When I Hurt

We all get hurt in our journey of life. Most of the time we cause our own pain. Part of healing process is to admit not someone else fault. The next step is saying sorry and making changes to do better. That's hard work and takes time.

What happens when someone hurt us. We too often blame ourselves for the words or actions of someone else. I think one of hardest pains, is rejection. After my breakup and feeling hurt, I didn't know how to deal with losing my soulmate. She left me saying," she needed some time to be alone." Here I am heartbroken for the year now.

I looked on the internet when I met Jen. We talked for a while and we became friends. We would talk every day for over two months. We would share kinks and fetishes. She became my online mistress. She would give me few tasks each day and I love it. I shared how I like to be watched. She told me that was pretty common kink that people have. I like how up front she is. She doesn't own me but is giving me a little taste how to serve a mistress.

While I like her and respect her, I understand we are just friends. Some people are just that friends. She asked me not to masturbate for as long as I could. This wasn't a command but a request. She also requested that I give her few hours' notice before I would touch myself. This sounded like a challenge for me. I view this as a personal challenge to see for myself how long I could control myself.

Nearly month into self-control and I started to doubt myself how much longer could I hold out. I texted her and told her I was getting near my limits. She wanted to do live video chat with me. That evening we started our video chat like normally, but then her friend Tina shows up. They been friends since college.

While they were sitting next to each other Jen introduces her friend Tina. This is kind a blind date. She told her about me but neither of us knew this was going to be a meet and greet. Being skeptical and nerve wracking, Jen surprises her by sharing common connection we both have. Kink of being watched. Tina wants to watch male masturbating in front of her. I could see how red Tina face is. I'm in shock as much as is Tina.

We both have a nervous giggle when we made eye contact. Not sure what to say, when you first meet a lady. I made silly joke, "Oh Tina nice to meet you? After dinner want to look at my snack?" We all started laughing at the awkwardness of the situation. I thought we all needed to laugh to break the ice.

We talk about our pass relationships and qualities we seek in potential partner. Neither of us knew, Jen was going to do this or say what she did. We decided in the end to meet in person. Jen returned and noticed we were getting along. We both thank her for introducing us, as we said our goodbye. The night didn't go as planned in my opinion. I also lost the mood and felt disappointed. I went from building up my excitement and looking forward to some sexual relief, to being let down.

The night ended with going on a date with someone. Tine seems to be opened and easy to know. I was happy to have a busy start to my day. I didn't have any time to masturbate. All I could think about is my date with Tina. We were going to have dinner and movie date. This is what I needed for long time spend a evening having fun with someone.

When I got home, went into the shower to wash up. I turn on some music went in the shower. Tina walks into my bathroom and sits quietly. I didn't even know she was there. I felt myself getting excited and needed to stroke my hard cock. Being naughty, slapping my ass while stroking myself then switching back to spanking. I enjoy edging and making myself cum when I least expect. I got into the doggie position for the first time finger fuck my asshole. Just then I heard a noise.

I saw the shower curtain move and saw pair of heels standing. We made eye contact as I look up its Tina. The feeling of embarrassed ran through my body. She lifted her foot for me to kiss and order me get out of the shower. I obey my Asian queen walk into living room. I never dated an Asian lady before and only been with one other. Excited and nervous all at the same time. No one has ever watch me masturbate.

I knew this is her fantasy, but could I masturbate in front of her. She saw how my body soften. I felt humiliated because my cock betrays me. I apologize to her and admit I never done anything like this before. She lower top of her dress revealing her perky tits. Upon seeing her, I decide to try again.

I stared at her tits as I play with my cock. She looks intently as I grow to full erection. I aim for her chest as she grabs my ass inserting her finger. I came so hard at the moment. I felt she own me from that point. I would obey her whatever she says.

We clean up and finished our date. We talk and laugh at dinner. The night went perfectly. We really have good chemistry. Tina is easy to know but don't cross her. I understood her, she has kinks and naughty side, but she is respectable lady who works hard each day. Her and Jen are best friends. They are in many ways completely different. I like that Tina can be classy and naughty depending on the situation and her moods. She keeps me on my toes.

Week later I'm invited over to Tina house for get together. She has couple of her female coworkers over from the hospital. She tells them how much she is in love and how much she enjoys owning me. She tells her friends, I will do anything she commands. Her friends shook their heads in disbelieve.

I pull my pants down to prove my obedience. Tina takes off her shirt and bra and sits next to her two other friends who are doing the same. I never saw so many boobs in all my life. This is a dream come true. Tina orders me to masturbate. The women start getting handsy, touching my cock and ass. I dance for them. The women giggle. Tina starts to suck my cock, while the other women yell, " suck his cock!"

One of women started grinding her pussy against my ass. She humps me so much she came. Tina bent over spread her tight little pussy open. I fuck her right there in front of her friends. This felt unreal to me, because I never been in such a situation before. After we finished her other friend masturbated on the couch.

This is some party. I'm told to leave but be ready for next week. I went back home and told Jen all about my night. When I talk to Jen later, she was excited to hear all about the details. I thank her for the blind date with Tina.