Lost in Paradise Ch. 17-19

Chapter 17 - the winds of change

The evening on shore breeze had cooled off the area and we were sitting around a fire. Dinner is over and the empty MRE packages were piled at the end of the tent. I looked at them and wondered when the local inhabitants would discover them (if there were any).

"You need to clean up that mess, the local inhabitants will come to that trash, and you won't like it when they do."

"We'll take care of it; you don't need to order us around. " Janet answers.

"OK, I'm going to sleep on the raft, anyone who wants to can join me, I would love to have the company."

"I'll join you, but no hanky-panty my friend." Says Maria with a smile.

"None planned, I'm exhausted from the past day or so anyway. I'd enjoy the company." I say as I walk over to the pile of MREs and pick up a few days of each meal.

"I'm heading back now. See you when you get there." And I head out for a swim to the raft. On my way to the beach, I noticed a few red ants on the MRE packages I had picked up and shake them off. At the beach, put the envelopes into a plastic bucket and float the food ahead of me to the raft. The rain is falling as a mist, and the sky is still cloudy. I crawl onto the raft, remove my wet trunks, and start to slip on a set of sweatpants, as Maria climbs in the door.

"Don't bother on my account, I enjoy seeing you nude."

"I'm glad you do, and I'd stay nude, if I wasn't expecting visitors later tonight."

"I thought you were expecting something, because of moving out here."

"It may or may not happen, but it will happen sometime. When it does, I expect them all to join us here. In quite a hurry. Could you find the first aid kit, the space blankets and set them out and have them ready? I am going to sleep over here, out of the doorway. If you won't play with me, you can join me for a warmer place to sleep."

"I'll be glad to join you, even if there's no sex. All little snuggling is always appreciated, and warmth is needed. Let me get out of this suit and into a set of sweats, like you."

I lean back and, in the darkness, I catch glimpses of her, as she strips, dries off and climbs into her sweats. She hangs up her suit, crawls onto my makeshift bed, and into my open arms.

"I know you are expecting an invasion, but I'm not sure why."

"You'll know, if it happens. Now go to sleep and maybe I'll molest you in the morning."

"Promises, promises" I hear a sleepy voice say and her hand slips into my lap.

I lay there caressing her back as she falls asleep and then drift off myself.

Sometime later, in the middle of the night, the first of the five ladies, scrambles through the door. Wet, shaking and crying, she starts to rip off her night clothes.

"Not in here, leave them in the bucket floating outside, and make sure to wash yourself off before coming in here. We do not need those fire ants in here with us. Outside now, also, the stings will feel better with the cold water."

I get up and start helping her move the clothes out the door. Looking up, I see the rest on their way, splashing and removing their clothes.

"Remove your clothes, put them into the plastic container, before you enter. Wash the ants off yourself, then get inside and Maria will put some pain killer on your bites. We don't want any of the ants inside here, as they will continue to bite."

"You were expecting us! You were ready for us! You knew this was going to happen! Why didn't you tell us!" Shouts Janet and the rest as they undress and wrap a blanket around their nude bodies.

"I made sure that I mentioned to everyone, more than once, that you needed to run a clean camp. You Janet, specifically said that you take care of it. If you had burned your trash or buried it away from the camp or even just washed the food out of the bags, none of this would have happened. Now we have to wait until the ants clean the camp of food particles, before we can go back."

Looking around the raft, I see all five are here, with spots of cream on themselves and wrapped in space blankets.

"I suggest we all settle down and try to sleep until morning."

"But I itch, the bits still sting, and I'm necked." I heard from the crowd, but I don't know who said it.

"Well, an antihistamine will help with the itching, the ointment will help with the sting, and I've seen everyone, but Janet, nude and in various positions, so if the nudity bothers you, endure it and I'll just enjoy the show."

I wrap myself in a real blanket and lay down as Maria starts to hand out pills for them to take. When she is done, she joins me under my blanket and drops off to sleep with her hand holding my balls.

I wake up the next morning and find the ladies in a conference on the other side of the raft. It is a chilly morning; the ladies are still wrapped up in the blankets but we all would warm up later. As the meeting broke up, Janet came over and sat down next to me.

"I have been appointed to talk with you about what we have decided. To start with, we decided that you are a complete asshole for not telling us of the consequences of our not clearing up the camp."

