The Girl Who Didn't Pitty Me

Jimmy Carlisle bounced as his wheelchair moved over a bump in the sidewalk. His hand jolted a bit and the chair moved to the left. "Hey, watch it" Julia complained. Jimmy apologized and got his chair back on the right. His younger sister walked beside him. "I appreciate you coming with me. Are you sure you're okay to be back at the school?" she asked him concerned.

"Yeah, it'll be fine. None of the assholes should be there today. I've spent most of the summer inside, I could use the sun and fresh air. Besides it's hard for me to get out. Mom and Dad are always so worried about me. I'm an adult and I wish they would treat me like one. You have no idea how lucky you are in EVERY way."

"Well... You have to admit that your circumstances are different."

"I'm not saying they aren't. I know I'm different but it's not like I'm mentally retarded or something. Let's be realistic, I would understand if I had some kind of mental handicap and I'd roll away and get lost or something, but my mind is perfectly functional. It's just my stupid body that doesn't work right. But I can take a stroll down the street just like you can. I can get myself places just like you can. I can do just about anything that anyone else can do. It's stupid." Jimmy complained.

Julia put a hand on his shoulder and moved to step in front of his wheelchair. She knelt down to be at eye level with her brother. "I agree with you. You know I do. I can't change the rules Mom and Dad have but you know I try my best to help you out whenever I can. It's like they feel better knowing an able-bodied person is with you all the time. It's stupid and makes no sense. I hate that they treat you that way but we..." Julia took Jimmy's hand in hers and gripped it tight "we are a team, and you know that I support you. As soon as we get to the school you can go off and do whatever you want and I'll tell Mom and Dad we were together the entire time, just like I always do. Enjoy your moments of freedom when you can. Eventually I'll graduate too, and we'll get a place together, then you can have your full freedom cause you know I won't put rules on you like that."

"I know... I just get so frustrated. You have no idea what it's like to be in this chair."

"You're right, I don't. I don't envy your situation, but I love you and I'll do whatever I can to help you. I got you bro." Julia smiled.

"Thanks sis. Sorry about that."

"You don't need to apologize. I'm always here to reassure you if you." Julia stood up and they continued towards the school.

When they arrived, Julia went straight to the auditorium. Julia needed to come to school every day starting after fourth of July to practice for a play. She was a popular student but she didn't date, she wanted to focus on her education and activities. She was in choir, drama, swimming and diving. That was her true passion, diving.

Julia had a dream of making it to the Olympics and bringing home a gold medal for the United States. A big dream to be sure but it was hers and she put her all into diving. Thankfully for her the practice for drama was in the mornings and her diving practice was in the evenings. Most kids enjoyed their time off school, but Julia seemed to spend even more time at school during the summers.

Jimmy made his way through the halls. He was 18 years old and graduated just two months ago. Being there already felt nostalgic and in a way, he missed it. It was high school and there were plenty of bullies who made fun of him for his disabilities. He tried to ignore them but who can truly ignore a bully? Jimmy was going to start community college soon and he hoped the other students in college would be more mature than the ones in high school. He also hoped the girls would be more interested in talking to him.

There were some girls in high school that seemed like they wanted to talk to him but didn't because of how it would affect their social status. Who, other than Julia, would sacrifice their social status talking to the disabled kid? Apparently, no one.

The school was empty. He knew the only people on campus were in the auditorium and he felt he was making himself sad being in the halls, so he turned himself around and headed for the auditorium. He went in the far back door; he didn't want to disturb anyone if they were in the middle of a scene.

There was no scene in place. The director was giving directions to a few students who were about to rehearse a scene. Jimmy didn't see anyone in the seats watching and didn't want to be singled out, so he thought about leaving. Just as he was about to turn his chair around, he noticed the door to the recording box was open. He figured he could hide in there and watch the rehearsal, plus it would be nice and cool. The hot sun was really beating down on him out there.

He wheeled himself over and peeked inside the recording box. There was someone sitting inside. He was about to back up when she turned to look at who was behind her.

"Oh, hi Jimmy. I didn't realize you were there. Come in." Roxanne said happily.

"Oh no, it's okay. I don't want to disturb you." Jimmy said feeling a bit embarrassed.

"No, seriously. Come on in. Sit with me." Roxanne invited him in and moved another chair out of the way so Jimmy could roll his chair up to the desk for a good view of the rehearsal.

