.

Lastly, he inserted a very small key he had been holding into a side portion of the cage and locked it closed with a very satisfying click.

All the while, I am absolutely rolling in immense submissive energy. Watching him surgically install this chastity device on me, while holding my legs up, in panties, and with a respectable hit of poppers in me was an electrifying experience. My mind was racing with the implications and incredibly erotic experience of being locked up. The moment he clicked the lock in place, I let out a little moan.

He smiled up and me and gave my balls a tug to make sure they were properly set within the confines of the cage. The leaking precum and sensitivity of the area made his touch unbearably sensual. I felt an urge to cum fly through me for a very short moment. I closed my eyes, gasped, and shuddered at his touch. I almost could see lights flashing on and off behind my eye lids while I rode the wave of that moment.

The power this man had over me was nearly overwhelming.

"How does it feel?" he asked weilding an evil smile.

I took a moment to check in with the sensation of the experience. I replied:

"It feels like... a nice hug, but on my clitty. It's also making my blue balls more instense. It feels... really good, but also pretty tight."

"Good. Stand up for me and let me inspect you," Alex commanded.

I leaned over and off the bench to stand up, remembering that we were both in public and I was nearly naked. I timidly spun around until he saw the faint glimmer of my crystal-ended plug. He told me to lean over and spread my ass open with both hands, which I did. He viewed the edges of my plug glint just outside the string of the thong. He reached in and pulled the string aside and I cheekily pushed the plug a little with my inner muscles. My now caged clit dangled in silhouette.

He leaned closer and kissed my ass cheeks sensually. Then, Alex abruptly got up, grabbed my shorts off the ground, and motioned me to follow him as he walked directly into the more densly wooded area just behind the bench.

I righted myself, adjusted my thong, and quickly followed. Slowly, I was beginning to sober back up from the poppers. I looked back at the parking lot to make sure the coast was clear, since Alex didn't, and noticed two additional cars that were not there before. I couldn't see anyone inside the cars, but it did distrub me that I missed their arrival during my time on the bench.

I followed Alex through the tree line and dodged some under bush, since I was only wearing shoes, tight shirt, and my thong. He handed back his weed vaporizer pen and gave me a serious look.

"Hit that pen, hard." Alex whispered.

I felt my heart race a little, and then followed instructions. I inhaled for about 10 seconds. Held it for about 3 seconds, then started coughing it all back out. He shushed me quietly and told me to follow again. My head spun from the hit, but I followed.

After another 2 or 3 minutes of walking, we came upon a small clearing within the trees. There was a square cement pad on the ground, a few beat up chairs, some trash scattered around. Clearly this was a small camp for delinquent teenagers or homeless folks at some point. I could only see so much over Alex's shoulder as we both carefully vaulted over some debris from a carefully placed tree trunk.

As I cleared the makeshift entrance, the entire clearing became visible, including a somewhat dirty matress on the ground off to the right, and a large blue couch off to the immediate left. The clearing in the trees was about 10 meters wide and 5 metes long. Alex walked a bit ahead, and turned around to face me.

I kept my eyes on Alex and noticed that his eyes and smile flicked between the area of the couch and me. Instinctively, I smiled back and looked to the left to inspect the couch he had just been smiling at.

On this couch were two grown men, smiling back at me.

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CH.3

"Clearing Clarity"

I froze in my tracks. The weed I had just smoked was in full effect and I was starting to feel panicky. Alex grabbed my arm and pulled me closer so he was face to face with me... and my ass was facing the other men.

"Be a good girl." He said while he stared deeply into my eyes.

"Boys, this is Rye. She is the sissy I've been telling you both about and these are her first moments in chastity." Alex proclaimed.

"Wowwww." "Very nice." they both said at once, inspecting me with express interest.

I shuddered at their appraisal. Alex gripped my ass cheeks and spread them open so the men could view my plug glimmering in the moonlight. They groaned in pleasure as they saw my spread.

