All I Have to Do is Dream - Ch. 4

All I Have to Do is Dream Ch. 4

[Author's Note: I changed Chapter 3 to make a better ending for the story. I think in the long run, it was the right decision. Someone once told me that you write the stories for yourself but you publish them for the people who will read them. And it was in that vein that I changed Chapter Three to have the ending that it currently has. However, Chapter Four had originally been part of the plot along with Chapters Two and Three. I decided to put this out as an alternate ending just to see how it gets received. If you have read the other stories, forget about the conversation that Buddy has with Pamela the night before the wedding. That was all part of the edit to end the story at Chapter Three. If you have not read any of the other stories... I hate to give homework but I don't think this Chapter makes sense on its own. My suggestion would be: 1) Skip the original story. All you need to know is that the main character, Buddy, has a long relationship with Pamela which turns out to all be in his dreams; 2) Read all of Chapter Two and most of Chapter Three until you get to the part of the night before the wedding when Buddy and Pamela have a conversation; 3) Skip the rest of Chapter Three and read this Chapter. This way you are completely up to speed. The original story was more a cathartic exercise for me then an attempt to put out an enjoyable story. I do hope anyone who enjoyed Chapters Two and Three enjoys this as well. However, I will not be offended if anyone wants to get off the train now.]

Kathy and I were now at our honeymoon location. Between travel and check-in and dinner, it was already getting late. We went to our bed and laid down, wrapped in each other's arms. I looked into Kathy's eyes and said, "This isn't our first night together but it's our first night together as wife and husband. I will try to make it really good for you."

And that's when we heard, "She is an incredible woman and she deserves the best ever, not just really good." And into the light walked Pamela. She had on a hunter green bra and panty set that was not covering very much skin.

Kathy and I turned to each other with shock in our eyes. "Is this your dream or mine?" Kathy asked.

"I don't know. I don't think this is a dream. It can't be a dream." This last comment had the sound of panic in it and my mind was trying to decide if somehow the last two years of Kathy's and my relationship had just been one long dream.

Pamela smiled and said, "This is not a dream. This is real. I am real. And I am really here."

I stared at Pamela in complete astonishment. Her actual presence was so unfathomable that I did not initially register how hot she was in that lingerie. I said, "You were in my dreams. I know they were dreams."

She just smiled at me and said, "Yes Buddy. I existed in your dreams."

I looked over at Kathy but she had no idea what to make of all this either, so I turned back to Pamela and said, "And you even went into a dream of Kathy's?"

Pamela just continued to smile and said, "Yes, I existed there too." She turned toward Kathy and said, "And that was an incredible time, Kathy. Really incredible."

"Uhh, thanks?" This was all so much to take in and Kathy was not really sure what to think or say.

I said, "I don't understand that."

Pamela turned back and if possible, her smile was even bigger. She said, "But you're still going to keep trying, aren't you Buddy. Your whole species is driven to try to understand. Every culture at every point on the globe all the way back to antiquity has tried to understand. It is something the Entity really enjoys about all of you."

"The Entity?" both Kathy and I asked in unison.

"Yes, the Entity. The creator of all things."

"God?"

Now Pamela was laughing and that actually got me a little annoyed. I said, "What's so funny?"

"From the moment your species has become literate, you have given the Entity all sorts of names, God, Allah, Ra, Zues, Jupiter, Bramah, Budda, Anu. The list goes on and on. You are all trying to figure out something you don't know or understand so you try to put it into a form you do know and can understand to help you conceptualize it."

I was now too confused to be annoyed so I tried a different tack. "You say 'the Entity' is the creator. Is that a man or a woman? Is it one being or multiple beings?"

"Yes." was Pamela's answer. I could see the love and compassion in her eyes mixed with a little frustration but not the kind that makes you upset."

"I still don't understand."

"Of course you don't Buddy and that's to be expected. The best answer for you is self-evident from the question itself. 'What is the creator of the whole universe like?' How could you possibly think you would be able to understand or comprehend or even come close to comprehending that which has the power to create the entire universe?

"The Entity created everything. The Entity is not just beyond infinity; the Entity is outside of infinity. The Entity is not bound by the temporal constraints you are. You can say the word 'infinity' but you cannot truly understand it, feel it in your bones, truly wrap your mind around it."

Kathy now jumped in, "But how does the Entity allow all the terrible things that happen in the world if the Entity has such power?"

Pamela turned to her and now she was not smiling. With a very serious look she said, "I don't know Kath. Like you, I do not have the ability to comprehend that which created the entire universe. I will say that until now, my existence has been far less temporal than yours. As mine is now. So I always saw things from a perspective outside of the temporal world you live in. I always grieved at Buddy's pain but I knew that when compared to forever, the pain in his life was of no moment. It was to him in his temporal world, and I grieved for that. But so much of what you think and feel comes through that temporal prism. It looks very different from outside that and so its impact on how you think is very different. While I could not fully understand Buddy's pain, I could see how it affected him over the years. I very much enjoyed that I could help ease his pain at times." Then she looked at me and the smile was back. Pamela said, "You are very important to me and I do love you very much."

Kathy now suddenly had multiple questions, "What about me? Where do I fit in all this? Why did you come into my dream? Were you sent by the Entity?"

The smile immediately disappeared again as Pamela turned to Kathy and said, "First, you have to understand. I always saw you as Buddy saw you. What I knew of you was what was in Buddy's mind. I love you too, Kath, very much. You are the same kind, smart, funny, beautiful woman to me that Buddy knows you to be. You are as perfect to me as you are to him. How could I not love you?

"As for coming into your dream. Well, I really should not have done that. At least I was not supposed to do that. Or maybe I was. Again, the Entity is not temporally linear. The Entity already knows what has happened, what is happening and what will happen. So, I was not 'sent' by the Entity in that I did not receive an order or directive. It was a choice I made and it was a choice against what I would say I knew I was supposed to do. In your parlance, I guess you could say I knew I was breaking the rules when I did it.

"As for why, I told you I know Buddy's mind. I knew how happy he was with your ongoing relationship and I could sense he was beginning to think that you were having some doubts about it. I just wanted a chance to remind you of how great Buddy is in so many ways. I wanted you to focus on those things instead of the things that he isn't. Those things are truly less important but sometimes they get the lion's share of the attention."

I suddenly felt horrified. She had apparently broken some rule going into Kathy's dream to help me out and now she had been kicked out of whatever or wherever she had been before now. I said, "I'm so sorry Pamela. You got into trouble helping me out."

She looked back at me and was perplexed. "What are you talking about, Buddy?"

"You went into Kathy's dream to help me and you got in trouble and now you got kicked out of your angel thing because of it."

This brought back the smile to her face and she said, "You dear, sweet man. First, that you think of me as an angel. I know what that means in your mind. And while it is not accurate in any way, it is such a kind-hearted thought that so few people would have. You truly are one of a kind. And second, that you are worried for me shows me that you still care for me.

"But Buddy, your premise is wrong. This isn't a punishment, it's a gift. I get to fully experience this existence, not just briefly touch it when that plane of existence you call dreams briefly runs together with this one. The only question now is whether I will be able to experience it with the two of you.

"Buddy, I have wanted for so long for you to be happy and I know that you finally are. Kathy is everything you have ever wanted. So, I know this is a lot to ask but I would like to share her with you.

"And Kathy, I think I know you well enough to know that you have decided that Buddy is so much more than he might appear from an outside glance. You have sought a happiness that had eluded you for so long. Then you finally saw Buddy in a way that made you realize that his differences were the things you wanted and needed. So, I know it would be a lot to ask but I would like to share Buddy with you.

"And I know that you both have just started this new journey together. You both truly believe you have finally found that person that will make your shared lives special and full of happiness. It is a beautiful story. I am new to this existence and I would very much like to learn how to navigate it by watching the two of you go through it with each other. Seeing you deal with the good and the bad, being the support and the love for each other to get you through it all. So, I know it would be a lot to ask but I would like the two of you to share your relationship with me.

