All My Sex I Do Not Understand Ch. 01

All my sex, I do not understand: part 1

Jan was a very cute girl, but she was a hot mess. She was my very first real girlfriend. I never saw her develop a girlfriend friendship with other girls. I met her when we were 20 years old.

I saw her dad once, for a few seconds, but she never talked about her mom or dad. She had no sisters, nor brothers. She did have an aunt and an uncle, who I met, and lived in Joliet, but I am pretty sure they were swingers. So her home live was pretty tough.

When we started to explore her flirtations, we had been going out for about 9 months. I think she had a lot of sexual experience that I did not have.

It started out pretty innocent. We agreed to meet at 5:00pm on Friday afternoon and go out for a beer at a downtown bar. I met Jan at 5:00pm in the dorm lobby. She had on a pair of boots which came way up high on her legs, and she had on a short winter coat. It was January, and it was very very cold.

I had my VW beetle warming up in front of the dorm, but the heaters never worked very well. We both jumped into the car, and went downtown.

When we got to the bar, it was pretty busy, and it was warm inside. There were lots of college kids inside.

We found a seat at the bar, and Jan sat down, I remember her coat inching up her thighs. I wondered what she was wearing under the coat, because so much skin was showing. Eventually, I was also able to sit down. It was pretty warm, and I took off my coat, and asked Jan if she wanted her coat off, but she looked at me, and spread her legs, and said " I don't have anything on under my coat". I did not believe her! She unbuttoned her coat, and held it together for a bit, and then, when no one was looking, she opened her coat and said something like " I still have my panties on". I did not last long at the bar. We left, returned to the dorm. We lived in a high rise dorm, and took the elevator up. When we got to her room, and closed the door, she took off her coat.

She looked very hot, in her high boots, and panties. I remember she said..."let's do Friday at the bar again next week, only a little bit different" I asked her what she meant, but she did not tell me.

The following week, as I said before, she began telling me what kind of panties she was going to wear, early in the week. It was still very snowy and cold outside, and I trudged off to my classes and labs all week long. On Friday morning, we met for breakfast in the cafeteria, and planned our rendezvous for the late afternoon. She said she was looking forward to teasing me and all of the other horny college guys at the bar. I asked her if I should pick her up in the dorm lobby, but she told me that she would call me and let me know which bar she was in. She said she would call me at 5:00pm, and that she would wear nothing but her panties and her( fuck me) boots, and a coat, of course. I stayed excited all day long. I was in my room at 4:30pm, waiting for the call. She did call around 5:00pm, and she told me where she was.

She said that guys were buying her drinks, and they were flirting with her. She also told me that when I came in to the bar, I should sit across the bar. This is also when she told me about the finger signals. One finger meant that the guy wanted to fuck her. Two fingers meant that she wanted to fuck him. And three fingers meant that I could come over. When I got to the bar, I sat down across on the other side of the bar. She was talking to a guy, and he was obviously interested. She saw me, and put up one finger, on the side of her face. I had never felt like this before. I was so jealous. And at the same time, so aroused and excited. I could not wait to go to her. From across the bar, to me it looked like he had his hand between her legs, but I may have just been imagining this. I did see him whispering into her ear. And that is when she put two fingers on the side of her face, I did not know if she was serious or not. Did she really want to fuck him, or was she just playing with me? Then, she got up from her seat, and I guess she went to the bathroom. When she got back, I was bursting with jealousy!. She put three fingers up, and I went over and tried to play it cool. I sat down next to her friend, and I said "you have a beautiful girlfriend." He looked at me and looked at Jan, and he said to both of us "she is not my girlfriend, but she is pretty." The three of us talked for a while, well, mostly he talked to her. As she was sitting there, the coat she had on barely covered her upper thighs. Another inch and her panties would pop out. She looked at him, and then looked at me, and she asked me to take her to the dorm. She and I had both drove cars there. We left her car, and raced back to the dorm. It was clear to me that she loved teasing me, and teasing other guys as well. I asked her if the guy had put a hand between her legs, and I did not get much of an answer. When we got back to her room, she asked me if she liked watching her flirt in the bar. I was confused. I was jealous, and also excited. She told me that when she was there, and I was watching her, that her panties got wet. I did not really believe her, but when she took her coat off, I could see that her panties had a wet spot. She liked to fuck with her panties on. So..... I got naked, and she pulled her panty to the side. When I put my penis inside of her, she looked at me, and she said, "did it make you good and horny to see that guy wanting to fuck me, because I liked the way he was wanting me..." I did not know what to say, I was just confused, really. Afterwards, we then talked a bit about the next weekend. The following weekend I remember quite well, because I had to return to the Naval Reserve Center to do my "reserves". As we were lying there, I told her that we could not do this the following weekend, because I would be gone. She said that she might go to the bar anyway, if I did not mind....

