Chastity and Slavery in a Cult

I knew that I was erotically aroused by whipping scenes in films. Later, I tried in vain to persuade my girlfriends to beat me for sexual reasons. I was almost 30 years old when I started looking for a religious sect where offenders are treated harshly. This is how I ended up at the Congregation of Divine Love, and I was thrilled to see that they took the practice of penance very seriously there.

The sect was led by eight people, 4 men and 4 women, who were the spiritual leaders and confessors. The youngest of them was about 35 years old. Her name was Odette, and she was a beautiful, blonde girl. I thought I could see the traces of much suffering on her face. I addressed her and told her that I wanted to confess my sins to her. Odette gave me an appointment for the next afternoon. She warned me to recall all my sins in my memory until then. The next day, she was alone with me, and I told her that I had been masturbating every day since puberty, and I wanted to stop. She stated that, in God's judgement, my sin was very grave. Not only I had to stop masturbating immediately, but I also need to do penance to atone for my past sins. Penance means that I have to be a slave to one of the spiritual leaders for 3 years. I wanted to be her slave, and Odette agreed.

Looking at her stern face, I knew that being a slave would be exciting. Gentle sex is very enjoyable, but I was much more interested in exciting sex, even if it meant suffering for it.

Odette discussed everything with the leadership. She told me that in order to become a slave, I had to take a vow of obedience. While the long vow is being recited, it is customary to whip the slave to test his obedience. In the evening, we left the sect and went to Odette's flat, and two other women from the leadership came with us.

After we arrived, the two witnesses sat down on chairs, and they asked me to kneel in front of Odette's empty chair and pray. She took a long time to get ready. Finally, she came in wearing a short, black leather dress, her arms and thighs bare. I saw a real whip in her hand. It looked like a fearsome instrument. It was thick and flexible. She told me that because of my sins, I would be her slave for 3 years. This was the decision of the spiritual leaders. She asked me if I accepted this sentence. I said yes, and my throat tightened with excitement. I knew that there was no turning back for me, and that what promised to be very frightening and alluring would come to pass. I didn't know if I would be able to endure the upcoming torture, beatings, and sexual deprivation. I let everything happen the way Odette and the cult usually did these things.

Odette sat down opposite me, close to me. She instructed me to prepare my sinful body for the vow of obedience by undressing to the waist. I took off my shirt to present my back to the whip, and Odette slowly recited the vow, word by word, which I had to repeat. After every second word, she raised her arm and struck my back with the whip. Her hairless, smooth armpits flashed right in front of me. The sight was wonderful, and I felt the warm scent of her skin.

The first blows hurt a lot, but after that, my back started to become numb. The crack of the whip was a very erotic sound to me. In my mind, I wished that this scene would last a long time. Fortunately, Odette prolonged the vow. She added that if I did not fulfill my mistress's wishes, I would receive many lashes, as described in the Gospel. Then she stated the positive purpose of penance, the cessation of sin, and purification, also striking my back every two words. We also asked for God's help in fulfilling the vow, also accompanied by the cracking sounds.

Finally, she extended her hand to me, which I kissed, and she said that she sincerely wished me success in fulfilling my vow. The other two women did the same. They said goodbye, and we were left alone.

Odette sternly reiterated that I shouldn't even think about masturbating. If I ever think of that word, I must confess it to her immediately. And I would receive a severe punishment. After that, she sent me home.

At home, I thought that she had beaten me with a truly skilled hand. I could relive the whipping at any time if I told her that I had thought about masturbating. That night, I slept on my stomach because my back was sore.

The next day, Odette told me that from then on, I should always be near her in the sect. And in the evening, I should go to her flat with her. I had to do housework there. Then she said:

"Your body is my slave, but I am also your spiritual guide. Your thoughts and emotions must be sinless. You will talk to me about these. Now go home!"

On the way, I thought that I could never tell her that I don't believe in God and that I only use the cult for sexual thrills. I decided that, apart from that, I would fully reveal my other feelings to her. Essentially, I was in love with her.

