Joan's Desire Pt. 01

The pamphlet read, "At BBC Marriage Enhancement Retreats LLC, we have dedicated ourselves to creating an approach to intimacy, lovemaking, and sensual/sexual expression, which each person can easily understand and practice inside and outside the bedroom. Our focus is on you. We strive to push you out of your comfort zone and teach you how to build an alive, exciting relationship.

When you spend time at one of our retreats as a couple, you'll learn that a relationship (and sex) is a team sport. And our Marriage Enhancement Advisement Team will help you every step of the way.

We have a unique approach to Marriage Enhancement. We involve individual, couple, and group therapy to attain the highest level of trust and pleasure in your relationship. All that is missing is you.

Each couple will have their own Marriage Enhancement Advisement Team to help them learn how to love and what it means to be a loving couple.

By spending intentional time with our Marriage Enhancement Advisement Teams in unique, intimate settings, we can help you strengthen your communication skills, build deeper connections, and reawaken lost intimacy.

We offer :

· First-class accommodations

· Fine dining

· Exciting activities

· World-class relationship training

· An experienced Marriage Enhancement

Advisement Team

· Daily private and group counseling and training

sessions

· Free Post-Retreat Aftercare

If you want your marriage to be the best it can be, we can help.

Fee Schedule:

Couples $20,000.00 (For two weeks)

(Free programs are available for returning and unaccompanied wives.)

The picture on the cover of the pamphlet showed two hands caressing. The images inside the booklet showed an aerial view of the retreat grounds, the pool and hot tubs, the hotel-like accommodations, the open grounds, the dining facility, and happy, smiling couples.

Joan looked up the BBC Marriage Enhancement Retreat's website. Joan's best friend, Dianne, had given her the pamphlet and told her that it had changed their marriage, and they had been happier ever since she and her husband went to the retreat.

Joan and Carl had a good marriage. They had sex, were still in love, but they never communicated well. Joan wanted what she and Carl had early in their marriage: fun, more and better sex, and more excitement. Dianne had told Joan that attending the BBC retreat was a game changer for her and her husband.

Joan and Carl had talked about a second honeymoon, and Joan wondered if attending a BBC Retreat would be best.

The BBC Marriage Enhancement Retreats LLC website looked very professional. The pictures in the pamphlet were also on the website, with much more information.

On the website, under the picture of the retreat grounds, were the words, TURN YOUR MARRIAGE INTO A SENSUAL/SEXUAL ADVENTURE! Under those words was the statement, We'll help you turn your marriage into something more than it is today.

Joan clicked on the What To Expect page.

When the page loaded, Joan read, "As a couple, you can expect your desires and fantasies to become a reality. Our experienced Marriage Enhancement Advisement Team will help you and your spouse learn what pleasure is supposed to feel like and how good sex can be. You will learn what it means to be a man and a woman.

You will learn what it means to love your wife. You will be given training on what it means to be a husband and a man. You will also learn what turns your wife on.

If you are a wife, you will learn what pleasure is supposed to feel like. You will know what it means to be loved. You will also learn what it means and how it feels to be filled and fulfilled.

During your two-week stay, you, as a couple, will learn more about yourselves and each other than you ever thought possible.

As a couple, you will have our entire experienced Marriage Enhancement Advisement Team helping you become your best authentic selves.

Our retreats help couples be more open, accepting, forgiving, and loving.

We believe that great sex = a great marriage. BBC Marriage Enhancement Retreats LLC is dedicated to improving your marriage by making great sex a part of your relationship.

Even if you have great sex with your spouse now, we will help you to have better sex. And if you and your spouse aren't having good sex or sex as often as one or both of you would like, we'll change that, too.

At your BBC Marriage Enhancement Retreat, sex, intimacy, communication, and connection will be the top priorities."

Joan clicked on the For Men page and read, "Did you know anger, rage, and jealousy are feminine traits? When you get angry or jealous, your estrogen level increases and you are more a woman than a man. Your wife needs a man, not another woman.

Your wife needs a man to make her feel wanted, cherished, and loved unconditionally. BBC Marriage Enhancement Retreat is where you can give her that.