"What are you doing here? I thought you would be off practicing your diving." Jimmy asked.

Roxanne graduated with Jimmy's class a couple of months ago. She was set to go to college but she had been scouted and chosen to practice for the Olympic team. Of course, someone from their school being picked to practice for the Olympic team only gave Julia more hope of being picked herself.

"I'm actually leaving straight from here." Roxanne pointed to her luggage sitting next to the door. "My dad is taking me straight to the airport from here. I'm heading off to California to practice with a retired Olympic diver. I'll be living with her and practicing 12 hours a day, 6 days a week. It's going to be a crazy schedule, but it'll get me in shape and give me the needed practice to compete in the games."

"Why didn't you leave as soon as school ended?" Jimmy asked.

"I couldn't. I was still 17 during graduation. My birthday was last week and now that I'm 18 my parents are comfortable with me leaving and being on my own in California." Roxanne explained.

"Wow, you must really love to dive if you're going to do it that much. That schedule sounds intense."

"Yeah, I do. And when I get back from the Olympics next summer, I'll start college." Roxanne watched the rehearsal start. "I've been thinking about my high school years and reflecting on all the experiences I've had. Everyone always says they are the best years of your life and that we'll never have more freedom than we did during our time in high school."

"Maybe for most people. I certainly didn't have much freedom in high school. I'm not sure if you noticed but I'm disabled." Jimmy laughed.

"What?!? When did that happen?" Roxanne asked pretending to be shocked. "You're funny. I really admire you, Jimmy."

"Nah, don't say stuff like that." Jimmy stopped laughing and looked a little annoyed.

Roxanne got serious, she realized she just offended Jimmy. "Why not?"

"Everyone says that garbage. They tell me how they admire me cause I have it so hard but none of them mean it. They're just being nice, and I can see right through them. They're all fake and it just... it annoys me and bothers me cause... I just hate it." Jimmy looked up at Roxanne. "I know you didn't mean it like most people do but it still bothers me."

Roxanne took a moment to think before speaking again. "Jimmy, I hear what you're saying, and I understand why you're saying it. Do you know how many guys have told me how pretty I am or how sexy I am? I hate it when they do that because I'm not doing anything. They are basing that entirely on my looks and what I look like has very little to do with me, and nothing to do with who I am as a person. I want people to like me and want to be around me because of who I am and not what I look like. You talk about people being 'fake', I know exactly what you're talking about. People are fake to me too and, like you, I can see right through them."

Roxanne shifted her position in her chair. "But sometimes someone says something because they truly mean it. I do admire you. I admire your strength and your willpower. I wish I was as strong as you are, the truth is that I'm ashamed of myself." Roxanne looked down at the ground.

Jimmy could feel the air around them change. Roxanne was opening herself to him, she was being serious. "Why?" Jimmy asked. "Why are you ashamed of yourself?"

Roxanne took a moment before she began speaking again. "A lot of the girls in swim and diving are pretty slutty. I mean don't get me wrong they are very pretty, but guys only showed up to see them in swimsuits. Those girls ate that up and oftentimes slept with those guys. I never did, not once. I've kissed a few guys, but I've never taken my clothes off or done anything sexual with a guy. I've never felt like it was the right thing to do."

"Umm..." Jimmy started. "So, you're telling me that you're ashamed because you weren't a slut in high school?"

Roxanne chuckled a little bit. "No, I'm not ashamed of that. I'm quite proud of myself for that. I stood up for what I believed in, and I did what was right for me. It was hard because I am human, and I have sexual needs too but I didn't want to get those needs from any jerk. Plus, if something happened and I got pregnant there's no way I'd be able to follow my dream of being an Olympic diver."

"I'm confused. You're ashamed of yourself... but not because you weren't a slut in high school. You've only told me why you're proud of yourself, which you should be. I think it's great that you didn't sleep around. I'm proud of you too for doing what you need to do to truly follow your dreams. I'm not seeing the shame here at all."

"I'm ashamed because...." Roxanne trailed off a little bit. She bit her lip and took a deep breath before speaking again. "I'm ashamed because there is a guy I really like. A guy I wanted to talk to and spend time with, but I never did."

"Oh, well why not?" Jimmy inquired.

"Because being seen with him... because I felt like being seen with him would ruin my social standing with the other girls in school. I'm ashamed because I wasn't strong enough to stand up for everything I believed in and do all the right things."