During the week before I did my reserve duty, I mostly studied. My course work was heavy. But I would talk to jan every night, and early in the week she started to bait me. She said she would like to go to the bar on Friday, because she knew a couple of "people" Then, she said " if I go, what do you think I should wear?" "do you think I should wear some jeans, or should I just go with my coat, my leather boots, and my white panties?" She then said, " I will make it easy for you to think of me, I am just going to wear the panties, and I will tell you about it when you get back on Sunday night. " Long distance phone calls were still expensive back then, so I knew that I would have to wait it out. I did get together with her on Thursday night, before leaving on Friday. We went to my dorm room, and my room mate was in the room, so we could not fuck there. All I had on my brain was fucking her. She had her own room in the connecting dorm, but it was a girls dorm, and by the time we got there, I could not go up. Well, we kissed, and told her I would see her on Sunday. She said, very distinctly, " I will save the panties for you". I did not know what she meant, But I did know that she liked to fuck with her panties on. On Friday, I left town. I went to "Reserves" and I stayed at my parents house.

Of course, I could not wait to drive back to Madison! I did not get in until about 8:00pm on Sunday evening, and by then, the girls dorm was closed. We talked in the lobby of the dorm, which was quite nice. I was all excited, and asked her how Friday night went. She paused, and said " Why don't you smell my panties, and find out"

She pulled a pair of panties out of her purse, and a smelled them. I could not tell what this meant. She then said that she decided to go to the bar, and meet her "friends" She said that she thought wearing only panties was too much, so she said she wore her jeans. I breathed a sigh of relief. It was too much for me.

We did not get to fuck until the next evening, and when we were done, we both had a lot ahead of us that week with school. It was February, and things at school were intense. When Thursday came around, we started to talk about Friday. Again, she asked me to wait at my room for her to call me.

Friday was just another school day. I had a lot of labs that year, and every day was intense. But I did get back to my room by 5:00pm

I waited to hear from her. It was 5:30pm and still no call. But around 6:00pm she did finally call.

She told me she was at the bar. And that this time she said she wore only her coat, and her boots. Again, it was freezing outside. When I talked to her, I could hear someone trying to get her attention, and she was sort of giggling. She said I should hurry over, if I was feeling frisky. Also, she said to sit anywhere I wanted to sit, where I could see her. The big surprise is that she said she would probably be playing pool. She said she had a pool partner, and that he liked to watch her make her shots.

I jumped into my beetle and headed downtown. When I got to the bar, it was not hard to find her. It was hard to miss her. She had on a short furry winter coat and boots that came up past her knees. When she bent over to take a pool shot, every guy in the area was checking out her ass. The coat still covered her, but just barely. She seemed to know the exact amount to bend over, so that just a little bit of her panties showed. I could tell that she loved the attention. She saw me come in, but just ignored me. Quickly, she looked at me, and put one finger on her chin, immediately followed by her two finger signal. It was around 7:00pm, and I could tell that she was horny, and a little bit drunk.

Her pool partner kept whispering into her ear, and then she would look at me, put two fingers on her chin, and mouth the words " OK?" She teased me like this for an hour. I could tell that her pool partner was feeling confident about fucking her. Finally, she put three fingers up, and I came over to her, gave her a kiss on the mouth, and asked her to introduce me. She told her partner that I was her boyfriend, and she gave him a little kiss on the cheek, and we scooted over to the dorm. When we were in the beetle, and I felt between her legs, she was very wet. She asked me if I liked to watch her flirt around. I thought she was doing a lot more than flirting, and I told her that her pool partner was hoping to fuck her. She asked me if the whole thing was a turn on, and I had to admit that I liked watching her, but she knew this already. I do remember that when we got up to her room, she took off her coat, she had on her panties, and her "fuck me" boots, as she called them. She would always ask me if I liked to watch her tease the guys. She would rub my cock, which was hard, and she would say, " I guess you like this too". This is about the time that the "marriage " thing started to come up. She would say things like, "when we are married, you can still watch me flirt, right?" I did not want to marry her, but I liked the fucking we were doing.