"You saw the same things as I did, you could have come to the same conclusion as I did, but you weren't listening to me, so I just let you lead and do your own things."

"We took a vote and decided that you need to be punished."

"And how are you going to do that, may I ask?"

"Well, that's the problem. We cannot use expulsion, you are too useful, though we can ban you from the camp. Stopping your sex life with the ladies was rejected by a vote of 4 to 1 with 1 abstaining."

I looked over at Ann and bowed my head. She answered with a smile and a nod. Maxie smiled at me with a twinkle in her eye and I felt uncomfortable with what she may be thinking.

"So, we discussed what to do and came up with an idea. We decided that you need to learn to obey the ladies here, and to do that, you are to be our servant for the next few days and when done, we'll let you be a part of the group again, maybe even be the leader, but first we want to order you around, so you know what it feels like."

"And if I say no?"

"We'll send you to the plane, cut you off from all this pussy you have been enjoying and make our own way."

"Well, I think I'll agree to your terms, but I have to have the ability to say no, if what you want is dangerous, or harmful to me or yourselves."

"Oh, I think you'll like what we want, mostly."

"When does it start?"

"How about now."

"OK, but be kind."

"First we want you in the same condition we are, strip servant."

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Chapter 18 - Servant to the ladies

I stand there, nude, with my clothes neatly folded against the side of the raft. The ladies are all sitting around me, mostly admiring me, I think?

Janet crawls over and sits in front of me and says, "I've been selected for this because I haven't fucked you, like the others here. For the next few days, I do not know how long, this is how you are to dress, with shoes as needed. We have talked it over and have a few rules for you to follow;

1. You are to obey any order or instructions from any of us,

2. You may cum only when given permission by one of us,

3. You may not touch any of us, unless instructed to,

4. We may touch you in any way we want, any time we want, and any where we want,

Do you accept these rules?"

"Yes, with one adjustment. There will be times that I need to wear clothes. Such as working in the plane to protect my special equipment or in the jungle to keep from being hurt by brambles, etc. Those sorts of things. The rest I accept, is there a specific length of time I will be in this punishment?"

"Not really, it'll end when we feel you have been used enough."

"Now there's a term, been used enough?"

"We are thinking 2 to 3 days." Janet tells me. "Now stand up, face the entrance, get on your knees and stick that ass in the air."

I comply, head down and ass end up, waiting to see what was going to happen.

Turning to the other ladies, she says "Here he is, ready for you. Just remember, do not hit anything important like kidneys, his balls and especially that well used cock of his. Also, remember how those ants felt when they were stinging you."

As I keeled there, I felt a soft hand slide over my butt, a finger down the crack of my ass and then the striking of a ping pong paddle on my left cheek of my ass. "I have 6 bites, so you are getting 6 strikes from me" I stay there on my knees and rock with each strike on alternate ass cheeks. "You now have a nice red bottom. What do you say, "

"Thank you"

Another hand now caresses my ass, then the bite count and finally the spanking. They work through all the rest of the ladies. For me, the caresses feel wonderful, and the rest is just to endure.

"OK, that part is done" says Janet as she runs her hand over the warm, upturned ass before her. Now, take a swim, the cold water will feel good on that bottom."

Taking her instructions, I go out the entrance, headfirst into the night, and the cool water of the lake. I am followed by Maria, and as she enters the water, she pulls herself against me. "We drew cards to see who sleeps next to you. I lost, so here I am, but before we all settle down, Janet has a special request, and we all want to watch."

"What is the request that Janet has put forward?" I ask, afraid of the answer.

"It seems you have fucked everyone here, but her. So, she wants to do a specific activity with you and at this point, you have no choice in the matter."

"And that special request is?" Thinking I'm going to have to fuck Janet in front of all these women, I've already fucked.

"Well, it seems she wants to, now how do I say this?"

"Just come out and say it. It cannot be that bad, I've fucked all of you, but Janet. So, it's her turn to get fucked."

"Well, that's not exactly what she wants. You see, there is a specific thing she wants to do, we agree that it is something we all want her to do, and it is something that you also need."

"Come on out with it."

"All of us want to watch, as you get fucked in the ass. Janet has volunteered to perform the task."

"Not exactly what I was expecting, and I've never had it done to me, though I done it to others (women that is)."

