The Fantasy Man

The Fantasy Man

by OKMAC

My husband Inman Bontrager and I were in my new oncologist's office discussing what had been found by a series of tests including PET, MRI, Blood Scans, and Needle Biopsies. "So, what is causing my vision changes and headaches?"

"Mrs. Bontrager, you have glioblastoma, an aggressive brain tumor. Senator McCain died about 15 months after his glioblastoma diagnosis. You have options but this is a very aggressive cancer. If you choose to aggressively fight it with surgery, chemotherapy, X-Ray or Immunotherapy or some combination we must rapidly act."

I was shocked but I managed to respond, "please call me Fran. Doctor what if I do nothing about it, how will I die compared to being treated by surgery, chemotherapy, X-Ray or immunotherapy or some combination of efforts?"

"Fran if you do nothing it is possible that you might or might not have as much time, but you may have less discomfort in the near term, if you decide to do nothing to fight the cancer except take drugs or try meditation or acupuncture to relieve pain."

Inman interjected, "Fran and I need to discuss this before we make a decision, could we meet again next week to let you know what Fran decides to do?"

I was so sorry to quit my loan-review job at the bank. Later, Inman held me tightly as we sat on our couch. "Sweetheart, do you want to talk about it? After a long silence Inman continued, "should we get a second opinion. Or study the glioblastoma treatments and corresponding quality of life? Or visit some patients undergoing treatment.?"

"Inman we've had 11 great years together but soon I will be gone. I truly want you to meet new people and find someone who will love you as much as I do. I read the pamphlets from the oncologist's office. I am going to make a bucket list and forgo suffering through the futile medical treatments."

Fran continued, "This weekend I will show you my bucket list and compare it with your bucket list. Inman you are only 29 years old, in good health, with an instinctive, athletic, gentile, and loving sex drive. Promise me that you will try to find someone without waiting for me to die. If you are not trying hard enough, I will immediately go into hospice palliative care."

Inman responded, "Wait a minute, Fran you are making big decisions way too fast. Let's think through our options again and see what is on your bucket list this weekend. But the most important thing on my bucket list is to make you happy as long as I can."

On Friday morning I got out the video camera and lights that Inman bought to record our 1-year anniversary of learning what we liked to do when we made love. Inman said, "Fran you excelled at learning how to make love so many ways!" We will make a new Love-Sex video every 10 years and look at them when we retire."

I bathed and shaved everywhere, looked in the full-length mirror as tears ran down my face, dripped on and between my breasts, filled my belly button, and started to wet my pussy, as I thought; "What a shame this beautiful body won't be here in 10 years. I hope Inman will be making Love-Sex videos with his new lover who's as turned on as I am by his Love-Sex video program."

When Inman came home, we helped each other prepare a delicious salad and I asked Inman, "honey would you like to make our last Love-Sex tape tonight or this weekend?" Inman replied, "Anytime you are ready, I'll be ready."

Good, "I thought about it all day and looked at our first Love-Sex tape and it reminded me of how you taught me how to: nuzzle-kiss sensitive places, French kiss each other, focus on enjoying your tongue and finger petting my lips, nipples, vulva, clit and G-spot, suck your cock up and stroke it with my mouth, fuck you slowly and vigorously in so many positions, and to enjoy safe anal KY jelly massage before fucking me with a condom. It made me so wet and hot for you Inman."

After they made their 2nd Love-Sex video, Fran collapsed, slept about 20 minutes, wakened, and whispered, "Inman are you awake? Thank you Inman that was absolutely wonderful. You have my permission to burn our Love-Sex videos if you think they might interfere with your new romance. Or you can show her how much your first wife loved to love you."

Inman, "Tomorrow, I will show you my bucket list. Do you have your list to show me?" Inman responded, "Fran, your happiness IS my list. We just have to prioritize the ways that make you the happiest for the longest time."

I got up early intending to make breakfast for us but Inman was ready to serve us delicious eggs scrambled with kale and topped with salsa, whole grain toast with delightful apricot jam, and coffee. Inman said, "Thank you Fran for last night, it was stupendous." After a long pause, Inman asked, "Fran, when do you want to talk about priorities we can agree on for making you the happiest for the longest time?"