Kathy's expression was sphynx-like and I did not want to say anything that I would regret. To buy some time, I looked back at Pamela and said, "Before we make any kind of decision, there is something you would need to know. Kathy is my priority. If it makes her happy, that's great. But if she is not happy with something, then it is not something I want in our lives. I lied to you Pamela when you asked if you were still my number one girl and I said 'Yes.' Kathy is and always will be. Does that change whether you would still want to do this?"

Pamela looked at me and said, "Of course not Buddy. I knew you were lying to me when you said that. But you were lying because you didn't want to make me feel bad. It was classic Buddy."

Kathy started laughing to my right and I turned to her and said, "What?"

Kathy stopped laughing and then answered, "She knows you too well Buddy. She's been in your mind and knows how it works. You'll never be able to lie to her. And if you try to lie to her about something that involves me, she'll tell me." Kathy looked over to Pamela and said, "Right?"

"Right. Buddy, you might be my Number One Guy, but Kathy is my Number One Girl. So, are you still sure about this?"

Pamela was looking at us expectantly and Kathy and I turned toward each other. Kathy's eyes were all hope and expectation waiting for me to give my answer. I'm a guy so of course I wanted to. But I also loved Kathy and would not have agreed to it if she had not been on board. Since she was clearly on board with this, the answer was easy, "Kathy, I think it would be wonderful to have Pamela be some part of our lives as well. Don't you agree?"

Kathy said, "Absolutely.

Pamela screamed out "YEAH!" and she jumped onto the bed right in between Kathy and me. We both wrapped our arms around Pamela and we shared a hug.

When the hug ended, Pamela bounced out of the bed and said, "Okay, so I believe when I first came in there was something about making this the best night ever for Kathy." Pamela lifted the top of her lingerie off her body. She still had on a small G-string but was otherwise naked. Then she added, "C'mon Buddy, it's time for us to take care of our Number One girl."

At that Kathy hopped up onto her knees in the middle of the bed. She was wearing her own sexy lingerie. A white, gossamer-like baby doll. Kathy did not say anything but she raised her arms over her head. Pamela and I got the hint and we lifted the garment over Kathy's head. Then we both took a breast and we each began lavishing a nipple and areola.

After a few minutes of licking around with my tongue and sucking on the now hard nipple, I began moving up Kathy's chest, planting little licks and kisses as I went.

I kissed up Kathy's neck and kissed her chin. I put my lips to hers and we shared a sensuous kiss, occasionally interrupted by a moan as Pamela was continuing to worship Kathy's breast. At one point, Kathy broke the kiss and we looked at each other almost eye to eye. Kathy said, "I love you so much Buddy. How come it took me so long to see just how amazing you are?"

Before I could say anything, Pamela moved back from Kathy's chest and said, "His best features are not that easy to see from the outside. You really have to look closely or you can miss them." Then she smiled at us and said, "Kathy, lay back down."

Kathy lay down on the bed and Pamela moved in between her legs. She lifted Kathy's legs up and scooted herself up toward Kathy and put Kathy's heels on her shoulders. Then Pamela reached down and took a hold of Kathy's panties and pulled them up about midway along Kathy's legs. Pamela then looked at me and said, "You have an incredible wife. She's not only kind and smart and beautiful, but she has an inner sight that lets her see you like no one else has seen you before. Well, almost no one."

We all smiled at the implication of Pamela's comment. Pamela then took Kathy's heels in her hand and raised Kathy's legs up and then bent them at the knees and put Kathy's feet on the mattress. As she started to pull Kathy's panties the rest of the way off, Pamela said to me, "Kiss you wife. I won't say you don't deserve her but never forget how lucky you are that she has agreed to join her life with yours."

I shifted up the bed and lay down so I could look at Kathy. She turned her head and smiled at me. Kathy's smile always made me feel warm inside and that feeling welled up in me again. I brushed some stray hairs from her face and Kathy and I began a very passionate kiss.

While we were engaged with each other, Pamela had spread Kathy's legs wide and slid up in between them. Suddenly, Kathy moaned into my mouth. "Uuuuuhhhhhhh." Her head tipped back, breaking the kiss. I opened my eyes and Kathy's head had lolled back and her eyes were closed. "Mmmmmmmm." was the next thing I heard and I turned my head to see what had caused this interruption.

My eyes followed down Kathy's body and when I got to her crotch I could see Pamela. Well, actually I could see part of Pamela. From the bridge of her nose up was visible. She had gotten her head in so close to Kathy's sex that the lower half of her face could not be seen. Pamela made eye contact with me. Her eyes were alight with playfulness and she gave me a wink even as her mouth was playing Kathy's vagina like a Stradivarius.

Kathy was beside herself with all of the sensory overload she was receiving from Pamela. Not always the most vocal person in bed, Kathy was very vocal at that moment. "Oh yeah, Pamela. God you're amazing. Oh yes, please. Please keep doing that. Oh my God. Yes! Yes! This is even better than last time."

I almost laughed at that comment. The "last time" had been a dream, yet it had been so vivid to Kathy that she was recalling the sensations from that dream in her waking reverie. I understood it as I had the experience of having Pamela pleasure me with her mouth in my own dreams. She had always been a skillful and passionate lover in these encounters and it appeared this was something innate in who Pamela was. Or whatever Pamela was.

Pamela had said "Angel" wasn't correct but she had been an Angel for me. And I now realized she had been a sort of Guardian Angel for me. For many years Pamela had come to my dreams when I most needed her. And she had definitely helped me in turning my relationship with Kathy from friends to lovers and now a couple. Now, Pamela was saying that she was "real" (assuming I knew what that actually meant) and she was here and she was giving tremendous pleasure to Kathy.

Feeling that maybe I wasn't doing my part to help make this the best night ever for Kathy, I began to lightly stroke the back of my fingers on one of my hands along Kathy's abdomen. Kathy said, "Buddy that feels really nice too. Please keep doing that." I turned toward her and we briefly made eye contact until Pamela did something else that caused Kathy's head to flop back, her eyes to close and another moan to emanate from her mouth. I took her hand closest to me in my unoccupied hand and held it, giving us more connection. I could feel her stomach quivering as the sensations Pamela was giving her were coursing through Kathy's body.

Pamela's eyes were now looking straight forward although with how far up into Kathy's crotch Pamela was, I doubt she could have seen what she was doing. Regardless, her efforts were focused completely on Kathy. And from the sounds Kathy was making, Pamela seemed to be doing well.

I still did not think I was doing my part to make this the best night ever for Kathy and so I moved my head down to her chest and began sucking on one of her nipples. Kathy was close to an incredible orgasm. My lips on her nipples pushed her to the edge and Pamela's tongue in Kathy's pussy and Pamela's fingers vigorously rubbing Kathy's clit sent her over into her bliss.

I first sensed it through my fingers which were playing across Kathy's abdomen. Initially, there was only the feeling of Kathy's skin rippling like tiny waves from a pebble tossed into a calm lake. Then Kathy's chest arched up off the bed and rammed her breast further into my mouth. I felt her hand squeeze mine and it actually hurt a little. I opened my eyes and I looked at Kathy's face. Her eyes were open, but her pupils had rolled back into her head. Her mouth was open but no sound was coming out.

A noise to my right drew my attention and I saw her legs flopping on the mattress. Kathy's legs were spasming as if she were getting an electric shock. That was when Kathy finally found her voice.

I heard, "OH FUCK!" Her head was back up, her eyes were closed and her face was a bit contorted as she now began a string of "FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!..." She just kept saying it faster and at a higher and higher pitch as the orgasm rolled through her.