"Well, we all agreed that it is a major part of your punishment. As our fuck toy for the next couple of days, you should be fucked by us, for you definitely fucked us over with the fire ants. There are four of us who want to definitely fuck you over because of that. At this point we are planning to ass fuck you only this time, unless we figure you deserve more punishment, or you enjoy it enough to ask for more."

"Well, if you put it that way, I guess I have to agree with this" I say, feeling my ass pucker. With that, we climb back into the raft.

Janet walks over and sits on the floor and gestures for me to stand in front of her. I walk over and stand where she indicated, my cock shrunk and hanging in front of me. Leaning down, she sucks it into her mouth and closes her eyes, as she feels it slide into her mouth. As she sucks, she feels it grow and become hard within her mouth. The softness of the skin, the hardness of the shaft, and the little bit of leakage at the tip starts to turn her on.

She knows she is on a power trip with this asshole of a man, almost half her age, but that is what she enjoys. Over the years, she has joined the women liberation movement and had helped to get better jobs, better pay, and better recognition for women in the states. She believes that women are more powerful than men and has over the years taken over many men and made them into her playthings. This is the first one that had not been under her control before she fucked him. As she sucks on his cock, she knows he has been told not to cum without permission and she is not ready to give it. She will get him close and through her control of him, stop him from finishing. This is also a part of his punishment.

Without realizing it, I start to pump my hips into her mouth. I close my eyes and start enjoying what is happening. I am also thinking about controlling my orgasm. I guess, I have to learn to enjoy the playing, not the cumming. I must learn how to keep from cumming until she orders me to. She is enjoying the feel of my cock fucking her face and also the enjoyment of controlling me. The stopping of my orgasm is one of many ways she will control me. The power of doing just that is the real thrill to her. She likes her power of controlling overly horny me. She enjoys making me do what she wants, not what I want. Just like right now, my thrusts are saying, I'm going to cum soon, but she hopes I will wait until she says, 'cum for me'.

"Lady, may I cum?"

Pulling the cock from her mouth, she says "No my toy, do not cum. Stop whatever you are thinking of doing, drop to your knees and start licking my pussy, now." As she leans back and spreads her legs.

In direct response to her command, I stop thrusting my hips and start figuring out the process necessary to keep from cumming. I know, if I cum, I will disappoint the Ladies and some kind of additional punishment will follow. Working hard, I am able to stops this drive to an orgasm, that I had been building.

Dropping to my knees, between her open legs and I lean in to start licking her pussy. "Stop there and trim my bush, I want to be able to see your tongue licking my cunt." As she hands me a pair of small nail scissors. I trim the hair, carefully as a nip here would cause many problems later. Leaning in, I blow the cut hair away and slip my tongue into her pussy and lick the hood hiding there. Hiding behind the hood, is the small nub that most women do not like to be licked directly, so I just circle my tongue around it. Lowering her hand, she takes over and moves my head so that my tongue and lips are where she wants them. She also likes this part, controlling me between her legs. But, as she nears her first orgasm, she understands her need to do more than this little bit of control of him. Today, she wants to take over and have me fully under her control. As she starts to orgasm, shuttering through the feelings that my tongue is causing in her as she cums, she is already starting to plan the next step. She smiles, as soon as she finishes this one and closes her eyes to enjoy the orgasm caused by me licking her, just as she wanted me to do. Lying back as she finishes with her legs spread, I start again licking her, cleaning her up and waiting for her next command, just as the sex slave should be doing.

As she settles down, she looks down at me, at her feet and says, "Get the harness out with the dildo selections. I want to fuck you now and we need to select the correct dildo, also don't forget the lube."

I now know what is coming next and start to prepare myself mentally for getting fucked in the ass by this Lady. I know that when she is fucking me, I will have very little to do with it, other than supply the hole. I will be the recipient of her power of control over me. I know that she does this to prove to herself that she is in control of me, what she does not care about is if I enjoy it. All she wants is that I do what she wants, when she wants and how she wants it, when she takes over.

Opening the dildo collection, she sorts through it to find the one she wants to use. She finally selects a long, slightly curved one of ivory designed to be used with a harness. She thinks, this one is perfect for my ass. Looking over the other vibrators and dildos, she gets lost for a moment in the memories of past experiences. Picking up the one for me, she smiles as she remembers fucking with each and every one of the past plaything's asses. She fucks them, some for the humiliation, others for the pure joy and some just to prove she can. She wonders what this one will turn out to be.