"Well Inman, I think we are going to be able figure out how to mesh your and my bucket lists right now. My highest priority is to know when I die that you have found or are earnestly finding someone who will love you as much as I dearly have."

Fran continued in a stronger voice, "Inman, to make this come true I want you to agree to an open marriage or to separate but to keep updating each other about progress you are making just as I will update you about my progress on experiencing the fantasy that I first started envisioning before we met."

"Fran, we need to go to a marriage counselor before doing something foolish." "Inman think about it. Why waste time with a marriage counselor. I already know you want to make me happy and you know what will make me happy. So here and now, are we are separated or in an open marriage. Please tell me is it separation or open marriage?"

Inman quickly and affectionately replied, "Fran, I love you and want to be with you, so I choose open marriage." Fran replied, "Good but if you aren't making progress finding someone who will love you as much as I dearly have, I will get hospice help me quickly end our open marriage."

Several weeks later as they shared breakfast Fran asked, "Inman would it be Okay if I post something in Craigslist, Browse Singles, and other publications?"

"Fran what do you have in mind?"

"In the near future I will go into hospice. My straight husband is 29 years old, in good health, and has a great sex drive. He needs a new lover who he may choose to become his new wife. If you would like to meet him for coffee or tea, please send your information to P. O. Box 11341, Portland, OR"

Inman replied, "Slow down Fran, let me think about it. If I am interested, I will write something or maybe use the one you wrote."

After a long pause, Inman continued, "Fran you haven't reported much progress, maybe a Notice of Availability is needed for you or maybe not. Fran, you haven't shared whether or not you've experienced the fantasy that you first envisioned before we married 11 years ago." Fran didn't respond. "What was your fantasy and do you want me to write a Notice of Availability for you? Please tell me your 11-year-old fantasy."

Well Inman, "You knew I started exploring and pleasuring myself when I was 14. But my mother repeatedly said, "under no circumstances will you allow anyone to touch your private areas until you are married and then you must freely give yourself to your husband. He must be the first and only one to ever have and to hold you. Most importantly, you must ask him to teach you all about how to please him."

"To get around my mother's No Other Person admonition I used my fingers, cucumbers, bananas, or carrots to masturbate. But I was so curious to know how a man would pleasure me that I started envisioning a fantasy to get around my responsibility to prevent anyone from touching me.

I dreamed about a man overcoming my resistance and raping me. I would resist but he would overcome my resistance and give me great pleasures. So, when we married, Inman you were the first person to actually have and hold me. You made me hotter and gave me greater pleasures than I had imagined. So, my fantasy about being raped was no longer needed. But I didn't forget it because it had given me masturbation pleasures before we married."

"What about after we married did you ever act on your rape fantasy?" "Yes, sometimes when you were traveling, I would think about my rape fantasy and masturbate with a cucumber or my vibrator sex toy."

"So now you want to actually be raped by a man who overcomes your resistance and ravishes you repeatedly is that right?"

"Yes Inman, and I want it to be so good that I beg for him to do it again and again like it started happening after a few months of our marriage. You stimulated and taught me how to get so excited, hot, and wet that I climaxed and kept climaxing with each of your oral, vaginal, and anal techniques."

"Wonders never cease with you Fran. I will compose a Fantasy Man Wanted for inquiries to be sent to the post office box."

"Inman I won't read any such Fantasy Man Wanted response unless and until you show more progress on finding a new lover to replace me."

"Thank you Fran for telling me about your fantasy and thank you for 11 years of our fantabulous sex life."

"Inman would you like to go to a Church Singles Meeting with me this Saturday so you can show me how you are busy getting acquainted with other women and it will give me a chance to meet potential Fantasy Man candidates. Or do you want me to go to a Swingers Club?"

"Fran, a Swingers Club might be an exciting experience for you but first let's go to the Church Singles Meeting. It sounds like it might be a better place for both of us to find someone."

Saturday after we attended the Church Singles Meeting Inman observed, "Fran you had the attention of nearly every man there, did you get dates with some Fantasy Man candidates?" Fran responded "I got cell phone numbers but they will have to wait until you make progress. How about you, did you at least make a date with someone you found attractive?"