This went on through the entire winter. One Friday I especially remember. We agreed to meet at her favorite bar. She said she would call me around 5:00pm. Again, I remember waiting for the call. The longer I waited, the more I felt that she was flirting around. I can't remember exactly when she called, but it was after 6:00pm. She told me where she was, and that she was playing pool with 3 guys. She was on the team with the black guy, she said. I raced over to the bar. It was crowded, and I saw her playing at the pool table. It was quite a site. She had on her boots, and her short furry coat. And she would bend over at the pool table just the right amount. She saw me come in, and I knew she saw me.

She was getting ready to take a shot, and she was bent over. I could see her ask her pool partner to help her line it up. He came over to her, and he bent over her ass, and snuggled himself over her, and leaned in to her. Again, I was just confused! I didn't think she should do this, and yet I was so turned on.

He kept whispering into her ear, and she took the shot. They both got up. All of the guys around the table were pretending to ignore this. She sat down at the bar with her black friend, and looked at me. To me, it was obvious that he was going to try and fuck her. She did not bother with the one finger sign.

She looked at me and put two fingers on her chin. Across the bar, I could clearly see that they sat in two stools, facing each other. It looked to me like she had her hand on his leg, but I could not be sure. They played several other teams, and again and again she would bend over the pool table. Her coat would hike up to her ass. She would ask her black friend to come over and "help her" I saw him press his pelvis against her backside so many times! I kept hoping she would ask me to come over and join them, but she really held off. Everyone was watching them. And then, when they got off of the table, everyone seemed to ignore the situation. Finally, I guess she was pretty drunk, and I think that having his cock up against her pussy got her really going. She gave me the three finger sign, indicating that I should come over to her. But I looked at her, I licked my lips and mouthed the words " tease me more".

I could see that she was liking all the attention, and I was just getting very aroused watching them. She whispered something in his ear, and they both laughed. I had never seen a white girl kiss a black man, but she leaned over and kissed him on the lips. Then, she gave me the three finger sign again. I came over and introduced myself as her boyfriend. I told him that I had just finished a late night class, and I asked him if Jan was treating him ok. He laughed at this. I remember this so well. She was sitting on a bar stool, and when I came over, she was facing him, and she spread her legs on the stool. This caused her coat to rise up, and her white panties now were in clear view for him.. Her friend then said he had some weed over at his apartment, and that we should come over. Jan looked at me. Her legs were spread wide, and her panties were completely showing. She put two fingers up to her lips, and she looked at me. She said "'what do you want to do, should we go with him, or do you need to study"? They were both looking at me. Then, he asked Jan why she kept putting two fingers up to her lips.

She said to him " why don't you ask him"

But before he asked me, he asked her, "what do you have on besides those panties?"

She looked at him and she said " all I have on are my boots and my panties"

He said " I don't believe it, show me!"

Then he looked at me and said " why does your girlfriend keep sucking on her fingers?"

I did not know what to say, so I just sort of blurted out "it means she wants to fuck"

Jan looked at me, and said to "tell him the rest"

She was unbuttoning her coat all the way down, though it was still closed up

Once she had the last button done, she looked at me, and said quite firmly " Tell him why I am sucking on my two fingers"

I looked at him and said "it means she wants to fuck you!"

Then, she opened her coat up enough for both of us to see that she was naked except for her little white panties.

She sort of just sat there in our little circle, no one else could see her.

She looked at me and said " do you want to go home and study, or should we go with him?"

I wasn't ready for this. I liked watching her flirt, but now she wanted going to fuck him.

She looked at my jeans, and she said " it looks like your cock thinks we should go to his apartment, is that what do you want us to do?"

It was still the three of us, in a sort of little circle. He put his hand on her thigh, and ran it up to her panties. She looked at me and smiled. Then, she put her two fingers into her mouth, and licked them.