"Put the harness on me, mount to dildo and then get into an ass high position." She says to me and watches as I get take the leather harness and the selected ivory cock. I run the belt around her waist and the straps between her legs to be buckled in the back. A triangle in the front holds the fake cock sticking straight out towards my face, as I sit back on my heels.

Looking down at me, she says "Kiss my cock and then assume the ass up, face down and arms spread position."

I lean forward and kisses the fake cock, my face turning red, as I have never kissed a cock before. I then turn around and assume the required position. My ass is high, my ass cheeks are spread wide, and my asshole is available for whatever she wants to do. She takes the tube of lube and opens it. Taking the oil, she spreads it on the ivory dick she is wearing and then leaning forward, she spreads it down between my ass cheeks and over my asshole. The cold lubricant causes me to shiver. Running a single finger down the crack between my butt cheeks, she spreads the lubricant around the hole and then slips a finger into my ass. As she moves her finger deeper into my ass, she lubricates the inside as well as the outside of my ass. Moving her finger, she feels my hole loosen up, so she adds another finger with more lube as she widens my hole. A third finger is then added as she starts to move it deeper in and then pull it back out, fucking me with her fingers and also adding more lube. Pulling the fingers fully out, she adds more lubricant until her fingers slide in and out easily. As she does this, she feels me start to rock, forcing her fingers deeper into me, I find myself enjoying the sensations of the insertions into me. I have not felt this way before.

"Are you ready to be fucked by me? "

"Yes, please fuck my ass. "

Taking a hold of the ivory shaft, she aims it at my ass and using her hips, starts to force her fake cock into my ass. I feel it slide in, deeper than the finger and smother than them also. I am now up on my hands and knees. I start to rock back, shoving the fake cock further up and into my ass. I find that the feelings of this are turning me on, my cock is getting harder and harder. She now starts using her hips to shove that fake cock into and out of my ass, fucking me. My breathing now starts to match her strokes, in when she pushes the cock deeper and out when she pulls back for another stroke. She now starts speeding up the strokes, her feeling of being in control of me, starts to climb. I can tell that she is now really is enjoying fucking me in my ass. making me take whatever she wants me to receive, even this old ivory cock. I, on the other hand, am finding out something new, I am liking being under the control of her and the feelings of this cock in my ass are enjoyable.

Suddenly, with no warning, she pulls her cock out of my ass. As she sits up, her fake cock standing up in her lap, I feel the emptiness she has left behind. Sitting up she says, "Roll onto your back and take the Amazon position."

I know what she wants, as I have had a few of my lovers in the same position. So, I roll onto my back, spread my knees, lift my legs to my shoulders, and expose myself to her. My wide-open asshole and with my cock and balls above it, ready for anything she wants to do. Moving back in, she reinserts her fake cock back into my ass easily, as the hole had not closed. I feel it enter me and then start to stroke again. Looking down at me, she says "Start jacking your cock so you can cum when I order you to."

"Yes ma'am" I answer, as my body is now being bounced by her thrusting into me. Reaching down, I take my cock in hand and start jacking it in time to her thrusts. I know that I must be ready to cum, when she is ready for me to cum and I also know something will happen if I do not cum on command.

She looks down and watches me run my hand up and down my cock, in time to her thrusts into my ass and can feel myself working up to an orgasm, while waiting on her command. Wanting to prove who is in control of my orgasms, she watches me get closer and closer to cumming. As I am almost there, she stops thrusting into my ass and says "Freeze!". As soon as I hear that word, I stop all movement and just lay there, with my cock hard in my hand. I had read about BDSM and the control the Mistress/Master used on their submissive, and I figured I had better do what she wanted. I am almost ready to cum, but on that command, I stop the effort to reach the orgasm that I was after. In this position, I am under her complete control and just want to do what she commands me to do.

Very slowly, she starts to slide her fake cock in and out of my ass, again. With me in a 'Freeze', I cannot do anything, until she lets me move again. So, I just lay there, cock in hand, feet up in the air and ass full of my Lady's fake cock. After a few strokes, she says "move" and releases me from her freeze. At that command, she feels me start to beat off again and feels good that I followed her commands.

