I am Literally so Fucking Stupid!

This is a true story. This happened back in the day and I was just reading someone else's story and that is what triggered my memory!

There I was being begged from a girl on her knees to let her suck my cock and I said no! What a fucking idiot I was.

First a little bit about me, at the time I had been single for many months, only in on and off again relationships. Nothing solid. I owned my own 3 bedroom house and lived alone.

There was a country bar in Maryland near the airport (if you know you know) that at the time had been open a couple years. I learned a few of the dances, but was far from confident about my ability. Regardless I really enjoyed going. Mostly to look at the beautiful young ladies. Praying to get one to come home with me. Unfortunately I always went home alone around 1 am. Thats when I would get naked in the yard (summer months) It was dark on a secluded street, there I would jack off thinking about all of the pussy that I saw that night.

There was one time that I was finally bold enough with a lady who was single and I had danced and known for months. Anyway that night I was pretty lit up on alcohol and I told her that I was only interested in going home with her for sex. Yeah I probably should not have driven home. She said that she wasn't there for that. I don't recall seeing her much after that. Great move dumb ass! She had a great body worth dancing with.

Anyway some times different friends would go with me or we would meet up. One night I was alone and ran into Tayna and her slightly larger friend Karen. I had a thing for Tanya and had known her for more than 15 years. She was married. I was sexually attracted to Tanya and not her friend. Karen was divorced and turns out looking for a good time too. They didn't dance country only hip hop. Anyway after me dancing on the floor as well as possible and them probably watching. Not to mention the drinks, we ended up agreeing that they should come to my bachelor pad. I do believe the whole thing was Tanya's idea. As we left in 2 different cars I had no idea what was about to happen because I was obviously dumb.

We entered the door and I made us drinks. Now I was always jealous of Tanya's ability to drink alcohol like it was air, be drunk as hell. Then she would eventually go to sleep and 5 hours later open her eyes and be perfectly normal. No fucking hangover. I had witnessed this too many times to count. It was absolutely amazing. She was the only person I had ever met that I watched intensely as she drank and had exhibited no hangover whatsoever.

Anyway we we're having a couple more in the living room. The girls were sitting on the couch and I was on the floor on the other side of the cheap as coffee table.

Tanya started talking about sex and blow jobs. I kept joking along. But somehow she ended up on the floor next to me with her hand on my leg. She was stroking my thigh. I felt uncomfortable because she was married and I hung out with her husband. I had to take a piss and used that as an excuse to escape. When I came back she was on her knees and she asked to let her give me a blow job.

"But you're married. I can't let that happen." Was my reply.

"You let Lynn fuck you! I just want to blow you."

"Lynn and I aren't having sex." I replied. It was clear that Lynn and I hung out. The group that we hung with included Tayna and they all must have thought that we were getting it on. Lynn was married too but her husband felt comfortable letting me take her to movies and the country bar. He stayed home with the kids and just wasn't into those things.

"Lynn and I aren't sexual." I said to them both.

"Bull shit! You're fucking her." Tanya practically yelled back. At the time I wasn't. Yeah, She was one who I definitely wanted. Oh and she is now my wife.

Karen was a witness to all of this keeping quiet. Tanya went to use the bathroom. Now mind you I had no interest in Karen. I truly wanted to fuck Tanya. Anyway in my alcoholic state I did something stupid. I got on the couch Kissed Karen and immediately slid my hand into her pants. I rubbed her pussy for only a couple seconds. When the toilet flushed. I separated from her. Tanya came out and started to beg me again.

"Please let me give you a blow job." She got on her knees in front of me. "You can cum all over my face if you want." She said.

This is where I am so fucking stupid! I wanted to do ANYTHING at that point. If she had only persisted a little longer my pants would have been off.

"Tanya you are married and I won't be the reason that you guys get separated. I just can't."

I am telling you right now that if it was just her and me and not Karen too. I would have let her suck me off. And then I would have attempted to fuck her. But I remember thinking that I did not want a witness. That shit always back fires.

Well they left for the night soon after. And I jerked off thinking about that situation.

The next day I woke to a knock on the door. I jumped up, Prayed that it was Tanya all alone. I would have stripped naked immediately. Unfortunately it was Karen. She had come to cum. We sat quietly for a while. I didn't try anything with her. She eventually left disappointed. She was definitely ready to fuck.

But I couldn't get hard for her. She just didn't do it for me. After that night I tried to make up for it by pressing Tanya to kiss me, when her husband was in the barn. I tried to convince her to let loose with me. Unfortunately she wasn't having any of it!

I was so stupid!