I think only dogs heard the last three of four FUCKs. I can't be sure of the exact number because she had gone to a pitch too high for my ears to hear but her lips did appear to be moving. Then she let out a brief "AAAAAHHHHH" which was followed by a slower and softer "UUUUUUUUUHHHHHHHHH." Her legs stopped moving and her head slumped back onto the pillows.

Kathy's head was turned up toward the ceiling but her eyes remained shut. I watched her chest rise and fall and saw her breathing coming back to normal. Without changing her position or opening her eyes, Kathy said, "Pamela, that was just amazing." There was silence for about ten seconds when Kathy added, "Did I pee on you?"

Pamela raised her head. Her face had been so tight against Kathy's body that while her face from her nose up was completely dry, from her philtrum to her chin was soaked. Pamela said, "No baby you squirted. And it was incredible. You just kept shooting out that sweet girl cum and I was doing my best to keep up but there was just too much."

Kathy finally opened her eyes and picked up her head to look. Her first reaction was, "Oh Pamela, I'm so sorry."

"No Kath, don't be. That was great. We have to do that again sometime." Kathy smiled and looked at me. Then she looked at our hands. The squeezing had relaxed when the rest of her body relaxed but it suddenly registered in her head what had happened.

"Buddy, I am sorry if I hurt your hand."

"No Kath, it's fine. And that was sexy as all hell." I leaned in close to Kathy and kissed her with all the love and passion I could. While we were kissing, Pamela came and lay down on the other side of Kathy.

When we broke our kiss, Kathy turned to Pamela and said, "You reek you know?"

Pamela indignantly said, "Well, whose fault is that?"

I jumped in and said, "Kath, she smells heavenly because she smells of you." I leaned over Kathy and gave Pamela a quick kiss on her chin, which also allowed me to taste some of Kathy's cum. "Um UM!" was my reaction and then the three of us laughed.

As we stopped laughing, Pamela sat up with a very serious expression on her face. She said, "What now?"

I responded, "Well, what do you mean, for tonight, for this week, for the foreseeable future?"

Pamela smiled wryly and said, "Wow, I've got to get a handle on this whole 'time' thing. It must be so hard for you. Okay, let's start with tonight."

Kathy chimed in at this point and said, "Pamela, you wiped me out so I don't think much more would be happening tonight. I do hope you'll stay the night with us because I would like to wake up tomorrow and continue all this."

I added, "That sounds excellent to me too. Every other time when the alarm has woken me up you've been gone. I would so love to have you still here this time."

Pamela seemed a little choked up by this and she just smiled and nodded her head.

I continued, "So, that takes up to tomorrow. As for after that, what is your situation? What will you do in our existence?"

"Well, I have... connections and so my situation is that I have an apartment lease and a car. I still have a loan for the car. I have some money in a bank account so I can get through the day to day."

I asked, "What about work? If you are going to pay for your apartment and the car, will you have a job?"

"Before I say anything about that, we did talk a little bit about my being in your lives. I know you just got married and I am not trying to get in the middle of that. I have my own place and I don't want to crowd you. But I would like us to continue to spend time together and experience things together with the three of us."

Kathy now asked, "Things like we did tonight?"

Pamela smiled and said, "Well not just things like tonight but I would be very happy to do that again. More than once. I am sure I will meet other people and have other relationships. But I don't know anyone else here and I am already so close to both of you. I just want to be sure you would even want me around knowing what you know about me."

I reached over and took Pamela's hand into my own. When I did that, Kathy also put her hands around ours, one on top touching mine and one below touching Pamela. Kathy said, "Pamela, to us you are always going to be very special because you helped Buddy and me get together. It sounds like you are now a regular person like us, even if you have a unique history. And you and I have one thing in common; we both love Buddy very much. So, I am more than happy to have you be around us going forward."

"Well, I do have a confession to make. Kathy, one of the things I used my connection for was to get an offer for the job as your new assistant. I won't take it if it would make you uncomfortable."

At that point I jumped in, "Wait, how come you're not going to be my assistant. We've known each other longer." With everything else that was going on here, my reaction was asinine, I know. But Pamela had been in my dreams and only snuck into Kathy's once.

Pamela smiled and said, "First, you are thinking temporally and what I have share with both of you has not been part of a temporal existence. Second, you don't need an assistant. You have an excellent one already. And third, I wanted to be able to spend more time with Kathy. You and I have a significant history even if it was not temporal. I don't have that with Kathy. I know her only through your eyes and I want to get to know her on my own. And don't forget, if I am working with Kathy, I will also get a chance to work with you too sometimes." Now, Pamela turned to Kathy and asked, "So what do you think."

Kathy sported a devilish grin as she said, "I love it. Plus, Buddy is going to be nuts thinking that we're talking about him all the time."

Pamela playfully asked, "Won't we be?"

Kathy replied, "Not all the time?"

I now chimed in, "Do I get any say in this?"

Kathy turned to me and said, "Of course you do Buddy. But you'd better say the right thing if you want your new wife to be happy."

"Well, happy wife, happy life. I'm in."

Pamela leaned over Kathy and gave me a hug. Then she leaned back and looking at Kathy, she asked, "So you're okay with me taking the job?"

Kathy responded, "Yes, very much so. But I wasn't kidding when I said I am wiped out so I would ask my future assistant to go turn off the lights and let's go to sleep."

Kathy lay in the middle of the bed and I was sleeping on my side cuddled up with her. Pamela went and turned off the light and then got into the bed on the other side of Kathy and cuddled up to her as well. This just seemed so perfect that I was nervous and had a little trouble getting to sleep wondering what I was going to find when the alarm went off. Only I never quite found out.

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I woke up before the alarm went off to a feeling I had remembered from my past. It was a moist warmth surrounding my cock which I could feel was at full arousal. When I opened my eyes, I could see the sheet bulging up. Only this time there was pressure on both of my legs and I saw four feet sticking out of the bottom of the sheet. I pulled the sheet off of both myself and the bed and saw Pamela looking at me. At first, I was confused because I could still feel the sensation all around my crotch and then I realized it was Kathy who was giving me the pleasure.

Pamela smiled and said, "Good morning, Buddy."

I replied, "It's not my birthday and I seem to recall someone saying they would only do this on my birthday."

Pamela's smile never faltered as she said, "Well, in my semi-temporal state, every day was your birthday. Besides, this is your wife doing this. Although, I think I am going to join her." I then got to feel the sublime pleasure of two sets of lips on my penis at the same time. I had never had that before, even in my dreams and it was now briefly my reality.

Kathy did lift her head and say, "Pamela told me about the birthday thing but I said between her and I you had all the incentive you needed to stay fit and live a long time." Then Kathy winked at me and went back to helping Pamela make me cum. It was the best morning of my life up until that point but I was going to be having a lot of those as time went by.

The rest of that week was amazing. The three of us went around and saw all the sights. Pamela did spend some nights with us but on two occasions she insisted on letting Kathy and I have our "honeymoon" time. We were both in our fifties and it was not what it might have been twenty-five years earlier but we certainly made use of the time.

Pamela took the job working with Kathy, which meant she was collaborating with me some of the time as well. We never announced anything but people realized over time that our relationship was more than just work colleagues. However, as long as the quality of our work remained high, we never had any issues.

Pamela kept her apartment for a few years. She would spend some nights with us in our bed. On weekends, she would always spend one night with us and one night in the guest room. Even when Kathy and I insisted, she felt it was important to keep some boundary.

Pamela eventually gave up the apartment and moved in with us full-time. The guest room became her room. She spent about half the nights in bed with Kathy and I and half in her room. However, sometimes she would start the night in our bedroom and then sleep in hers. Pamela always said she had wanted Kathy and I together as much as we had wanted it and she did not want us to lose our own relationship. We were not a throuple and Kathy and Pamela were not sister wives. Kathy and I were a married couple and Pamela was our live-in girlfriend. It was not a typical relationship but then again, Pamela was not a typical woman. Or at least she hadn't been before... or whatever. I still had problems with the whole semi-temporal existence we had shared.

