Rescue (CW suicide attempt)

Like the title says, there's a suicide attempt here, specifically with drinking chemicals. This is a self indulgent thing for me since I also deal with suicidal ideation but viewer discretion advised.

Xavier was extremely tired of everything. Trying to kill himself never worked. Someone would always intervene. Often it was his sister, who had been keeping an especially close eye on him, since that was the condition of him being able to go home. Once, it had been another of the knights. If he was going to do this, he needed something that would work quickly and that she wouldn't be able to find until it was too late.

The one time he was allowed out of the house alone was to go to class. He'd arranged a fellow student to give him a bottle of hypna. Hypna in small doses was relaxing and lethal in large amounts. The student in particular wasn't one to care about that, as he was a mist addict too. He gave Xavier the mist in the restroom, where there were no cameras, and Xavier hid it in his bag to take home.

After school, his sister wouldn't be home for a few more hours. He set the bottle on his desk and began to write a note for his sister. There was a part of Xavier that felt bad, that he couldn't get his shit together. But he couldn't. And he knew he never would. And that anyone who cared about him was wasting their time.

An hour passed. Xavier had finished the letter a while, but still he sat, staring at the bottle. There was a part of him that was hoping, maybe. But Charlotte would be home soon, and if he didn't do this soon, he wasn't sure how he'd get another chance. So finally, he decided to drink. The cloudy white liquid spilled into his mouth, washing down his throat and taking so much of him with each gulp. Everything he'd thought, done, or cared about faded, and he wouldn't stop. Even when he began to forget what he was even doing. He closed his eyes, satisfied that now he'd finally be free.

"Hey." A familiar voice said. Xavier wasn't sure why it was familiar. Then it occurred to him that it was his voice. But he hadn't been the one who'd spoken.

He blinked, now realizing that his eyes had been closed. A familiar face came into focus. His own face, but not quite. Was this... Haven?

Xavier stepped back and growled. Haven had been what had driven Xavier to kidnap Prince Jaz and Mira, so that they'd finally be heard. But Haven had been gone ever since Charlotte and the rest of her friends had defeated him and Xavier. Xavier had felt abandoned, because for the longest time Haven was who kept him alive. But now, it seemed unfair that Haven had left Xavier to deal with the fallout and only showed up again when Xavier was about to succeed at killing himself.

"I'm sorry. I might not have been going about this in the right way. Can I make it up to you?" Haven asked.

"Make what?" Xavier was still rather confused.

Haven frowned, and then kissed him. Xavier found himself kissing back, like it was an instinct. Memories flooded back. Xavier now could remember being Haven and having tried to escape, having wanted to stop ruining Xavier's life. He remembered meeting Halcyon, one of the chroniclers of Oneira. He remembered learning how to be a different kind of support. Xavier's face flushed.

"I think I know what you actually want." Haven came closer again to caress Xavier's cheek, and for some reason, Xavier didn't stop him. "You're tired of having to make so many choices, aren't you? You'd like it if someone could take care of you instead. I think I can help with that."

Xavier found himself nodding. That did sound nice. His other self was nodding too, and smiling encouragingly at him.

"Don't worry. I know exactly what you like, so you can relax now. We'll take good care of you."

We'll? A gentle hand ran through the fur on Xavier's head, and then he realized he was naked, and so was his other self. He turned his head to meet eyes with a golden furred racoon dog who stared back amusedly. Halcyon. With Haven's memories, Xavier felt safe with him. He found himself leaning into the raccoon dog's fluffy neck as Halcyon's hands trailed down his sides.

"I wanted to show my appreciation for you as well. Would you like that?" Halcyon murmured against Xavier's head.

Xavier found the offer extremely tempting. He was tired of constantly fighting and never being able to do anything right. To be appreciated for once? That sounded wonderful. He nodded, and Halcyon nuzzled his cheek, and then kissed him in earnest. The chronicler's adept, dextrous tongue slipped into Xavier's mouth and circled his own tongue, as Xavier held onto him more tightly. Meanwhile, Haven reached to stroke Xavier's cock, and Xavier found himself moaning into Halcyon' kiss.

When he and Halcyon finally separated, Halcyon gently pushed Xavier over, resting a clawed hand on his back. He was still being stroked by Haven, as Halcyon teased Xavier's hole with his tongue next. He started with gentle licks around the outside before slipping in the tip of his tongue, and then more. Soon he was rubbing against Xavier's prostate, and Xavier moaned wantonly, thrusting into the hands of his other self.

Xavier wondered if he was really dying, and this was just the last thing his brain could come up with before oblivion. He certainly wasn't complaining.

They kept going, encouraged by Xavier's needy moans and desperate attempts to get more stimulation. They didn't talk, because they didn't need to. When Halcyon angled his tongue especially hard against that tender spot inside of Xavier, Xavier came hard. Haven took Xavier's tip into his mouth to taste Xavier's release, as Xavier whimpered, the additional stimulation almost being too much, as Halcyon hadn't stopped yet either. Finally, though, they both retreated to let Xavier catch his breath.