"Not a date, but I have 2 cell numbers, so give me credit for that much progress." "Okay Inman that is really good, is it the high-maintenance platinum blond or the pretty ponytail wearing bell-bottom slacks? You picked the top 2 good lookers now please date them and learn so much more."

About three weeks later as they shared breakfast, Inman gave Fran a progress report. "Fran, I had a coffee date with Sherrie, the platinum blond. She has been married two times and her divorce settlement is being negotiated by her lawyer. I didn't try to learn why she was at the Church Singles Meeting."

"And I've had two coffee dates with the pretty ponytail lady. Melynda has two kids, a boy and a girl. Melynda is a teacher and Vice Principle at a Montessori school. Her husband was killed 17 months ago in an industrial accident."

Inman continued, "For our 2nd date, Melynda invited me to her Montessori school to tell her students about how I liked to play flag football and kick soccer. She recruited me to help her son Bruce learn more about playing flag football this Saturday. She will help coach her daughter Sevanna's team play soccer at the same Youth Park if you want to see her children."

"That's really good progress Inman, Melynda has the family we thought we would be starting about now. Do you think it will cause any harm if I happen to meet Melynda at Sevanna's soccer game?"

"Well, it would be good to have you see Melynda and her kids up close." "Inman what if she remembers me from the Church Singles Meeting, what can I say?" Tell her the truth but please don't try to sell me to her. Just share with her that you wanted to be starting a family about now, but that can't happen so you are enjoying seeing someone else's kids."

On Saturday Melynda immediately recognized Fran and asked if she had a daughter playing soccer too? Fran replied, "I wanted to be starting a family about now, but that can't happen so I am enjoying seeing someone else's kids." Melynda replied, "you should come to my kid's watermelon party after the soccer game. Warning, it will be about 20 rambunctious kids and some of their parents."

At Melynda's watermelon party, Bruce and Inman were already good buddies passing and hiking a football. Fran helped Melynda and Sevanna cut watermelons into disks and cut the disks into watermelon pie-shaped portions. Fran, Melynda, and Sevanna thanked and hugged each other as Fran left with a trash bag of napkins and other waists. A little later, Sevanna, Bruce and Inman took the watermelon rinds to the dumpster, helped Melynda finish cleaning up, and carried leftover supplies to her car.

At breakfast, Fran excitedly observed "she is wonderful Inman." Inman responded, "Fran you are wonderful and I want to be with you." "Inman go and woo Melynda, that is our deal."

About a month later Fran asked how are things going with Melynda and her kids? Inman replied, Melynda said "It is too soon to think about romantically dating anyone." But she thanked me for helping Sevanna with her longhand writing and said, "Bruce can't wait to show you how much he has improved the spin on his football passing throws."

Melynda also asked if I would be interested in helping coach her flag football team. I accepted saying "I will be glad to learn how to be your Montessori helper."

Fran replied, "you and Bruce are already friends so keep helping him and Melynda will be so glad to have you around." Inman replied, "He is very bright, I really enjoy helping him. Sevanna is also very intelligent and so much like her mother."

Fran said, "That sounds like good progress." Inman replied, "What is your progress on selecting your Fantasy Man?" Fran replied, "Maybe I should start interviewing some of the candidates including the Church guys and big gruff looking amateur actor who mailed his qualifications to the PO Box. Perhaps there could be more than one Fantasy Man!"

About six weeks later at breakfast, Inman spoon fed Fran oatmeal and blue berries. Fran said, "Sorry Inman, I am fading but I am delighted about your mutually growing warmness with Melynda and her kids."

Inman cleared his throat and tearfully replied, "Fran do you want me to arrange your hotel stay with your Fantasy Man selection? Fran replied: "No Inman. We had 2 bucket lists but their meshed purpose was to please me by finding my replacement. I am pleased with progress you are making with Melynda.

"My Fantasy Man story was to tease you and keep you engaged in your search for a new lover. Inman you have always been so much better than my best fantasy!"

Now I want to see us make love, so please play our 2nd Love-Sex video showing how we excitedly pleasured each other with our eyes, mouths, hands, pussy, cock and all the other ways you have lovingly taught me. Inman you are so much better than any Fantasy Man could possibly be."

Tomorrow, please help me start the hospice palliative care to give your fulfilled wife peace."