I grasped Alex's shirt tightly and buried my face in his shoulder area. These guys had to have been from the two other cars in the parking lot.

I felt him let go of my ass and grab my hands. He placed them on my own ass, prompting me to spread for these men on my own. He then used his hand to manipulate my hips, so I was bending my knees, leaning forward, and sticking my ass out. Then he poked my lumbar spine to make me arch my back slightly.

He stood in front of me and took out the poppers, then announced, "Come check her out, boys."

Suddenly, I was surrounded. Alex opened the bottle and held it to my right nostril while closing the left with a finger.

"Inhale and hold, Sissy" he whispered. "And don't you even think about moving. You're a statue."

I closed my eyes and obeyed. I inhaled deeply, tasting the chemical aroma, and maintained the sexually degrading position.

I started to feel hands touch my exposed skin. First one, then three, then five, then six hands. Six manly hands squeezing, groping, slapping, and tweaking bits of my body. I felt one of them grab my plug and start to pull. In that moment I felt the rush begin to envelop me again. I was still holding my breath. The man pulling my plug out kept a steady pressure, slowing opening up my hole for what seemed like hours.

I eventually I started becoming a little light headed from the stimulation and holding my breath. I finally couldn't take it any longer and exhaled. The poppers glittered around my brain, guiding my inhibitions with lustful permission. I pushed to help the plug come out easier, and then it slid out with a satisfying pop.

All three of the men stood behind me as the plug popped out. There I stood, bent over, poppered up, and gaping at these men.

I felt a bit of the night chill on my hole and I pushed to wink my gape at the men. They all hummed in approval. I heard someone spit, then felt the plug tease my hole and pull away. I whimpered at the sensation. The plug teased me again, and I winked again after it pulled away. All of us in that moment were in sync--collectively gooning at the simple beauty of a gaping hole.

The pace stayed at a gentle tempo, but increased the depth. Now the man plugging me was fully inserting it, leaving it there for a moment or two, then withdrawing it, so to watch me gape and wink.

I felt a bottle of poppers appear under my nose, so I sharply inhaled and held my breath, again. No one needed to tell me what to do. I opened my eyes and looked over my shoulder to watch the men gaze at my pussy hole. They were entranced and locked into the view of my hole. All three men had their cocks out and were almost slacked jawed as they slowly milked themselves. Alex was the Plugger, of course.

One of the other guys noticed me looking back and smiled up at me. I had seen that same look in Alex's eyes before. He wanted to breed me and leave me here in this clearing. I saw right through him... and he saw right through me--because I wanted the same thing. I exhaled the poppers while keeping eye contact with this stranger. He nodded in approval and walked around in front of me, while the other two readjusted for the best view of my hole and continued to plunge.

The new man, put his face in my face and quietly asked if i was going to be a good girl. I nodded in reply. He smiled, then stood at full height so his cock was in my face to show off how he had absolutely flooded his foreskin with precum.

"This is all from you, Rye," he said again at a near whisper.

He began to slowly crank his cock in my face. Still bent over, I switched between watching his cock and looking up into his eyes. I opened my mouth with my tongue out to let him know I wanted his cock inside me. His cock dripped with anticipation. I began salivating as he continued to masturbate, inches from my hot mouth.

Alex grabbed me by the hair and lifted my head up from behind so I was looking up at him almost upside down. It hurt. "Did I say you could suck his fuckin cock?" He growled in my ear.

"No daddy!" I winced, still holding the pose and spreading my cheeks. The new guy continued to smile down at me and masturbate.

Alex pushed my head back to where it was, then spanked me, hard. I flinched a little. Alex pushed the plug back inside me, then ripped it out, hard. I gasped, but I pushed to try and gape bigger than ever.

"Look at how good she is, boys. Just takes it like a whore! No complaining!" Alex spoke to the other men. I could hear the smile in his voice.

I felt absolutely degraded and sexualized. My purpose for existing in that moment was to please these men.