Picking up her pace, she starts to pound my ass as she looks down at me masturbating, trying to get ready to cum, on her command of course. "My Lady, may this one please cum." Is heard over the sound of her fucking me.

"Yes, cum for your Mistress. Cum now!" Looking down, as she slides her fake cock deep into me, and watches as I try to cum for her. Lifting my hips to receive a deep thrust of her fake cock, I arch my back and shoot a stream of sperm up between us. She stops thrusting, and she watches a second, then a third stream of cum shoot between us. As she pulls out of my ass, I am just finishing my orgasm with a dribble of cum.

As I lay there, exhausted, I hear a round of applause from the ladies I had forgotten were watching.

I turn to them and say, "Thank you all for an unforgettable fuck secession."

Janet smiles, for I had cum on command, even with her fake cock up my ass. Sitting up, she says to me "Your welcome, you did good, especially cumming on command for me."

Sitting up, I find that my ass is sore, my back hurts from that last position and that my cock has shrunk back into its usual self. Reaching out, I unfasten her leather strap-on and remove the fake cock. Putting it to one side, in order to clean it, I marvel at something that large and long can be shoved up my ass. I am also thinking that I would like it to happen again as it did, at times, feel good and my Lady seemed to enjoy fucking my ass.

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Chapter 19 - first project

I was absolutely exhausted after that butt fucking and I wanted to get some sleep. Maria had been assigned as my watcher, and I was looking forward to snuggling with her. Overall, I was not expecting to be bothered by the ladies until morning.

As I started to settle down, I hear a voice from across the raft say "Come tuck me in."

I get up and walk over to the row of ladies and ask, "Who wants to be tucked in?"

They all answer, "I do."

So, I headed to the first in line and asked, "And how do you want to be tucked in?"

"Come here and kiss me."

I lean over and kiss her, as ordered. As I do this, her hand reaches out and caress my cock and balls. Holding on, she starts to jack me and, in the process, causes me to start getting a hard-on. As I grow in her hand, she smiles at me.

"The ladies and I, want you to have a hard-on whenever you are around us. If you do not have one, you are to approach the nearest one of us and ask to be handled until you have one."

"Yes, ma'am."

"Now that is the way you should be." She says, as she continues to pump my rock-hard cock.

"Thank you, my Lady," I say, as I move to the next in line on the floor. As I move there, another hand reaches out and continues to jack me off. I lean in and kiss this lady. And so on, it continues until I have kissed all of them and they all have fondled me.

As I lay down next to my watcher, she reaches out, finds my hard-on and starts to stroke it. It has been an interesting way to say good night, with six hands also saying good night to my cock. Laying back, I start to enjoy her stroking of me, and I start the rise toward an orgasm.

"Remember, don't cum without our permission." She says, while speeding up her stroking. "You know we have talked over how and when to let you cum. The consensus was to edge you whenever we wanted to but not let you cum until all the ladies here agree that you have finished a project or been punished enough. Now I have agreed to this, so what I'm doing to you now will not have the legendary happy ending." With that statement, she stops jacking me off, rolls over and leaves me just at the point of almost cumming.

I reach down and have my hand replace hers on my cock. As I start stroking, I feel her hand join mine and a voice say "Only our hands on that wonderful cock, we get you hard, not yourself. So, how would you like to sleep with your hands tied over your head?" With that threat, I let go of my hard-on and try to come down from my near orgasm high.

"Good boy." I hear from the Lady holding me. With that, I roll over to sleep.

I wake in the middle of the night with my arms wrapped around Maria, holding one of her breasts. The problem is, I also feel a mouth on my morning hard-on. My is cock is being sucked as I snuggle with someone else. Reaching down, I hold the head that is sucking me and start humping that unknown face. As I do this, I hear another voice, a third person, say "Don't cum or more punishment will follow, toy." I fall back and stop fucking the face my dick is deep into. As that mouth stops sucking, I hear a chuckle from down below.

"Back to sleep, my toy. For tomorrow is another day."

Rolling over, I find the back of one of the Ladies and slide my arm under hers, cup the large breast and tweak the nipple I find there. I then feel a set of breasts lean into my back, a hand sliding over my hip and grasping my cock. Sliding her hand on my cock, she starts to jack me off. I close my eyes and enjoy the activity. After a while, she stops, and I hear a light snoring behind me. I then fall asleep in a sexual sandwich.