What about sex? If you want your wife to have the best sex ever, bringing her to a BBC Marriage Enhancement Retreat is the best thing you can do. You'll learn what turns your wife on most, what it takes to bring her to a mind-blowing orgasm, and you'll be a better man for it.

Yes, there's more to life than sex, but shouldn't great sex be a part of your marriage?

BBC Marriage Enhancements Retreats LLC believes that Better Sex = A Better Marriage. At our retreats, you are guaranteed that your wife will have the best sex of her life, and she'll have you to thank for it.

When wives spend time at our retreats, they become more feminine and loving and want sex more often.

BBC Marriage Enhancement Retreats are an excellent opportunity to learn about yourself and your partner on a deeper and more vulnerable level, improve your relationship and overall emotional connection, and enjoy yourselves away from everyday stresses.

Your wife will learn what a man needs from a woman and how she can satisfy those needs effortlessly. While at and even after leaving the BBC Marriage Enhancement Retreat, your wife will know what great sex is and want it often.

You will learn what it means to be a man and a husband. Your wife will see you differently. She will understand what it means to be a good wife and lover. And you'll see her in a new light.

BBC Marriage Enhancement Retreats are group retreats. It's a chance to feel confident and assured that you are not alone in your type of marriage.

If your marriage is important to you, and you want your wife to want sex more often, a BBC Marriage Enhancement Retreat is just what you need.

Bring your wife to one of our BBC Marriage Enhancement Retreats, and your wife will thank you over and over again."

Joan then clicked on the For Wives page. When the page loaded, a picture of a black man with a toned body, defined features, and a smile that could light up a room appeared. Under the photo, in bold print, were the words, "Get What You Really Want!" Under those words was the statement, "A marriage is what you make it, and we can help you make yours better."

Joan read the rest of the page.

"Marriage presents opportunities to learn and grow together, and overcoming unfamiliar yet powerful situations strengthens resilience. Our immersive experiences offer a new perspective, allowing you and your spouse to work through challenges. As you both surpass what you thought was possible, you emerge united and equipped to meet life with strength and courage.

BBC Marriage Enhancement Retreats are designed with you in mind. We know that women often desire more from their marriage, and at our retreats, you get more than you ever thought possible. Our Marriage Enhancement Advisement Teams are there 24/7 to provide for you and fulfill your needs.

Picture yourself in bed with your lover, kissing, caressing, and loving one another. You know you want that connection, and we can provide that for you. All you have to do is show up and be a willing participant."

Joan wanted that connection, and the BBC Marriage Enhancement Retreat sounded like just what she and Carl needed. Joan knew that $20,000 was a lot of money, but she also knew divorce was more costly. Joan was willing to do whatever it took to get fun and excitement back into her marriage.

Joan called Dianne and asked what had happened at the retreat that made it so worth it.

Dianne answered, "Oh, my God, Joan. So much good happened. I don't know where to begin."

"Are you and Jack happier now?"

Dianne laughed. "You would not believe it. Jack is much more attentive now. We talk more, we communicate better, and sex is out of this world."

"I want that for Carl and me."

Dianne said, "I've gone back four times."

"For what?"

Dianne giggled. "More intensive training."

"I saw in the pamphlet that programs are available for returning and unaccompanied wives."

Dianne said, "I love that part."

"What happens when you go back?"

"You open up and let love come inside you."

Joan said, "It sounds wonderful, but I don't know how to rationalize spending $20,000."

"Aren't you worth it?" Dianne asked.

"I am," Joan responded, "But Jack... "

"Doesn't he want you to be happy?"

"He does," Joan said, "But $20,000?"

Dianne said, "You can't put a price on happiness, and sadly, many people go through life regretting what they didn't do. I've already told you that the retreat helped us. Now you have to decide if you want to be happy in your marriage or if you want to go on with things the way they are."

Dianne asked, "When was the last time you felt fully satisfied, I mean sexually?"

Joan hesitated. "It's been a while."

Dianne said, "Since going to the retreat, I can honestly say that every time I've had sex, it's been mind-blowing."

"Oh, God, I want that," Joan admitted.

Dianne added, "This morning, I could barely walk afterward."

"Jack's that good?"

Dianne giggled. "As I said, sex has never been better since the retreat."