"Ahh, I see." Jimmy nodded his head. "Well, I can tell you something and it's going to suck but it's true. In fact, you know it already but I'm not sure you realize it."

"What's that?" Roxanne asked.

"You're human." Jimmy said as he smiled at her. Roxanne looked at him a bit confused. "It's a mistake. We all make them. You should be proud of the things you did accomplish, which is a lot. You kept your virginity and sexuality to yourself and didn't give in to temptation. You're focusing on the one thing you wish you had done but didn't do. Focus on the things you did accomplish and do. Learn from the things you didn't do and don't repeat them."

Roxanne looked up and out the window to the kids rehearsing the play. "I said before that high school was supposed to be the best years of my life. I always wanted to lose my virginity in high school, but I also didn't. I wish I had lost it to that guy."

Jimmy felt a bit uncomfortable. "Well, I'd say that it's not too late but you're heading out tonight so, I guess it is too late. Plus, high school is over, at least it is for us. I'm sure you'll meet other guys and find someone to love you. Not me though. I'm sure I'll be a virgin forever. At least you have the option of finding true love."

Roxanne whipped her head around to look at Jimmy. "What?!? How dare you!!!" her voice was clearly upset. Jimmy felt a warmth run over his body. He quickly tried to recall the words he had just spoken. Roxanne stood up and moved her face close to his. "You are one of the most wonderful people I've ever known Jimmy Carlisle. You will find love and happiness in your life because no one deserves it more than you do." With that Roxanne closed the gap between them and pressed her lips to his.

Jimmy felt a mixture of hot and cold run through his body. Thoughts ran through his head so quickly he couldn't make sense of them. He tried to focus and decided to replay her words to figure out why she was angry with him. Her words weren't coming to him; he couldn't focus with her lips pressed against his. Her lips... all he could focus on was her lips. He closed his eyes and let go of all feeling. He relaxed and took a deep breath in through his nose. Roxanne began to pull away from him. Jimmy pushed his head towards her not wanting her to leave.

Roxanne pulled back and sat down in her chair again. Jimmy kept his eyes closed hoping that she would press her lips to his again. His body was still going crazy with the changes from hot to cold. He felt like he had the flu, like he might throw up. He focused on his body and the feelings he had. He had to tell himself not to throw up because he knew he wasn't sick. He knew that he was just overwhelmed with the best feeling he had ever felt in his life. He opened his eyes to look at Roxanne.

He swallowed hard. He tried to think of what to say but no words were coming to him. "It was you." She said finally. "I wish I had spent more time with you. When I say that I admire you it's because I really do. Of course, I admire you for your strength to handle the cards you were delt in life but I admire you because you're the kind of person I want to be with. I'm ashamed of myself for not allowing myself to get over the stupid politics of high school and just be with the person I thought would make me the happiest."

"I... I don't know what to say." Jimmy stumbled over his words, still in shock over the kiss. "I have something on my mind, something I'd like to tell you but I'm afraid you might take it the wrong way."

"What is it?" Roxanne asked curiously.

"It's... about sex." Jimmy said cautiously.

"Go ahead." Roxanne encouraged.

"You said earlier that you wished you had lost your virginity in high school." Roxanne nodded in agreement. "Well sex isn't just one thing. I mean it might have been at one time but over the years it's changed, and sex can be considered a great number of things. There's vaginal sex, oral sex, anal sex, titty sex, hand job sex, foot job sex... I'm sure there's a lot more, but I can't think of any right now." Jimmy felt like he might throw up again. He was afraid that Roxanne would think he was a pervert and smack him at any moment.

"So, what you're saying is that I can 'have sex' without 'having sex'... is that what you're saying Jimmy?" Roxanne asked confused.

"Yeah, I mean let's be honest. If you said you weren't a virgin who would question you? You don't really have to have sex; you could lie about it." Roxanne's face scrunched up as if she was uncomfortable. "But that would be lying, and I know you don't want to lie." Jimmy watched as her face returned to normal. "I'm saying there are lots of different kinds of sex and you could have a kind other than vaginal sex. You wouldn't be lying if you said you weren't a virgin and there would be no chance of you getting pregnant and ruining your opportunity at becoming an Olympic diver."