Alex stepped up behind me and rubbed his cock on my cheeks. I felt his arms embrace me and he lifted me off the ground. He easily carried me over to the couch and placed me on my knees on the couch. I adjusted to get comfy with my upper body leaning on the back of the couch, and my ass sticking back to the men. I reached back again to spread my cheeks.

"Good girl," one of the men said as they all approached.

Alex took out a small bottle of lube and emptied half of it inside of my gape and on my hole. His greedily rubbed his cock on my pucker and hummed his approval.

The man who had jacked off in my face had came around to the space behind the couch, in front of me again, with a much harder and far more pre-cummy cock.

"Ready?" Alex asked the man in front of me. I heard no reply.

I felt Alex start to push himself inside me and the man in front of me made an "ahh" face with his mouth, non-verbally instructing me to open my mouth and recieve his cock. I complied with both of my holes: opening my mouth with my tongue out, and pushing my hole so Alex could slide in with no resistance.

Both men groaned as they burried themselves to the hilt in my holes. My mouth was stuffed with the new man's cock. It was not as thick as Alex's, but slightly longer. His pubes and balls were smoothly shaved. His cock tasted salty and bitter from the precum slathered all over his head.

Alex's cock, unsuprisingly, stretched me out and challenged my gape. His cock was so warm compared to the evening chill. Just the change in temperature was incredible, not to mention how smooth and perfect it was to have his raw cock pierce my body.

They both began thrusting around the same time, almost coordinated. I began to embrace the rhythm, when the couch shook and I noticed the third man sit down next to me and put the bottle of poppers in my face. He instructed me to sniff with an almost angry conviction. I followed orders. He commanded me to sniff again. I did. He then took a huge rip and passed it to the other men. Together, we went to this dark dreamland.

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CH.4

"Dark Baptism"

The man on the couch next to me was masturbating. Alex was slowly stroking in my bussy. The man with his cock in my mouth was sweetly massaging my tonsils with his hard-on. I was an instrument of sex, and the men around me were the expert musicians playing me. My mind was sparkling with the influence of poppers. Nothing else mattered.

I reached down with my left hand and carressed the balls of the man next to me. He groaned and exclaimed his suprise with my action. Both men using my holes began to increase their pace as they watched me embrace my fate.

"Good girl. Mmmmm yes, GOOD girl," the couch guy said.

"Such a slut, look at you... wowww, your throat is so soft," the man fucking my face droned in a peculiar monotone.

"Oh my god, I am going to flood this slut!" Alex growled behind me.

Alex was vigorously pounding my ass. Everytime his hips collided with me, I felt an erotic tingle shoot through my body. His thrusts forced my head forward, assisting in the other man's mouth fucking. I felt Alex's full, sticky balls press and slap against my smooth taint.

The other man slowly pushed his cock inside my mouth, kept it there as Alex's thrust made my mouth jack him off, then slowly retracted it. The poppers appeared again. I sniffed. It was a slow, sexual, moan-filled blur. The man fucking my face was whispering sweet nothings to me the whole time.

"You are beautiful. Your mouth is beautiful. We are going to share this moment forever. Your holes are so perfect." His voice sounded strange and far away as his voiced fused with the sounds of sex around me.

The man on the couch started using my hand as a pussy, and started to fuck it after moving my hand to his cock. I varied my grip from a hard squeeze to a soft grasp.

The poppers fueled my mental degeneration. I felt beyond myself and almost completely dissasociated. The men simply were using my holes to please themselves. I was participating in a completely selfless act, allowing them to achieve sexual gratification with my body. This realization brought me back to my body. Everything felt perfect and warm.

I squeezed my pussy hole and made Alex groan. I sucked harder making my sweet-talking man flex hard in my mouth and throat. I gripped the couch guy and his pace increased. I felt powerful and absolutely sexy.

They all took several edging breaks intermittently through our session and together they decided it was time to cum. Alex decided that he was going to be first. He gripped my hips and began to absolutely slam my hole for a few desperate minutes. I tried to grip him as hard as I could.