Joan thought back to when she and Carl first started dating. They couldn't keep their hands off each other, and they had sex all the time. Joan missed that and was envious of Dianne.

Dianne told Joan to go on the retreat website and complete the questionnaire.

Joan pulled up the questionnaire and began answering questions.

Are you male or female?

"Female."

How long have you been married?

"15 years."

Are you happy?

Joan sat back. "I'm not unhappy, but I could be happier."

Joan wondered how to answer.

The questionnaire wasn't multiple-choice.

Joan responded, "I want to be happier."

Do you like sex?

"Yes."

Is sex important to you?

Joan sat back again. "I think sex is important. It's not the most important thing, but I think it's important."

Joan answered, "Yes."

Do you enjoy the sex you're having now, if any?

"Mostly."

What is your deepest sexual fantasy?

Joan thought. "This gets really personal."

She wrote, "I've always wanted several men to hold me down and do what they want with me."

The page refreshed.

Have you ever wanted your fantasy to become a reality?"

"Oh, my God," Joan thought. "What is this, a Penthouse questionnaire?"

Joan called Dianne back and asked if her questionnaire had been so intense.

"It was. What they do is read the questionnaire and design your retreat to fulfill your innermost desires."

Joan told Dianne about the fantasy question and her answer.

Dianne said, "Think about what you really want and answer the questionnaire honestly. Everyone's experience at the retreat is unique and tailored to your needs. So, if you go, you might as well get the most out of the experience."

Joan asked who read the questionnaires.

"I don't know, but it helps if you don't hold anything back."

Joan asked Dianne to tell her about her and Jack's retreat.

Dianne smiled. "I don't know if words can accurately describe what happened when we were there, but Jack learned what being a man means."

"What do you mean?"

"Jack isn't the man he used to be. He understands me more, knows what I need now, and knows what to do in the bedroom."

Joan said, "Carl isn't a lousy lover. I just wish my pleasure was more of a priority to him."

Joan giggled. "I don't have to worry about that now. Jack knows what pleases me."

"You sound so happy."

Dianne replied, "I told you I'm having better sex now than ever."

"So you think Carl will be a better lover if we go?"

Dianne laughed. "If Carl is anything like Jack, he'll be a changed man."

"How so?"

"He'll want you to have sex anywhere and everywhere. And the best part is you'll want it."

Joan always slept on the left side of the bed, and Carl slept on the right.

When they had sex, she had to go down on him to get him almost hard, and then they'd do what they called the Lazy X, where they lay on their sides, and minimal touching goes on. Carl usually lasted no more than two or three minutes, if that.

Because of Carl's size, doggie style wasn't viable because he always fell out, and his arms got tired when they did missionary.

Joan longed for the sex she had with Shaun, the man she dated before she met Carl. Shaun's penis was bigger, and he lasted as long as Joan wanted or needed him to. Shaun always made Joan orgasm, and that was something Joan could only do for herself now.

Joan asked Dianne, "Do you get off with Jack?"

"Honey. Since the retreat, I've orgasmed every time I've had sex."

Joan told Dianne about Shaun and how she missed the sex she had with him.

Dianne asked Joan what happened between her and Shaun.

"Shaun was a singer, and he had an audition. He asked me to accompany him, and I did. I played piano. His singing was on point, but my playing wasn't, and he started singing off-key."

"So what happened?"

"I was so embarrassed," Joan said. "That was Shaun's chance, and I blew it for him, and he never forgave me for that."

"Then you have to go to the retreat," Dianne said.

"How is that going to help?"

"It won't get Shaun back, but if you want those orgasms back... "

Joan asked, "You really think going to the retreat will change Carl that much?"

"Trust me. He'll come back a new man, and you'll get better sex than you ever imagined."

Joan stated that it sounded too good to be true.

"Maybe we ought to go together, you and me, and then you can decide if it's right for you and Carl."

"We can do that?"

Dianne laughed. "It's only three days, but well worth the trip."

"I thought it was a marriage enhancement retreat."

"It is," Dianne said, "but going with me will give you a taste of what to expect when you and Carl go."

"It's free?"

Dianne giggled. "It is. We only pay for airfare, but we get so much while we're there."

"What do I tell Carl?"

"Just tell him it's a girl's thing, and he'll be happy you went with me."