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I never spent the night alone with Pamela. And for a long time neither had Kathy. However, one Saturday afternoon they had gone shopping. They came home all smiling and being silly. For dinner that night they made my favorite and when the meal was finished, they hustled me out to the living room while they cleaned up. It had always been the rule that the cook did not have to clean up, so I knew something was up.

After a while, Kathy came out and sat next to me on the couch. She said, "Buddy, I want to talk to you for a minute." I knew they had buttered me up with dinner and not having to do the dishes and I was finally going to find out why.

Kathy turned off the television and looked into my eyes. "Buddy, I want to ask you for a favor. Well, Pamela and I want to ask you a favor." I looked into the kitchen and I could not see her but a shadow let me know that Pamela was done cleaning up and was listening although for some reason she wanted to stay out of sight.

"Sure Kath, what can I do?"

"First, you have to understand that if you want to say 'No' to what I am going to ask that would be perfectly fine and neither of us will complain or be upset."

Something caught my peripheral vision and I looked over into the kitchen. Pamela was now standing in the door and she was nodding her head. Now I really knew something was up. They must have roleplayed this conversation and gone over how to ask this and what my answers would be and how Kathy would respond. This was something we would often do when we were collaborating on a project and working on our presentation.

I looked back at Kathy and said, "What can I do for my lovely wife and our lovely girlfriend?"

Kathy suddenly got a look that seemed to suggest some doubt. This was not an answer they had anticipated and Kathy looked into the kitchen at Pamela. Neither said a word as I looked back and forth between them but a conversation took place, nonetheless. Whatever they were going to ask, they hesitated but decided to move forward.

"Buddy, Pamela and I would like to have a girls' night tonight."

"And by girls' night you mean..." I left my words hanging but the implication was clear.

Kathy replied, "Yes Buddy. Pamela and I would go to the bedroom and you would sleep in Pamela's room." I looked back to the kitchen but Pamela had slipped back out of sight.

"And if I say 'No' then there is no girls' night and neither of you well be upset at me or hold it against me?" I looked back to the kitchen and suddenly Pamela was there again. She was nodding her head.

Kathy said, "Yes Buddy. I love you and Pamela loves you (I looked back into the kitchen and again Pamela was nodding her head). If you say 'No' we'll drop it here and now. No hard feelings."

My first thought was "Why don't they want me to be with them?" Feelings of insecurity and inadequacy began to fill my head. I was about to say 'No.' but I paused. And in that pause, I thought about all the love and tenderness and intimacy that Kathy had shown me over these years. She had never given me any reason to doubt that she was still completely in love with me for all that I was and despite what I wasn't.

And what about Pamela. She had shown a level of devotion to me that caused her to be sent into our existence. And while she always said it was a gift, I still sometimes thought that she had given that up for me. And since then, she had made of point of giving Kathy and I time for us. She had been so supportive of Kathy's and my relationship.

I looked back and forth between them. They were prepared to deal with a negative answer but it was so obvious that they both very much wanted this. I still was not sure and trying to buy some time I asked, "If I say 'Yes' is this a one-time thing or what?"

Kathy said, "I can honestly say that we have no plan to ask to do this other than just for tonight." I looked over at Pamela and I guessed this was something they had expected me to ask and Kathy had just given the approved response.

Since I was looking at Pamela at that moment, I heard Kathy to my left say "But..." Pamela's face fell. It seemed as if Kathy was about to go off-script.

Kathy continued, "... if you do say 'Yes' I will definitely ask you again someday. I promise I will always go by what you decide but I won't promise I won't ever ask again."

In the end, was I really going to deny them this request? In fact, I was surprised at how unsure Pamela was about what I would decide. I guess not having been in my mind for so long was causing her to slip a little bit. I certainly was disappointed I would not get to watch them together. It was always a very erotic sight.

I took Kathy's hands in my own and said, "Yes, I want you both to have your girls' night and I will sleep in Pamela's room." Kathy smiled and I felt great about my decision. As she leaned forward and kissed me, we were knocked over on the couch as Pamela had come running over and threw her arms around me at full speed.

I spent the next twenty minutes on the floor next to the couch having two gorgeous women hugging me and kissing me and telling me how great I was and how much they loved me. I was feeling pretty good about myself when I finally stood up. I offered my hand to Kathy and pulled her up to her feet. Then I did the same for Pamela.

Kathy turned me to her and looked deeply into my eyes. "You are a singularly amazing man and I am so lucky to be your wife. I love you."

"I love you too, Kath." We kissed again and might have kept kissing but there was the sound of a throat clearing next to us.

When Kathy and I broke our kiss, Pamela reached and took hold of my chin, turning my face toward her. Pamela said, "I know that this is asking a lot of you but it makes my heart soar at how much you must love me too." Pamela also leaned in for a kiss. It was passionate but it was also shorter.

I said, "Good night, ladies. I will see you tomorrow." They stood and watched me go into Pamela's room and close the door. As soon as the door closed, I heard a shriek of joy go up from both of them as they ran into my bedroom without me.

Despite all the years of marriage to Kathy and all the years of Pamela being a part of our lives, I still had never completely shaken my feelings of inadequacy when it came to my relationship with Kathy. I had all the positive feelings about things before I went into Pamela's room, leaving my wife and our girlfriend alone in my bed. However, lying on my back in that dark room, all the doubt and fear came back.

In truth I should have known there was no reason for me to doubt their love for me. They had both shown in so many ways that went far beyond just the sex. Still, I only got to sleep when I was too exhausted from my brooding thoughts to stay awake.

When I finally woke up it was to that most sensational feelings of two sets of lips on my cock. Kathy and Pamela had their lips and tongues lovingly caressing every inch of my penis. I was already getting an erection and the feelings in my scrotum made we realize that I was already fast approaching an orgasm.

At first Pamela and Kathy were sharing my cock as it reached full staff. Eventually, Kathy deferred to Pamela and began to kiss up my body. As Pamela loving mouth engulf my rock-hard member, Kathy was kissing up my abdomen and chest. Kathy began kissing and licking my nipples. This had become an unexpected pleasure.

In my dreams, Pamela had always had very sensitive nipples and having them in my mouth was always a treat as much for me as it was for her. I had let Kathy know this when Pamela first started to join us in bed. Pamela began to return the favor as it were. First, Pamela did it for Kathy with good results. However, when she did it for me, it was both a mind and cock blowing experience. Since then, one or both women would find their way up to my nipples on most occasions we were all in bed together.

On this morning, between Kathy's mouth on my nipples and Pamela mouth on my dick I quickly reached the point of no return. I called out, "Ladies, I am about to cum. You're both making me feel incredible and I can't hold off any longer." Pamela made no effort to disengage from my cock so as I felt my orgasm begin to rise up through my shaft and erupt it was inside her mouth.

I thrust my hips forward and felt her lips in my pubic hair as three distinct paroxysms moved my shaft inside Pamela mouth which was filling with my cum. I lay down flat on the bed as I finally noticed Pamela pulling away from my crotch. Kathy also moved up and when I opened my eyes, her and Pamela were kissing. It was open mouthed and lewd as they swapped my cum back and forth. It was one of the most erotic things I had ever seen.

When a dollop escaped them and landed on my stomach, Kathy leaned back from Pamela and wiped the it up with her finger. Then Kathy held the digit in front of Pamela's mouth and she took the finger into her mouth, sucking off the cum.

Next, Pamela moved up and kissed me. While she had swallowed a lot of my jizz and some she had given to Kathy, there was still some left in her mouth. That never was a problem for me and I returned her kiss without hesitation. Not every guy is okay with that. All I can say is, "To each, his own." For me it was the perfect capstone to a perfect start of the day.

Considering how well it had started, I knew the day could not get any better. However, I was not prepared for how bad it got and how quickly.