While he was searching for his orgasm, the increased pace and aggression pushed the man in my mouth over the edge. He began moaning, louder and louder. His cock head grew in girth and rigidity. Precum flooded my mouth. Until he finally let it go. Three hot bursts of thick gooey cum launched into my mouth, all over my tongue. He ripped his cock out to shoot his final two loads on my face, then plunged back in. He held the sides of my head as he jerked uncontrollably in my oral cavity. He continued to bathe his cock in the mixture of my spit, his precum, and his actual cum--reveling in the warmth. I gently massaged his cock with my tongue. He praised my soft mouth and instructed me not to swallow.

"Just keep it there, no swallow." he said breathlessly. This was the first time I noticed his accent. He was maybe French or something. His warm cum slowly trickled down my nose and cheek. It quickly went from hot to very cool in the evening chill.

The man on the couch abruptly stood up and silently dumped several hot streams of cum on my back and ass. I couldn't reach him as he stood up, but he held my hand and stoked himself with the other. It was sweet.

Alex, empowered by the sexual relese happening around him, slowed his pace but incresed the intesity of each stroke.

"Ready to be bred, baby?" He asked me. The other man removed his cock from my mouth so I could reply.

"Yesssh," I gurgled with the cum in my mouth. The poppers appeared again. I looked up at the man in front of me. He smiled down wamrly.

"I'll join you, don't worry" he gently said in his accent.

I kept my eye contact and ripped a huge hit. He nodded and then reciprocated the hit. He leaned down so his face was in mine and eye gazed with me as we watched the dark take over eachothers eyes for the last time that evening.

Alex started to climax. His breathing became more labored. He began to vocalize the sensation.

"Ohhh fuck, girl. I'm gonna breed this fucking pussy again. Oh my god. Your hole is mine. Ready for some cum, baby? You ready? Want my cum?" he rambled. I loved it when he rambled. I did my best to affirm him with my mouth almost full to the brim, and my eyes locked onto this soul in front of me. The haze of poppers rolled on again. My eyes glazed over. My brain felt like glitter.

The man in front of me must have felt the same thing at the same time I did. Recognizing it in eachother, we searched eachothers eyes for a grip on reality. Suddenly, as though our minds were linked, we both went in for a deep kiss. His tongue dove into the pool in my mouth, and mine shared the sweet river of cum with his. He moaned deeply as his freshly shaven face melted together with mine. Our tongues trading moves and sensations. Pushing the cum back and forth with greedy intent to savor but share the cum back and forth.

Alex watching this happen suddenly let go of his cum load inside of my hole. He sporadically vocalized the ecstacy he experienced. His hot load coated the inner walls of my pussy. His cock pulsated on my prostate. He pushed to a balls deep thrust and left it there to throb. His right hand gripped my hip, while his left gently rubbed in the couch guy's cum into the skin on my ass.

"Ohhhhh my... what a hole." Alex sighed.

"You bred her deep as fuuuuck," the couch guy admired.

The French man and I continued to french kiss. I was aware of everything happening to me--hyper aware. My mind was swimming in the physical sensations assaulting me: the french man's hot tongue and lips; the taste of our shared cum load; the aching in my jaw; the sticky cum slathered on both our faces; the couch guy still holding my hand; Alex's cock maintaining its length and hardness even after emptying inside me; the warm load radiating in my insides; Alex's hands slowly massage my ass and hips; the cool air chilling the cum on my skin. I was getting overwhelmed and was preparing to move in for an even deeper kiss, when Alex pulled his cock out from inside me.

I moaned as it slid out. My hole slammed shut as I didn't want to let go of his cum just yet.

"Gape your hole, Sissy," Alex commanded.

I moaned back in reply.

"Gape it now. Push!" the couch guy said, then promptly smacked my cummy ass.

The french man withdrew his tongue from my mouth and held my head with both hands. He stared into my soul and held my gaze. He had a desperate look in his eyes, as though he was experiencing my sensations vicariously through me.