"I don't know."

"Then just go with Carl," Dianne said. "Either way, your marriage will improve, you'll get better sex, and Carl will be a new man."

Joan thought and said, "But going with you is free."

"It is," Dianne said, "And if you go with me, I promise you won't regret it."

"But how is going without Carl going to improve our marriage?"

"It's mainly a couples retreat, so you'll see couples and how the retreat improves their marriage."

Joan wanted her marriage to improve, and she wanted better sex. So, she said, "Okay, but I have to figure out what to tell Carl."

Dianne asked Joan, "Do you want me to have Jack talk to him?"

"You think he'd do that?"

"Jack loves it when I go alone. It gives him time alone, and he knows I'm easier to live with when I do."

"What would we do there since it's a marriage retreat?"

"Improve our marriages," Dianne said, asking, "Ever heard the phrase, happy wife, happy life?"

"Sure."

"I guarantee you'll return a happier woman."

"Is that what they call aftercare?"

"You could call it that."

Dianne told Joan to finish the questionnaire and get back to her.

Joan hung up and continued answering questions.

Is your spouse your ideal lover?

"He probably could be."

Does your spouse turn you on?

"At times, he does."

What would you change about your spouse?

"I'd like him to notice and want me more."

The page refreshed.

Describe in detail what makes you feel noticed and wanted.

"Wow," Joan thought, "This is high-tech stuff, like AI."

Joan typed, "I feel noticed when my husband listens to me, notices if I've painted my nails or done something different with my hair. And I feel wanted when he asks me for sex or touches me for no reason. I like a lot of physical touching."

The page refreshed again.

How do you like to be touched?

"I love it when my husband comes up behind me and caresses my breasts. I like it when my husband rubs my butt in public and when he puts his arm around me. I think it's sexy when my husband puts his hands between my legs in public or fingers me at home when we watch TV."

When did you orgasm last?

"By myself, a week ago. With my husband, I don't remember."

What makes you orgasm?

"Thinking about Shaun."

The page refreshed.

Describe your best sexual experience with Shaun.

Joan thought, "There were so many."

She answered, "We went to see Blind Melon, and I gave Shaun a blow job under a blanket, and then I rode him as we watched the concert."

What made that the best sexual experience?

"It was in public, which made it exciting."

Would you do it again?

"I don't know."

The page refreshed again.

Would you ever have sex with a man you didn't know?

Joan hesitated, then answered, "No."

Why or why not?"

"I'm married."

If you weren't married, would you?

Joan thought, "This is getting creepy."

Joan clicked on Next Question, and the page refreshed.

How do you define monogamy?

"Monogamy is when you love someone and don't even want to cheat on them."

What is your definition of love?

Joan sat back. "That's a tough one."

Joan thought, "I love Carl, but what is love to me?"

Joan typed, "Love is more than a feeling. It's who you are and how someone else makes you feel. You know you love someone when you can't bear to be without them. It makes you want to get up in the morning and go to bed with someone at night."

Do you think sex and love are the same?

"No. You can love someone and never have sex, and you can have sex with someone you don't love."

Who initiates sex, you or your spouse?

"Me."

Do you prefer to initiate sex?

"No."

Who has the higher sex drive, you or your spouse?

"Me."

A message appeared on the screen: Please wait a moment. When the page refreshed, an image of a black limousine parked in front of a white Smart Car appeared. Below the picture was a question.

Which of the above do you think would be more enjoyable?

"The Limo."

The next picture was a cucumber next to a sweet gherkin.

Which do you think would be more fulfilling?

"It depends."

The following picture was of two men, one white and the other black.

What is different about these men?

Joan looked at both men. "They both have short hair, and they both look well-kept. They're both smiling."

Joan typed, "Their eye color."

The question changed.

How would you describe each of the men above if you had to?

Joan thought, "I'm not going to play that game," and hit the Next button.

The page refreshed, and the picture changed, but the question remained.

How would you describe each of the men above if you had to?

Joan looked at the picture of the same men naked. The black man was muscular, and the white man was toned. The black man was taller than the white man. The only significant difference between the men, other than one was white and the other black, was that the black man's penis was significantly larger.