After our kiss, Pamela lay next to me on my right side and Kathy lay down on my left. I reached out my hands and took one of each of theirs and asked what seemed like a simple and obvious question. "So, what did you two do last night."

Pamela sat up so she could see me as she began to describe the previous evening's girls' night activity. She was so excited and happy about it and she couldn't wait to share it.

"Well, Buddy, when we went shopping yesterday, we also went to an adult store. It was naughty and there were all kinds of stuff there. But we specifically went to get ourselves some real fine quality strap on harnesses and dildos that would go with them.

"We both got these nine-inch dildos. Kathy's is flesh colored and mine is a bright pink. And we used them on each other a bunch of times last night. And Oh! My! God! They were incredible. I never felt anything like it before. There were parts of me that had never been touched before and it was so incredible to feel myself getting that filled up and feeling the dildo going and reaching places where nothing had ever been. And Kathy was just so amazing the way she was pounding it into me. It was incredible and I just came and came and came."

She had been just so happy and excited to tell me all about it. She was giddy as she went through the story. After she finished, she looked at me and finally noticed my face. I tend to be very expressive with my look and she suddenly realized that I was not sharing in the excitement. In fact, she could very easily read the disquiet in my demeanor.

When Pamela finally stopped talking, I offered in a very snarky tone, "Well, it sounds like you had a once in a lifetime experience while I was in here last night."

Wrong-footed by my comment, Pamela said, "Well, yeah Buddy. We just wanted to have a little fun just the two of us this one time."

I did not let up as I replied, "Understandable. I mean, it's not like I could have filled you up or touched those places for you, could I?"

Her eyes already watering, Pamela said, "No Buddy it wasn't like that."

"Well, what was it like?" I pushed. That was the last straw.

Pamela looked at me as if she had been pierced by a sword. She got up quickly and ran toward the door saying, "I think I will go make us breakfast." Actually, she just wanted to get out of the room before she began crying uncontrollably.

Kathy and I watched Pamela run out of the room. Kathy called out to her but she did not stop. When I looked at Kathy, I could tell I was in trouble as she proceeded to chastise me.

"She just couldn't wait to come in here and tell you about it. She was so happy and she so wanted to share that happiness with you. All she could say as we went to sleep was how she would have wanted you with us last night and how as great as it was, it was just a little less great with you not there.

"I did not really want to tell you at all. I love you, Buddy. None of us is perfect. You are mostly a good guy, but there is some darkness about you and it most involves how you deal with this perceived lack of adequacy you still carry around even though you live with two incredible women. I cannot say I am even surprised at your reaction just now. I will say I am surprised by just how cruel you were.

"Second..."

Even though I knew Kathy was right, it is not easy to hear someone remind you of your faults. So, I snapped back, "There's a 'Second'?"

Kathy eyes were a blue flame and her voice was ice as she said, "There's a 'Fourth' but let's deal with the Second now."

That was actually a little scary and I shut my mouth and just listened to the rest of what Kathy had to say.

"Second, we've been over this issue before Buddy. You know this was an issue for us in the beginning. I eventually chose all the things you are over the things you aren't. Just remember, this is about one of things you aren't. Buddy, you are a wonderful, considerate and excellent lover. You find ways to keep two women who both have healthy sexual appetites satisfied. What you also need to understand is that there are things you cannot do no matter how much you would want to.

"Your lack of size was an issue for me before I committed to you. But I did commit to you. And I am so happy that I did. And I am still committed to you even though you were just a total shit to Pamela. What's really the worst thing about that is that it was Pamela who pushed me to see just how much you were in so many other things that I wanted that I should not let what you weren't in one thing prevent me from making that commitment. She was right. And so, your being mean to her on this specific issue is doubly worse."

I thought back to that time when I really did feel like I was losing Kathy while we were still dating. That was when Pamela went into Kathy's dream and helped convince Kathy to commit to me. And that was how she ended up in our reality. Despite all these years of telling me what a gift it was for her; I always felt that Pamela had gotten herself in trouble helping me. So, for me to repay her with the distain I showed was terrible. I really did feel inadequate at that moment. Not for how small my penis was but for how small and petty I had acted toward Pamela.

Kathy continued, "Third. I want you to know that I really enjoyed the feelings I had last night. I had those feelings before and I had always enjoyed them. I went out with guys that deep down I knew were jerks to be able to feel that and hoped maybe this guy or that guy wouldn't be the jerk they always ended up being. And I knew I would not get to have those feelings with you. But I decided that you were more important to me. All of the other feelings that I only ever had with you were worth so much more to me. So, I have never and still do not regret my choice. But I had forgotten how much I liked those feelings until last night.

"And Pamela never had those feelings. And she really liked having those feelings. And that was why she was so excited about getting in here and seeing you and telling you all about it. Because she was just so happy and wanted to share that happiness with the only man she loves. And she thinks so much of you that I did not want to tell her my fears about how I thought you were going to react because I did not want to damper her joy or have her think less of you.

"Buddy, we both love you so much. If this is something that you just cannot handle, I know I would be willing to never use the strapons again and I am sure Pamela would feel the same. But please know that we both really enjoyed ourselves last night and the only reason we would not do that again is because of our love for you and our willingness to put your happiness before our own. So what do you say?"

What can you actually say to a question when it is phrased that way? Partly to give myself a little more time to gather myself and partly to try to lighten the mood a little, my first response was, "I thought there was a 'Fourth'?"

Kathy actually smiled, briefly. That put me at ease. She may not have spent time in my head like Pamela had, but Kathy could always read me so well. She knew what I was going to say. But even though it made her smile she was still very upset with me so she responded curtly, "There is a 'Fourth' but I need to know what your answer is to this before we get to it."

I said, "Kathy, you're right. Despite all these years married to the most wonderful woman in the world. And despite the blessing of our having a girlfriend who is so loving and so amazing, I still have this fear that I am going to wake up one day and it will all be over. That I am not good enough to have such special women in my life. You and Pamela have both shown me again and again that you love me for who I am knowing what I am not.

"I so want you both to be happy and, in this instance, even if there was some downside for me, I should be willing to put that aside. But the reality is that there is no downside for me here. You and Pamela are not going to abandon me because you get to have certain physical pleasures that I cannot provide. So, there is no reason for me to seek to deny either of you this pleasurable experience. I am sorry for the way I acted and I am sorry that despite all you have done to prove to me that you love me, I showed doubt in that love."

The smile was back and it warmed me as it always does. Kathy said, "That's the man I married. The one man who loved me for me and cared about me and always wanted to make me happy. And with the exception of about five minutes ago, you always have Buddy." Kathy wrapped her arms around me and gave me a passionate kiss which I eagerly returned.

When the kiss ended, Kathy kept her forehead touching mine. I opened my eyes to see hers right in front of me. Those beautiful blue irises took my mind to such a wonderful place, I actually forgot about all that had just transpired.

Kathy stared into my eyes and said, "Okay, fourth. Buddy, Pamela was so excited to share all her joy with you because of how much she loves you and how much she wants you to be happy. And you were awful to her. You need to go apologize to her. But also, you need to make sure she knows that she did nothing wrong last night and that you want her to be able to continue to do that. She did experience things she had never experienced before and she enjoyed them as much as I did. Don't let her feel guilty about that. I have no doubt guilt was the source of her tears. You need to take away that guilt if you truly want her to be happy."

"I do want that."

"Then go talk to her. I'm hungry but I can wait for breakfast."

I headed out to the kitchen to speak with Pamela but I didn't get that far. I found her on the couch. She was curled up and sobbing when she looked up and saw me approaching.

"Buddy, I am so sorry. I..."