"D'you want me to return the favor?" Xavier asked, breaking the silence.

"You will, but let us handle that." Haven said. "Are you ready?"

"S-sure." Xavier stammered. He wasn't sure what to expect next, but it was nice giving control over to them, and they did seem to know what they were doing.

Haven smiled, and petted Xavier's head. "Just get on your hands and knees again, alright?"

Xavier obliged without thinking, feeling very eager to please at the moment, and soon felt Halcyon' soft fur against his back, and more than that, the slender tip of his cock rubbing against his ass. Xavier ground back against him. He probably should've been more than a little nervous about being fucked by someone he didn't quite know, but fear was becoming hard to process for him at the moment. He felt perfectly safe with Halcyon and Haven and knew they could take care of him. Halcyon started purring again, wrapping his arms around Xavier's chest. Halcyon's claws lightly pressed into Xavier's fur, but Xavier wasn't worried about Halcyon hurting him.

"Comfortable?" Halcyon asked, his tip beginning to slot itself into Xavier's entrance, but just barely.

"Very. M-maybe I'd be more if you kept going."

Halcyon laughed. Then he gripped onto Xavier harder and slid into him in earnest. He began to thrust gently but insistently, slowly fitting more of his massive length inside. Haven was in front of him then, offering Xavier his erection, which Xavier gladly parted his lips for, beginning to suck him off.

"Oh, you're so good at that." Haven said with a breathless moan. It was odd to have Haven in front of him like a physical person, instead of only in his mind. Odder still that they were having sex. But oddly arousing, and the praise alone turned Xavier on more than it probably should've.

Halcyon's pleasured moans and squeaks were also oddly arousing to Xavier, as Halcyon began to speed up, reaching increasingly deeper and stretching him wider. Xavier gasped around the cock in his mouth, as Halcyon found that sensitive bundle of nerves inside him again and continued to rub against it. He tried to focus on pleasing Haven, though, wanting to make sure he enjoyed himself. Haven stroked Xavier's fur, then gently pulled his head closer so he took more of the cock in his eager mouth, and Xavier didn't resist. He drank down his pre and swirled his tongue around the turgid shaft, eliciting more praise and moans. Meanwhile, Halcyon had started to slam into him harder, and Xavier became aware of something bulbous at the base of his cock. He couldn't see what it was, but it seemed like Halcyon was trying to get that inside him. Xavier had no clue how it would fit, but he still wasn't scared. He found himself trusting, for once.

"Not much longer--" Haven warned, and then he came into Xavier's mouth, thrusting back and forth as his cum shot down Xavier's throat and Xavier swallowed as best as he could. Then Haven pulled back and kissed his forehead. "Thanks. That was amazing. Now, let me help you out a little more."

Haven crawled underneath Xavier and then took his dripping cock into his mouth. Xavier was close too now, and Halcyon was still fucking him hard. His knot was beginning to stretch Xavier out more than Xavier would think possible, but it still wasn't painful.

Even Halcyon was losing more of his composure, panting heavily and slamming into Xavier more roughly. Xavier thought he'd get the knot in then, as it spread him open and he tried to sit down onto it to help, but then Halcyon pulled back again. Xavier wasn't expecting it when Halcyon shoved into him harder than he had before, pressing his torso down and forcing the knot inside. This time, he didn't let up, and the additional bulge forced its way in with a pop.

The knot centered itself on Xavier's prostate then, and Xavier's eyes rolled into the back of his head from the intense pleasure as Halcyon began to grind back and forth on that sensitive region. Xavier had certainly expected pain here, but strangely the intrusion hadn't hurt at all. He came again, Haven coaxing cum from his shaft, as he tensed around Halcyon, who he could feel beginning to spasm inside him as he continued to thrust. Halcyon finally let out a sharp cry, pressing his hips flush against Xavier as he throbbed hard and filled Xavier with his warm cum.

Xavier was in total bliss, the pleasing warmth pumping into him again and again as his other self played with his sensitive cock and he tightened around Halcyon more, pressing his knot harder against his walls.

Eventually, they came to a stop. Haven licked up the last drops of Xavier's release, and Halcyon's knot began to go down, and he pulled out, teasing Xavier's prostate again and eliciting another moan, though Xavier was too tired to beg for another round. Halcyon pulled Xavier next to him and Haven laid on Xavier's other side.

"Did we... help?" Halcyon asked with a smug smirk.

Xavier nodded, burying his face into the warm fur. "Yes. A lot. Thank you."

"Maybe next time you're not feeling well, you should come to us instead." Haven suggested. "We'll take care of you as much as you want."

Xavier was starting to think that might not be so bad.