Roxanne took some time to process what Jimmy had just told her. She was running the logic through her head looking for a flaw but finding none. "I may not technically be a high school student anymore but..." Roxanna put her hands out and moved from side to side as if she was showing something off. "I am IN high school. I have time and you're here... are... umm...." Roxanne seemed nervous now. "Are you a virgin Jimmy?"

Jimmy moved his head to the side. "Umm... no. I'm sorry I've had quite a lot of sex with quite a few different girls. I should probably get myself checked at a clinic." Jimmy started to chuckle.

"Oh my gosh, Jimmy Carlisle, shut up." Roxanne said as she burst out laughing. "If we were to do this... together. I mean, if we... you know... lost our virginity together. Would that be special for you?"

Jimmy stopped chuckling and looked Roxanne directly in her eyes. "Yes, yes it would be the most wonderful thing that's ever happened to me in my life. It would beat out the previous best thing that ever happened to me in my life."

"It would? What was that?" Roxanne asked.

"The first time I kissed a girl... just a few moments ago." Jimmy smiled lovingly at Roxanne.

"Oh... gosh." Roxanne blushed. "What... umm... what kind of sex do you think we should have for our first time?"

"I've always been curious and wanted to experience titty fucking a girl. What do you think?" Jimmy asked.

"I've honestly never thought about it. I know all these other forms of sex existed but I never thought of them as ways to lose virginity, so I had never put much thought into them. You like boobs I guess?" Jimmy couldn't speak; he just nodded his head. Roxanne looked down at her chest. "Do you think you would like... my boobs?" Jimmy nodded again.

Roxanne looked out the glass window to the stage. Her father was sitting in the front row of the auditorium watching some of the students rehearse a scene. She turned to the door to the recording box and saw it was still open. She stood up and walked over to the door. She pulled it shut and pushed the button on the handle to lock it.

She turned back to face Jimmy. She walked towards him slowly and got down on her knees in front of him. She looked him in the eyes. Reaching down she grabbed the left side of her shirt with her right hand and the right side with her left hand. She gripped her shirt, took a deep breath and began to pull it up. She slowly pulled it up, over her breasts, over her head and held it off to the side. She dropped it on the floor.

Jimmy had kept eye contact with Roxanne until her shirt covered her face. When it did his eyes shot straight to her breasts. Her beautiful full breasts being held up only by her tan bra. Roxanne noticed he wasn't looking into her eyes anymore, but she wasn't upset. She felt naked and exposed but was glad to see that Jimmy seemed to like what he was looking at.

"What size are they?" Jimmy asked.

Roxanne didn't answer, at least not right away. She slowly reached behind her and unhooked her bra. She slid her hands around the side of her body and held the cups up against her breasts. She shook her shoulders lightly and the straps fell down her arms. "They are 38 triple D." Roxanne said as she lowered her hands. The cups of her bra fell with them and for the first time in her life she exposed her bare breasts to a man.

Jimmy swallowed hard unable to take his eyes off the most beautiful sight he had ever seen in his whole life. Without thinking his body seemed to move on its own. He reached down and unbuttoned his pants. He unzipped the jeans and took his already very erect cock out of the fly of his underpants. Jimmy put his hands on the arm rests of his chair.

Roxanne felt nervous because she had never done this before. She watched Jimmy take his cock out and wasn't entirely sure how to maneuver herself to press his cock between her tits or how to move once she got it there. She was scared she would mess this up, but she took comfort in the fact that she knew Jimmy was just as nervous as she was.

Roxanne lifted herself slightly and pushed Jimmy's legs to the sides. She walked on her knees to put herself between his legs. His cock was standing at full attention between them and was at a perfect height to press directly between her breasts. Roxanne looked at his cock, nervous and afraid, she placed her fingers under her breasts and pulled them apart from the bottom. She pushed forward just a little bit and pressed her tits together around his cock.

Jimmy felt the warmth of her body and of the skin of her chest cover his private area. His body forced him to inhale deeply because he had forgotten to breathe. He gripped the armrest of his wheelchair.

"I promise..." Roxanna began. Jimmy looked up and made contact with her eyes. "It won't hurt." She began to move her body up and down lightly and slowly. Jimmy wanted to look at her breasts but the feeling of absolute ecstasy flowing through his body from his cock was so good he couldn't even move his eyeballs. His eyes were glued to hers, as hers were to his.