"Pamela no, please stop. What are you sorry for? Are you sorry that you love me? I guess how I just behaved I couldn't blame you for being sorry for that. Are you sorry that you cared for me and helped ease my sorrow and despair for all those years? I guess you might feel like I may have taken all that for granted. Are you sorry you broke the rules and went into Kathy's dream to save my relationship with her? I guess you could feel angry that you did that for me and have suffered being stuck with me only to have me treat you so unkindly like I just did. Are you sorry that you had experienced something that was so wonderful and filled you with such happiness and joy and that all you wanted to do was share that happiness and joy with me? I guess the way I just acted you might feel that I was just so harsh and cruel that you might be thinking you should be sorry you ever got stuck in my life.

"Pamela you are so incredible to me and I am such a selfish idiot. All you have ever done for as long as I have known you is to try to take care of me and make me happy. You've made me your first priority for so long and instead of being grateful, I was cruel and insensitive."

"You came into the room this morning because you had experienced something great and you wanted to share that with me. You wanted me to have some connection to that experience. That was such a tremendous gift and I let my own fears and pettiness ruin that. Fears that you have shown time and time again I have no business still having.

"You do not have to say you're sorry because you have done nothing wrong. Let me repeat that so you take it to heart. You have done nothing wrong. The only wrong was my childish reaction to a wonderful thing that you had every right to be happy and excited about. Something that I am sure you were looking forward to doing again and again. And I want you to do that again and again. And so does Kathy."

I said that last bit hoping to get her to laugh a little and it worked. She sat up fully and the tears stopped. I got up close to her and hugged her. When I pulled back from the hug, I wiped the tears away that were still on her cheek and looked right into her eyes.

"Pamela please forgive me. I am not as wonderful as you sometimes give me credit for being. I am human and I make mistakes. I have the unconditional love of two incredible women. Not many men get to have that with one woman. And instead of being grateful and appreciative of that fact, I was so mean to you even as you were once again showing your love for me. As a man, I was smaller than my penis this morning."

Again, I was going for some levity to break up the somber mood and luckily, it worked. She looked back into my eyes and thankfully I still saw her love brimming up in them.

Pamela said, "Buddy, I may not have been in this plane of existence as long as you but I not naïve. Don't forget I spent years in your brain. I know you have some darkness in there. But I also saw all the light. And I loved what I saw in the light. And I hated the darkness, not because it was dark but because of what had created it. All the pain and hurt and despair that you'd felt most of your life that festered in that dark place within you.

"I have always tried to nurture the light. Light always overcomes darkness. You could stand at one end of a pitch-black dark field and if someone all the way at the other end lit a tiny match, you would see the light. I hear what you are saying and I appreciate it. But you are wrong with your premise. I felt so bad not because I felt guilty about having done something wrong. Trust me, with how your wife was making me feel last night, there is no way something that incredible could be wrong." This time it was her trying for a little comic relief. It worked and I laughed.

"Buddy, I felt bad just now because I knew that your reaction was coming from that dark place. My tears were of grief for you that you were caught up in that dark place I know that no matter how long you get to be with Kathy and me, it will never be gone completely.

"I guess if I made any mistake, it was that I forgot just how quickly Kathy would get you back into the light. I have learned over these last few years that she is everything you always thought she was. And I have come to love her as much as I love you. But I have also learned that even Kathy is not perfect.

"Buddy, I know you are not perfect, but you are still the most amazing, wonderful, special man I have met. And that includes up until now. Yes, you were terribly cruel to me but of course I forgive you. Who better than me knows there is that part of you in your mind where that cruelty came from. But I also know that, while it is a part of you, it is a very small part. And the rest of you is so amazing, I can forgive the occasional episode where the darkness gets the upper hand.

"Buddy, I really want to have a night like that with Kathy again. And more than just one more. Not tonight because she wore me out." Again, she wanted a laugh and she got it. Then she continued, "But I want you there as well. I want you to join in sometimes and I want you to just watch sometimes and get all turned on and then give yourself to both of us. Because, in the end, it is you that I want to have not some piece of plastic. Kathy and I had a great time last night, but it was incomplete without you. That was why I wanted so much to come in and wake you up and tell you all about it. I felt like that would fill the gap in what was otherwise a perfect evening. Please tell me that you will be okay with sharing this with us?"

"If you promise to help keep me away from the darkness in my own head, I promise to happily share all the joy and pleasure with you and to enhance that joy and pleasure as much as I am able."

Pamela smiled and wrapped her arms around me. As we hugged, we heard, "Okay, I'm starving so I am going to make breakfast. Since Buddy had finally got his head on straight, Pammy, why don't you tell him all about last night like you wanted to and I will go cook."

Pamela went into a very detailed account of the evening from the moment her and Kathy went into the bedroom and closed the door. I was getting very aroused when Kathy called out, "Breakfast is ready." Pamela rushed into the kitchen and helped get the plates and the orange juice and silverware all out and we ate an excellent meal.

When it was over, I looked at Kathy and Pamela and said, "Pamela's story has me all keyed up. Maybe we should retire to the bedroom?"

Kathy looked at me sternly and said, "Pamela and I will go there now. You can meet us when you've finished cleaning up all the dishes and the table." Kathy got up and without looking back walked toward the bedroom. Pamela got up, took a few steps in that direction as well. She stopped and turned to me. Then we both heard from the bedroom, "Pamela, don't help him. Make him do it himself as penance for earlier." Pamela just shrugged her shoulders and turned and walked into the bedroom and closed the door. I cleaned up in record time.

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There was one night not too long after that incident that ended up having a profound effect on our sex lives. It was the three of us in Kathy and my bed. I was in heaven because I was sitting up against the headboard with my legs spread wide and Kathy in between them giving me some of the best oral sex I had ever had. And I looked down and Kathy looked up at me and her face was a mixture of love and fun with a hint of naughtiness. It was fantastic.

Then I looked down Kathy's body and saw Pamela with her face all up in Kathy's crotch. Pamela leaned out and gave me a wink. Then she got off the bed and went into one of Kathy's drawers in the dresser and came out with her strapon. I was watching intently as Pamela lined herself up and inserted the dildo deep into Kathy's pre-moistened hole. At first Pamela was going slowly, inserting the faux cock all the way and slowly drawing it out. This actually seemed to spur Kathy on to even greater efforts with her mouth and she also began to fondle my scrotum. It was otherworldly.

I noticed that Pamela was starting to pick up her pace and Kathy continued to send me into the stratosphere. I closed my eyes and just luxuriated in the sensations as I felt a strong orgasm approaching.

I did not see Pamela put her hips into the next higher gear but I felt Kathy being pushed into my crotch. I opened my eyes and I could now see just how fast Pamela was pounding into Kathy. Pamela was moving her hips aggressively and she was bringing the dildo almost all the way out before slamming it home again.

I felt my dick come out of Kathy's mouth. Her hand that had been playing with my balls went to the mattress and clutched the sheets with a death grip. Kathy's eyes were shut tight and Pamela reached forward and grabbed Kathy's hair and pulled her head back giving Pamela just a little more leverage to find even one more gear higher as she relentlessly fucked Kathy with the strapon.

Then it happened. Kathy's face took on a look of absolute sexual bliss. She moaned so deeply and so loudly as an incredibly intense orgasm started to roll through her body. Kathy was still clutching the sheets like if she let go, she would fall off the earth. Her eyes were shut as if the light of the sun was right in front of her and she would go blind if she opened them. Kathy's hair was being pulled back and her face was looking up toward the wall above my head. Pamela was thrusting that piece of plastic in and out of Kathy's slit at what seemed to be light speed when Kathy just exploded in the full flower of her orgasm. She screamed, "OH FUCK, PAMI! OH, FUUUUCK!

I do not think Kathy had ever been so sexually satisfied as she was at that moment. I know I had never seen her in this state. It was just so erotic and so sexy that even though I was not in any physical contact with Kathy at that moment, I felt my orgasm reach that point of no return. Unfortunately, I know Kathy does not like facials. To be honest, I do not see the attraction either. Having said that, I have no objection to them per se and it is not my place to tell anyone else what they should or should not enjoy. And Kathy is not adverse to having semen touch her skin. She just did not like globs of cum getting in her eyes. So, with her face right in front of me, I quickly used my hand to push my erection down in the short window between knowing my orgasm was inevitable and that first spurt of jizz coming out of my cock.