I felt all confused. I felt very guilty about sex, in general. But the thought of watching her pull her panties to the side, while she had her boots on, and climbing onto his cock, seemed very exciting to

me, but I just couldn't do it. I wanted to do it, but I was not ready. I told Jan that we should go back to her dorm. I could tell that her black friend was disappointed, but I could not go there.

Jan looked at me, and said " It is so cold outside, why don't you go out and warm up the car, and I will come out in a little bit"

I went out and started the beetle. It was freezing, and did not warm up very much. After about 15 minutes she came out. She did not look unhappy, as far as I could tell. On the way back, she told me that her friend wanted her to come to his apartment. He gave her his name and phone number, and she showed me the paper she had this on. I asked her if she gave him her number. She sort of fumbled around, and said that she did give him her number.

When we got back to the dorms, we went up to her room. She threw off her coat. Her panties were soaked, and she had me lie down on my back. She wanted me to lick her pussy!! However, I had never seen her panties so wet. She had me pull her panties over her boots, and then I laid on my back. Her pussy was overflowing, and I had the thought that I was eating another man's cum. She started to have orgasms, and she started talking to me about the guy at the bar. She looked at me and said "did you want to watch him fuck me, I know that you wanted to watch!" And she was right, of course. She sat onto my cock, I probably had my orgasm in the first few thrusts. After wards, we talked quite a bit. She wanted to know if I was ok with her wanting to fuck her friend at the bar. I told her the truth, which is that it made me very very jealous, and very very horny. She said to me " I like to tease you, will you still marry me?"

I was all mixed up. I did not want to marry her, she was my first real lover. And yet, I lied, and said that I loved the tease, and that I loved her as well.

And so the week went on. I had to go to reserves again the next weekend. Usually, she would start up with the pussy talk early in the week, but this week was different. She started by telling me that she wanted to play pool this Friday. I told her I would be gone, and she said that she knew that. I already knew that she was going to head down to the bar on Friday night. She said that she wanted me to be thinking of her the whole weekend. Early in the week, she said she planned to play pool, but that she would wear jeans and tennis shoes to the bar. I did feel better. But by Wednesday, she said she was going to wear my favorite outfit, which was the leather boots, white panties, and short white furry coat. She said that she liked the way his hand felt running up her thigh last weekend. On Friday afternoon I was getting ready to leave. We met in the dorm lobby to say goodbye, and when she came out of the elevator, I saw that she was wearing her fuck me boots, and her short white winter coat. It was around 5:00pm. I needed to get going. She walked over and kissed me, and then pulled up her coat a little bit. She was wearing red panties.

I was so mad! I asked her what was going on.

She said she was worried about going to the bar alone, so she called up her black friend from last week.

She finally told me his name, Oliver.

She asked him if he would be there to play pool with her, because I was going out of town. He said he was willing to help her out....... She said he asked her just to wear her coat, and her boots. No panties. She said that he wanted her to come to the bar with no panties She told him that she would, but she said that she was only going to play pool with him, no more than that. And then, as she was getting ready for her afternoon, she decided to wear panties.

She said, " I want you to be thinking of me the whole weekend, while you are gone, and I think that this will do the trick, I know he is hoping to fuck me, but I am just going to tease him, and tease you, is that OK with you?" " He told me that you probably liked to think about him putting his cock into my mouth and pussy. All of her talk didn't surprise me, I was thinking that he probably fucked her last week, and that she had me eating his cum. I couldn't be sure, but that is what I thought.

I had to leave her, and I could see her getting into her car to go downtown. I spent the weekend all messed up. I was jealous, and so very turned on at the same time. I stayed at my parents house, but returned like a bullet on Sunday afternoon. I got into town by 6:00pm, plenty of time for Jan's dorm to be open.

She was surprised to hear from me so early, and had just got back from dinner in the cafeteria. I wanted to see her, and hear about her weekend. I went to her dorm floor, and got out of the elevator. I raced to her door, which was open. She looked quite elated, and happy. She said she went to the bar on Friday, and met her friend. They started drinking, and playing pool. They were partners, of course, and she said she did the same thing, she asked him to help her with the shooting. She asked me if I wanted to hear more. I told her I wanted to hear everything. She said that he would help her take a shot, then go back to the bar for a drink. She said he would slide his hand along her thigh, and then put his fingers under her panties. She said she was also "petting his cock" when he was playing with her. She told me that she said " no fucking" She said that she wanted me to know that he tried to talk her into going home with him, but she said that she only let him play with her pussy with his hand. She said she left and returned to the dorms, but again, I had my doubts about all of that.

