Diary of a Cockslut Ch. 05

September 24 - Cockslut serves David's Cock Again

I can't stop thinking about David's cock. I got to really worship it again at a hotel on Thursday night, September 24. It was beautiful: THICK, long, hard as stone, straight, just a wonderful head. I loved pleasing him with my mouth and ass. My best experience being fucked by a man so far.

Here's how it went:

I met him at a hotel again. This time he was waiting in the room. I arrived and freshened myself up for him in the bathroom.

I came out naked, told him, "I'm all yours. How do you want to use me?" And immediately bent over the bed and presented my ass to him. Face down on the bed, ass as high as I could raise it.

He came over, still dressed, and explored me with his soft hands.

He fucked me for about 25 minutes, just incredible... slightly gentler than last time so I could truly enjoy it without the little pain of him when he went so deep and bottomed out in me. The whole time, I was moaning uncontrollably and begging for it, sometimes a little incoherently. Telling him my ass was his, to make it his pussy, to use my holes, that he owned me.

He took a quick break as he washed off and then had me get on all fours and suck him like his slut puppy. Then he sat on the edge of the bed and had me really kneel and worship him and his balls. Grabbing my head and holding me so I took all his cock. I tried to improve and blow him as well as I could, enthusiastically licking, especially right near the head. And taking him deep and suctioning as strongly as I could. As I sucked ferociously, I could also taste his precum - finally!

And even better, I could really see this amazing cock that had been so patiently stretching my ass and making me crave being that full. The cock that was making me crave cock. The cock that is as turning my ass gay as fuck. Sucking him I really got to see how fucking big he is, two hands long, thick, and hard to take too deep in my mouth without hitting the back of my throat. And what a beautiful head!

After a few minutes of sucking, he bent me over the bed and pushed back in, resuming his relentless assault on my ass and what little semblance I had left of heterosexuality. He was fucking me GAY with a vengeance.

My ass was still tight enough to please him but now with much less resistance. He rocked in and out so smoothly. I grunted and moaned constantly. I kept begging for him. I wanted to say slutty things but this was now coming out involuntarily, near incoherently.

He picked up the pace and I was outside myself, making animalistic noises that didn't make sense. Just pure need and lust and desire crying out.

He started to cry out as well. It was ridiculously intense.

After 15 more minutes or so, this fuck built to a crescendo, and his cock started throbbing inside me. He pulled out, ripped off the condom, and came on my back and then bed. He cums quite a bit, but his jets were going far and alas went over me, splattering my ass like time.

I was spent, so was he. I was so proud to have made him cum so hard. Oh god, it was such a good feeling to make him cum with my ass. To know he'd lost himself just like I had.

I showered. We talked for a sec after.

Fuck, his whole body is in great shape - hard and tight.

And later that night I was already texting him to ask for more next week...

By the way, I didn't cum, I didn't think about it, and I didn't try or even want to. I haven't tried to cum when he fucks me, I'm 100% focused on pleasing his cock. At most, I felt my cock twitch and leak a little at points but it was nothing I leaned into. I was just a hole for him to use, an object to please his cock. Maybe in the future we'll try different positions for David to make me cum from fucking me, but not yet, I want to please his cock A LOT before even thinking about that.

October 2 - Cockslut is an Eager Hole for David

I kept sexting with David and set up another hotel date. I'm really becoming a hole to please his cock. We're both now seeing this as a regular, continuing thing. At some point, is he my dom? My boyfriend? Sexy titles but I'm just thinking of him as a huge ass-stretching, sexuality-changing cock that I get to serve as often as I can. I can't believe my luck to have found a guy this hot, with a huge cock, who can fuck this hard but also be gentle, who's patient with me being new at this, and who also always plays safe - condoms and LOTS of lube.

I've also been incredibly lucky to have other friends I can chat with online about my experiences and how they are changing or intensifying my sexuality. Especially my submissive side. They have really encouraged me to keep going with David and to explore my most submissive fantasies too: becoming an openly gay bottom, coming out to more friends (which I have -- so hot!), hooking up with more strangers... and more extreme but hotter things like becoming a cum dump for a group of men, getting put in stocks and fucked by cock after cock. They've even challenged me to beg to suck a friend's cock in real life - incredibly hot to think about (I am that submissive!) but not sure I'd risk a friendship like that.

Which is all just to say I'm basically a constantly horny submissive gay bottom slut so it's not surprising that I'm that way with David too.

On Friday October 2, I met him at a hotel again. I'd begged in our sexts for his cock, telling him how badly my ass wanted to be a pussy for him (his favorite way to put it), and that I couldn't stop thinking about his huge cock stretching me open (very true).

This session continued to focus on him fucking my ass deeper and harder as I get better at taking his girth and length. A little bit of sucking but most gentle fucking increasing in depth and pace as he pounds me harder and I start being ridiculously loud. It's at the point where I instinctively strip, bend over, and present my eager ass, wiggling it in excitement. He lubes me thoroughly and gently pushes in until I'm completely full. Stretched. And then he starts railing me. And I'm crying out like crazy, usually just moaning/grunting but now vocalizing how badly I need his cock, begging him to fuck me harder, and asking him to cum inside me. This time we alternated a couple different positions, each trying to get him deeper. I'd try to find ways to fuck my ass on his cock - he seems to really like that. And to reach back, grabs his cheeks, and pull him deeper into me... even when it's so deep it's a little uncomfortable. And always always pulling myself as wide apart and open as possible to truly take him smoothly and deeply.

My ass seems to be getting better at stretching to take him and enjoying the sensations more. More relaxed. More pleasurable. And more... in his control and aware that I'm a tool to please his cock. It is truly addictive.

After a while, as I was truly wailing, he started to as well... and then he came, screaming, deep in my ass. He was wearing a condom so not the full effect -- but I'm very glad we were being safe.

He lay down over me after. Holding me. Taking time. Both of us recovering from the intensity.

Fuck, it's mind-blowing how eager I am to strip, bend over, and present my ass for him to use. I love what I've become and am becoming -- a true bottom, focused on pleasing cock.

After, he talked to me a bit about meeting up again, his other experiences, and my fantasies... including him fucking me in front of others. Which he seems interested in...

We parted.

Through the week, we kept up sexting and quickly set another date for the next Friday...