Roxanne began to move slightly faster. Jimmy could feel the skin of her breasts pressing against the shaft of his cock, but he could especially feel it when she went up and his cock head disappeared between her breasts. His right hand began to shake a bit. Each time she went up and his cock head disappeared it seemed to become slightly more sensitive. Jimmy swallowed hard again and realized that he was starting to breathe heavily. His heart was pumping so fast and hard he thought it might burst out of his chest.

Roxanne watched Jimmy hoping she was bringing him pleasure. The feel of his cock between her tits didn't exactly bring her sexual pleasure but the look on his face of pure enjoyment made her feel a relaxing bliss she had never felt before. She thought she was doing the right thing, so she started to move faster. Roxanne considered making a small moaning sound, like girls did in porn movies on the internet. She wasn't sure if she should, or if she would be any good at it.

Jimmy, a man who had no function of his body from the waist down, thought he could feel his feet... his toes for the first time. He felt like his body was waking up after a lifetime of sleep. He realized that he was going to explode his load on Roxanne at any moment. He wanted to warn her, but he couldn't speak.

Roxanne decided to go for it. She closed her eyes just slightly and bit her bottom lip. She went up, coving his cock head between her tits, and let out a soft moan as she came back down. Despite closing her eyes slightly, she could see through her lashes at Jimmy. He was looking at her still and his eyes rolled into the back of his head. He laid back and his body began to shake. Roxanne grew concerned but then she felt an intense warmth spread across her breasts. She looked down and saw the tip of his cock poking out from the top of her breasts.

A steady stream of his goo was pulsing from his cock and flowing down her breasts in all directions. Jimmy gave in to every good feeling he felt. For the first time he swore he could feel his toes curl in his shoes. After a few moments he came to and looked at the mess spread over Roxanne's breasts. He tried to speak but he couldn't. He was trying to catch his breath.

Roxanne didn't move. She wasn't sure what to do. His cumm was everywhere. It was gooey and sticky and it seemed no matter what she did it was going to get all over Jimmy's pants. She lifted herself up and several drops fell on Jimmy's pants. Roxanne moved to her luggage and let go of her right breast to open the bag. She grabbed a towel and began to wipe her breasts off. When she had gotten as much as she could she used a clean part of the towel to rub the cumm off Jimmy's pants.

Neither of them said anything. Roxanne began putting her bra back on while Jimmy put his cock back in his underpants and began to zip up. Once they were fully dressed Roxanne turned to Jimmy. "How was that?" she asked.

Jimmy looked up at her. He thought hard about what to say. Finally, he opened his mouth. "I don't have the vocabulary to describe how amazing that was. How do you feel?"

Roxanne thought about how it all made her feel. "I feel..." she wasn't sure what to say. She didn't feel sexual excitement from what they had done but she was excited because she didn't feel like a virgin anymore. She decided to make Jimmy feel like a stud. "I feel like a whore."

Jimmy's eyes opened wide. He was afraid that his suggestion had made her feel bad. Roxanne leaned in deep and put her mouth right next to his ear. "I feel like YOU'RE dirty, lovely whore... and I can't wait to do it again." She whispered.

If Jimmy had any seamen left in his body, he would have lost it right there. "Oh... wow." Was all he could say.

Rehearsal was starting to wrap up. Roxanne unlocked the door to the recording box. "Jimmy, I know I'm leaving in a few minutes, and I'll be gone for a long time. I hope you'll think about me, because I'll be thinking about you. I hope you'll consider me your girlfriend cause I'd like nothing more than to know I have a wonderful boyfriend who's back home cheering me on and wishing me well on this journey."

"Yeah, yes... of course." Jimmy said.

"I'm not going to have time for a shower before my flight. That towel couldn't clean everything off either. So, I'll be wearing your cumm across the country. I'll call you when I can and I'll visit when I can. I look forward to doing this, and more, with you when we can." Roxanne moved close to Jimmy again. She kissed his lips. "When I get home, after winning the US a gold medal. I want to have sex with you. Not the titty kind, or the oral kind, or the anal kind... the kind that might make me a mother. I want to fall deeply in love with you and be with you in every way Jimmy Carlisle." Roxanne kissed him again.

Jimmy nodded his head. "Me too... I mean... yes... I mean..."

"I know what you mean. I'll see you soon." Roxanne stood up and slowly backed away from Jimmy. She picked up her luggage, blew him a kiss and exited the recording box.