She said that she went back on Saturday evening to play pool with him again, and that she wore the same outfit. Again, she says that they played with each other all evening. She said that he wanted to fuck her in the bathroom. All of this made me so very aroused, and jealous, at the same time. And she knew what she was doing to me. She would say things like " when we are married, you can watch me suck and fuck all that you want" It was getting to be springtime, and Jan knew that I would be going home for the summer. She planned to stay in Madison, and work for the summer. But the closer we got to June, the more things she started to do, to keep us together.

As it started warming up, she changed her clothing. Every Friday, we always went to the bar to hang out. There were many guys who would always buy drinks for her, and she would tease me from across the bar. If it was a guy she liked, she would be putting two fingers up. And she always teased me for at least a couple of hours with these guys. Eventually, she would put up three fingers, and I would come over and meet whomever she was flirting with. When we went back to the dorms, she would tease me about wanting to fuck someone new.

Anyway, as spring came up, she was still seeing her friend Oliver, and she was always letting him feel her up, right in front of me. By this time, he knew us well. She would go to the bar on Friday, and eventually call me up. By the time I got there, they had both been drinking. By the time I I got there, she would take me to the side, and tell me how hard his cock felt, when he "helped her" with her pool shots. I liked it, because by the time we got back to the dorms, she was more than willing to let me lick her, and then fuck her.

After a few more weeks of warmer weather, she started to wear sundresses. It was still chilly, so she would wear a sundress, and then would wear some sort of a sweater or warm top. And boots. She never would wear anything but boots to the bar. And our relationship was getting worse. She was putting more and more pressure on me, to get married. What is a young guy to do? I tried all the regular things, like running away from her, getting drunk. But so far, nothing worked. And the more I tried to get away, the more she would try and get me jealous!

By the end of May, school was just about done. I was getting ready to leave Madison. One Friday afternoon, I was waiting for her to call me around 5:00pm. I waited until 7:00pm, but did not hear from her. Finally, she called up and said she was at Olivers apartment. She said that they were playing pool together, but he wanted to go to his apartment and show her where he lived. I could hear music in the background, and voices as well. She said his room mate was there too. She said when they were at the bar, he had been rubbing his cock on her, lining up her pool shots. She said that they had been smoking MJ and drinking together. She assured me that nothing else had happened, but that she thought they were both hoping for more. She said they were going back to the bar, and I should meet them there.

Again, I was jealous, I was excited, and I also wanted the relationship to be over. I went to the bar, and she was sitting at the bar with her two "friends". She looked fantastic. She had on her short sundress, and no bra. When I came in she gave me a deep tongue kiss, and said she wanted to see if I was hard.

She was sitting between the two guys. She reached down, looked at Oliver, and said "I think he likes it"

Oliver looked at his room mate, and said to both of us," send your girlfriend over any time."

Jan and I went out and jumped into the car. I was so horny I did not know what to do. She looked like she had just been fucked, and she smelled like it too. She told me that at the apartment they had both been kissing her, and feeling between her legs, but nothing else. I found it hard to believe

When we got back to her room, at the dorm, we were both aroused. Once her door shut, I pulled her dress over her head, and I felt between her legs. Her panties were wet, and sticky. She laid down on the bed, and told me to lick her. Everything was sticky, I pulled her panties to the side, and her pussy was wet, and sticky. She said, " do you like what you see, I have been waiting all day, and

those guys really got me going." I asked her what Oliver and his room mate did. As I was licking her, she told me that they were sitting together on the couch, and she was kissing them, back and forth. She said that they had their hands all over her, and inside of her. Then she asked if I liked it. I did like it, and also did not think she should be so close to fucking them. She gave me more details, and then, when I had cleaned everything out of her, and off of her, she asked me when we were going to be married. I could honestly not answer her, and she closed her legs. The rest of the summer was not good, and as I already told you, we broke up a couple of months later, when she told me she did have sex with a guy at a fraternity party.

It was good that I did not marry her, it was not a good match.

Also, it was not good that I did not understand that my sexual desires were already a part of me, but I had a long way to go to understand that part of myself.