Ruined

Written by: MissKittenSK

This is a short and slightly unorthodox narrative for an audio reading - I hope you enjoy.

[A4A] [M4F] [F4M] Ruined

Tags: [gender neutral] [obsession] [addicted to you] [let us burn together] [consumed by you] [ruin me] [short narrative]

All I ask is that you credit me as author and pretty please message me to let me know you did it! No permission needed to record and post & I don't need to hear it before it goes out.

Tailor it to your needs, happy for any improv and changes - enjoy.

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What the fuck did you do to me? I can't, I just…. fuck!

You're taking up all my damned headspace and we haven't even fucked. But I know, I know, when we do I'll burn the hell up in you. It will be feral, and heated, desperate and intimate, passionate and life defining.

There will cease to be a before you and everything after will be consumed by you.

These thoughts I have about you, the ones that refuse to be quiet, they're dirty, depraved, debauched and delicious. But I also know that even after we fuck they won't stay away for long, they will start again, creating a perpetual cycle of need and desire for more of you.

I can't concentrate on work, my friends think I've been body snatched and I have no damned appetite.

You're all I can think of.

The sweet kiss on the cheek that felt like a brand runs on repeat in my head. The way you drew your hand down my arm and twined your fingers with mine… I swear I can still feel you.

The way you lean into me when I talk, as if I am the only person on the planet you've got eyes for, it's addictive and intoxicating. The rest of the world drops away and there's just you and I, close, intimate and sharing a beautiful moment in time that seems to last for hours, however brief.

How did I get your attention? Me, just me, how did I ever get your fucking attention. When we are out everybody turns to look at you, you have that… fuck if I know what it is, but it's something… a pull maybe. Like you're a beacon and people just can't help themselves but be drawn to you. You're gorgeous and captivating. And so I obsess about how I keep your attention, because I'll be damned but I need more of it, all of it, all of the time.

I want your touch so badly it physically hurts to not have it.

I want your kisses so desperately I feel like I can't breathe.

I want your body wrapped around me and your every wanton sound and moans the only thing I can hear.

You've ruined me and we haven't even fucked yet. What the hell are you, because I have never, ever come across somebody like you. I have never been affected so deeply, so thoroughly and so absolutely.

You are my every waking thought and my every sleeping dream.

In my mind we have fucked in every way imaginable, we have done all those dirty things you've ever seen or heard of. We have become so wrapped up in each other that days go by and we are still in bed, breaking only as long as it takes to grab a shower and sustenance before we are fucking again, and again.

Oh to be so stained in you.

In my mind, when the fucking stops for a moment, those conversations start, those deep conversations that last as long as we can keep our hands off each other, though in truth a part of us is always touching.

Those intimate conversations that break down the last walls and fuse us together in a shared belief system and way of thinking. When you realise we are the perfect match for each other, and the odds of that coming to pass are a billion to one.

You've ruined me and we haven't even fucked yet.

I don't want to hear another voice but yours.

I don't want anybody to touch me now but you.

I don't want to live in a world where you and I are not fulfilling every one of my waking and sleeping fantasies.

What the fuck have you done to me.

I am ruined.

Never, ever, stop. Let me burn up in you.