As luck would have it, the first shot hit her in the chest and flowed down her breast. Kathy said, "Oh Yeah, Buddy. You cumming on my tits is keeping this ride going." I did not have the heart to tell her that I had not aimed it purposefully. Besides, she was so happy, she didn't need to know.

That look of absolute bliss on Kathy's face was now burned in my memory. We did have to clean up and change the sheets after that. When Kathy had yelled out, Pamela had withdrawn the strapon dildo and there was an explosion of Kathy's girl cum as it blasted out of Kathy's vagina. The sheets and the mattress were soaked. Plus, I hit Kathy with a few shots of my own. And gravity eventually brought them down off Kathy's breasts and onto the mattress as well. After the lights were out, the three of us were under a new sheet. I closed my eyes but I still had the image of Kathy's face and my mind refused to let it go. I could tell both of my lovely ladies were asleep for quite some time before I finally fell asleep from shear exhaustion.

After my talks with Kathy and Pamela following that first girls' night, my mind did not go to a bad place when I thought about Kathy's face as Pamela was touching places inside of Kathy I could not reach. It was not inadequacy but genuine disappointment that I felt knowing I could not make Kathy feel that level of physical, sexual satisfaction.

A few weeks later, the three of us were working on a project together at work and Kathy got called to the seventh floor, which was where top management had their offices. It was nothing bad, but it meant she was going to be gone for a little while. I took the opportunity to speak to Pamela about that night and how I was feeling about it. How bad I felt that I could not please Kathy (or her for that matter) like they could please each other with their strapons.

Always looking to help, Pamela just smiled and said, "Well, it's simple. You just need to wear the strapon yourself."

At first, I laughed thinking she meant it as a joke. However, I looked into her eyes and could tell she was completely serious. "Is that even possible?"

"I don't see why not? If I can use one with Kathy, why wouldn't you be able to?"

"I still have a penis in the way. I know it's not that big but it is there. I know I could use my hand to push and pull the dildo out and maybe give her the same basic sensations. But to be honest I really do wish I could thrust myself into her and look at her face and see her make the face she made that night and bring her to the kind of orgasm you gave her that night."

Pamela looked thoughtful and said, "Well, let me think about it for a bit. Let's keep it our secret until I can figure something out. I do see your point that if your penis is above or below the dildo in the harness, it will hit her body as you put the dildo inside her and that will hurt you and probably won't feel good for her either." For any guy who has ever pulled all the way out of his lover and then tried to thrust back in and missed, you know that pain. And you know the discomfort just thinking about that pain caused me as Pamela said that. So, I dropped it at that point and did not think about it for several weeks.

One day Pamela came into my office. "Buddy, I need to borrow forty bucks."

"Why."

"I think I figured out what to do about your strapon issue but I need to buy a vibrator and I don't want Kathy to know." I gave her the money and then a few days later she was back in my office.

"Okay, Buddy. I have some good news and some bad news. The good news is I am pretty sure that my idea is going to be able to work. The bad news is I broke the vibrator in half. I want to try a few different ones so I need to buy a few more to get this done."

"How many is a few?" I asked her.

"I don't know. Five maybe."

"I can give you my credit card but she is going to see the charges when she looks at the bill when it is time to pay it in a few weeks."

"Don't worry. I'll have it all figured out by then and I am sure she'll be happy to pay that bill after you have totally rocked her world."

A few weeks after this, on a night when it was Kathy's turn to wash the dishes, Pamela had me come into her room. She wanted to show me her creation. Pamela had taken the switch- end off a vibrator and managed to get the guts out of it that did the vibrating. This left the vibrator hollow. Then she lined the inside with moleskin so my cock would not get rubbed raw by the plastic inside and I could put it over the top of my own erection and voila, I was and could finally use to fully satisfy Kathy. Pun intended.

Now I am sure many of you are saying that a better search would have found something already on the market that would have accomplished the same thing. However, Pamela wanted to do this on her own and she was so proud of herself. Plus, despite being a married couple with a hot, live-in girlfriend, we were all still neophytes when it came to toys and sexual accoutrements. Pamela hid it in one of her drawers that night.

The next time Kathy had to do the dishes after dinner, Pamela and I again snuck into her room. She said, "Drop your draws."

I was shocked and said, "Pami, I really wanted to use this with Kathy first."

She smiled and said, "I know. But we have to try it one and you need to be hard for us to see if it is going to fit on you before we even try it in the harness."

I did as she asked and I soon as my penis was out, she touched it with her silky fingers and had me at a full erection in seconds. They she handed me that modified vibrator and I put it on. The moleskin was perfect and it felt pleasurable around my now hard cock. However, I was far more intrigued by the length of what was now sticking out from my crotch. I should probably have been embarrassed for how amazing I suddenly felt because of the size of my cock (even if it was fake), but I wasn't.

Pamela could see it on my face. Having been in my mind, she knew what I was thinking. Pamela said, "First it is not real so don't get too carried away with yourself. And second, she loves you so much and she is not going to love you more just because you are wearing this."

I knew she was right, but part of me was still feeling very self-satisfied with this penis extension. However, Kathy called out to us and we had to quickly get it off and hide it. When Kathy came in and found us together, I am sure she figured something was up but she did not say anything.

Two nights later, Pamela came into our room at night with her strapon. I had hidden my gear in my sweatshirt drawer earlier so I could get it out at the proper time. Pamela was going on and on about wanting to use the strapon with Kathy while I watched. She said it would really turn me on and then I could come onto the bed and the two of them could take turns with me.

Then Pamela added, "Kathy I want to try something else, too."

"What?" Kathy inquired.

Pamela responded, "I want to blindfold you to heighten your other senses."

Kathy's face registered shock at first as she looked at Pamela. They she looked at me and her face changed to a knowing smile. She said, "Ooohh, Pami, that sounds kinky, okay let's do it."

Pamela had Kathy sit with her ass right on the edge of the bed. She handed Kathy a sleeping mask we had been given on an overnight train ride from Rome to Munich. Then she said, "Buddy, get her ready for me." That was my cue to go down on Kathy and get her all wet.

I loved making both Kathy and Pamela feel good with oral sex. I actually enjoyed doing it and I knew I could give them more pleasure with my large tongue than with my small penis. While I was distracting Kathy, Pamela went and got out my fake cock and harness. Then Pamela announced, "Okay, I think she's ready."

Pamela grabbed Kathy's ankles and lifted her legs up and then spread them wide. Next Pamela began to suckle on Kathy' toes. This was not an uncommon bit of foreplay for us but it was really to give me time to strap myself into the harness and get the modified vibrator in place. Once I was all set, Pamela leaned away from Kathy while still holding her legs and I maneuvered in between Kathy's legs. I got the head of my extension lined up with Kathy's entrance and I nudged my hips forward. The first few inches slid right into Kathy as she let out a little squeal. Kathy later told us that she had known something was up and she was expecting that it was going to be me who would be pushing inside her. So, when she felt the plastic, she was surprised but she never would have guessed what Pamela and I had concocted.

Kathy, now thinking that it was in fact Pamela's strapon ready to invade her said, "Okay, Pami, go ahead. Buddy has me all ready for you. Don't tease me."

I now pushed my hips more forward. With the extra length I had to adjust to how far I could go in and how far I could pull out and still stay inside Kathy. I was taking my time trying to develop a rhythm. It was also a bit strange because I was not having the feeling of Kathy's warm slick pussy around my cock. At least I was making Kathy feel good, which was enough for me at that moment.

Kathy had been responding somewhat to my actions. Her breathing had gotten raspy and she would occasionally say things like, "That feels good, Pami." Or "I love how deep you are Pami."