Joan clicked on the Next button, and the question and the picture remained, but the image was zoomed in on the men's penises.

Joan clicked Next again, and the question changed.

Does the above photo make you feel uncomfortable?

"No."

Are you comfortable being nude?

"If you're asking if I'm comfortable in my own skin, yes."

Would you feel comfortable being naked in front of the men pictured above?

"I don't know."

Joan wondered why a marriage retreat would show pictures of naked men on their website.

Joan clicked Finish Later, and the page refreshed and returned to the Home Page.

* * *

"How was your day?" Joan asked as Carl walked in the

door.

Carl put down his briefcase, smiled, "It was a day."

Joan kissed Carl and said, "I talked with Dianne today."

"I know," Carl said. "Jack called me."

"Oh?"

"Yeah," Carl explained, "Jack says you and Dianne are going to a women's retreat next week."

"I haven't said yes yet," Joan said.

Carl layed his coat on the back of the couch, loosened his tie, unbuttoned the top two buttons of his shirt, and said, "If you want to go, I'm fine with that."

Joan said, "It's just for three days."

"As I said, if you want to go, go."

Carl picked up his coat and walked toward the bedroom.

As Joan watched Carl undress, she thought about the picture of the naked men, and Carl had a normal-sized penis like the white man in the picture.

"You really wouldn't mind?"

"Why would I?"

"I don't know."

"You said it was just for three days."

"It is."

"Then what's the problem?"

"Won't you miss me?"

"Of course I will, but you need your time, too."

Carl had always been agreeable, and Dianne didn't explicitly say what happened at the retreat when the wives went unattended. Still, the picture of the naked men made Joan think it was more than a couple's retreat.

"I don't have to go," Joan said.

"I know."

"It's to check out a marriage retreat."

"Okay."

Joan undressed and asked, "Are you happy?"

"Yeah, I guess. But something tells me you're not."

"I am, for the most part."

Joan cupped Carl's penis and testicles and said, "You know I love you, right?"

"I do, and I love you."

"Do you like it when I touch you?"

"I do."

"Why don't you touch me like this?"

"I don't know."

Joan always enjoyed touching Carl. And she liked it when he used to touch her as often as she touched him. Because Carl was so self-sufficient, Joan rarely felt wanted or needed and longed for a man's touch.

The retreat was important to Joan because she hoped it would help her and Carl's marriage and bring back the fun and excitement.

Joan massaged Carl's balls and asked him if he wanted to play.

"I just got home, Joan."

"But you're almost there."

"Whose cock are you looking at?"

"Yours."

"I'm not hard."

"But you could be. Don't I turn you on?"

"You do."

"How so?"

"I don't know. You just do."

Joan asked Carl, "Why can't you get hard for me?"

Carl sighed, "I do."

"We have toys," Carl said.

"Yeah, but I prefer the real thing."

Carl looked down, and Joan grabbed his wrist and put his hand between her legs.

"Why don't you ever want to play with me?"

"I do."

"Why don't you just come home someday, throw me on the bed, and have your way with me?"

"But what if you're not in the mood?"

"Why don't you fucking try sometime?" Joan screamed.

Carl pulled his hand from between Joan's legs.

"I don't think this is the right time."

"Are you fucking kidding me?"

Carl's lips quivered, and his knees felt weak. "I don't know."

"Oh, my fucking God, Carl!"

Carl felt like a five-year-old boy, and Joan wasn't backing down.

"I put your hand between my legs because I thought you might put a finger or two in me."

"I'm sorry."

Joan's phone rang, and she walked into the kitchen and answered it.

"Hey, Dianne."

"You busy?"

"Nope. Nothing is going on."

"Hey, we're having a friend over tonight, and I thought you might want to come over."

"Okay, but why?"

"Oh, I don't know," Dianne said. "Maybe to have a little fun."

In her mind, Joan saw herself walking into Dianne's house, and their friend turned out to be the black man from the website. And he's naked.

"Are you still there?" Dianne asked.

"Yeah, yeah."

"He's going to be here around eight-thirty. And an FYI, he likes women who wear dresses with no panties or bra."

"Wait. What? "

Dianne giggled. "He can get a bit handsy."