"Push, my love. Gape for your daddy. Please gape for him. Push it out baby. It's okay. Please push it all out." the french man rambled. The look in his eyes was almost frantic and ecstatic--as if he was going to cum again. "I've been you before. I've been here. I understand... just push."

Wide eyed and quivering, I nodded. He leaned over me and put his cock back in my face to spread my cheeks for me and to get a top-down view of my hole. I put his cock back in my mouth and he laughed and jumped in suprise.

I pushed and gaped my hole the best I possibly could. Cum slowly creeped out of the dark gape, like a white jelly slowly leaking out of an over turned jar. I felt the slug-like sensation of the cum, and let out a high pitch sigh. The men hummed and groaned as they saw the load crawl out of my hole. The french man spreading my hole and watching the cum, flexed his cock in my mouth.

Alex stepped up and pushed the load back into my hole with his cock, then removed it again. This must have been one of his kinks, because this was seemingly common for him now.

He commanded me to push again, and I did.

We repeated the dark erotic ritual until he was satisfied.

The other men were satiated. They both thanked Alex for the experience. The french man popped his now soft cock back out of my mouth and got in my face again.

"Swallow." He instructed.

I locked eyes with him and swallowed. He smiled and gave me a kiss on the forehead and walked out of view.

Alex said a few words to them and they both left.

"See you around, Rye" the french man said as he left.

Alex watched them leave and then looked at me. I began to finally come down from the poppers and adrenaline. I shivered a little.

Alex threw my shorts on the couch next to me. I heard metal clinking as my plug and presumably the keys to my cage clashed as my shorts landed. He came around to the front of me with his semi-hard cock still out.

"Clean me off," he commanded.

I slowly sucked and bobbed on his cock. My eyes were closed. My head began to throb from the poppers abuse. After a few minutes, he removed his cock.

He lifted my chin with a finger, making me look up at him.

"You're a true sissy slut now. Look at yourself. You just serviced three men and got spit roasted raw. Whatever you think you were before is gone. You're a sissy. You're a sissy faggot now, Rye."

"Yes, daddy," I nodded and confirmed. "I am your sissy slut."

"No. You're not mine. You belong to cock. Many might own you in the future, but your goal as a sissy is to serve cock. That's it. Please cock. Serve cock. That means fucking men raw, sucking cock raw, swallowing cum, and getting bred." he preached.

"Yes, daddy," I meakly replied.

"You didn't know, but this was always your destiny." he said with a dark intensity.

A shiver came across me as he verbalized my thoughts. My anxiety started to take off without me. Was I so transparent?

Alex got close to my face and spit on my forehead, then abruptly left without goodbye. I was stunned.

I was left there leaning on the back of this couch, in a deeply wooded area, with only a shirt and thong pushed to the side. My hole slowly continued to leak the remains of Alex's load. My skin was chilled to the core. Spit and cum trickled down my face.

I leaned over and tried to get up. My legs were shaky to say the least. I sat my bare, cummy ass on the couch and leaned back to get my bearings. I breathed deep. The world was kind of spinning around me. My head throbbed harder.

For the first time in the evening, I looked down at my clitty. My balls were swollen and sensitive. My clit was still shrunk and compressed by the cage. I did not even remotely notice these parts of my anatomy the entire evening. My smooth thighs were covered with a mix of Alex's manly cum that dripped from my hole and my girly precum that leaked out of me during the soft foursome.

I touched the metal dome that hid my clitty. I felt nothing, and had nearly zero reaction. My brain and body were broken. My clit was non-responsive. My hole was gaping. My tummy was full of cum. While I thought I was a sissy before, I was so unequivocally wrong. Now I was complete. The old me had died.

The sissy I was destined to be had finally been realized.

I saw the world through a new dark lens.

I smiled to myself. I had just found a new calling--my real purpose. I had made my first real steps into this new world... and I wanted more...