At some point Kathy clearly wanted more. "C'mon Pami, you're teasing me. Get moving." By now I was feeling more confident in my motions and so I began to pick up my pace. I will admit that there was a part of me that was really enjoying how deep inside Kathy's vagina I was reaching, even if it was not exactly me doing it.

In between her moans and grunts, Kathy was occasionally saying things as the modified vibrator was clearly giving her pleasure. That was when she said, "Pami your making me feel so good. This is just great. It's just... you're just... it's just... OH FUCK! Pound me. Fuck me. Ram it into me, NOW."

I had no idea where this had come from. Kathy suddenly seemed possessed. She began humping up into me as I was trying to thrust into her as quickly as I could. Her next shout was a big surprise for both myself and Pamela.

"Oh God, Buddy! This is amazing! Fuck me! Make me cum Buddy! Make me cum!" And with that Kathy ripped off the blindfold and stared at me with pure lust in her eyes.

Realizing that Kathy already knew it was me, Pamela said "You hold her, Buddy. Grab her ankles and spread her legs and fuck her hard like she wants." I reached up and took a hold of Kathy's feet. Pamela let go and moved out of the way. I had not wanted my thighs to hit Kathy because I thought it would be a giveaway that it was me. Since I was no longer trying to hide the fact that it was me, I had much more freedom of movement and I could go even deeper. I took full advantage and moved my hips back and forth as fast as I was capable of moving them. I was also plunging all the way into Kathy and my thighs where hitting hers as I pushed the fake cock into her as far as I could.

Almost in a whisper, Kathy said, "I'm so close Buddy. So close. Bring me there, lover. Bring me to that special place." As Kathy humped upwards, this time she just stayed up. Almost her entire back was off the bed and I still held her legs akimbo and her orgasm began to roll through her. A few times she went back down a bit and then thrust upwards and stayed there with me in her as deep as I could be.

Kathy's legs seemed to become lead and her back had dropped down onto the mattress. I carefully lowered her legs and she let her feet touch the floor. Her ass was still right at the edge of the bed with her feet now planted. I stepped back and eased out of her. As the modified vibrator came out of her, her eyes opened but I could not read her expression. As I stood up, Kathy shimmied backwards until her whole body was on the bed. I quickly lay on the bed next to her. I said, "How are you feeling Kath?"

At that moment the light came into her eyes and she smiled and said, "Absolutely wonderful Buddy. Absolutely wonderful." And she rose up off the bed until our lips met and she kissed me square on the lips.

Kathy then lay back on the bed and we stared into each other's eyes. I asked Kathy, "How did you know it was me?"

Kathy smiled and said, "I didn't know it was you. I just knew it wasn't Pamela and I took a guess."

All three of us chuckled and then Pamela, who had now joined us on the bed asked, "So how did you know it wasn't me?"

Kathy looked at Pamela and said, "The timing and rhythm were off. We've done this a few times and I know how you move. I knew something was up when the two of you were hiding in Pamela's room that other night but I have to admit, I never thought of this." Now Kathy looked back to me and asked, "Did you make this for me?"

"Actually, Pamela made this for you."

Pamela now piped in, "Actually Pamela made this for all of us Kath. Buddy told me that he had seen a look of total bliss on your face when I was using the strapon with you and he wanted to be able to do the same. I wanted him to be able to do that too. But I also wanted to have my own total bliss." First looking at Kathy, Pamela asked, "So it had to be you first because Buddy wanted this for you." Then turning to me she said, "But now that Kathy has been able to experience that bliss, I want to as well."

Pamela threw herself down on an open spot on the mattress, spread her legs wide and said, "Buddy, help me have my own bliss. Pretty please."

I had a big smile on my face as I looked at Kathy and said, "Well she did ask for my help and she asked so nicely. I really do need to help her."

Kathy had her own devilish grin she returned to me and said, "Helping others is such a Buddy thing to do. But if she made this, then I want to help her have her own bliss as a thank you. Let me get her ready for you."

It was smiles all around and I leaned back to give Kathy as much room as she needed. Kathy went down between Pamela's legs and used her tongue and fingers to get Pamela's love hole all wet and slippery. Then she leaned back and I got in between Pamela's legs and lined up the surrogate cock that Pamela had made for me right at her sodden entrance.

I pushed the fake phallus into Pamela slowly at first, just to be sure she was ready. However, Kathy had done an excellent job with her tongue and I slid right in. While I started to thrust in and out, Kathy lay down at Pamela's chest. She began sucking Pamela's one nipple and used her fingers to lightly stroke the other.

Pamela called out, "OH! You two are making me feel sooo good." I began to pick up my pace and really was trying to make this as enjoyable as I could for Pamela. There was no doubt that with the added depth, I was giving her more pleasure.

I do not know exactly how long it was but I was beginning to get tired from the effort. Then Pamela moaned as she said, "Buddy, I'm so close. You're gonna make me cum, Buddy. You and your cock are going to make me cum." This gave me a second wind and I began to move my hips as fast as I could. I looked down and saw that Kathy had moved and was now running her fingers back and forth across Pamela's clitoris and I banged away with all the energy I had.

Pamela screamed out and I could feel some of her cum hitting my thighs. I pulled out and a whole burst of her honey squirted out onto me and the bed.

I got hit with a few more squirts before Kathy finally lifted her hand and Pamela slumped to the bed. Her eyes remained closed and she did not move. Finally, Pamela asked, "Would it be okay if I stayed here tonight. I don't know if I can even make it back to my room."

Kathy said, "Okay, but I want to be able to cuddle with my husband so you'll have to move."

"That's fair, but I want to cuddle with him too. So, Buddy, I'll move over and you have to go into the middle. Oh, and Buddy, I forgot to mention that after you use that thing [she pointed at the appendage sticking out from the harness toward her], you have to go wash it in hot, soapy water. You can't let it sit overnight. It's not sanitary and we have to put that thing inside us."

I got out of the bed and took off the harness. I brought the whole rig into the bathroom and washed the modified vibrator and also used a cleaning wipe to clean off the parts of the harness that had been hit by Pamela's cum. As I turned off the light to come back to the bed, Kathy called out, "Buddy, if you're gonna be in the middle, you might want to bring a few towels."

I brought out the towels and Kathy helped me get them situated. It was a warm night but not too warm. We had the ceiling fan creating some circulation of air and we were fine without a sheet. I finally laid down flat on my back like I usually did when it was the three of us in the bed. I felt Pamela snuggling up to me as Kathy went to turn off the light. Then I felt Kathy lay her body up against mine as well. Even after the passage of years, having been in this situation countless times, I still took a moment to thank the Entity for this blessing.

Pamela's deep and steady breathing told me that she had quickly fallen asleep. I felt her warmth next to me on my right side. I hoped she was having wonderful dreams. I soon heard similar sounds from Kathy. She had moved and was also on her back next to me. However, before she nodded off, she had felt for my hand and taken it in hers. Even in her sleep we had this connection that meant the world to me.

Sleep was still eluding me and I was thinking back over so much. I was thinking about the long relationship I had with Pamela that had all been dreams. I had also dreamed of a relationship with Kathy that had somehow become real.

Now, here I was, just Buddy. And I was laying with two beautiful, smart, funny, wonderful women who could be with most anyone they wanted and yet they had chosen me. That seemed more like a dream than reality.

I started to question whether this was real or not. My being in this bed with these two women seemed so unlikely that it was hard to believe this was real. Yet, it had been going on for a number of years now. We had all worked together and with other people on projects that had made the company a lot of money. We had traveled to places I knew existed and seen sites I had always wanted to see. Could all of that be something that occurred in just one night?

All of this thinking had kept me up until I finally asked myself the key question. "Does it really matter if it is a dream or reality as long as I am experiencing it all?" "No" I said and fell right to sleep.