At dawn, I find myself being rolled over and my morning hard-on being stroked. On my back, I feel a set of lips wrap themselves around my cock and begin sucking me.

"We have decided what your final punishment is to be." I hear from across the room, as the mouth is joined by someone's else's hand on my balls and a third woman joins in with a kiss. I do not know who is doing what, but the voice is that of Janet. "We want to make sure that you know what may be in store for you, when you finish the projects. The first project is to move the camp to a better location (you select it for us), cleanup the existing camp and setup some defenses, against anything you expect. You are also to inform us of what, why and how you are doing anything that will affect us."

"Yes ma'am," I say, breaking away from another kiss. Looking down into the eyes of a lovely young lady with a mouth full of my cock, I think that I have a bit of work to do, and I may have to even get out of bed to do it.

"May I cum?"

"No, not until you finish your first project, moving camp."

"Well, first of all, sense you cannot finish me off, I need to get up, get out there and get busy. And since there is more than one project, I guess I'll need to start my first one and prepare to battle with the ants."

"I've agreed with the other ladies, that you aren't allowed to cum until you finish each project, so I'll have to stop for a while, and let you work. But remember to come and get me when it's done and I'll finish you off." She says, as she stops sucking and kisses the tip of my hard cock.

"I'll definitely remember to get you, so I can let you make me cum. I will look forward to that."

"You should, I'm the best that ever was, in many ways. Now I'll get to work."

"Yes, ma'am." With that, I get up and start to get ready.

I swim to the edge of the lake and check out what the fire ants are doing. They are still cleaning up the camp site and the scouts are spreading out from there. Staying in the water, I walk around the edge of the lake to the waterfall. They have not found a way across there. I then walk along the far edge until I find the stream exiting the lake. I find the ants have not crossed there, so I can make one side of the lake into our home. I then walk in the stream out to the beach, continue walking in the water along the beach until I reach the plane.

At the plane, I climb into it and find leather gloves, some string and a pair of plastic bags. Taking these, a can of gas with a lighter and head back toward the camp. Stopping a bit back from the ant scouts, I slip the plastic bags over my feet and tie them in place, put on the gloves, splash the gas on my legs and arms, and head into the tent area. Taking a cot, I walk into the water and head for the waterfall. Using the falling water, I wash off the ants and set the cot on the far side. I then head back to the tent and repeat the process with all the movable things, until they are all clean, wet and on the other side of the waterfall. Next, I start gathering all the trash and piling it outside the tent. I then pull the tent stakes out, drop the tent and pull it into the water to wash it off.

Next, I sprinkle some of the gas onto the trash pile and set it on fire. As it burns, I take the gas can, dribble it along the edge of the water and then sprinkle it into palm leaves. Scattering the palm leaves over the beach area, I set them on fire. Standing back from the beach, I watch the invaders burn and the survivors retreat into the jungle.

Walking in the water, I go to the pile of goods and carry them to a point between the waterfall and the stream exit, opposite where the original camp was. There, I started to set up the new camp. At this point, the ladies join me, and we rebuild the camp.

Gathering the ladies around, I suggest the trash pile and the latrine are kept on the ant side. We build an island, by running the water from the lake into a trench near the woods, for the trash (isolated is such a way we can burn it) and another island, near the shore for the latrine (using the tide to wash whatever is deposited there, out to sea).

As I stand there, watching the construction of our new little camp, I get a tap on my arm. Looking back, I see one of the ladies waving at me.

I walk over to her, as she smiles at me and says, "It is time to continue your blowjob and maybe we will let you cum, if you ask nicely."

"Yes ma'am, I'd be happy to follow your instructions." I answer and turn to follow her back toward camp.

"Let's step off the trail to stop on the beach and find a comfortable place for me to suck your cock." She says, as she takes my cock in hand and leads me towards the beach. I follow along, with a shit eating grin.

Down on the beach, she sits me down on a palm log and crawls between my knees, taking my cock into her mouth.

I lean back and start to enjoy her ministrations. Watching her head bounce, feeling her lips suck and her tongue lick, I feel my orgasm rise. As I near the top, I ask in the nicest voice I can "May I cum?"

Front behind me, I hear a chorus answer "Yes, you may cum" and as I do, a round of applause echoes across the beach from behind me.