Joan thought about her white over-the-shoulder sundress and sitting beside Dianne's friend. He puts his hand on her thigh, and she lets him pull her legs apart. He looks at her and smiles as his index and middle finger enter her vagina. Joan puts her hand on his and pushes his fingers deeper within her. Joan looks over at Dianne, acting like nothing is happening. Dianne smiles at Joan and says, "I told you he was handsy."

Dianne's friend whispers, "You like it, don't you?"

Joan nods, and he pulls her dress off her shoulders, exposing her supple breasts and erect pink nipples. He cups and massages her right breast and lightly licks and sucks on her left nipple.

Dianne's friend whispers, "Open your mouth."

As Joan opens her mouth, the stranger's tongue mingles with hers. Joan wraps her arms around him, and he shoves his fingers deeper.

"Are you still with me?" Dianne asked.

"Yes."

"I thought I lost you there."

"You said to wear something that made me easily accessible."

"That's one way to put it," Dianne said.

"Okay. Yeah, I'll be right over."

"That's great. Maybe you can let Jack shave you."

"Okay, Yeah. Sure. Give me a few, and I'll be right over."

Joan could barely contain her excitement. She had created a fantasy about a man she hadn't even met.

"Are you going somewhere?" Carl asked.

"Um, yeah. Dianne wants me to come over for a while."

"How long are you planning on being there?"

Joan jokingly asked, "Why? Are you planning on having a woman over?"

"Yeah. Right. No. Dan asked me to go out and have a beer with him, and since you're not going to be here anyway, I thought... "

"Yeah. Okay. Then it works. Okay."

"So, how long?"

"Well," Joan said. "Jack has to shave me, and they're having a friend over, and he likes to get handsy."

Carl kissed Joan and said, "Look, I want you to have fun when you can, whether I'm around or not."

"Did you hear what I said?" Joan asked.

"Yes, I did. He sounds like a great guy."

"Really?"

"Yeah," Carl said. "Go have a good time. And I might spend the night at Dan's place if we end up drinking too much."

"Really?"

"Yeah, that means you get that king-sized bed to yourself all night and can do whatever you want on it... because you can."

In disbelief, Joan asked, "So I can have a man over and have him sleep with me?'

"Yes," Carl said. "Let's consider tonight a hall pass for both of us?"

"Serious?"

"Yes!" Carl said. "Tonight, we're single. We don't answer to anyone, and neither of us has to know what the other did."

Joan smiled. "I'll tell you everything when you get home."

Carl laughed. "And I'll want to know every dirty little detail."

Joan sneered at Carl and asked, "What if he's bigger than you? "

Carl quipped, "I hope he is. You deserve it."

Carl kissed Joan and said, "All kidding aside, go have fun and do whatever you need to do."

Carl grabbed his keys and said, "Look, just have a good time and tell your new boyfriend that he has until three o'clock tomorrow afternoon to do whatever he and you decide to do."

Joan knew Carl was joking, but he sounded serious. He was okay with Jack shaving her and with her having a man over for sex.

"WTF! What is he planning on doing that I don't have to know about?"

Joan decided that if Carl was going to go out, get drunk and spend the night with his friends, she should, too.

As Carl pulled out of the driveway, Dianne called again.

"Hey, I'm glad you trust Jack enough to let him shave you."

"Yeah. I'm sure he'll be careful."

"He will," Dianne said. "He's so excited to do it for you."

"Does he shave you?" Joan asked.

"He does. And it's a lot cheaper and less painful than waxing."

"That's great," Joan said. "I'll be there as soon as I can."

Joan had a full bush and had never thought of having Carl, let alone another man, shave her, and now she was going to let her best friend's husband shave her pussy. Joan liked Jack, but she'd not been naked in front of another man since she and Carl married.

"What the hell am I doing? This is crazy. Dianne is my best friend, and she wants me to let her husband shave me, and I'm going to. I'm going to spread my legs for my best friend's husband."

Joan showered, put on her makeup and sundress, brushed her hair, grabbed her purse, and walked out the door. "Holy shit! I'm really doing this. I'm going to my best friend's house to spread my legs for her husband, and possibly get fucked by her lover."

Joan grinned. "Okay, Carl, you said it. Tonight, we're single. We don't answer to anyone, and neither of us has to know what the other did."