The next evening, after the housework, Odette ordered me to go with her to the bathroom. I undressed her, shaved her, bathed her, and cut her toenails short. I would have loved to cover her entire body with kisses, but I always followed her instructions to the letter. She lay down on the bed in the room, and I had to lick her genitals for a very long time. Finally, she sighed and sent me home. Once again, I had something to think about, as her back was densely covered with long scars from old whippings. What had this girl done to be punished so much?

For weeks, my slavery consisted of repeating the above. Bathing, licking. In the meantime, I tried to be very kind to her, but not in a servile way, but in a manly way. By then, when I was bathing her I was also completely naked so that my clothes wouldn't get wet, and that way she could see exactly what effect she had on me. From the second time on, she lay on her back while being licked, holding a riding crop with which she guided me by striking my back.

In the sect, I slowly learned things from gossip. The eight spiritual leaders proclaimed that they were already spiritual beings, and that physical circumstances were irrelevant to them. They were above physical matters, regardless of whether those things were good or bad. In secret, they interpreted this to mean that all kinds of indulgences for their bodies were permissible, because these things did not matter to them. Any kind of debauchery or perversion was allowed for the spiritual leaders. And they enjoyed them to the fullest.

I also learned that Odette had only been a spiritual leader for two years. Before that, she had been a slave for eight years, so she had served each of the four male leaders for two years in succession.

Odette was enjoying the licking more and more, and she was becoming increasingly interested in me. She asked me about my thoughts and feelings every day. I had been her slave for over a month. One evening, at the end of the sermon in the sect, an accusation was made that Odette was treating me too kindly, and that this form of slavery was not conducive to repentance. The leader of the sect threatened to investigate the matter the next day. Two of them approached me and told me that tonight I shouldn't go to Odette's flat, but straight to my own flat. They escorted me on the way, and in the meantime, they asked for my mobile phone for a day so that Odette couldn't call me.

I was left alone at home, and I pondered what I could do. There was a sex shop nearby, which, of course, was open even late at night. I bought a short whip and a metal chastity belt for men, that is, a lockable penis cage. I quickly put it on my penis, and with the whip, I mercilessly struck my back thirty times. I expected the cage to lock my penis only for one day, since I have the key.

The next day, the accusation against us was repeated, but I took off my shirt in front of the entire sect, and everyone could see the red welts from the whipping on my back. I also pulled down my trousers in front of our judges so that they could see the cage. Meanwhile, I spoke about how prayer and repentance fill me with joy despite all the hardship and pain, because I am doing something pleasing to God at Odette's command. Seeing the evidence of Odette's cruelty, our judges dropped the charges, but they were very interested in where the key to the cage was. I replied that my mistress had the key. The judges insisted that Odette bring the key tomorrow and hand it over to them for safekeeping. I was terrified because the trick with the cage was turning serious.

I was with Odette in the evening. She was shocked by what I had done to myself in order to remain her slave. I confessed that I was in love with her and that I couldn't bear it if the judges handed me over to someone else as a slave. She kissed me, hugged me, and our hearts were filled with joyous love. I handed her the key, which had a special pattern and could not be copied. And we have to hand this key over to the leaders tomorrow. So, in the morning, the cage will be locked, and it will remain locked for three years without the key. She opened the cage, and we made love wildly all night long.

The next morning, she put the chastity cage back on me and took its key to the sect, as instructed. I continued my penance, now with my genitals locked away.

In the evening, she asked me about spiritual matters, and I told her that when I was a little boy, two things attracted me erotically. Beautiful women's armpits and scenes of flogging in films. She thought for a moment, then leaned in very close to my face and said:

"If this is who you are deep down in your soul, then embrace yourself and don't be afraid to sacrifice the skin on your back. Now you can kiss my armpit, and then you will lick my labia, and if you get too excited, I will calm your body down with a whip. It won't be a problem that you don't come, because I'll not just come for myself, but I'll also come for you."

And it happened just as she said.

According to God, it is a good thing that my body suffers for my sins. Obviously, He doesn't mind if I enjoy this good thing.

As far as my cage allows it...